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Having said that, if Zhuo Yang still insists on begging Ah Huan, he would be worse than an animal.
Fortunately, Zhuo Yang hasn't reached that point yet.
After I finished speaking, he slowly withdrew from my body, stared at me deeply for a while, and then quickly left the room.
I wrapped myself tightly in the bed sheet, and then I realized that I was feeling uncomfortable all over. I dragged my tired body to the bathroom to take a shower.
When I came out, I smelled a faint smell of cigarette smoke.
Zhuo Yang was standing on the balcony of the bedroom with his back to me. I couldn't see what he looked like at the moment. I only saw smoke rings rising in front of him.
The night was like water, and Zhuo Yang's tall body seemed to blend into the night.
I sighed behind him, but didn't go up to him and say, "It's cold in the night, don't torture yourself."
At this moment, everything about him has nothing to do with me.
I wanted to leave... leave this house that carried so much sadness and loneliness for me, but before I even reached the door, Zhuo Yang said something lightly.
"Don't move if you don't want me to do it again."
He wouldn't let me go, but the lust in his eyes had completely faded, so I thought I was safe tonight.
But I didn’t sleep well that night.
All night long, I have many, many nightmares that always haunt me.
There was the young An Ran, holding my hand, shyly telling me, pointing at the boy under the apricot blossoms and spring rain, and laughing, she said, this is her boy.
The boy raised his head with an indifferent look, but my heart skipped a beat and I felt that he was inexplicably gentle.
He is so beautiful.
Like a god, standing so far away from me.
I also dreamed of my mother. She was standing in a rapeseed field far away. The spring breeze blew her black hair.
I smiled and ran towards her.
But crashed into a bloody wall.
No matter how hard I struggled, I couldn't get through. I could only watch my mother fall in a pool of blood, letting the bright red color drown her.
I also dreamed that—
I am in the water.
You must not know that before that incident happened, I was a top player on the school swimming team, and my teacher once told me that I was an extremely talented child.
However, I failed to save An Ran, and no one believed that I really didn't mean it.
The dead will be remembered forever, but I, the living, will be blamed forever.
From then on, I was afraid of water.
Afraid of anything related to water.
call-
I was half asleep, and I felt myself being embraced by an embrace with a faint scent of tobacco. Just like those years, when we were the most lonely, we always kept each other warm.
I just wonder if my body is warm, but what about my heart
I guess it's getting farther and farther away.
"Zhuo Yang?"
I called out in a daze, but felt the other person hugging me tighter. At the same time, I felt a warmth on my forehead, and someone whispered something in my ear.
But…
Too deep... The nightmare is too deep...
I can't remember it at all.
When I woke up the next day, Zhuo Yang had already left.
Apart from the cigarette butts all over the balcony, I couldn't find any trace of his existence.
When I left, a rare warm sun rose in this city on a winter day. I squinted at the sunlight. At that moment, something was finally slowly leaving my life.
But there is no regret.
I knew... that was the life I had always wanted.
I waved to the house where I had lived for seven years and said, "Goodbye!"
I just thought it was goodbye. But after that day, I found that Zhuo Yang and I had more interactions.
As the year draws to a close, Ding Wei told me that once the case is over, I can hold a celebration party this year.
Of course I am happy.
But I didn’t expect that from that day on, Zhuo Yang would come down to supervise the production of those small commercials.
Not only did he come here, Li Chen also came here often.
But speaking of Li Chen, I feel a little sorry for him.
His 30th birthday...
I gave him a chocolate cake.
Then he had an allergy and his head swelled up like a pig's head.
Looking back on the scene now, there were so many strange looks, it turns out it was because they all knew that Li Chen was allergic to chocolate.
I swear I didn't mean it.
But when I saw Li Chen's horrible face, I couldn't help but laugh.
Li Chen touched his nose, a little embarrassed, "Isn't it funny... I thought I would feel better after the injection..."
In fact, it was much better, but there were still some red spots on my face that had not faded.
Poor Li Chen, whose face is comparable to that of an idol artist, is covered with red pimples.
I laughed out loud, but remembering Li Chen's vengeful nature, my laughter softened.
"Sorry, sorry... I really didn't mean to..."
Strangely, Li Chen didn't yell angrily, but sat down next to me.
He asked me a serious question.
"Have you ever regretted falling in love with Zhuo Yang?"
