Shu Xiaoman did not tell Chen Yuanxi that depression had tortured her to the point of death.
A few months ago, since her last visit to the prison, when she learned everything about Chen Yuanxi for more than ten years with Chen Wanxin, Zheng Kai, and Gu Xi, she has been haunted all day long.
Mo Qian committed suicide, Luo Yang was executed, and all the Mo people and Chen Tianjiao's family dispersed. Wang Wankun and Rao Yu also surrendered and were imprisoned. Chen Yuanxi really kept his promise and testified for the couple about their cooperation in obtaining evidence. Qi was only imprisoned for two years, so Wang Zhengjuan sought her husband's consent and support, put aside her two-year-old child for the time being, and went to look for Zhou Nannan alone. The Wangs and Mrs. Wang were grateful and confessed to Wang Zhengjuan that they were the initiators of forcing her to get married in the past. All this, Wang Zhengjuan sent a WeChat message to Zhao Yuan without saying a word. Zhao Yuan has two mobile phones. He usually only uses his work account when going to work. In the work account, excluding people within the scope of work, there are only WeChat accounts of Shu Xiaoman, nanny, Gu Xi, and Zheng Kai. The rest of his contacts are all In another mobile phone, that mobile phone is usually kept at home. When Shu Xiaoman saw WeChat, he hesitated for a moment and deleted it.
Before Chen Wanxin was imprisoned, she wrote a letter about bribing officials and falsely accusing Chen and sent it to Zhao Yuan's residence. Shu Xiaoman, as his wife, received the letter. This letter did not reach Zhao Yuan's hands.
When she visited the prison, she even learned that Chen Yuanxi's second father, Hongxuan, committed suicide. Before committing suicide, he shot Zhang Dong, who had been with Chen Yuanxi for more than two years, himself.
Chen Wanxin was imprisoned, Zheng Kai was struggling for life, and although Gu Xi recovered well after the surgery, she was no longer the handsome young lady she was then. Zhang Anan found a job as a music teacher, took Wang Xiang's parents with her, and took Wang Shixiang with her. , living an ordinary and simple life.
Everyone seems to have their own place, living and living their own lives.
She stood in front of Wang Xiang's cemetery, and the past scenes, one after another, went straight into the stars in the sky, the same sky, similar every year, but different every year. As she was about to stand, she actually had the illusion of being lonely and cold.
She was the only one who married the person she seemed to want to marry and lived the life of a well-fed and respected Mrs. Zhao. Her husband was handsome and elegant, and her wealth and prestige were rising. She seemed to be at the peak of her life, enjoying the admiration and admiration of the world, but she didn't know that she was still in the cold.
Zhao Yuan refused to take her to any banquets that required the husband and wife to appear together on the grounds of her poor health after childbirth. On the grounds of busy work, he never took her out except to accompany her children. He could only act as his own parents and Zhao Yuan's When her father-in-law and mother-in-law came, she could only receive Zhao Yuan's care and tenderness for a few days.
She seemed to be isolated from the world.
Shu Xiaoman and Zhao Yuan had been sleeping in separate beds. After coaxing the children, they went back to their rooms. The nanny will lead the child to whose bedroom he wants to sleep with. For fear of delaying Zhao Yuan's work, she had been taking care of the noisy Meng Xi since she was a child. Mengyuan, who was originally silent, preferred the quietness and simplicity of her father's study, and became increasingly reticent. In her spare time, she took care of the room carefully, for fear that the children would tear down everything related to Lin Wenxi. Otherwise, Zhao Yuan would get angry alone in the room, or stay away for several nights.
He was enduring it, and so was she. In the couple's life of more than a year, they never experienced any honeymoon, and fell into the deep pool of eternal silence.
In fact, even if they were in the same bed before, it was more than just a strange dream. Zhao Yuan could not indulge in him at any time. Zhao Yuan couldn't understand such pain. He gave Shu Xiaoman enough freedom, but also gave Shu Xiaoman enough to fall.
She thought of Instructor Zhang during military training, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, seriously training Zhao Yuan and Lin Wenxi.
She remembered Zhao Yuan shouting to Lin Wenxi: "One, one, two, two, two, one."
She thought of the blood-colored eyes drawn by the two people, the sound of Dongchuan's piano, and the wedding of Yun Che and Zhu Ziping. She thought of Zhu Ziping's words: "If two boys or two girls fall in love, please never break them up. Because their love requires more and more courage."
She finally remembered that Zhang Anan had told her after Shu Xiaoman got married.
"Xiaoman, I haven't finished telling you the story before."
"Brother Xi, there was a girl who loved him and she waited for him for eight years. It wasn't until he told her in person that he fell in love with the boy who once traveled far away for him that she let go and pursued her. Her own happiness. She finally let go. She married a good man and lived happily..."
Wenxi has always been alone. . . And he tied his man to his side with his child.
Xiang, you finally understand. But I still don’t understand.
Shu Xiaoman's tears slowly seeped into the cold cement cemetery. Somehow, two drops of water seeped out from the tombstone, which looked like tears falling in heaven.
Shu Xiaoman often saw a lonely figure walking silently in a large snowfield. The sky was full of wind and snow. He was getting farther and farther away, but she knew that he was always there. . .
Shu Xiaoman left suddenly. After taking an overdose of sleeping pills, he threw himself into the lake and committed suicide.
Zhao Yuan discovered in the medical records in her drawer that she had already suffered from severe depression, and he had never set foot in this room before except to see her children.
A suicide note was sent home a week later.
The last sentence: "Wang Xiang's death is finally clear, and I don't know if I should be clear at the moment of imminent death. But, A Yuan, at least you are clear.
