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The man's hand tightly grasped my wrist, and when I began to struggle, he firmly grasped it. His lips and tongue did not let me go, and at first he pressed hard against my lips to vent his anger, but soon he became dissatisfied, and let go of my hand, instead pinching my waist.
After my divorce, I lost a lot of weight.
It's almost back to the girl's original slender waist state.
Zhuo Yang held my hand and I fell into his arms. He was a head taller than me. Before, when I wore high heels, I could only barely reach his shoulders. Now he hugged my waist and I almost lay on his chest to have the most intimate entanglement with him.
As our lips and tongues met, I suddenly remembered that we had never been this close before...
What is it that makes us become closer after divorce
I don't understand.
I really don't understand.
bite-
We were interrupted by the sound of the elevator door opening again.
I seemed to finally wake up from my confusion, and pushed Zhuo Yang away with a palm, a little angry, "Asshole! What are you doing?!"
When Zhuo Yang was pushed away, he did not let me go and held my arm tightly.
"Come with me."
"Brother Zhuo..." At the elevator door, Li Chen's face was icy cold, and his voice was extremely cold, "Where are you taking her?"
"What happens between us as husband and wife has anything to do with you?" Zhuo Yang hid me behind him and stepped out to meet Li Chen.
At this moment, I suddenly had a feeling.
It seems that Zhuo Yang and Li Chen don’t have as good a relationship as I thought.
"Husband and wife?" Li Chen smiled strangely, lifted the silver hair that fell on his forehead, and smiled slightly, "Brother Zhuo seems to have forgotten... She divorced you a long time ago..."
I felt Zhuoyang's grip on my hand tightened a lot, and it hurt a little.
Zhuo Yang, however, spoke first.
"So what?"
ha-
So what
I felt a little insulted. Was Zhuo Yang's arrogant statement meant to disrespect me? I think that was his general idea.
Is there any difference between divorce and not divorce? Anyway, An Yue is like a little dog following me. If I want her, I will take her. If I don’t want her, I will kick her away. When I want her again next time, I will wave my hand and she will follow me happily.
I was a little angry and struggled to escape from Zhuo Yang's hand, but he held me even tighter.
He even leaned over and bit my lip, throwing down a threat.
"My patience has reached its limit! An Yue!"
That day, I was distracted for a moment because of this sentence.
I think Li Chen feels the same as me.
Because he was standing at the door, he didn't stop Zhuo Yang from carrying me away.
When I woke up again, Zhuo Yang had already taken me home.
The home we had before we got married.
Mrs. Chen was surprised for a moment when she saw me.
"Miss An..."
"Call her Madam..." Zhuo Yang turned around indifferently and threw me onto the big bed in the master bedroom.
"What do you want to do?" When I bounced onto the soft bed, I looked up and found that Zhuo Yang had taken off his coat and started to untie his tie.
After all, we have been a couple living together for seven years. Especially in bed, I have an understanding that makes Zhuoyang and myself proud.
Suddenly, I understood Zhuoyang's thoughts and what he meant by patience.
He was burning with desire, and in other words, I couldn't escape tonight.
"You are being violent."
Zhuo Yang has thrown away his tie.
"I will sue you. I will sue you until you are ruined." My voice is shaking.
Zhuo Yang took off his shirt.
"Zhuo Yang... If you come over here again I will be angry..."
Zhuoyang had already taken off his last pair of pants.
I know I can't escape tonight, and according to my usual thinking, if I can't avoid it, I will just accept it with pleasure.
But-
Now that things have come to this, I realize that I was just talking.
At the last moment, I pretended to be indifferent and used the coldest words to hurt the man whom I once loved deeply.
"I'll just treat it as a dog bite. But before that... I have to make sure... that the dog doesn't have rabies?"
What I said was very vicious and Zhuo Yang was obviously very unhappy.
But he actually let go of my hand, pulled out a document from the drawer beside the bed and threw it in front of me.
"An Yue! Look carefully! This is my health report for the past month!"
After the divorce, Zhuoyang showed his affection to me more than once or twice.
At first I was reluctant to agree, but after the incident in the parking lot, I regretted it and never wanted Zhuo Yang to get close to me again.
When things were at their worst last time, I even maliciously said that Zhuo Yang had AIDS.
Unexpectedly, he actually went to the hospital to get a physical examination report for me.
But-
So what
You have only been healthy for the past month... Besides, healthy does not mean clean.
