"Tch, then your life is very boring." Xiao Shitou said.
"No way, I was used to it before. I wanted to have good entertainment, have a girlfriend, get off work on time every day, and then go to the movies. But conditions didn't allow it, and I couldn't do it at that time."
"You can always do it if you want to." Xiao Shitou insisted on his point of view.
"Do?" Zheng Ren rarely expressed his true emotions. His expression was slightly angry and he said, "I take care of the most serious and difficult patients. Many times they are inseparable 24 hours a day. Open a ward. If there is an emergency operation, call me from home no matter what time it is."
At this point, Zheng Ren realized that something was wrong with his emotions. He tried to cover his face with his hands and rubbed his face a few times like a small stone.
Then a face with a full smile appeared in front of him, still honest and honest, like a mask.
"You may be thinking, it's a good thing to have surgery, so why am I unhappy? Let's put it this way, I was called to the hospital in the middle of the night and I was just the second assistant. I wasn't even allowed to sew the skin, so I could only cut the threads." Zheng Ren said calmly.
"The most profound time in my memory was one New Year's Eve, and there were no patients in the ward. I went to a barbecue restaurant by myself... The restaurant is called Tycoon Xiao Chuan. If you have time, I will take you to eat. I went to have a meal by myself. BBQ, and even a very luxurious order of Shabu-shabu.”
"After eating, I bought some fireworks and set them off by myself in a deserted corner of the community. The fireworks were so beautiful, especially since there were stars rarely seen in Haicheng that day. Watching the fireworks bloom under the stars, I was very happy. happy."
"I thought at that time, they said they are as lonely as fireworks. But fireworks are not lonely, they are very lively and... beautiful."
Zheng Ren's mouth is rather clumsy, and he can't even describe it well, even though he knows countless beautiful words.
But no matter what, nothing can compare with the word "beautiful", and there is no vocabulary that can replace the word "happy".
"Would it be lonely on New Year's Eve alone?" Xiao Shitou asked.
"I'm so lonely that I'm used to it." Zheng Ren said with a smile, "That night at 12:16 in the morning, I was woken up by a phone call. I was used to it by then, but I felt a little bit disturbed by the only quiet joy. anger."
"I was called to the hospital because of a car accident. I was called to the stage. I was still the second assistant, still the retractor, and still didn't let me do anything." Zheng Ren said calmly, "I know Director Liu and the chief resident at the time What’s on my mind, but it’s too dark, so I won’t tell you.”
"Haha, I know even if you don't tell me."
"So, I developed the habit of reading novels at that time." Zheng Rendao, "Online novels? They are fast-paced and joyful. The protagonist can always do things that ordinary people can't do. Even if there are problems with the logic, but The truth often has no logic at all, so online novels are more reliable."
"and after?"
"Then it was the surgery I mentioned, and then I went to the emergency department. With the support of old Director Pan, I established an emergency ward and killed Director Liu head-on." Zheng Rendao, "At that time, Director Kong from 912 asked me to go to the Imperial Capital. I finally I didn’t agree at first, do you know why?”
"Because you didn't make your original department miserable." Xiao Shitou said.
This kid is really smart, Zheng Ren smiled.
"Yes." Zheng Ren said, "Making money is not the meaning of life at all. I just want to grab Director Liu and Mr. Cen by their necks and ask them why they won't even let me sew skin; why can two people do it?" I have to go to me for surgery; why do people who live closer than me never go to others and pick me out of bed every time?"
"you made it."
"You can say that, but when you succeed, you don't feel any gratification. You know, if you get better, you won't feel very happy. It is a long process, and you put everything into it." We put our efforts into every day and every detail, and it will definitely not be like competitive sports where the results will come out quickly.”
"So, you won't feel very happy when the ending comes. It will happen naturally. That's probably what it means."
"This is also one of the reasons why everyone likes competitive sports." Xiao Shitou said.
"Yes, the more difficult it is to get in daily life, the happier and joyful it is." Zheng Ren said with a smile, "Later, I went to 912 and started another Nobel Prize project. Then, by chance, I won When I got to the Nobel Prize, I met some so-called big shots."
"This is my story. It's boring, isn't it? When I saw you, I thought you were very difficult, just like me before."
"There is nothing easy in this world."
Xiao Shitou blinked and whispered: "Yes, so it is indeed difficult for me, but no matter how difficult it is, I will never give up, if conditions permit."
"The conditions are fine."
"I believe you, don't force it." Xiao Shitou closed his eyes again. Listening to Zheng Ren "telling stories" had consumed most of his energy, and he was a little tired at this time.
But despite his fatigue, he was inclined to communicate.
Being alone is so lonely.
"I know that doing this kind of diagnosis and treatment costs money like water every day." Xiao Shitou said softly.
"It's okay, your current treatment is free of charge, it's just a favor."
"Well, I won't ask so many questions." Xiao Shitou said, "I vaguely remember that you asked me a lot of questions when I was using a ventilator to assist my breathing."
"Can you hear it?"
"At that time, I felt like I was floating in the boundless universe. I could hear it occasionally, maybe when the drug concentration was reduced." Xiao Shitou said, "I have been thinking about what you said about the meaning of life."
"Don't think so much. If you think too much, you won't grow taller."
Zheng Ren smiled and touched Xiao Shitou's head with his hand.
Xiao Shitou wanted to hide away, but he had no strength at all and his eyes were still closed, so he couldn't hide at all.
"Don't be so resistant. I touched you countless times when you were using a ventilator to assist your breathing." Zheng Ren said with a smile.
"Exactly." Xiao Shitou said contemptuously, "I thought about it for a long time, and finally I came up with an idea - don't ask what the meaning of life is, living itself is the meaning."
Zheng Ren was stunned for a moment.
Is that so
"Brother, I'm really tired this time and want to take a nap." Xiao Shitou murmured, "You're welcome."
"Go to sleep."
Zheng Ren stood up and was about to leave when he saw that Xiao Shitou did not fall asleep directly. Instead, he opened his eyes and raised his hands with great effort. The withered little hands were clenched into fists, slightly higher than the body, trembling slightly.
Making a fist with his right hand, Zheng Ren bumped his fist with his fist.
"come on!"