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Even though spring is here and flowers are blooming, my mood is gloomy.
The reason was simple. Zhuo Yang fell down the stairs that day and originally only had one hand broken, but that time he decisively broke his leg.
I:…
Because of this incident, my original plan was interrupted.
I have always refused to admit that Zhuoyang's leg injury had anything to do with me. Zhuoyang himself also said that it was just his carelessness and had nothing to do with me. But it would have been better if he didn't say it. Once he said it, it always felt like the more he explained, the worse it got.
Li Si went even further and wanted to sue me for intentional injury.
Of course she was just saying that angrily, because their boss had been looking at me with a smile since he broke his leg, saying it was no big deal and that everything was my own will…
This situation made Li Si speechless and he could only sigh every time he came.
I sighed too.
Zhuo Yang still thought that we could go back to the past in this way.
Having made up my mind, I called Mrs. Chen.
"I'm too busy at work, Mrs. Chen, you know that... I'm sorry to trouble you with Zhuo Yang..."
I guess Ding Wei also played a role in this. Mrs. Chen agreed to help me look after Zhuo Yang...
then…
I completely dumped Zhuo Yang on Mrs. Chen.
I thought everything was fine, but He Zhuoyang was a man who couldn't explain anything clearly, so it was better not to see him at all.
But Zhuo Yang is not a fool, his patience is limited.
Three days later, Mrs. Chen called me and said, "Ms. An... Mr. wants to fire me..."
"Ah..." I was surprised. Mrs. Chen is an old servant who has taken care of us for many years. Is Zhuo Yang so heartless
I ran to the hospital angrily and found that Mrs. Chen looked a little depressed, and Zhuo Yang was even more depressed.
"You're here? Didn't you abandon me?" When Zhuo Yang saw me, he started with a bloody accusation.
"Ahem..." I coughed twice after my thoughts were exposed, and turned my head, "Sorry... You saw through me..."
"You..." Zhuo Yang seemed to have internal injuries, and his face became very ugly.
I'm used to it, but Mrs. Chen couldn't stand it and came over to smooth things over, "Miss An is here too... Sir, you should just stay in the hospital..."
It turned out that since I hadn't come for the past few days, Zhuo Yang wanted to look for me, but Mrs. Chen stopped him, so he got angry and wanted to fire me.
Men...the older they get, the more childish they become.
I sighed and helplessly looked at the man on the bed whose expression had turned from gloomy to cheerful since I came, "How old are you... Aren't you tired of playing this?"
"Not tired." Zhuo Yang quickly returned to his usual expression, staring at me and said slowly, "No matter what I do, whether it's excessive or not, you just accept it, don't you?"
"You..." I have to say that this feeling of being completely understood and controlled is really fucking uncomfortable.
I can-
Can I really stab this man lying in front of me twice
I'm trying to catch my breath and regain my composure.
Before I could even start to retort, the man continued to speak with infinite melancholy, "I suddenly feel very sad... You care about Mrs. Chen, Ding Wei, Song Yu... You care about everyone... But you don't care about me... This feeling... is really strange... So strange and uncomfortable..."
Zhuoyang seemed to be talking to himself, and I didn't know how to talk to him.
Doesn't he know the principle of parting ways in peace
Or should I really wait until I lose my temper and stab him twice
"Does your leg still hurt?"
"It hurts..." Zhuo Yang nodded with infinite grievance.
"Then I'll call a doctor for you." I stood up to leave, but Zhuo Yang held my hand, "No need... I know you'll leave after you call a doctor... It doesn't matter... You said... No matter how painful it is, it won't be as painful as you... Maybe... Only at this moment, I understand how desperate you were... How painful it was..."
Only by empathizing with the other person can you understand the sadness, despair, love, hatred and emotions that they once felt.
Maybe it was because he had been busy for too long these days, Zhuo Yang fell asleep not long after I sat down on the bed.
The doctor told me that his leg progress was very slow, probably partly due to psychological reasons.
Although I think it’s pointless for us to get entangled like this now, but there is no way you can do anything to Zhuo Yang, a man who doesn’t eat anything.
The only way, I think, is to compete with him in endurance.
Let’s see who can’t hold on first.
only-
When I think about this battle of love, I feel tired just thinking about it.
Zhuo Yang didn't sleep well. Although he was asleep, his brows were furrowed.
I raised my hand, trying to smooth his frown as usual, but my hand didn't reach down to his head for a long time.
At this point, we are no longer suitable.
Seeing that he fell asleep, I prepared to leave.
However, as soon as he moved his body, Zhuo Yang suddenly woke up.
"Are you leaving again?"
