After Chen Zhan finished speaking, Shen Mucheng didn't answer him immediately, but just looked at him calmly, with sharp eyes, scrutiny and force.
Although Chen Zhan felt pressured by his compelling gaze, he didn't show it. He kept looking at him with a gentle smile, and he was sure that Shen Mucheng would agree.
Sure enough, the next moment Shen Mucheng said, "Let's listen."
With the deterrence on Shen Mucheng removed, Chen Zhan breathed a sigh of relief, sighed in his heart that he was worthy of being a superior, and said slowly: "I have also investigated you, but there are not enough channels, and there are not many things I can find. Can I know that your Shen family announced that you were sick and recuperating in bed twelve years ago."
"What do you want to say?" Shen Mucheng asked.
"There is one thing, but I am very curious. Although you can find out about Shaoheng, have you never thought that the information you found may be fake? Between your family and Shaoheng, you choose to believe in someone you A stranger who has no memory of him at all?" Chen Zhan asked.
Shen Mucheng didn't answer him right away, but gently rubbed the rim of the cup with his thumb, as if he was thinking about his words, and then slowly said after a while: "Even if it's fake, the truth will always come out." One day, I don't think you will use these things to lie to me, the price of lying to me is not light."
Shen Mucheng's voice was very soft, and he looked at Chen Zhan with a chilling and courageous gaze, and then seemed to think of something, the anger in his eyes dissipated all of a sudden, and he changed the subject and said: "And I believe in him."
He believed in Luo Shaoheng, even though he still couldn't remember anything about the two of them, subconsciously he chose to believe in him.
Do you choose to believe without reason even if you have no memory? What he said made Chen Zhan smile, and the defense in his heart let go, his expression was more sincere than the temptation just now, and he said with a smile: "In this case, I can rest assured that Shaoheng didn't trust the wrong person. What do you want to ask? "
"I want to know everything you know." Shen Mucheng said, as long as he wanted to know about Luo Shaoheng.
"That's too much." Chen Zhan said, he looked at the decoration of the teahouse and asked, "By the way, the owner of this store, I guess it's you, right?"
"That's right." Shen Mucheng nodded.
Chen Zhan withdrew his gaze, took a sip of tea, and said, "I have seen similar design drawings. In Shaoheng's album, he designed a small restaurant. When I came here just now, I paid a little attention to your design. The decoration is very similar to the one he designed."
Shen Mucheng recalled Luo Shaoheng's absent-minded reaction when he saw the restaurant when he came to eat last time. At that time, he thought that the other party was surprised by the classical decoration of the restaurant, but he didn't expect that it was because of this reason? But why didn't I hear him mention it
"Have you seen his design drawings?" Chen Zhan asked again seeing his silence.
"No." After finishing speaking, Shen Mucheng felt that something was wrong and added, "Maybe I saw it before, but I don't remember."
"Probably, he happened to be with you when he designed it." Chen Zhan said, "Can you tell me about the origin of the restaurant?"
"Can."
The restaurant is the same as the coconut milk jelly. It is just a vague concept in Shen Mucheng's mind. The coconut milk jelly is not bad. The steps of making it are not too troublesome. It took half a year to complete the design drawings.
"I didn't expect that you didn't remember the most important things, but you still have some impressions of these things." Chen Zhan laughed after listening.
Shen Mucheng frowned slightly when he heard this, and was a little displeased with his statement, but he didn't refute him even if it was the fact.
"Actually, I'm quite curious, but why did you remember the past when you woke up, but only forgot about the matter with Shaoheng? And why did your family hide that you didn't have a car accident twelve years ago but ten years ago?" Before?" Chen Zhan asked.
