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The night before the surgery, I had a nightmare.
I woke up from the nightmare, drenched in sweat, but there was no trace of the original person on the blanket on the floor.
"Zhuo Yang?"
I found the missing man on the balcony in my pajamas.
"Aren't you going to sleep yet?"
He shook his head and took a sip of warm milk. "It's so quiet."
Quiet. Yeah.
A clear and bright moon and a dim lamp.
I grabbed the corner of the man's clothes from behind and muttered to myself, "I had a nightmare."
I dreamed that the operation failed, Song Yu survived, but Zhuo Yang never opened his eyes again.
The cup of warm milk was placed on the lonely windowsill. Zhuo Yang turned around and grabbed my hand, his eyes raised and a smile appeared on his face.
"Stupid... It's not a major surgery... Don't worry about it."
But comfort is comfort.
I still couldn't help the fear and uneasiness in my heart.
"You promised me... No accidents, no surprises." I grabbed his hand, knowing that I was being willful, but still determined to get an answer.
He leaned over and kissed the corner of my cold lips, smiling and promising.
"Don't worry, I won't let my hard-earned money go into other men's pockets. You are so stupid... Maybe you will only be cheated of money and not be cheated of sex..."
Is this man Li Chen? He is full of venom and tsundere.
After drinking the milk, I lay on the blanket where Zhuo Yang was. I looked at the man on the ground and sighed secretly, "I'm a little cold. You come up and sleep."
"Really?" Zhuo Yang raised his head, a smile appeared between his eyebrows, "Not at all reluctant?"
My eyebrows twitched, and after confirming that no veins were popping out, I gritted my teeth and said, "Hurry up and get up here."
It has been a long, long time since I felt so peaceful.
Zhuoyang's arms were as warm as ever, as if no time had passed and we were still in the house on the mountain. I absorbed his warmth eagerly.
But there was something different, he was no longer cold, but became warmer in my embrace.
turn out to be…
The warmth is mutual.
While I absorbed the temperature, I also passed that heat to the other person.
It was very warm and Zhuoyang fell asleep quickly.
It can be seen that he was sleeping very soundly, as if he was not the one going to have the surgery tomorrow.
But I just couldn't sleep.
I was so uneasy that I got up and chewed some sleeping pills, but it didn't help.
Finally I lifted his hand and slid myself into his arms.
so-
It seems to be much better.
The warmth came over me, I raised my eyes and kissed the corner of his lips gently.
"Remember what you said... no matter how late it is, you will come home."
In his sleep, the corners of his lips seemed to rise slightly.
However, I was too sleepy, and I eventually fell into a deep sleep amidst the warm touch.
Many people came on the day of the operation.
Wen Li and Li Ruobing, Zhuo's father and mother, the Song family came, and finally even Li Si came.
She saw that I was still in a bad mood as usual, but she didn't get violent again.
"I have submitted my resignation letter." As soon as he opened his mouth, Li Si gave me a slap.
I was a little surprised by Li Si’s resignation. “You…what’s wrong with you?” He was doing well, why did he resign
"I'm pregnant." Li Si threw down another □□. Seeing my face turn pale instantly, Li Si laughed again, "You are still as stupid as ever... Of course the child is not Mr. Zhuo's, it's my boyfriend's."
I stammered, "I know..."
Li Si looked at me with disdain and continued, "I know you didn't like me at the time and wanted Mr. Zhuo to fire me... But do you know why he wanted to keep me in the company... and let me sit in my current position?"
I shook my head. To be honest, I really doubted that they had ever had an affair.
