The Starry Sky, The Starry Sea

Chapter 12: Like the feeling of being alone (2)

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My heart ached spending money, but I am very happy with the finished house. Loose sockets, aging showers were replaced with new ones, broken cabinets in the kitchen were repaired, and the whole house is more comfortable to live in than it was before.

After two weeks of recuperation, the injury on my leg has almost healed, and I can walk as usual like a normal person. The wound on his hand has also healed, and the doctor said that he still can't work, but it doesn't matter if he touches water occasionally. Just wear a waterproof glove and a little care in the shower and you'll be fine.

I was finally out of the ranks of "disabled people" who couldn't take care of themselves. I was excited and directed Wu Julan to carefully decorate the two guest rooms, striving to be warm and comfortable.

After the room was furnished, I called Jiang Yisheng and asked him to take pictures of the room from various angles, such as the comfortable bed, brand new and clean bathroom, the conch, coral, and flowers in the yard collected by my grandfather. I edited the photos and matched them with suitable Text, posted on various travel forums.

I also printed out a lot of small advertisements, took Wu Julan and Jiang Yisheng to the pier to post them together, and when the trivial things were completed bit by bit, everything was normal for me to eat and wash my face except that my hands could not do heavy work.

On a sunny morning, Wang Tianlin, Jiang Yisheng, and Wu Julan worked together to put up the signboard of the inn that was made during the renovation. A dark brown plaque with white characters. When I saw the words "Conch Small Inn" hanging upright under the eaves of the courtyard gate, I lit the firecrackers with my own hands.

Amid the crackling sound of firecrackers, Wang Tianlin, Jiang Yisheng and the neighbors watching the fun congratulated loudly: "Good luck for the opening"

Although there were many twists and turns, my inn finally opened. I smiled and said "thank you", and subconsciously looked for the person who helped me walk this way.

Wu Julan stood a certain distance away, with a polite smile, watching quietly, out of tune with the lively atmosphere around. I ran to his side in a few steps, stood on tiptoe, deliberately pressed against his ear, and said loudly: "Thank you!"

Wu Julan stared at my overly bright and proud smiling face.

I tilted my head, a little deliberately provocative, I just teased you, what can you do with me

Wu Julan ignored my "little man's success", he stretched out his hand and carefully picked up the red firecracker crumbs on my hair one by one. The two stood very close, following his every move, the temperature between his fingers and the breath of his body seemed to have substance, seeping into my heart from my nose and skin. My heartbeat accelerated involuntarily, my smile froze on my face, and I no longer had the complacency I had just now.

Wu Julan looked at my silly face and asked with a smile, "Why are you in a daze and have nothing to do?"

His smile was completely different from the polite smile just now, and he made me feel dazed for a moment, before I answered calmly: "I, I'm thinking about something, yes, it's related to the operation of the inn." I emphasized again and again very seriously. After speaking, he immediately turned around and walked towards the neighbors, almost running away.

I thought angrily, knowing that he is a lion, why bother to deliberately provoke him? In the end, I was teased instead of being teased.

Although I am mentally prepared that guests will not come to live so soon, people always have unrealistic expectations. I have been standing by the phone, hoping that some guest will pick out my "Conch Inn" with discerning eyes.

Jiang Yisheng laughed at me: "Don't be obsessed with money. You have only opened for two days, how can you be so fast?"

The phone rang suddenly, and I was stunned for a moment in disbelief, and answered the phone in a hurry, "Hello, Conch Inn"

A few minutes later, I hung up the phone excitedly, and patted the record book on Jiang Yisheng's demonstration, "Our store is about to welcome its first customer, and we have booked for a month."

Jiang Yisheng snatched the notebook, "Miss Hu booked a room for one month." He raised his eyebrows, "What kind of shit luck are you?"

I scolded: "I don't want to go sightseeing, but I want to live on the island for a while. I have taken a fancy to our inn, which is very homely, with warm decoration and quiet environment."

Jiang Yisheng said with a smile: "No matter what, congratulations on your business success."

Together with Wu Julan, I cleaned all the rooms spotlessly, waiting to welcome the first guest of Conch Inn.

I told Ms. Hu that the last section of the road to the inn is a century-old street, which is very local, but it is not convenient for cars. However, we can go to the pier to pick up the guests, we will carry the luggage and so on, and the guests don't need to worry about it at all. But Ms. Hu refused, saying she could handle it herself.