Shen Mucheng frowned slightly, and he also felt strange about this, since he could vaguely remember some things related to Luo Shaoheng, why didn't he have any impression of him
"There is a saying in medicine that people will subconsciously force themselves to forget too painful things after being injured, resulting in some memory confusion or disappearance, but I don't think you should belong to this category. After all, for the two of you, the real It is Shaoheng who suffers, not you." Chen Zhan looked at him, his gaze was a bit more aggressive than before, "Since he hasn't forgotten, how can you forget? Is he not important to you at all?"
"Of course it's important!" Shen Mucheng retorted without thinking.
How could it be unimportant? Even if he has no memory, Luo Shaoheng is someone who can touch his heart. Seeing what he has experienced in the past, he will feel distressed, hate himself for not taking good care of him, and wish he could bear what he has suffered for him. suffered.
Because Luo Shaoheng said that he had amnesia before, and he thought it was due to a head injury that he would lose his memory again. Now Chen Zhan's words made him feel that he had overlooked something.
But he couldn't grasp what it was, and when he thought about it, he felt a throbbing pain in his brain and heart, which prevented him from continuing to explore.
"I just said it casually, and there may not be such a situation." Chen Zhan saw that his face was a little strange, and the slightly stretched veins on his forehead seemed to be suffering some kind of pain, so he interrupted his meditation and changed the subject. "I met Shaoheng once years ago. On the way back, he suddenly chased the car and ran away. I was worried that something might happen, so I chased after him. When I got to the overpass, I found him standing there in a daze. I asked him what happened. Yes, he said he saw you."
overpass...
A possibility floated in Shen Mucheng's mind, and he asked, "Where is the overpass? City A?"
"City A, Linjiang Flyover...is it really you?" Chen Zhan was surprised.
Shen Mucheng understood that it was none other than Luo Shaoheng who was following behind them at that time, but he let Shen Yun throw him away. Thinking of Luo Shaoheng's desperate way of following them at that time, he couldn't imagine how uncomfortable it would be for Luo Shaoheng to find out that he had been tricked after chasing the overpass.
Shen Mucheng lowered his head slightly, the hand holding the teacup gradually tightened, the force was too great, which made the veins on the back of his hand bulge.
"Actually, I didn't believe it at the time, but thought he was sick again." Chen Zhan continued, "Do you know that he had hallucinations, hallucinations about you."
"Illusion?" Shen Mucheng suddenly looked up at him.
"You should have known it during the investigation, right? He had suicidal tendencies." Chen Zhan said in a deep voice, "I asked him later why he fell from the second floor. Is it true that he has no nostalgia for this world at all?" Is it? He said he saw you and heard you calling him, this is the first time he had hallucinations, and then the situation became more and more serious."
"Two days after the second hallucination, he was talking to himself alone in the room. I have known him for two years, and it was the first time I heard him talk so much, but to someone who didn't exist at all." Chen Zhan thought After a while, he said, "Actually, that scene is a bit scary, but you know what? He gave me the feeling that he was alive, not just a soulless shell like usual."
"Other people's first reaction to hallucinations is fear, but he is looking forward to it. He regards hallucinations as his courage to live, living in a non-existent illusion, but I dare not wake him up easily. , because I’m worried that once I wake him up, I won’t even have the strength to support him in the end.”
Chen Zhan stopped here. As a psychiatrist, he is very good at grasping other people's psychology. Although Shen Mucheng seemed to be calm at this time, from his subtle expression, he could feel that his words were very important to Shen Mucheng. The impact of the city, so he didn't continue talking, but gave him a buffer time.
Neither of them spoke again, and after a while, Shen Mucheng asked, "What else..."
"Shaoheng came to the nursing home when he was 21 years old. Unlike other people who were sent in by family or friends, he came in by himself." Chen Zhan paused at this point, with serious eyes, "That is not an ordinary nursing home. It's a kind of mental sanatorium, do you know what kind of place it is? Some people can't get out of it for the rest of their lives, and some people go in alive... but never come out alive."
Shen Mucheng's hand tightened suddenly, and the photo of Luo Shaoheng standing in front of the window of the ward flashed in front of his eyes. Chen Zhan's words made him wonder if Luo Shaoheng would... no! Will not!
