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Ever since I sent Li Chen away that day, the affair between Song Yu and I could no longer be kept secret.
Li Ruobing has called countless times to ask, and Ding Wei even came to my house without any hesitation and laughed at me for eating young grass and being careful not to drop my old teeth. It turns out that the fair-skinned boy she keeps in her bed is not young grass...
After answering a few phone calls, I was too tired to move and any explanation was meaningless.
Song Yu was very straightforward and suggested, "Invite them to have a meal together."
Song Yu is still the chef and I'm his assistant.
Li Ruobing and Wen Li were invited.
Ding Wei was originally invited, but Ding Wei said that she was the only one left alone among the two couples, which was too cruel, so she decided to go out and find a one-night stand to cultivate her moral integrity.
Wen Li was still as gentle as ever, but he was surprised when he saw Song Yu cooking in the kitchen.
Compared with Wen Li, Li Ruobing's surprise seemed much more direct.
Seeing that Song Yu was busy on the side, he directly pulled me over to teach me a lesson.
"You actually let A Yu do the work."
I don't think so. Men need to be trained and taught. "He volunteered."
Li Ruobing gritted his teeth, his expression very unwilling, "Fuck... I have known him for more than 20 years, and he refused to bring me a glass of water when I asked him to. He really has forgotten his mother after getting a wife..."
"So, his mother is quite young..."
"You're asking for a beating!" Li Ruobing glared at me, then retracted her gaze from the kitchen, "An Yue, have you really decided to be with A Yu?"
I nodded without hesitation.
"That's fine." Li Ruobing seemed to be relieved, holding my shoulders, and said in a somewhat sinister tone, "Remember to be nice to Yu... Otherwise, be careful that you become sideways..."
…
No matter what, I accepted all the teachings from Li Ruobing as an elder.
The dinner was a pleasant one for all the guests, but when Li Ruobing and Wen Li were seen off at the end, Li Ruobing sent the two men away, obviously having something to say to me.
"You should take more care of Ayu... Actually..." Li Ruobing gritted her teeth and said in a bad tone, "I really don't like my cousin's wife who is older than me..."
"..." This guy's ability to stab others is still the same as before.
I sighed, and saw that the depressed man had cheered up now, "But let me make it clear to you... I will agree with Ayu's decision... It's just that I'm just the easiest one to deal with in his family... You know, Ayu's mother... is not as easy to talk to as me..."
I nodded to show that I understood.
If I were a mother and my son brought home a woman who was seven or eight years older than him, I would be ashamed.
But-
No matter what, I have come this far and there is no turning back.
Li Ruobing finished talking to me and quickly climbed into the car. Wen Li, who was behind me, seemed to have finished talking to Song Yu and walked over.
I thought that because of Li Ruobing's presence, Wen Li would at most say hello to me and leave in a hurry, but I didn't expect him to glance at me and seemed to have something to say.
I smiled and glanced at the car waiting outside, "Hey... you're not going to give me a lot of explanations, are you..."
Wen Li was stunned for a moment, then shook his head, "That's not the case."
"What's going on?" Wen Li hesitated to speak, and I became curious. "Do you have anything to tell me?"
Wen Li moved his lips, as if he really had something to say to me, but Li Ruobing on the other end of the line had been waiting for a long time, and seeing that we were still reminiscing about the past, he honked his horn impatiently.
"She's pushing you." I reminded her kindly.
Wen Li nodded and smiled a little embarrassedly, "I know... I'm sorry, that's just her personality..."
"Have you figured it out? Finally decided to put it in her bowl?"
Wen Li still smiled, but this time the smile was less gloomy and more brilliant.
"I figured it out. Maybe... I figured it out a long time ago... An Yue... If one day... you are sad... and you don't want to find anyone... you can come to me... I will give you the answer you want."
Wen Li's words were obscure, sorry I didn't understand them at all. But what I can understand is that his heart is the same as Li Chen's. In this world of being alone, he asked me to treat him as a family member and a support.
After they left, I felt a pair of warm hands around my waist, and then I suddenly reacted.
"Why did you come out? Are the dishes already washed?"
Song Yu put his arm around my waist and whispered in my ear in a very unhappy tone: "Brother Wen is so good to you..."
Hey, the little boy has a sour tone in his voice. It seems he is too jealous tonight.
I pushed the little boy's hand away, "He and I were schoolmates, and I don't have any other relatives, so of course he's nice to me... What nonsense are you thinking... He's already your cousin's husband..."
"Hmph..." The little boy snorted, but his complexion looked much better after a while.
