I was full of fear, staggered, and was about to fall, but Zhou Buwen supported me, "There are only two boats to the outlying islands a day, even if Cousin Angkor wants to leave, he will have to wait until tomorrow morning at the earliest."
I shook my head and said painfully, "There are still fishing boats."
Jiang Yisheng hurried over and helped me sit on the bench waiting for the boat with Zhou Buwen, "It is even more impossible for the fishing boat to leave the island so late. I just asked the person on night shift, and he said that after nine o'clock in the evening, If no fishing boat left, Wu Julan must still be on the island."
I stood up abruptly, "I'll go find him."
Jiang Yisheng stopped me, "Where can you find him? No matter if he is a passenger ship or a fishing boat, he will leave from the pier. We will wait here and we will definitely see him."
Zhou Buwen said: "There's no need for the three of you to spend time together. Yi Sheng, take Xiao Luo home, and I'll wait here. Once I see Cousin Wu, I'll call you."
I refused to leave, Jiang Yisheng said: "In case Wu Julan is just depressed, why not go for a walk, maybe he has gone home now."
Zhou Buwen also persuaded: "I was too anxious just now, you go back and check his things, if the clothes and money are there, it means that you must be thinking about it."
I heard what they said made sense, and I couldn't wait to rush home.
Jiang Yisheng accompanied me back home, and as soon as I entered the door, I yelled: "Wu Julan Wu Julan"
No one answered.
Jiang Yisheng looked around and shook his head helplessly, "I haven't come back yet."
I rushed into the study, looked through Wu Julan's things, and found that all the clothes and pants I bought for him were there, as well as the 2,500 yuan salary I forced him to pay.
Seeing this, Jiang Yisheng breathed a sigh of relief, and said, "Don't be nervous, he must not have left."
I stared blankly at Wu Julan's things. Living alone in the world, food, clothing, housing, and transportation are all necessary. I think it is very simple, but when I really pack my things, I need several big boxes. But Wu Julan has only a few things, even half a drawer is not full, I feel very sad.
Jiang Yisheng advised me to go to sleep for a while, but I refused, so Jiang Yisheng could only sit with me in the living room and wait. He worked all day during the day, after all, he was exhausted, and he lay on the sofa, slowly getting lost.
I took a blanket and covered him, seeing that he was sleeping soundly, I turned off the headlights and went to the study.
I stood by the bogu stand, looked at the empty room, and was tormented by regret and pain in my heart.
The computer's power light kept blinking, and I moved the mouse, and the display screen lit up. I remember turning off the computer after I finished using it in the afternoon, and it seemed that no one used the computer at night.
With a move in my heart, I opened the webpage and checked the historical search records.
The latest search record is "scumbag".
I opened the webpage that Wu Julan had browsed.
Scumbag: An abbreviation for "scumbag-type man", it refers to a man who does not think about progress in his career, has no responsibility for his family, and abandons himself to life. Also used for men who are misbehaving, cheating and playing with women's feelings.
Wu Julan has never been on the Internet before, so he doesn't know the Internet word "scumbag". When he searched out this word and read its explanation carefully, what kind of mood did he feel
I looked at his other search records again, "treatment after hand injury" and "renovation wiring diagram" were not searched by me, naturally Wu Julan searched.
This is what I called the person who is not as good as a scumbag. I felt as if I had been slapped several times, feeling ashamed and hurting.
I stood up abruptly, grabbed a flashlight, and left the house.
I didn't know where to find Wu Julan, but I just felt that I had to find him, and I couldn't leave him alone outside.
I found the foot of the mountain from Matsu Mountain, walked along the coastline, one foot deep and one foot shallow on the reef, calling: "Wu Julan Wu Julan"
On this island, he has no relatives, no friends, and nowhere to go. If he is insulted, he is in a bad mood, and if he wants to find a quiet place, he can only stay in these secluded places.
My heart was twisted like a knife, and tears rolled in my eyes.
From the first day we met, I knew he was alone, with no relatives to turn to, no friends to turn to. But I treated him the way my stepfather treated me just because I wanted to kill my own feelings. I thought that paying him a salary of more than 2,000 was considered equal treatment, and I felt very kind to myself when I made it clear that I bullied someone who was helpless.