I snorted, but soon I couldn't be indifferent.
Zhuo Yang was like a wild beast, he stretched out his claws and pressed me under him.
Compared to his gentleness before, Zhuo Yang seemed very impatient this time. He barely took off my jeans before he started to act impulsively.
I haven't done it for a long time. When I pushed in like this, I felt like a thick steel pipe was suddenly inserted into my body.
I hissed.
Zhuo Yang did not stop, but pushed deeper into it even harder.
How can a tunnel that is not lubricated withstand the high-speed train? Even a clay man would get angry.
Besides, I’m not that anymore.
I am like a bird that falls into the lake, flapping its wings, just hoping for one last chance of survival.
Zhuo Yang easily grabbed my wings and tied them to the head of the bed.
He pushed me so hard that it was unbearable pain. I couldn't struggle, and even my screams seemed so pale.
I am a weak person after all.
Tears rolled down his face and his voice was as shrill as a little animal in desperate situation.
"Let me go... scum... beast... Let me go..."
Maybe my screams were too tragic, or maybe my tears had some effect.
Zhuo Yang paused for a moment, and his movements on top of me actually slowed down.
Finally, he took a sip of the tears on my face and slowly held them in his mouth.
"Why are you crying?"
Great, that’s a really good question.
I really wanted to laugh, but I couldn't do that, so I could only cry.
Zhuo Yang finally put away the weapon that deserved to be beaten, untied my hands, and carefully lay on me, with a puzzled look on his face, "Does it really hurt so much?"
I was free and slapped him without saying a word.
When a loud slap sounded in the quiet room, I found that my tears had stopped.
Zhuo Yang got angry the moment he realized what was happening, "What are you doing!"
The look in his eyes almost seemed to want to eat me alive.
But I was not afraid at all and faced his anger bravely.
"Do you feel angry? Do you feel insulted? Hehe..." I took the sheet to cover my half-naked body.
"I just gave you back one hundred thousandth... or one millionth of what you did to me... I just slapped you... Although it was intentional, it was far worse than you. Every time... every time you deliberately stabbed me in the heart..."
No matter how deep the love is, it cannot withstand seven years of indifference, nor can it withstand seven years of intentional harm.
"I am a human being... not a plaything... I was just wrong... I shouldn't have liked you... Even so, I have paid it back with seven years of my youth and the best years of my life... Zhuo Yang, don't you understand? I am not playing around, nor am I playing hard to get... I am really paying off my debt to you..."
It's hard to believe that I would give up on Zhuo Yang.
Sometimes, I also understand that having a crush on someone and giving to them is a very lucky and happy time.
Human life is too short. How many people can find someone for whom they would give everything for
I sometimes feel that I am very lucky.
But sometimes I feel like I'm the biggest fool in the world.
The man I fell in love with didn't love me.
He even insisted that I had killed his lover.
He married me...
Just to get revenge on me.
Revenge on me...
Let me never be happy in my life.
Zhuoyang is like a dry well.
I stayed with him, thinking I could wait until the day when he produced a gurgling spring of clear water.
However, day after day, year after year, what I waited for was my heart withering away.
so…
I decided to leave.
Leave completely before I die in this dry well.
Maybe even if I leave, I won't find another source of nourishment. But at least, I won't continue walking on this dead end.
I also want to—
Look at the sky outside the dry well.
I hugged my arms and curled myself up in the quilt.
"Zhuo Yang, I always know what I want... But you keep going back and forth like this, do you know what you are doing?" Is it just a simple tease? Or is it because you are unwilling to give up
I shook my head and felt my face was wet. I picked up the sheet, wiped my tears, and laughed softly again.
"You are always like this... You always think you are in control of everything... Have you ever thought about this? Not everyone is willing to wait for you... Not everyone is willing to want you..."
At least, I don't have that thought anymore.
"That day, you said you believed in Hu Ling... That was the day I felt I was the farthest away from you. We have been married for seven years... I know you have never loved me... nor believed in me... But... I have been deceiving myself... Tell me... I have at least warmed your heart over the years..."
It doesn’t matter if you can’t get it.
As long as you have been warmed by me, I will be satisfied.
I am so humble.
I used to love you so much.
I hope you will look back.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I hit you... I just want you to understand... I'm sorry for everything in the past... I'm sorry for everything and everyone... I just beg you... please let me go..."
I want to spread my wings and fly, too.
Just like you once were.
So high, so free.
That is—
I fell in love with your original intention.