I was startled and stammered, "Aren't you asleep?"
Zhuo Yang shook his head, probably because he had just woken up, his voice was a little hoarse, "I fell asleep, but it was a very light sleep... I... had a dream... I dreamed of the apricot tree in your old home... The apricots were sour... I don't know why, but you ate a lot of it, and in the end your teeth became soft and you couldn't even eat porridge. Aunt An didn't leave any food for you, and your stomach growled with hunger, so you got up in the middle of the night and stole An Ran's birthday cake to eat..."
Not a dream.
Just real events that happened in the past.
After Zhuo Yang said that, I also thought of that stupid thing. I stole the birthday cake that An Ran prepared for herself the next day. She is a clever girl, and even the birthday cake she made was very beautiful, and of course it tasted good...
I secretly ate Anran's birthday cake and felt great. The next day, when I saw Anran's angry face, I suddenly felt happy.
only…
My happiness didn't last long, Anran got angry.
I ate too much and got gastroenteritis, so I stayed in the hospital for a week.
It's really hard to recall the past. I feel a little embarrassed. "You still remember these..."
Zhuo Yang nodded with a gentle look, "At that time... you didn't know that you were secretly eating cake that night... I was upstairs... you looked like a mouse, it was really funny..."
"You..." This man... is really too much!
"Then why didn't you tell An Ran?" I remember that Zhuo Yang showed the same shock as An Ran the next day. Now that I think about it, this man's acting skills are too good.
Too…
We were all impressed by his acting skills and always thought he was gentle and kind.
Recalling the past seems to give me countless courage.
"Zhuoyang, I called a doctor for you. Take good care of your leg injury." I put his hand under the quilt, "Some things I will only say once, just like your method will only work on me once... Do you understand what I mean?"
Zhuo Yang's expression remained unchanged, and he was actually still smiling, "Are you going to leave me?"
I was stunned, then nodded.
"Be good... Stop being willful... You know what? You haven't been like yourself at all during this period... Actually... You acted very well... You portrayed a gentle and coquettish good man to the core... But for me, whether you act or not... our ending is already determined..."
Zhuo Yang didn't answer, but slowly lowered his eyes, as if considering what I said.
I saw some hope and immediately followed up with a few sentences.
"The doctor said that when you fell this time, your eyes almost got pierced by the broken glass and you almost went blind... Are you on the brink of death and darkness... Haven't you figured it out yet?"
Love and hate have become empty. In this world, not every persistent waiting will be responded to.
In essence, I am very similar to Zhuo Yang.
We are all persistent people who have clear likes and dislikes.
I can love him for seven years, and then turn around and leave, never looking back.
Zhuo Yang remained silent.
But no one said anything against it.
No objection
—Then I'll take it as his consent.
Thank God, Zhuo Yang's problem was finally resolved.
I breathed a sigh of relief and prepared to close the door on him, isolate him from his sight, and isolate myself from his life forever.
However, the door slowly closed and Zhuo Yang slowly raised his head.
"An Yue..." He waved at me, holding a familiar-looking book in his hand.
"What's wrong?"
Zhuo Yang shook the travel magazine and it rustled. "Haven't you always wanted to go to City A? It's a paradise with flowers blooming and the sea facing you..."
Zhuo Yang said it very well, and there was no shadow of the past between his brows, which moved me.
"So what?"
Zhuo Yang handed me the book, staring at me intently, and after a while he slowly said, "You know me... I'm not someone who gives up easily, especially when it comes to things I've decided... An Yue, are you so sure that I will be good, will listen to you... and will let you go?"
Nonsense! Of course I don't believe it!
I don't just disbelieve it! In fact, I am even more afraid! When it comes to patience with Zhuo Yang, I will always be the loser!
Seeing Zhuo Yang's expression change, I took a step back alertly, "What do you want to do?"
"nothing… "
Zhuo Yang's eyes fell on the open travel magazine and he was silent for a long time, as if he was making the final decision.
"You...you stay with me until my leg injury heals...and then I will do as you wish...and let you go."
It seemed as if a ray of light suddenly appeared in the dark sky.
My eyes lit up and my voice rose several tones.
"Are you serious?"
Zhuo Yang nodded expressionlessly, "It's in the city A you want to go to... There is a villa there... Let's go there together..."
I was still immersed in the ocean of joy. Did Zhuo Yang really decide to let go? Happiness came so quickly, so quickly that I couldn't accept it...
But-
Soon, the joy faded away, and a sense of melancholy arose in my heart.
finally-
Is this the end
So much entanglement... and love.
Heart-
Inexplicably empty.
but-
I think I can accept that.
Travel light so that you can go further and longer in life.