“Haha… I guess it’s just paying off a debt.” Li Si smiled, but her smile was a little sad. “That year, I joined Excellence right after I graduated from school. Excellence had a hard time in its early stages… I was young at the time, and I didn’t know how to be tactful. Later, I was plotted against by a group of old perverts… Huh… Later, I got pregnant… My family is a scholarly family, how could we tolerate such a thing… I was scared… I didn’t dare to tell anyone… I secretly had an abortion… Of course, it could also be retribution. The operation was not clean, not only did I get sick, but I was also diagnosed as probably never getting pregnant again… At that time, I was desperate, and it was Mr. Zhuo who took me in, and sent me to the hospital regardless of all the gossip outside… He is actually a very good man… I have been with him for seven years, no less than the time you have been together. Now, to be honest, I have been attracted to him countless times, and even confessed my feelings to him, but…” Li Si looked back at me, not sure whether it was out of envy or jealousy, “He never gave me a chance. He said he treated me as a capable assistant… not a woman. The man I like doesn’t treat me as a woman… What else do I have to look forward to in my life... But now everything seems to be back to square one... I'm pregnant... My husband is a foreign friend, his family runs a restaurant... Once things are settled here, I will leave. Before I leave... I think... I'd better make some things clear to you... I want you to understand clearly that I didn't lose to you, but to myself."
Because I can't bear it. I can't bear to make the man I like embarrassed, and I can't bear to let the man I like get hurt because of me.
So I quietly retreated back to the position of friend and subordinate.
Support each other.
It is better to forget each other.
When Li Ruobing came over and patted my shoulder, Li Si had already left.
She said the smell in the hospital was bad and neither she nor her baby liked it, so she left first.
She walked gracefully, neatly and cleanly.
Her back was straight, just as she said, she did not lose, she walked steadily and straight.
Li Ruobing continued to pat my shoulder, his eyes following Li Si for a few steps, "To be honest, I think you are really a few blocks away from her... Whether it's looks or IQ... the gap is too big... But... you are better than her in one aspect."
"What?" I was curious, do I have any advantages over Li Si
"Yeah." Li Ruobing nodded and answered seriously: "You are luckier than her... The men around you are all very good to you. No matter it's Zhuo Yang who was a scumbag before but is very loyal now, or that showy stone man Li Chen, or my unlucky cousin Song Yu... They are all deeply in love with you... I think this fact cannot be measured by normal people's thinking... I can only explain it to myself like this... You are really lucky, maybe it is the blessing you have earned in previous lives." In return, several men in this life treat you with true love.
Li Ruobing finally comforted me and asked me to cherish my blessings.
I know that too.
Everything has come to an end. Now the only thing I can do is to hold on tightly to the happiness in my hands and never let go.
The operation time passed slowly and weakly, and it felt like a year.
When the operating room was opened, my body was already drenched in sweat. When we saw the doctor come out, a group of us rushed over.
"How are they?"
The doctor in the white coat smiled victoriously.
"Very successful, but the exact results will have to wait until they wake up."
"Okay... okay... that's good..."
The group of people relaxed, and at the same time, without knowing when, the sun was shining brightly outside the window.
finally-
It's sunny.
When Zhuoyang woke up, I was carrying a pot of cactus in. Zhuoyang used to love giving me these little things, but unfortunately all the ones at home died because of me. But when I got up this morning, I found that among the dozens of pots of cacti, only one was lucky enough to survive.
I decided to care for life from today on, so I took the cactus that had survived to a nearby flower shop. The shop loosened the soil for it, changed the pot to a bigger one, and seemed to be amazed at its vitality.
When I walked in, I found Zhuo Yang staring at me intently.
"How is it? Does the wound hurt?"
"It hurts a little..." Zhuo Yang yawned and looked at me lazily, "Where did you find such an ugly cactus?"
"..." I pressed the throbbing veins on my head and smiled, "Did you lose all your memory during the operation? Look carefully... Only you can give away such an ugly cactus..."
Zhuo Yang seemed surprised, but after a moment he started laughing to himself.
"It doesn't matter. No matter how ugly it is, it's mine."
"… "
I don't know why, but I always feel that he uses metaphors.
It seems to be a metaphor for me.
but-
Am I ugly? Asshole!
Overall, everything was fine.
But what makes me a little regretful is that I have never seen Song Yu again since the operation.
I heard that he was secretly sent to the United States right after the operation. He naturally didn't say goodbye to me when he left. Li Ruobing just came over and gave me four words.
"It's better not to meet."
Some relationships have come to an end, and every meeting will tear at the wounds in our hearts.
Such pain is better off not seeing it.
I actually understand.
I've always understood.
It's just that I made one wrong step at a time.