I once asked myself, have I ever regretted falling in love with a man I shouldn’t love
However, youth is like a long river, carrying our joys, sorrows, anger, and happiness, the laughter of growth, the tears of loss, and the regrets of not getting... Many, many flavors are slowly flowing in this river...
Do I regret it
I shook my head.
"No."
In fact, he doesn’t know that it is a very happy thing that I can love and that I have loved.
This feeling of happiness supports me to get through the most difficult and tiring times with a smile.
Because he deserves it.
"You look like you're about to cry." I felt a warmth on my forehead, and Li Chen put his hand on my forehead and rested my head on his shoulder.
"You know what? An Yue... I'm starting to like you..."
Li Chen's voice was like a whisper, gentle and lingering. That magnetic and gentle voice seemed to evoke the deepest and most painful love in my heart. I didn't resist and leaned on his shoulder.
"When you fall in love with someone... you will also have this feeling... a mixture of sweet, sour, bitter, spicy... "
This is life.
"It sounds bitter and hard to endure."
"Sometimes there will be a little bit... But when you think of the little bit of sweetness behind the pain, the pain will be infinitely reduced... And the sweetness will be infinitely expanded..."
Because that's love.
That day, when Li Chen was leaving, he hesitated for a second before calling me.
"An Yue...are we friends now?"
In fact, to be honest, there was a moment when I hesitated. After all, Li Chen's mind is hard to discern, and it can even be said that he is insidious and scheming.
I have never had a good impression of such a person, so how could I become friends with him so easily
But…
At that moment, Li Chen did not have that extraordinary appearance. He had a face full of acne and smiled at me.
That was the day when he looked the best I had ever seen him, with a sweet and sunny smile.
To the point that I forgot that he was not a good person.
"Yes... We are friends."
If he really considers me a friend.
I think we will become very good friends.
if…
If there is such a day.
After getting my response, Li Chen left with a smile.
I also turned around with a smile, but the one I saw was Zhuo Yang with a sullen look on his face.
"Why are you here?"
Zhuo Yang leaned in the narrow aisle, blocking my way with his long legs.
I glared at him, but he suddenly laughed.
"What's wrong? Haven't you suffered enough? You actually want to be friends with Li Chen?"
"It's a good thing to have one more friend. There's nothing wrong with it." I said lightly while trying to step over Zhuo Yang and leave.
Zhuo Yang grabbed my arm at the right time and said in a cold voice, "Have you forgotten... how he approached you... and bullied you last time?"
Thanks to Zhuo Yang, my good impression of Li Chen disappeared at this moment.
but…
Fortunately, Li Chen is not a very important person, and I don’t have the energy to worry about his affairs and waste my energy.
But, when has Zhuoyang been so kind to me... He always seems to be trying to save me from danger.
"I thought I made that clear last night."
Sure enough, after he finished speaking, Zhuo Yang let go of my hand, and at the same time retracted his legs and let me leave.
"You are so self-righteous... This is my company... Is this the commercial I want?"
"Really?" I smiled faintly. It turned out that CEOs and others were just looking for trouble when they had nothing better to do.
"If it's okay... I'll go back to work..."
Even though Zhuo Yang is bored to death every day, he still makes a lot of money, which is completely different from a poor commoner like me.
If I stop working, I will lose everything.
Because the company's big boss came to inspect, all departments seemed to be energized.
Every department is in chaos, as if everyone wants to present their best side to their superiors.
I think I am the laziest one among them, but the diligence and hard work of the actors also increased my workload a lot.
I ran around with the clothes in my arms all afternoon.
At the end, I felt like my legs were almost broken.
Fortunately—
I finally made it to the end of the workday.
The actors and director had all left, leaving only a few assistants cleaning the place.
My task was relatively easy. I just had to tidy up the actors' clothes for today, clean up the dirty and messy ones, and then I could go home.
However, when I was in the locker room, I realized that this was not an easy job.
I searched the room for a long time but only found the top. I couldn't find the matching pants.
There was no other way, I could only dive into the row of hanging clothes and search frantically.
until-
Behind the row of clothes, I saw Zhuo Yang with a faint smile on his face.
What's so funny, I muttered to myself.
"Why don't you leave?"
I was in a bad mood and my tone was not polite.
Zhuo Yang was still smiling and seemed to tap my head.
"You look so funny like this."
Yes, yes... I was busy and sweating just to please the old man in front of me.
I rolled my eyes in annoyance and was about to retort rudely.
At this moment, Zhuo Yang suddenly leaned over and kissed my lips among a pile of messy clothes.