In the evening, after a few knocks from "Tuk Tuk", the half-hidden courtyard door was gently pushed open. I cheered up, walked out quickly with a polite smile, just about to say "Welcome", when I saw Zhou Buwen walking into the courtyard with luggage.

I was surprised and asked, "Why are you here?"

Zhou Buwen said with a smile, "I'm staying at the hotel and I've already made a reservation."

"Miss Hu booked the room for you"

Zhou Buwen smiled: "She is my assistant."

The feeling in my heart is weird, but I can't let Zhou Buwen stand in the yard all the time, "Come in quickly"

Zhou Buwen observed my face and said, "You are upset because you think I cheated you?"

"No, I just thought that a guest really chose my inn. I didn't expect it to be you. I feel a little happy, but it's definitely not that you are not welcome."

"Aren't I a guest? An inn like yours relies on word of mouth to attract guests. I want to live comfortably. Send you a WeChat Moments, and maybe the next friend will come."

I laughed, "Okay, I will make your stay comfortable. But, don't you want to work? Why did you book for a month?"

"I'm a little tired. I want to take a vacation for myself. Traveling is also tiring. With you, I can take a good rest without thinking about anything."

I took a closer look at him and found that his face was really tired, and there was even a faint blue shadow under his eye sockets. It was obvious that he had not had a good rest for a long time, and I didn't know whether his pressure came from work or family. I didn't ask any more questions. , "Which room do you want to live in?"

Zhou Buwen looked at the two guest rooms and said with a sigh: "It has changed a lot. I remember that there was no bathroom on the second floor when I was a child. Do you still live in the previous room?"

"Well, it's still the same room."

Zhou Buwen pointed to the room at the end of the corridor, "Where is that room? I remember Grandpa used to live in that room, right?"

"Yes, but grandpa later moved to the first floor and added an extra bed in the back of the study, which serves as both a bedroom and a study."

Zhou Buwen pondered for a moment and asked, "Is the downstairs study room for guests?"

"The study room hasn't been redecorated. It's quite comfortable for me to live in. However, no matter how clean the old things are, they will look dirty. It's not suitable for guests to live in. I let Wu Julan live in it."

Zhou Buwen said in surprise, "I thought you wouldn't be willing to give up that room to anyone."

"I'm really reluctant to let outsiders live in that room, but the house is so big, it's definitely not suitable for guests to live in the study room, so I can only let Wu Julan live there, and reserve the three upstairs rooms as guest rooms. Wu Julan" I paused and said, "It's my cousin, not an outsider."

Zhou Buwen said: "I've never heard you mention your cousin before. I thought you were not close to your mother's relatives, but I didn't expect you to be quite close."

I said nothing, and I hadn't thought of it at all. After the renovation, when Wu Julan asked me where he should live, I let him live in the study without the slightest hesitation.

Zhou Buwen looked at the two guest rooms and said hesitantly: "These two rooms are well furnished, but a bit small, can I live in the big suite that Grandpa used to have?"

I smiled and said, "Of course, but the bathroom was only renovated in that room, and the floor and walls were not moved. It doesn't look as new as these two rooms."

I opened the door and showed Zhou Buwen around. Zhou Buwen said, "I like it very much. It's not new, but it feels like home."

"It's fine if you like it. Then you pack your luggage first and take a rest. After you rest, you can have dinner."

I helped Zhou Buwen close the door and walked downstairs slowly.

When I passed the door of the study, I subconsciously stopped, and Zhou Buwen's words "I didn't expect you to be quite close" sounded in my ears.

When I made the decision, I didn't hesitate at all. I just thought it was a rational arrangement for the inn business. But Zhou Buwen's words today reminded me that my behavior cannot be explained by saying "for the inn business". Probably in the eyes of people who know me well, I would never let outsiders live in this house. Even if I had to live in others, I would move in by myself and give up my own house. But I let Wu Julan live in it so easily and without hesitation at all. No wonder Jiang Yisheng looked at me with surprised and inquiring eyes when he knew that Wu Julan was living in the study.

I am a bit confused, since when did I feel that Wu Julan is not an "outsider"? I can deceive Zhou Buwen with "he is my cousin", but it is impossible to deceive myself.