I held his hand and slowly walked into the house, but at the last moment, I turned back to look at the black car going away in the night.
Actually, it was a bit strange. Not to mention that Xiao Zhengtai was a bit jealous, I myself was not sure what Wen Li felt towards me.
The man who helped me and even saved me when I was most sad didn't seem to have much love for me, so why was he so good to me
Don't tell me...
There will be everlasting friendship between men and women.
I don't know, and what I don't know will slowly sink into my stomach.
It would be best if it were never mentioned.
In this way, I started a half-experimental and half-dating life with Song Yu. The days passed peacefully. Xiao Zhengtai was actually a very arrogant boy, but we used to get along well, and now we are even more like fish in water.
Every day, he comes to read books, sometimes plays games, and occasionally I see him playing stocks or something.
Of course, I don't understand his business because I have to work most of the time.
I still work in Ding Wei's studio, and the nature of my job allows me to meet Zhuo Yang several times.
But every time I just watched him from a distance. He would occasionally notice me, but never greet me. He would just look at me deeply for a long time without moving, until Li Si beside him pulled him away.
I think…
This kind of life is good.
Let us be happy in our own world.
This year, autumn came quickly.
I am happy with the stability, this comfortable and fulfilling life is what I love most. Perhaps the only regret is that my relationship with Song Yu seems to have made no progress.
After we became boyfriend and girlfriend, we had a lot more physical contact.
After all, he was just a young boy in his twenties, and a silly virgin, so he was naturally curious about sex.
But, I feel a little weird.
Song Yu was eager to make a move, but I was like an old monk in meditation, as if I had no desires at all.
People say that young women in their thirties are as fierce as wolves and tigers. During the few months I was with Zhuo Yang, even if he didn't do anything and just looked at me, I would feel something and get wet.
But now that I'm with Song Yu, I feel happy, but I don't have any feelings of love or desire.
I-
Maybe he's sick.
But I don't know the antidote for this disease.
But every time I saw Song Yu’s disappointed face, I felt anxious but there was nothing I could do.
Finally one day, I plucked up the courage to tell Ding Wei about this matter.
Ding Wei is older than me and has more experience in this area than me. I believe she can give me better guidance.
"Idiot." After I finished speaking, Ding Wei scolded me directly, "Love, desire, love, desire... Without love... Where does the desire come from..."
"I..." I stammered, "I thought I... I liked..."
"That's love for a friend... not love for a man... To some extent... I feel a little sympathetic towards Song Yu..."
I feel like a jerk. I have decided to be with Song Yu, and I really want to start a new life.
I also tried hard to like Song Yu, but I could tell myself that I liked Song Yu. Song Yu had done so much for me, so I had no right to repay his equal love.
But-
I seem to have forgotten that perhaps I can deceive my heart, but I cannot deceive my instincts.
Me and him...
Almost something.
That day, I was preoccupied with many things and scattered them around, so it was very late and I hadn't gotten off work yet.
By the time I packed up and went out, it was already ten o'clock in the evening.
I was tired and hungry and just wanted to go home immediately, but it was too late and it was difficult to get a taxi in this remote place.
I was thinking about calling Song Yu to ask him to pick me up, but before I could make the call, someone called me from behind.
"Hey... An Yue... why are you here?"
As luck would have it, Zhuo Yang happened to be driving by. Seeing me waiting for the car on the side of the road, he rolled down the window and asked, "It's so late? You haven't finished get off work yet?"
"No." I was tired and hungry, exhausted both physically and mentally, and my voice was a little weak.
Zhuo Yang opened the door, "Get in the car, I'll take you home."
“No need…” I quickly refused. If Song Yu knew about this, he would probably make a fuss for a while, so it’s better to keep a distance.
"Song Yu went to Yizhou this morning... Didn't he tell me?" As if he knew what I was thinking, Zhuo Yang honked the horn, and said impatiently, "Hurry up and don't waste my time."
Song Yu went to Yizhou? I vaguely remember that Song Yu called me in the morning when I was still asleep.
But it was too early and I didn’t hear clearly, and I wanted to go back to sleep, so I hung up.
turn out to be-
He is not here.
Seeing that I was stunned, Zhuo Yang honked the horn impatiently.
"What are you still standing there for? It's so windy outside, how long are you going to stay here? Or... do you think I'm the kind of person who likes to take someone's... girlfriend by force?"
After hearing what Zhuo Yang said, I felt that it would be too pretentious for me to refuse again.
Besides, it's really cold outside.
This time, I didn't hesitate, I opened the door and got in.