On the contrary, it was Song Yu who tolerated my mistakes and anxieties and walked me to where I am today step by step.
At this point, how can I have the nerve to ask for a meeting and ask for forgiveness that would give me peace of mind
so-
It’s better not to meet.
Zhuo Yang was very happy about this.
He wished I would stay away from Song Yu.
Moreover, after Song Yu left, he became somewhat unbridled and venomous, which sometimes made me so angry that my eyes were smoking, and I just wanted to stab him again. However, every time I had this idea, he apologized in all kinds of mean ways, like a good boy who admitted his mistakes.
Sometimes, I don't know whether to stab him or stab myself.
If I had known this, I wouldn't have said I wanted to marry him so quickly.
Look how proud he is now.
all is well.
The wind is light and the sun is warm.
Everything is just right.
Maybe, the only bad thing is Li Chen.
On the day when Zhuo Yang and Song Yu's surgery was successful, he jumped from the tallest building of the hospital.
It is said that he was so bloody that he was no longer in human form.
I didn't go to see him, but when I got the news, tears suddenly fell.
I think I can understand why he chose to commit suicide.
It may be that he cannot bear the chronic torture of the illness, or it may be that he is unable to accept that his face is aging and his youth is gone.
However, I think it is more likely that he once asked me whether people who committed suicide could neither go to heaven nor to hell, but could only be in a certain space in the underworld.
I think…
He probably wanted to see his mother who committed suicide, so he chose the same path as her.
After Li Chen died, he left the pink diamond to me. At the same time, he donated all his stocks and real estate to the children in the orphanage. He set up a growth fund for them, and provided them with corresponding guarantees for their food, clothing, housing, transportation, study and life.
The only requirement is that everyone must live sincerely and treat others with kindness.
Our parents abandoned us, but life and society did not.
Everyone should be useful and contribute to the world and society with their own hands, not wasting time and not complaining about the world.
I think he wanted to do something that he hadn't done yet, and now wants to pass this hope on to the next generation.
When Zhuoyang was discharged from the hospital, I suggested to him that we go over to see Anran.
I want to apologize to her in person.
I originally thought Zhuoyang would agree. After all, it was him, not me, who had special feelings for Anran.
But I didn't expect that after hearing what I said, Zhuo Yang just waved his hand lazily.
"You are still stupid."
Under my torture, Zhuo Yang finally told the truth.
It turned out that An Ran left a suicide note before she died. She seemed to have known that she was going to die. She specifically mentioned me in the note, saying that I had taken away her happiness and that if anything happened to her, it would be related to me.
Suddenly, I understood what Zhuo's mother said.
Although An Ran looks like her father, she has the same personality as her mother, full of schemes.
But, there is still something weird.
I stuffed a piece of peach into Zhuo Yang's mouth, "When did you see this suicide note?"
Zhuo Yang chewed the peach with a painful look on his face, and he seemed to have the urge to spit it out.
"Hey... stop pretending! Tell me! When did you know I was framed?"
"Not long ago..." Zhuo Yang took a peach and hid to the side, "It was about two years after we got married... Mrs. An showed it to me..."
I kind of understand.
Zhuoyang's transformation all happened two years after his marriage.
It turned out that Mrs. An accidentally created the opportunity for us, allowing Zhuo Yang to see An Ran clearly and also see me behind her.
turn out to be-
This is fate.
Peaches are a bit sour, no wonder Zhuoyang doesn't like them.
But I thought it tasted pretty good, so I ate a few bites and finally kicked him off the sofa.
"There are a few more over there, help me peel them!"
"Don't peaches have to be peeled?" Zhuo Yang looked aggrieved, "I'm still a patient..."
"Stop talking nonsense! Go!"
I squinted my eyes and felt drowsy in the warm sunshine.
In a trance, I felt a warmth on my head, and a pair of big hands gently reached down and stroked my face.
I feel very gentle and comfortable.
It was so comfortable that I couldn't open my eyes.
To be honest, life now really feels like a dream.
Yes…
This sweet dream.
I hope good dreams always come true.
He and I were both immersed in it and didn't want to wake up.