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I am a timid person and I hate trouble the most.
But I didn't expect that now there are two big troubles coming to me.
After returning home, I was still troubled by Song Yu's last kiss. To be honest, I am not a heartless woman, but I hardly contacted Song Yu in the past six months since he left, partly because I wanted him to give up on me.
After all, we are really not suitable.
But what I didn't expect was that my wishful thinking did not work, but was ruined right at the same time.
Song Yu seemed determined to get me, and he seemed even more aggressive after coming back this time.
You can't come up with any ideas by hitting your head.
Instead, the phone rang suddenly.
I picked up the phone... and here came my second trouble.
Zhuo Yang's familiar voice came from the other end of the phone.
"I heard Aunt An came to see you today?"
I nodded, and after a while I realized that I was not face to face with Zhuo Yang, so I spoke again hesitantly, "Well, she also told me about how An Ran saved you back then... I'm sorry... I seem to be... really useless..."
"Hmph..." Zhuo Yang hummed twice on the other end of the phone, and it was unclear whether he was admitting or denying. But overall, this calm and matter-of-fact tone made people angry and want to go crazy.
"What do you mean by that?"
"Um... I mean... open the door, I'm right outside your door."
I felt it was inconvenient, but Zhuo Yang had already hung up the phone.
He is so decisive that I seem very stingy.
When I opened the door, I saw Zhuo Yang standing at the door, exhausted, with a suitcase in his hands, and obvious fatigue on his face.
"You are..."
Zhuo Yang smiled and walked in dragging his box.
"I'm so hungry, is there anything to eat? I haven't eaten for a whole day."
"You...what on earth were you doing?" Although I looked at Zhuo Yang with disgust, I still obediently cooked a bowl of noodles for him in the end.
Under the dim fluorescent light, Zhuo Yang's face was shrouded in the mist rising from the food, and it was blurry and unclear.
"Hmm... it tastes good." While I was looking at him, Zhuo Yang had already finished a bowl of noodles in no time and drank a glass of water before he breathed a sigh of relief.
"Well... I just came back from abroad, and I heard from Li Si that Auntie An was causing trouble for you. What's wrong? Is her madness cured?"
I shook my head, "I'm afraid not... You too... Why did you give me so much money that I almost died..."
When talking about the battle of wits and courage between Mrs. An and I, in which we almost lost our lives, Zhuo Yang's eyes turned cold, but it seemed to be just my illusion. When I looked at him, his face returned to its usual calmness.
"It seems that money is very attractive. She used to use Hu Ling to lure me. It seems that Hu Ling has been thrown away..."
"Hmm?" Was Zhuo Yang's words too obscure? Why didn't I understand
But Zhuo Yang had already patted his belly and walked out with his luggage.
"Okay, I'll take care of Aunt An's problem. Don't worry, I promise this won't happen again... Humph... A mentally ill person should behave like a mentally ill person."
Zhuo Yang's last sentence was spoken in an extremely low voice, with a hint of infinite coldness.
My heart trembled, and just as I was about to step forward and say something, the man who had left suddenly came back.
Hand me a package.
"Oh, this is for you."
When I opened it, I was a little amused.
Another small pot of cactus.
"Asshole, I told you I don't like raising these little things..."
But when I looked up, there was no trace of the man at the door. He had already left.
I realized belatedly that we were really divorced this time. So Zhuo Yang never pestered me like before.
Thinking about it this way, Zhuo Yang is really hateful.
It disturbs my heartbeat, but when I shake my sleeves, not a cloud is taken away.
Maybe Zhuo Yang did something. I lived in fear for a few days, but Mrs. An did not show up again.
I relaxed, thinking that a problem here was finally solved.
But Song Yu...
I really don't know how to define it.
Li Ruobing said that Song Yu returned home for me and followed his father's instructions to prepare for a career in politics. When I thought of Song Yu's stunningly beautiful face reciting the "Three Represents" and other important ideas on the stage, I felt a sense of inexplicable disobedience.
Li Ruobing obviously disagreed, "I really don't know what's so good about you... Ah Yu actually went to such lengths for you..." Li Ruobing felt that Song Yu was blind.
"What's the meaning?"
Li Ruobing poked my forehead, looking disappointed, "Don't you know yet? The condition for Ayu to return to politics this time is freedom of marriage. Humph... We all know that just because you are Zhuoyang's divorced wife, Ayu's family will definitely not agree. Ayu made this agreement just to prepare for marrying you."
