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"It's been four days... What else are you planning to hide here? Ah... A Yu and Zhuo Yang are looking for you... Is that right..." Wen Li wanted to say something else, but I had lost interest and went into the room with the mug in my hand.
"Okay... I won't say anything... I won't mention them. An Yue... let's talk..."
Wen Li pulled me from behind, his tone somewhat helpless, "You know... running away like this is not a solution."
Of course I knew that was not a solution. In fact, I seriously suspected that Wen Li must have known what had happened that day.
Although I didn't say anything, he was always a smart man. I looked like that at the time, with red eyes and disheveled clothes. How could he not have any wild thoughts? In addition, Song Yu and Zhuo Yang had been looking for me everywhere during this period, so he knew what had happened without much hesitation.
I know Wen Li knows everything, but he is still willing to help me and take care of me.
I am very grateful to him.
A true friend will always give you the warmest help and protection in the most difficult times.
"An Yue..." Wen Li has been trying to persuade me to stop running away these past few days. He probably told me not to run away. No matter what happened with those two men, it will be resolved one day.
I also understand that I can't be hidden by Wen Li forever.
However, I myself did not expect things to develop into what they are now. In fact, looking back now, I realize that I was just too stupid.
How could I be so stupid as to think that Mrs. Song's kindness to me meant that she recognized me? If she really recognized me, she would have taken me out to greet the guests at the banquet that day instead of leaving me aside and ignoring me. In the end, she even gave me a glass of orange juice insincerely.
It was just that I was desperate to get her approval, so I let down my guard.
so…
That's why she put drugs in my orange juice.
But apart from Mrs. Song, I don’t know what Zhuo Yang did in there.
After all, he did drink the glass of orange juice.
The more I thought about it, the more my head hurt. I shook my head vigorously.
"An Yue, do you want me to go for a walk with you?"
"No thanks." I rejected Wen Li's kindness without thinking, "I just want to be alone now."
"But you've been alone for four days." Wen Li didn't leave, but sat down next to me. "I know you're upset, but things have to move forward. Do you think this is a good way to escape?"
Is it a solution? But what can I do
I drank the juice with ingredients and went to bed with Zhuo Yang.
The most important thing was that Song Yu caught her in bed.
It's such a mess, what else can I do? Can you tell me, what else can I do when I'm in this state of being neither human nor ghost!
"Why not listen to my opinion..." Wen Li sighed, he stretched out his hand as if he wanted to touch me, but in the end, I don't know what he thought of, he slowly put his hand down.
"I also know about you and Ayu. I can understand your feelings for Ayu... But ask yourself, Zhuoyang, have you really let it go?"
I kept silent. Wen Li saw this and chased after me. "You and him were not together for seven days or seven months, but for seven long years. Don't say that Zhuo Yang treated you badly before... Now he is wholeheartedly devoted to you. Have you really never thought of turning back?"
"Song Yu..." My mouth was dry, and I couldn't help but drink a sip of water, then I spoke slowly and with difficulty: "I am trying very hard to live a new life... Song Yu touched me very much, and many times I felt my heart skipping a beat... He is a very good person, and I have never thought of hurting him since I was with him... I..."
He said he would protect me and not let me get hurt.
Such a good person, I think so too.
However, no matter what the process is, the ending is the same.
The damage is already done.
"Love is something that is hard to predict. You may think it is bitter, but others may enjoy it..."
"It won't be sweet." I smiled bitterly and shook my head. "Mother said that the biggest mistake she made in her life was falling in love with father... She didn't know he was married when she met him, but no matter how it happened... the result was already doomed... She didn't want to hurt anyone, but she still hurt Mrs. An. I don't want to... I don't want to follow in her footsteps..."
"No, your mother is innocent... She doesn't know... And she is different from you. She will smile brightly even in difficult situations. Anyue, have you forgotten? Your mother smiled so beautifully... Even death can't take away her smile..."
Smile...
When my mother died, her face was stained with bright red blood, and I didn't even see a smile on her face.
I turned my head and gave Wen Li a strange look.
"What did you say... When my mother died... How did you know the smile on her face..."
I'm sure I didn't tell Wen Li.
At that time, I didn’t even know Wen Li.
