Are you thinking too much
Zheng Ren smiled, he didn't think so. But judging from Xiao Shitou's expression, this kid is trying very hard to survive.
Even after endless rounds of radiotherapy and chemotherapy, even after an operation that even Zheng Ren was only 50% sure of, even after his lungs secreted 2500ml of watery phlegm and mucus in one day.
The road ahead is difficult, but he is still working hard, and it seems that he has never thought of giving up.
"We made an agreement before." Xiao Shitou said, "Living is always tiring. Have you never seen my dad?"
Zheng Ren nodded, his heart calm, without sadness or sadness, nor the boredom and joy of coaxing a child. He was already ready to act as a listener.
"My dad is also very tired. Even when I mentioned it, he felt that he shouldn't live." Xiao Shitou closed his eyes and said in a voice so hoarse that only he and Zheng Ren could hear, "He works outside to earn money. He has had two or three jobs, and every once in a while during the video, I can feel that he has lost weight."
"They also had your questions, and finally they threw this difficult problem to me. Why do you adults think so? Don't you think it's too cruel to throw such a difficult problem to a child?"
Zheng Ren curled his lips helplessly. This guy's harsh words were no worse than Su Yun's.
"Hey." Xiao Shitou opened his eyes. There was no sadness or difficulty in making a decision in his eyes, but more of an unknown smile.
Zheng Ren looked at him silently and seriously.
"I have already made my decision, but you still have to ask me over and over again. It's really annoying." Xiao Shitou said, "Originally, because of the money, I thought that would be it. But you bear this part of the cost. , then what else do I have to worry about?"
"Brother, I see that you are quite depressed. It's not because of financial reasons. You told me in a roundabout way that it's actually because you don't have enough money. Living here is not cheap." Xiao Shitou asked.
"No." Zheng Ren felt a little hazy in his heart and couldn't get rid of it. He said sincerely: "Money is not a problem, at least for me. Last year, I earned 3,000 yuan a month in Haicheng. money."
"How did you survive?"
"I basically didn't spend any money, and I didn't think about marrying a wife at that time. I had a rental house that I shared with Xiao Zhao, who was an anchor." Zheng Ren said with a smile, recalling what happened last year, it was quite interesting. of.
"For me, I didn't dare to think about the future at that time. Is there a future? They say you shouldn't let your children lose at the starting line, but I lost completely early on." Zheng Ren said without sadness or joy.
"Like me?" Xiao Shitou asked.
"Absolutely, basically the same as you. At that time, I was wronged. I couldn't speak out when I was angry, so I could only stay silent." Zheng Ren rarely spoke his mind. Today, the little stone touched a soft, soft part in his heart. A place that has never been shown to anyone.
Things that I would never say in my life were now spoken out. Maybe... This is also a sequelae of using the Eye of Truth.
"But there's nothing you can do about it, human beings. It's very difficult to survive. So I understand what you said, and I understand your parents understand you."
"Tell me about that time." Xiao Shitou tried his best to show a smile.
Zheng Ren felt warm in his heart. He could understand how difficult it was for Xiao Shitou to laugh. Even though he was like this, he still wanted to comfort himself with a smile. This child was very sensible.
"Well, Haicheng is a small place, and everyone basically knows each other. Most of the doctors in the department have connections with their parents, so the director... can't say that he bullied me, but I don't have any connections, so some dirty work has to be done. I’ll do it.”
"Working is nothing, the important thing is that I am not allowed to have an operation." Zheng Renping said calmly, as if he was telling someone else's story, "Everyone who came with me could have their gallbladder removed, but I can only I kept sketching it in my mind and doing virtual surgery.”
"It's so miserable." Xiao Shitou said.
"Yeah, it's so miserable." Zheng Ren smiled, "I think about it every day. When I ride on the wind one day, I must make them look good!"
Xiao Shitou became more energetic and listened carefully to Zheng Ren's story.
"However, those 4 or 5 years have honed my ability to simulate surgeries in my mind. Sometimes I would sleep and dream, and I would be terribly tired from doing surgeries all night long. The work unit is usually busy, and the extra beds are fully booked. In short, So tired.”
"Maybe fate felt that it was too unfair to me, and one day I got lucky."
"Wow!" Xiao Shitou admired enviously.
"I performed a very difficult operation. Although Director Liu still looked down upon me, I gained the appreciation of Director Pan and was transferred to the emergency department to set up an emergency ward. From then on, I began to be exposed to interventional surgery. All kinds of surgeries.”
"Looking back now, those 4 or 5 years were very painful when I went through them. There was darkness in front of my eyes, and I felt that I would never make it through in this life. But I didn't give up and kept persevering."
"It's not about how noble and brave I am. What if I don't persist? Am I just going to go on like this?"
"Brother, don't complain to me. I don't listen to chicken soup. How do you get revenge after you become rich?" Xiao Shitou asked with great interest, even his voice was a little louder.
"At the beginning, I was a little bit distracted. I feel embarrassed now thinking about it. Later, Director Liu, who used to suppress me, fell ill with liver cancer. I am very good at treating this. It is not an exaggeration to say that I am the best in the country."
"Once I went to the provincial capital for surgery. When I came out of the operating room, I happened to see Director Liu lying on a flat car being pushed out. I had also imagined this scene. I should have walked forward and asked lightly, Director Liu, what's wrong with you? Say something that will make him furious, then turn around and leave."
"and after?"
"At that moment, I suddenly felt that it was very meaningless. It was meaningless to do this." Zheng Rendao, "There is a bowl of chicken soup that says anything that doesn't kill you will make you stronger."
"It's quite boring and illogical." Xiao Shitou said.
"Yes, but it was more in line with my state of mind at the time. I was still thinking about it on the way back. Compared with taking revenge on Director Liu, I seem to be more interested in curing diseases and saving people."
"Shouldn't you be more interested in making money?"
"Oh, for so many years, doctors and nurses have been held in high esteem. They treat illnesses and save lives, and the benevolence of doctors. The teacher started saying this when I was in school. When I entered the society, the doctors and nurses around me and the public opinion of the whole society said so. . Making money is only one aspect... Let’s put it this way, technological progress makes me feel even more happy.”