"Wu!" I slipped and fell heavily on the rock.
Although the moonlight is bright and there is a flashlight, the reef is wet and slippery, and if one does not step on it firmly, one will fall. I didn't care about the pain, so I picked up the flashlight and continued to search, calling: "Wu Julan Wu Julan"
I found it at dawn at two o'clock in the morning. I don't know how many times I fell and my voice became hoarse, but I still couldn't find Wu Julan.
The phone rang suddenly, and I thought it was Zhou Buwen, so I hurriedly answered the phone, "Did you see Wu Julan?"
"No."
"Is he home?"
"No. Where are you, me and Jiang Yisheng"
I didn't hear what Zhou Buwen said later.
The hand hangs down weakly, as if the soul has been sucked out of the whole person, staring blankly at the waves in the distance hitting the reef one after another, breaking into thousands of white waves.
The thought of "I can't find Wu Julan again" tightly strangled my throat like a rope of death, which made me almost unable to breathe. My chest was swollen and painful, as if I was about to die.
Suddenly, a familiar figure appeared in the blue sea and blue sky.
Wu Julan, dressed in white and black trousers, walked slowly towards me stepping on the rocks.
I looked at him stupidly as if in a dream, until he stopped in front of me.
I rubbed my eyes to make sure it wasn't a hallucination, and rushed over, completely forgetting that the road under my feet was not a smooth road, but a piece of uneven rocks.
When I stepped on the air and was about to fall hard, a pair of hands grabbed me firmly and carried me to the reef.
Like a climbing vine, I immediately grabbed his wrist and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
Without saying a word, he looked slowly from my hand to my arm. Last night, in a hurry, I forgot to change and ran out in short-sleeved pajamas. After countless falls on the reef, he now has colorful cuts on his arms.
I immediately withdrew my hand, "I accidentally fell, the reef is too slippery."
Wu Julan asked: "Why are you here?"
I blushed, "I came to you. Yes, I'm sorry"
"Sorry what"
"I know you heard what I said last night."
Wu Julan said lightly: "You think too much, I'm not angry, and I don't intend to leave without saying goodbye. I just have something to do and want to stay alone for a night."
I don't believe his words, but no matter what, he is still in front of me now, and I still have a chance to make up for the mistakes I made. This is already the greatest gift God has given me.
When Wu Julan and I got home, Zhou Buwen and Jiang Yisheng rushed over immediately, complaining that I ran out without saying hello.
I listened silently, and Wu Julan cherished words like gold.
Zhou Buwen said to Wu Julan: "Cousin Wu, no matter what conflicts you have with Xiaoluo, we are adults, we need to communicate well, how can we run away from home like a child? You know how anxious Xiaoluo was last night. "
I said, "It's none of Wu Julan's business, it's me."
Jiang Yisheng raised his hand and made a stop gesture, indicating that everything is over, "It's okay, don't say it, just come back safely, you didn't sleep last night, let's make up for it during the day." He took his coat and car keys and planned to leave.
I stopped him and said in a low voice, "Help me get a mobile phone for Wu Julan. The quality and signal are both good. Charge 1,000 yuan to the phone bill, and I'll give you the money back."
Jiang Yisheng understood that I was frightened, and he didn't want the incident of not being able to contact Wu Julan to happen again. He suppressed his voice and asked, "Will he want it? The poorer a man is, the stronger his self-esteem."
I said, "He has never had the self-awareness of being a poor man. In his eyes, there is no difference between a pair of old slippers and a new mobile phone. You will know later."
Jiang Yisheng raised his eyebrows in surprise, "Okay." As he walked out, he waved to Wu Julan and Zhou Buwen, "I'm off to work, and I'll come back in the evening."
Wu Julan walked straight into the study, and I followed behind him like a marionette. He turned around and asked lightly, "What else do you want to say?"
"I'm sorry" has already been said, and he also said "not angry, nor intending to leave without saying goodbye", it seems that there is really nothing to say.
I said embarrassingly: "No, you have a good rest."