This sudden thought made him panic. He quickly restrained his thoughts and stopped thinking about it. Just imagining it made him feel terrified.
"When I first met Shaoheng, he had lived there for half a year. At that time, he gave me the feeling that he was very small. He didn't look like someone in his early twenties. It was probably because he was too thin. His chin was sharp and his face It's very small, it feels like a small animal." Chen Zhan thought for a while, and made a metaphor, "A small animal that has lost protection and dependence, is very fragile, and his condition at that time was very bad."
The nursing home that Chen Zhan mentioned was run by his friend. He heard that he had returned from his studies and asked him to help. Chen Zhan had just returned to China and was not familiar with the domestic market, so he did not refuse.
When meeting Luo Shaoheng for the first time, his friend told him that Luo Shaoheng lived in by himself, locked himself in his room every day, refused anyone to visit, refused to participate in all communication activities in the hospital, and refused to talk to anyone.
Luo Shaoheng was the first patient Chen Zhan came into contact with after returning to China. It took him nearly three months to let Luo Shaoheng speak the first sentence to him, the word "Hello" hoarsely, in a calm voice, Just like himself, like a pool of stagnant water.
After that, Chen Zhan never gave up communicating with Luo Shaoheng. It took a year for Luo Shaoheng to let go of his guard slowly, and he also had a little daily communication with him.
Knowing from the information that Luo Shaoheng is a student of the Art Academy of University A, Chen Zhan prepared an easel and painting tools for him. When he saw these things, Luo Shaoheng's ashen eyes flashed a slight light, and he stood in front of the easel for a long time , said "thank you" to Chen Zhan in a low voice, with a faint choke.
Luo Shaoheng's condition is not good. In addition to insomnia, mental depression, anorexia and other symptoms, he even has hallucinations. What's more serious is that he looks better when he has hallucinations than when he is living in reality. It's not normal to be more like a living person.
And his illusion came from one person, that is Shen Mucheng.
The first time Chen Zhan knew about Shen Mucheng was two years after he met Luo Shaoheng. When Luo Shaoheng mentioned this name for the first time, tears fell from his eyes as soon as he finished speaking. They dripped onto the grass like broken beads, and disappeared into the grass. .
He couldn't describe Luo Shaoheng's expression at that time, his eyes were empty, without any emotion, and without a trace of anger, only unstoppable tears kept sliding down, and his whole body was enveloped in great sadness. He didn't cry aloud, but this kind of silent tears made people feel more depressing than crying bitterly. Chen Zhan was even afraid that he would cry out the moisture in his body, and then really die.
At that moment, he actually felt that maybe in Luo Shaoheng's heart at that time, death was also a kind of relief.
"For the safety of the patient, if the circumstances are serious, we will install a camera in the patient's room. Seeing it with our own eyes is more real than what I described." Chen Zhan took out a USB flash drive from his bag and handed it to Shen Mucheng. , "Take it back."
Shen Mucheng took the USB flash drive, put it in the palm of his hand, and said to him sincerely: "Thank you."
"You don't need to thank me, I just hope that Shaoheng can live a better life." Chen Zhan sighed, "Although he has been discharged from the hospital, his illness is not completely cured, he just suppressed it by himself, I hope you Can bring him good luck, don't let him repeat the ten years of losing you again."
"No." Shen Mucheng said, the simple two words showed his determination and commitment.
"That's good." Chen Zhan said with a smile, "By the way, I heard Shaoheng said that you had some agreement with him back then, and he ran around in the past few years just to fulfill the promise with you, although you may not remember it, But if you can, please finish the rest with him.”
"I see." Shen Mucheng put the USB flash drive into his pocket, "I have to go first, Shen Yun will entertain you."
"Please." Chen Zhan probably guessed what else he had to do, and made a gesture of please.
Shen Mucheng nodded towards him, got up and left the box.
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