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It was early autumn and Zhuo Yang didn't turn on the heater in his car.
Seeing that I was shivering from the cold, Zhuo Yang threw a blanket over me and asked, "Do you want to turn on the heating?"
I shook my head, my body warmed up by the blanket, "No need... I'll be warm in a moment..."
In fact, I feel even colder because I am tired and hungry. Maybe I will feel better if I eat something.
I missed that "thriving" dumpling shop. Just as I was swallowing my saliva and fantasizing about how I would definitely feast on the dumpling shop if I went there someday, a bag of biscuits was thrown onto my lap.
"Have you eaten?" Zhuo Yang looked at me and asked again.
“No… no…” I picked up the biscuits and tore open the package. It was my favorite tomato flavor.
To be honest, Zhuo Yang never kept these things in his car before. He had some abnormal mysophobia and couldn't stand the smell of perfume and snacks in the car. This was during the time when he and I were together. I was afraid that he would catch a cold or get hungry, so I always prepared some food in the car. I didn't expect that he kept this habit.
But now, looking back, I always feel a little inexplicable.
"By the way... why are you here?" I asked after taking a breath as my stomach slowly warmed up from the biscuits.
"Something happened." Zhuo Yang turned the steering wheel and changed the subject lightly, "But you... why haven't you gone home yet so late? Song Yu... because he's not at home... so you're wandering outside?"
Zhuo Yang's imagination is really terrible. I smiled awkwardly. I couldn't possibly say that Song Yu and I had an incompatible sex life. This topic was too heavy, and I didn't have the courage to bring it up in front of Zhuo Yang.
I smiled perfunctorily, Zhuo Yang pursed his lips and said nothing more. He was a man of few words, and if I didn't take the initiative to speak, he would be happy to play dumb.
I chewed the biscuits and my stomach slowly became full. Zhuoyang handed me a bottle of water.
I twisted the bottle cap and found that he had already opened it for me.
I was a little dazed, and at this moment his dry voice suddenly rang softly in my ears: "How have you been recently?"
"It's okay." It feels a bit strange. They say it's best for a couple to not meet after breaking up. What's the situation like us being so awkward
I sighed inwardly, not daring to look at Zhuo Yang standing beside me. I just turned my head to look at the street lights rapidly receding outside the car window.
Hopefully, this journey will be as quick as possible.
I am also satisfied with Zhuoyang's speed.
Soon, we arrived downstairs of my house.
I unbuckled my seatbelt and was about to leave. Zhuo Yang suddenly squeezed my hand. His eyes were heavy and his lips moved as he looked at me. He seemed to want to say something, but after waiting for a long time, he said nothing. In the end, he slowly let go of my hand and said lightly, "Goodbye."
I was confused and waved, "Goodbye."
I really don't understand, what did he want to say to me just now
Touching my head, I looked at Zhuo Yang's car driving away with a puzzled look on my face, thinking to myself, people are getting weirder and weirder these days.
Forget it, never mind. It has nothing to do with me so I shouldn’t care too much.
"Yueyue..."
At the elevator door, Song Yu had been standing there for some time. When he saw me, there was no smile on his face, which was rare.
I was stunned for a moment before I realized, "Why are you here?"
Didn’t Zhuo Yang say that he went to Yizhou
"I've finished my work over there... so I came back."
I really wanted to ask what was going on, but Song Yu looked unhappy. I thought about it and decided not to ask.
"How long have you been here?"
"My phone is dead. I just arrived."
"Really?" No wonder you didn't call me.
I opened the door with my key and saw Song Yu still standing there in a daze. "Song Yu, what happened to you tonight?" His face looked very strange...
“Nothing… nothing…” However, Song Yu said this, but his eyes gradually disappeared from my sight.
In this state, how could it be nothing
I was very hungry and Song Yu hadn't eaten dinner either, so I cooked a pot of dumplings.
I had a good appetite, but Song Yu didn't seem to have much of an appetite. He ate a few and then put them down.
I sighed, put down my chopsticks, and after hesitating for a while, I decided to ask clearly, "Tell me... What's wrong with you?"
Forced by me, Song Yu hesitated for a moment, and finally pushed the bowl away and slowly raised his head.
"Yueyue, was it Brother Zhuoyang who sent you back just now?"
"Ah?" I realized it belatedly and burst into laughter. "No way... are you angry about this?"
"Yueyue! I'm serious..." Seeing me laughing, the little boy was not happy at all, but his face became even gloomier.