I exit the study
, Help Wu Julan close the door. Turning around, I saw Zhou Buwen standing in the aisle, looking at me thoughtfully, I forced a smile and said, "You worked hard last night, let's sleep during the day."
I went back to the bedroom and briefly rinsed and changed into clean clothes. I was drying my hair when I heard a knock on the door.
I opened the door and it was Zhou Buwen.
He raised the disinfectant and cotton wool in his hand, "I see that you have injuries on your arms."
The disinfectant and cotton swabs he took were things I didn’t use up after my last injury. Even I didn’t know where Wu Julan kept them. I asked, “Where did I find this?”
Zhou Buwen said, "Ask Cousin Wu for it."
I came up with a very weird idea, if Zhou Buwen was not busy, maybe Wu Julan would have brought the potion up by himself. In a blink of an eye, he felt that he was being sentimental, and it would be magnanimous for him not to be angry with me.
Seeing me standing in a daze, Zhou Buwen patted the sofa, "Come here"
I sat next to him and said, "It's just a few scrapes, don't bother."
"It's better to disinfect it." He took the soaked cotton wool and wanted to wipe it for me.
I hurriedly said, "I'll do it myself."
I lowered my head to disinfect the wound on my arm, and Zhou Buwen looked at me intently.
I asked, "What are you looking at me for?"
"Xiaoluo, did you throw away the letter I wrote to you?"
I bent down, and while gently pressing the wound on my ankle with cotton wool, I said nonchalantly, "No."
Zhou Buwen asked: "When are you going to write back to me?"
I was so frightened that I froze all of a sudden. After a while, I straightened up and said as calmly as possible: "It's been so many years since I wrote and played for fun when I was young. Now you have a successful career and a wealthy family. You have a lot of money in a big city." With a house and a car, there must be many girls who like you.”
Zhou Buwen held my hand, and I immediately shut up.
"You're talking about everything that Zhou Buwen has, but I'm not only Zhou Buwen, I'm still Li Jing. Although I changed my name after my father, I know who I am. Xiao Luo, when we parted It's been too long, I originally wanted to give us some time and take our time, but I'm afraid that if we slow down, it will really be too late."
I was in a daze, and looked at Zhou Buwen stupidly. Although Jiang Yisheng kept making jokes about me and Zhou Buwen, but I never took it seriously, because I didn't feel any strange feelings between us at all.
Zhou Buwen held my hand with one hand, put the other on the back of the sofa, stared at me and said, "Xiao Luo, if I hadn't left, maybe we would have been together long ago."
I pulled out my hand and said as gently as possible: "But there is no possibility in life"
Zhou Buwen obviously didn't listen to my words, he bent down and wanted to kiss me.
I retreated immediately, and I was stuck on the back of the sofa, and there was nowhere to retreat. I had to press my hands hard against Zhou Buwen's chest, "Big head, don't do this"
Zhou Buwen lost control of his emotions and wanted to forcefully kiss me regardless.
"Big head, big head"
The two were entangled fiercely. Suddenly, there was a crisp "pop" sound from the yard, reminding us that we are not the only two of us in this room.
Zhou Buwen finally calmed down, he let go of me, lowered his head, and asked in frustration: "Why do you understand me, I understand you. I know exactly what you want, everything you want, I can give you now , a stable family, a stable life, and a stable future, I thought it would be natural and logical for us to be together."
"I'm sorry." I knew very well that in this world, there might not be anyone more suitable for me than Zhou Buwen. He knows everything about me, but still accepts and likes me. From childhood to adulthood, he can give everything I desire. However, I just can't accept that my heart has been occupied by another person.
Zhou Buwen asked: "Could it be that the feelings we grew up together are no match for the time we've been apart?"
"I'm sorry, but our relationship is another kind of relationship."
Zhou Buwen was silent for a while, pulled himself together, and said with a smile: "Don't say sorry. I haven't given up. You are not married yet, and I still have a chance."
Just as I was about to speak, Zhou Buwen stretched out his hand, motioning for me not to say anything. I could only swallow the words that had come to my lips.