"what's on your mind"

Jiang Yisheng's voice suddenly sounded faintly behind me, which startled me a lot. I slapped him on the shoulder angrily, "Scared to death"

Jiang Yisheng said: "I have ghosts in my heart, and I blamed me for scaring you"

I asked fiercely

:"How did you come"

"I'm curious about your first guest, so come and see. What kind of person is here?"

I said listlessly, "Zhou Buwen."

"Big head" Jiang Yisheng winked and smiled, "The room is reserved for a month, do you think the big head wants to chase you?"

I straightened my face, "What nonsense are you talking about?"

"Don't pretend to be the love letter that the big head gave you back then. I have read it, but you never mentioned it, so I just pretended not to know."

"Neuropathy depends on how old you are. Did you still wet the bed when you were young? Do you still wet the bed now?"

"The more you deny it, the more guilty you will be." Jiang Yisheng giggled and wanted to go upstairs.

I grabbed him, "Wait a minute, I have something to ask you."

"explain"

I hesitated for a moment, and asked in a low voice: "You have dated several girlfriends, and you should have a lot of experience in male-female relationships. Tell me, what is the difference between a good friend of the opposite sex and a male-female friend?"

Jiang Yisheng became interested, crossed his hands on his chest, and stared at me with burning eyes, "Girl, what exactly do you want to ask, can you explain it clearly?"

"I just want to ask you, how does it feel to like someone"

Jiang Yisheng said: "I think she is very interesting, I like to be with her, and I won't feel bored after staying with her all day."

"I think you are very interesting, and I like being with you. I have been with you for more than ten years, and I haven't felt bored." I looked at Jiang Yisheng and said blankly.

Jiang Yisheng stared at me speechlessly for a moment, and continued: "I care about her very much. When she is uncomfortable, she will feel uncomfortable; when she is happy, she will be happy for her; when she encounters difficulties, she will try her best to help her; if someone bullies her She will be very angry and want to help her get revenge."

"I care about you very much. When you are sad, I will not be happy; when you are happy, I will be happy for you; when you are in trouble, I will definitely try my best to help you; if someone bullies you, I will definitely help you." You call back, this has been verified." I stared at Jiang Yisheng and said, "Are you trying to imply that I like you?"

Jiang Yisheng couldn't laugh or cry, "You like me, and I like you too. But our like is different from the kind you asked."

"how different"

Jiang Yisheng frowned, and pulled me in front of him, and the two of them were almost close to each other, "When he holds your hand, your heart beats faster; when he hugs you, you feel short of breath; when he touches you , your whole body will tremble, one side wants to escape, but one side longs for it; when he kisses you, you will feel that it is the sweetest feeling in the world." Jiang Yisheng whispered in my ear while wrapping his arms around my waist , A hand gently caressed my arm.

He stared at me, I stared at him, from his eyes, I could see my calm and clear eyes.

Jiang Yisheng laughed, "The answer is clearly written in your eyes."

I gradually understood Jiang Yisheng's words, but I was frightened by the facts I understood, and stood dumbfounded.

Jiang Yisheng saw that something was wrong with me, and was about to ask carefully, when Zhou Buwen's surprised voice came from the direction of the stairs, "Xiaoluo"

Jiang Yisheng whispered: "I got into trouble" and hurriedly let me go, "Xiao Luo, please explain quickly."

"Explain, explain what?" I looked around blankly, and found that Zhou Buwen was standing at the top of the stairs, and Wu Julan was standing in the living room, both of them were silently looking at Jiang Yisheng and me, but one had a complex expression and deep eyes, and the other was expressionless. , eyes indifferent.

For a while, I was so upset that I lowered my head and said nothing in silence. Not only did I not prove Jiang Yisheng's innocence, but it made the atmosphere even more embarrassing.

Jiang Yisheng had no choice but to find the steps by himself, and said embarrassingly: "Cousin Wu, you, when did you come in?"

Wu Julan said calmly: "If you want to ask, did I see something that I shouldn't see, the answer is that I did. I'm sorry."

Jiang Yisheng hurriedly said: "No, don't be sorry, I can explain it. We were just kidding, Xiaoluo." He tugged me hard, wanting me to prove what he said.