This feeling can be recalled later, but it was already at a loss.
Xiaoman's masterpiece. "
After Zhao Yuan read the letter, he held his head tightly and covered himself with the quilt. From within the quilt, a dull and suffocating cry could be heard.
Just WeChat and phone calls were all blocked by Chen Yuanxi. In the past, in the past, maybe a phone call or a few WeChat messages could make meeting each other happen in an instant. Don't you know how far away the beautiful person is at this moment
Zhao Yuan returned to Tianfu Township, and he asked Liu Lanhua to be a nail household and not to demolish the house. He was brought to tears by Liu Lanhua's words.
"Even if our house is not demolished and other houses are demolished and rebuilt, this place will no longer be the original place."
In Zhao Yuan's heart, the shadows of many people flashed across his mind.
He passed by the original township government compound, which had become a community. He saw many small
The children were playing there, each holding their mobile phones and clicking and drawing. However, the poplar tree was finally cut down and uprooted because it blocked the access of vehicles in the community.
He has been to the lotus pond. The lotus pond has been filled up, and bungalows have been built on it. The moon is melting in the courtyard, and the breeze is blowing in the catkin pond.
He had been to the small school on the top of the mountain, where a tall communication tower had been demolished and built.
He has been to Yangzi County, the home where he once lived, which has been donated to a welfare home free of charge as a branch of the nursing home.
He has been to the small town where he once lived. The transfer procedures there were complete and it has been replaced by a new home.
Zheng Kai's family.
"Akai, I'll leave these two children to you." Zhao Yuan said very painfully, and then whispered to Mengyuan Mengxi who kept wiping his eyes: "Baby, daddy, go find your daddy Lin, there may be something wrong with you." If you can't come back for a while, your Uncle Kai will love you very much."
"Dad, you have to come back soon, Mom... Mom doesn't want us anymore." Meng Xi's eyes were red and swollen from crying, but Mengyuan wept and didn't speak.
"Mengxi, dear, this is your aunt Wanxin, and this is your uncle. They will also love you." Zhao Yuan reluctantly let go of his hand.
"Dad lied to me" Zhao Mengxi cried loudly: "Dad's sister is called aunt. Dad has no sister. My sister and dad look nothing alike..."
"Mengxi, dear, I am your father Lin's sister." Chen Wanxin took out a cherry-flavored candy with tears in her eyes and gave one to each of Mengyuan and Mengxi.
"A Yuan, you have really decided." Zheng Kai sent him far away.
"Children, please, I miss them and will come back to see you... You and Wanxin must be happy." Zhao Yuan suddenly turned around and saw a pair of children leaning against the door and looking at him, unconsciously , couldn't help but tears falling down.
"Remember, bring Gu Xi back with you. Wanxin and I miss him very much." Zheng Kai's eyes turned red.
a year ago.
Small town jail.
"Brother, why don't you tell him about Zhang Shouxi?"
"No body could be found in the bastard pond for several days. Your people heard that an unclaimed homeless man was cremated there, so they ran to take the ashes and claimed that it was Zhang Dong's. They lost all his money." The ashes have been taken away, how are you going to break this problem?"
"But where is Zhang Shouxi?"
"Where has he gone? I wonder if he has injured his brain and lost his memory. He only remembers that his name is Zhang Shouxi. Are you going to capture him?"
I have two ID cards, one is Zhang Dong and the other is Zhang Shouxi. Remember, Zhang Dong, if Zhang Dong dies, there will be no such person in the world."
. . .
half year ago.
"Gu Xi, Sister Wanxin is going to be released from prison soon. Please come with me and let her think what she thinks." Chen Yuanxi asked.
"I know she and Brother Kai will be kind to me, extremely nice... But Brother Kai, I'm too tired. Sister Wanxin and Brother Kai have already recognized Wang Xiang's parents, and they have to go there often Take care of An An, do you want Brother Kai and her to live like this for the rest of their lives?"
"Are you still thinking about Brother Kai?" Chen Yuanxi asked with a smile.
"Why don't I think about it? He left something in my heart. However, I have preserved it very well. I just hope that he and Sister Wanxin will be well in this world. They will always be fine." Gu Xi smiled, Eyes red.
Their backs disappeared into the deepest part of the sunset together.
half year later.
A train heads to the easternmost city.
Zhao Yuan heard that a temple there had held an event, and news about Huang Xiya had appeared.
He held two small statues of their reunion, full of hope, and leaned against the car window. Outside the window, spring, summer, autumn, and winter were whispering and changing alternately.
Another train, heading to the westernmost city.
In the car, two girls were talking happily.
A girl said: "Why are you so excited?"
Another girl said: "The CEO of a listed company in G City who came out half a year ago, named Zhao Yuan, posted on Weibo that he was going east to find his lover's mother. His lover's mother should have been found."
Another girl said: "He is so handsome"
The girl added: "I always feel that the person opposite us... looks like the person Zhao Yuan mentioned..."
The two girls were busy quietly taking photos and leaving messages on Weibo. The two boys across from each other leaned side by side and fell into a deep sleep. Tears slowly overflowed from the eyes of one of the boys.
From his unfastened headset, this singing voice came faintly:
"The world is like God's game,
Create him and her,
Also created me and you.
The sun is on the left,
Put the moonlight on the right,
He forgot us in the gap between the sun and the moon.
Black light, hot desertion.
You are the sun and I am the rain,
You are the light and I am the shadow.
Ordinary black hair,
Average eyes.
The sky is always shedding tears,
The joys and sorrows are even more ruthless.
Does anyone know about Mo Shangyu
A time that can never be reached.
city lights,
They are wandering stars.
I am in Sanshengshi,
Heaven is endless. . . "