Zhou Buwen said: "I'm going to sleep for a while, you have a good rest." He had already opened the door, and suddenly turned around, "I forgot to ask you something, is Wu Julan really your cousin?"
I shake my head.
Zhou Buwen showed an expression of "as expected", walked out of the bedroom with a smile, and closed the door gently.
I sat blankly for a while, and suddenly remembered something, jumped up, ran to the window, and looked down secretly.
Wu Julan was sweeping the floor with a broom and dustpan, and it turned out that the "pop" was the sound of a glass falling on the stone floor.
After cleaning the broken glass, he turned and entered the house.
Without even thinking about it, I immediately opened the door, ran downstairs, and rushed to the study.
The door of the study was closed, I raised my hand to knock on the door, but retracted again.
I didn't have the courage to go in, but I didn't want to leave. So, he just stood in front of the door foolishly.
I didn't know how long I stood there, the door was suddenly opened, and Wu Julan stood in front of me.
I was startled, and quickly said with a dry smile, "I was about to knock on the door, but you opened it unexpectedly. What a coincidence." of.
Wu Julan stared at me without saying a word.
I think I probably insulted his IQ again.
I put my hand down embarrassingly, and asked timidly, "Can I go in?"
Wu Julan stepped aside silently, and I walked into the room and sat on the chair in front of the computer desk.
Wu Julan closed the door, leaned against the wall, folded her arms across her chest, and looked at me from a distance, "What do you want to say? If it's an apology, you've said it many times. I'm not interested in repeating it. I don't angry."
I mustered up my courage and said, "You're not angry, but it's not that you don't care about what I say. Otherwise, you wouldn't be searching the Internet for meanings of scumbags."
Wu Julan was stunned for a moment. No matter how smart he is, after all, he has just been exposed to computers, and he doesn't know that he can query the historical records. However, he was not interested in asking me how I knew it, and simply explained: "I'm an old antique, I don't understand the meaning of a scumbag, so I checked."
"Remember the animal world we saw together? When the lion was full, the antelope was grazing not far away, and it didn't even have the interest to take a second look. And how did that glass fly into the yard?"
Wu Julan looked at me silently, her expression was so calm that there was no wave, which made me feel that I was thinking too much again.
I looked at him and my heart beat faster and faster.
Although the man in front of him had a cold temper and harsh words, he never shirked when faced with anything. Whether I was robbed or injured, or the inn was renovated, he could not care about it at all, but he didn't say a word. He worried about what should be worried about, and contributed to what should be done, so that I could heal my injuries easily and happily watch the inn run smoothly. Finished. I still think he's unreliable and insecure.
I suddenly realize that I'm very, very stupid
The material needs of life are nothing more than basic necessities of life, daily necessities, rice, oil and salt. These things, whether it's a house or a car, whether it's jewelry or clothes, can be bought with money anyway, even if you can't afford expensive ones, you can buy cheap ones. However, there can be no second Wu Julan in this world, and it is impossible for me to find a cheaper man to like. How can I value those things that can be bought in shopping malls and factories more than Wu Julan
Grandpa provided for me to study, raised me carefully, gave me a skill to support myself, and left me a house. Isn’t that just to give me the ability and confidence to pursue the life I like
Have I worked hard for many years and everything I have now is just to make me compromise with the so-called reality
If it's just a stable life, don't I have the ability to give myself
I had a house to live in, a brain to make money, and because I knew I could take care of myself, I never expected a man through marriage to improve my life. Since I have the courage to be single all my life, why don't I have the courage to chase after the person I like
Thinking that I would give up a unique person in the world for those factory-made things that can be bought everywhere, I suddenly felt chills in my body, and I was afraid again and again.
If you say that when I stood at the door of the study just now, I was still at a loss, not knowing what I really wanted. I like Wu Julan, but I feel that I can't see the future of the two of them; Zhou Buwen is willing to give me a stable and reliable future, but I feel that there is no way to go against my will.
But at this moment, like the epiphany of Buddhism, in an instant, my mind was clear, and I completely understood what I wanted.
I stood up and looked at Wu Julan firmly, "I like you, would you be my boyfriend?"