"Okay, okay... I get it... Zhuo Yang sent me back... I worked... I worked too late today, and you know it's hard to get a taxi at my studio, and I happened to meet Zhuo Yang, and he said you went to Yizhou, so..."
I think I have done nothing wrong and have no reason to be afraid of ghosts knocking on my door, so my explanation should be fine.
The little boy must have been satisfied, and the gloom on his face gradually relaxed, but he still showed no signs of happiness.
Crossing the table, Song Yu suddenly grabbed my hand, and said in a slow and drawn-out voice, "Yueyue... please don't dislike me... I will work hard... try to become the person you like... please... please don't look at other men..."
Should the person who falls in love first be so anxious about gains and losses
I felt a little sad. I don't know why, but Song Yu's behavior towards me made me feel like he was feeling the same way.
I guess he is an experienced person, so he can understand Song Yu's thoughts better.
Because I understand his heart so well, I despise myself even more.
There is such a good man in front of me, but I still don’t cherish him. Is there shit in my eyes
"I'm sorry... I didn't take your feelings into consideration... I'm so sorry..." I murmured sorry, but Song Yu shook his head, "No... I was too... too impatient... It's okay... Let's take it slow... I have plenty of time..."
Song Yu has really changed a lot, and it is this change that makes me even more uneasy.
Song Yu is so kind, if I don't have the same feelings for him, how can I be worthy of him...
"Okay... let's not talk about this anymore. By the way, I have something to tell you." Perhaps after talking about it, Song Yu was in the mood to eat, and he said while eating dumplings.
I poured him a glass of water and looked at him curiously, "What's the matter? Is it related to your trip to Yizhou this time?"
"A little bit." Song Yu sucked the last mouthful of soup from the bowl into his mouth, wiped the corner of his mouth after a while and said, "I have to go to work."
"… "
Things are moving quickly at Song Yu's family. Starting next week, Song Yu will go to work in the Municipal Party Committee Office.
In fact, it was hard for me to imagine Song Yu staying in such a lifeless place like the government, and I felt a little sad for a moment.
If he hadn't met me, perhaps his life would be different.
At night, Song Yu did not leave. I stood on the balcony and looked at the lights of thousands of homes outside.
"If it weren't for me, your life... might not be like this."
Song Yu gently hugged me from behind and slowly put his head on my shoulder. He looked tired and weak, like a child in need of comfort.
"But... Yueyue... If it weren't for you, my life would have no taste, no ups and downs, no losses and gains... That kind of life would be like a dry well, always so peaceful. Although I would be happy for the rest of my life, what's the point?"
"But..." I want to say, why should Song Yu throw away the happiness that many people cannot even ask for
Song Yu covered my lips and shook his head gently, "No buts... You are not me, how come you don't know that no matter how hard, tired, or unwilling I am, I am willing. As long as I think of where you are waiting for me... I have the strength to keep going."
Perhaps it was Song Yu who touched me so much at this moment that my heart softened. Before my mind could react, my body had already turned around and kissed his lips.
He seemed very stunned, and his body was stiff for a long time.
I felt amused and patted his face with my hand, "Fool."
Song Yu... You are such a fool.
And I, how lucky must I be in my previous life to have met a fool like you.
To be honest, Song Yu's kissing skills really need to be improved. Probably because he was too excited, he quickly turned the tables after he reacted.
It is great for a man to have this kind of understanding.
However, the consequence of his being too excited was that he broke my lip, and the romantic feelings I had before were gone because of the pain on my lip.
Men, on the other hand, are all the same when it comes to sex: they take advantage of others and act ungratefully.
I once again pushed away the person who wanted to come over and kiss me, and ruthlessly ordered him to leave.
"It's too late." It means it's time to go back.
Song Yu reluctantly stood up, and his dark eyes looked at me in a silent temptation, "Yueyue... let me stay..."
The voice was so gentle and so deliberately seductive that goose bumps quickly appeared on my arms.
This damn kid wants to learn to walk before he even learns to crawl.
Even a triple jump isn’t that fast!
I shook my head and pushed him out with a smile on my face.
"Go back soon... Remember you still have to go to work next week."
"Yueyue..."
"Good night." Seeing Song Yu's aggrieved face of being abandoned, I slammed the door.
There was gradually no sound outside the door. I returned to the living room and found that Song Yu's coat had been left behind.
I guess the weather outside is starting to get cooler, so I plan to send it to Song Yu.
However, when I went downstairs, I didn't see any trace of Song Yu.
Is he gone already
I was holding my coat and preparing to go home, but at this moment I heard a strange sound coming from the underground garage.
When I saw the two people over there, I was even more surprised.
Why is he here