"Ah..." I was startled and took three steps back.
"No way... Song Yu wants to marry me?"
Li Ruobing poked my forehead again, as if to poke it open to see what was inside my brain. "Just pretend. I don't believe you don't know what Ayu is thinking."
Of course I know.
I was just playing dumb.
I thought time could dispel everything, but I didn't expect that time would make people with firm beliefs even firmer.
Seeing that I was frowning, Li Ruobing seemed very angry and patted my shoulder heavily, "Hey... Why are you putting on that face? You'd better think it over carefully, forget your scumbag ex-husband and be together with Ayu..."
"No... Don't you think we..." I stuttered. This... is not right...
As if she knew what I was going to say, Li Ruobing rolled her eyes and interrupted me, "Didn't you go on your last honeymoon with Zhuo Yang some time ago? Don't you understand yet... Yesterday is gone, today has just begun."
Yesterday is gone, today begins.
Li Ruobing is right, the past has been thrown away, we have finally become parallel lines, maybe I can also...
Try to accept a new and different relationship.
Because of this thought, I was a little hesitant when Song Yu took me out, but I finally agreed.
We had dinner as usual. Song Yu told me what he did during his time abroad. He probably struggled with his own thoughts and made more detailed considerations about life, so I felt that he had changed a lot.
"I know you don't like my change... But believe me, Yueyue, some things will change because they are not eternal, but my desire to be with you is eternal."
I have to say that I am not heartless. Even God would be moved to have a man like this for me.
Besides, I have never been a god.
The wind from the river blows gently, but it can't blow away the feelings in my heart.
I watched the twinkling river lanterns, faintly shining on the dark river surface, casting layers of light and shadows.
"I don't know how many times a woman's heart can be moved in her life, and I don't know if I will love you as much as I love Zhuo Yang in the future. I just want to say, Song Yu, are you sure? Am I worth it? I have lived in darkness for so long that I have forgotten what the day looks like... You are very good, you are like an angel from heaven, beautiful and holy, as if you are my salvation. But I am afraid... I have been hurt by the relationship with Zhuo Yang... So much so that later when I meet someone my heart is moved, I will think: Forget it, being friends is good, really good." After saying that, I glanced at Song Yu. The street lights by the river cast a deep shadow on his face. I couldn't see his face in the dim light. I just watched him walk out of the darkness little by little, breaking through the darkness and heading towards the light.
Also walked towards me.
"Perhaps, if I say now that I will love you forever and never let you get hurt, it would be absolutely irresponsible to you... But Yueyue, can you give me a chance... and give yourself a chance... Can you forget the past and be with me, black and white. Day and night, reality and dreams, I am your lover..."
What else can I not be satisfied with
Such a man is in front of me.
What else can I complain about or escape from
perhaps…
If you miss him, you miss your whole life.
I should have agreed. In his dark eyes, I could see that I was timid and cowardly.
Although I was moved and there was an invisible force driving me to rush forward regardless of everything, I still stopped at the finish line.
I said to him, "I'm sorry... Can you... Can you give me some time, I want to think about it..."
Love, now I walk very cautiously.
Especially when the other person is such a serious and good man.
As long as I don't really want to take this step, it's best to be cautious in everything.
What I considered was not answering Song Yu’s calls or responding to his text messages for three days.
Seeing how depressed I was, Ding Wei took out her cell phone from time to time and smiled and frowned. I guess she understood what was going on.
"The little prince hasn't conquered you yet?"
Ding Wei poured me a cup of tea and handed it to me.
"What are you dissatisfied with? You must have hit the jackpot to have such good luck... Zhuo Yang is already so good, but he actually hooked up with Song Yu who is even better..."
I chuckled, "Men are so charming, men are so charming..."
Ding Wei decisively hit me on the head, "You really deserve a beating... Seriously, what are you thinking?"
"I just don't know what to think, I always feel that Song Yu and I... I always feel that I lack a little courage..."
"Because he is younger than you and has better conditions than you?" Ding Wei hit the nail on the head.
Although he didn't agree on the surface, he had to admit in his heart that Ding Wei was right.
I can't take this step.
"Can't step out?" Ding Wei laughed sinisterly, then suddenly pushed me, "Then I'll help you!"