Or, have I overlooked something all these years
I looked back and saw Wen Li panicking for a moment. For a second, I thought he would run away.
But after shaking violently, he suddenly lowered his head and remained silent for a long time.
I smiled, but I knew my voice was shaking, "You... you are hiding something from me too... right?"
Are you all the same, treating me like a fool? Are you fooling around with me, and then watching the show from the sidelines
"An Yue, don't be like this, An Yue..." Wen Li held my shoulders, his dark eyes unable to hide the guilt and fear.
“I’m sorry… I’m really sorry… I didn’t mean to… I wasn’t… I wasn’t… I was just scared… so scared…”
I have always known that Wen Li takes good care of me.
And the emotions are weird.
He said he liked me, but it seemed like there wasn't much love in him. But he would always appear when I was in the most danger or distress, and gently lead me out of the maze.
He is a good man. Sometimes I feel like he is a relative or a brother.
In the past, I have always positioned myself this way.
But now, he kneels before me and confesses.
"Before I was sixteen, I wasn't like this now. I was like any other rebellious teenager, I loved excitement... That year, I secretly drove the family car out, I didn't know I would cause such a big accident... I didn't know... It was just that time, her smile made me unable to escape the shackles of sin... I'm sorry, An Yue, I'm really sorry."
Daomingsi once said that if apologies were useful, what would the police be for
Deep in my heart, something is slowly breaking out of its cocoon.
Yes, I know.
It’s the resentment in my heart.
When I was fifteen, I lost my mother.
I thought we would rely on each other until we grew old, but I found her body in a pool of blood.
She used to be such a beautiful person, but when she died, her entire body was covered in blood.
"Impossible... You lied to me... How could you be the culprit..." I muttered to myself, waving Wen Li's hand away and backing away.
It's enough that others bully and humiliate me, why does God torture me like this
The last person I could trust and rely on turned out to be the runaway who I denounced as someone who would never be happy.
"You... you know... if... if you had sent my mother to the hospital in time... she would have survived... but... but..."
But he didn't.
He dumped my mother in the mud by the river and no one found her.
Until the body is cold and there is no breath.
I don't hate, I don't blame.
My mother said that hating someone is too tiring and too sad.
She said love is happier than hate.
They are all fake.
They are all fake.
even-
I wanted to rush forward and slap this man.
Why…
You hid it from me for more than ten years, why not hide it from me for the remaining decades
If you are going to cheat, why not cheat from the beginning, why not be faithful to the end.
You can lie to me or treat me as a fool.
Why let me know.
I don't want to know at all.
"An Yue..."
Through tearful eyes, I saw Wen Li reaching out his hand to me, his once gentle face now full of apology.
But…
So what? So what!
The gentleness of the past has now turned into something hideous.
There are too many hypocritical people in this world. They may be smiling at you tenderly in the last second, but stab you mercilessly in the next second.
“Liar… You are all liars… You are the biggest liars in the world… You are full of lies…”
I stepped back.
"Don't come over here... Stay away from me."
Stay away from me... I never want to see this person again.
"An Yue... I'm sorry."
From behind me, I heard Wen Li's apology, but I couldn't care less. I never wanted to see this person again.
People always live in a world where lies and reality alternate. I once wondered how there could be someone who treats you well regardless of blood relationship or gender, only friendship.
I think that is the most real and precious friendship in the world.
Now that I think about it, it was just my imagination.
The relationship between men and women is always the most complicated individual relationship in the world. How can I believe that there can be pure friendship
His kindness to me and his appearance were nothing but the result of his youthful guilt and the anxiety that affected the rest of his life.
No wonder…
No wonder he said he could understand my timidity and my avoidance.
turn out to be…
He is exactly like me.
The same is a-
Murderer.
How funny.
Because of my momentary fear, I didn't grab Anran's hand.
So Anran died.
So funny.
Because Wen Li was afraid, he did not send my mother to the hospital in time after hitting her. Instead, he abandoned her and ran away, so my mother also died.
What is this…
Is God punishing us for our cowardice and timidity
I kicked over the last safe shell in the world.
I escaped from this cruel world.
Crashing headlong into an even crueler and more indifferent world.
"Yueyue! I finally found you!"
A warm and familiar body embraced me.