But I turned around and walked outside, "I'm going out to buy something." I rushed out of the yard without looking back, leaving the three men in the house.

I sat on the reef and looked at the sea in the distance.

Under the sunset glow all over the sky, the waves are endlessly turbulent, but none of them can compare to my turbulent mood at the moment.

How could I like Wu Julan no, no, absolutely impossible

From the very beginning, Wu Julan never concealed anything. I knew his real face was poor, eccentric, mysterious, and he didn't even have an ID card.

I didn't inquire curiously, but just accepted all the facts, thinking that I believed that he was just a passer-by in my life, and he would leave sooner or later, so there was no need to ask more questions. Only now did I realize that I didn't dare to ask.

In fact, many details have already told me the answer.

However, the joy of getting along with him in daily life, the peace of mind when he was by his side, the panic when facing him, and the unwillingness to be ignored by him, were all intentionally or unintentionally ignored by me, because I didn't dare to face all the answers.

Until the last moment, I struggled trying to fool myself with "good friends".

I smiled wryly, I will be twenty-six soon, not a teenage girl, how can I like such a person, he is like a dandelion flying in the sky, no matter how beautiful it looks, it can’t hide the cruel fact: No roots, no home, nothing.

Young girls might fall in love with this prodigal handsome guy: mysterious, romantic, exciting. They have enough courage, enough youth, enough enthusiasm to squander, vigorously, only want to have once, not forever.

However, I am not like this. The divorce of my parents made me experience the feelings and marriages of three pairs of men and women at a young age: mother and father, mother and stepfather, father and stepmother. From one family to another, I don't have any illusions about "wandering" and "mystery" that young girls should have, and I can even say that I hate them. I yearn for stability, solidity, and reliability more than anyone else in the world.

Probably because I faced the unbearable relationship between men and women too early, I have never been a romantic person, I don't believe in a marriage that lasts forever, and I even made preparations early to be single in this life. Even if I really want to get married, my ideal marriage partner should be: clean, have no bad habits, have a certain financial foundation, don't need to have a good career, but don't need to be financially strapped, and don't need to be good-looking, as long as they don't affect the appearance of the city.

To put it bluntly, I am one of the countless realistic and rational girls in the world. I will not daydream unrealistically, hoping to meet a prince and save myself; nor will I be dizzy and desperate for love, lowering my quality of life to save a man.

How can a woman like me fall in love with a man like Wu Julan

"Snail"

Zhou Buwen's cry came, which interrupted my thoughts. I collected myself, hid all my thoughts, and turned my head to look at him with a smile.

"I just came to try my luck, I didn't expect you to be here." Zhou Buwen jumped onto the rock, and sat next to me as he did when he was a child.

I moved away subconsciously, "Fortunately, there is no good scenery here, tourists rarely come here, and it is still as quiet as when we were young."

Zhou Buwen looked at the gap between us and asked depressedly: "Do you like genius doctors?"

"If you're talking about liking among friends, of course I like him. If you're talking about liking between men and women, I don't like him. We were just joking around just now."

Zhou Buwen's expression relaxed, and he stared at me with a smile.

I looked at him and suddenly thought: He should be the love partner of my dreams!

Zhou Buwen suddenly said, "Xiao Luo, can I give you a hug as a gift to welcome me back?"

After being stunned for a moment, I opened my arms and hugged Zhou Buwen lightly. I was very happy and warm, but neither my heart beat faster nor I felt shy or nervous.

Zhou Buwen said, "Xiaoluo, I'm back."

A plain word, only we know how hard it is, I say: "Welcome back"

Zhou Buwen said in a low voice: "The same sea breeze, the same reef, and the same people, the time that was missing in my heart has finally been filled again."

I let go of Zhou Buwen, patted him on the shoulder boldly, and said with a smile: "Don't worry, Jiang Yisheng and I have always been here."

Zhou Buwen asked tentatively, "What are you thinking while sitting here alone?"

I said perfunctorily, "Think about something on your mind. Let's go, it's getting dark, it's time for dinner."

I stood up, glanced around, and inadvertently saw a familiar figure standing on the cliff in the distance, and looked carefully, but there were only lush Kangfengtong trees and sheep horn trees. I stared blankly at the cliff, Zhou Buwen followed my line of sight and asked strangely, "What's wrong?"

I smiled, "Nothing. Let's go"