The rain was pattering outside. Since the beginning of winter, it rarely rains here.
I remember that it was also at this time three years ago that Zhengjuan told me that her parents were in danger and she had to go back to get married and take refuge with her husband's family in Huashi.
I once heard her talk about that man.
They had known each other since junior high school, and it could be said that they were friends until they were in their first year of high school when he confessed his love to Zhengjuan. But Zhengjuan has already met me.
I remember that I was surprised to meet Zhengjuan. At that time, she had short hair and wore a vest. She was competing with a group of young men on the basketball court. I thought she was a boy. When I saw her killing everyone, I couldn't help but dance so hard. high. As a result, when she turned around, I felt something was wrong, as if her chest was bulging. I looked at her doubtfully, and she walked towards me. I accidentally reached out and touched her two bulging little balloons. , it didn’t feel like it was real, so I pinched it again.
She spread her hands and said with a smile: "Girl, do you want me to take it off for you to see?"
I nodded stupidly, and then she went to the women's bathroom with me. I saw her smooth skin, compact body, and those two balls that were even more bulging than mine. I couldn't bear it. I opened my mouth and took a bite, still wanting to test whether it was real or not, and then she carried me all the way back to the dormitory like a chicken.
"Tell me, is it true?" Zhengjuan put her hands on her hips, kicked on my bed, grabbed my collar, and asked loudly with her eyebrows raised. I saw anger on her face, so fierce that I couldn't help but cry out in fear.
This time she looked relaxed, hugged me, and kept apologizing.
Later, I discovered that girls can feel more secure than boys. At least, she understands the pain I feel every time I get my period. She knows the structure of our bodies, our thoughts, and everything about us as well as I do. . .
On the first day of the man confessed to her, she asked the real kung fu to see the true chapter. The man obviously did not have any martial arts, but he also gritted his teeth and Zhengjuan. . Zhengjuan then pulled me over and said, "This is the person I love." I saw that the man was so depressed that he almost cried.
What surprised me was that after he returned, he studied hard and started practicing Taekwondo and Sanda. He came back half a year later and passed a few moves under Zhengjuan's hands.
Every six months thereafter, he would be beaten to the ground by Zhengjuan, but he refused to give up no matter what.
It wasn't until he was a sophomore at Norio University that after five years of hard training, he finally used the unique advantages of a man's body to knock Zhengjuan to the ground, but he hugged her and apologized repeatedly.
I know he loves Zhengjuan, just like I love her too. I don't reject the idea of having one more person in the world who loves her, so he and I get along very well.
He finally understood Zhengjuan's intentions and decided to give us freedom. But at that time, Zhengjuan's parents and grandma forced her to separate from me. They forced her very hard, so I found him and wanted him to be with Zhengjuan. I decided to quit. During the five years that I have known each other and fallen in love with Zhengjuan, she has always protected me and everything about me, but I have no ability to give back to her, and she has been implicated in this way.
In fact, my family is not
Not long after college started, my mother was so angry that I had a myocardial infarction, but even so, I still chose to be with Zhengjuan. I could only secretly go back to see my mother, get scolded by her, cry, and then come back.
I told Zhengjuan that I took hundreds of thousands of their family's money, was satisfied, and was ready to leave. I lied to her and said that I had a child in my hometown and that I had a deep relationship with him.
Zhengjuan couldn't stand it any longer, took powder, got on the road, and got into a car accident.
The man tried his best, but the relationship failed to get closer to Xiaocheng. Wanxin also stopped helping. If Wenxi hadn't used his tricks, Zhengjuan might not have been able to escape jail.
Zhengjuan and I have been in Shanghai for five years, and we thought our lives would continue like this.
I know that the man is still unmarried.
I know he doesn't believe that two girls can live this life together.
I know he's still waiting.
He did wait until he did, and he really shouldn't believe it.
I used to think that Wenxi and Zhengjuan's parents had reached some kind of agreement, maybe to obtain some evidence, forcing Zhengjuan to go back and get married. Although I was very sad, I kept urging and supervising Zhengjuan to get married. My parents are the elders, not to mention that my life is in the hands of others. Later it was discovered that both Zhengjuan and her parents were set up by Wenxi. His purpose was just to obtain evidence. In order to further force Zhengjuan's parents to produce evidence about Chen Tianjiao, Wenxi used Xiaoman unscrupulously. . . .
I no longer learned to hate. I only knew that as long as Zhengjuan got married, the man's family could provide her with a lot of protection. For example, no one would maliciously harass us anymore, and no one would dare to take her parents' lives easily. Make blackmail. I became Zhengjuan's bride and personally escorted her to the bridal chamber.
A year later, I found out from Zhengjuan’s news that she was pregnant with a child. I knew she must have been forced, and I couldn't imagine what she had gone through. I speculated that with children, her status in the family would be better protected, and the more support she could give her parents. Who instilled such an idea in her, or Shi Ye’s fate, she really needs to do this, it doesn’t matter to me anymore, I can only stay here quietly, imagining that she is still here , how to repair water pipes, how to clean the courtyard, plant her favorite birch trees, spread fertilizer for the vegetable garden, and all the chores of life when she was still alive, I gradually learned.
It wasn’t until those who had been wronged were brought to justice, and those who did evil were severely punished, that I realized that everything in Wenxi was due to helplessness. I put away all my grievances
, contact him.
But he was still wandering around the small town. He said that he might have fallen in love with another person, the original instructor, Zhang Dong. I heard him cry very hard, but he didn't tell anyone the details. He only told me when he was hurt.
It turns out that he and I, like Zhengjuan, Xiaoman, Wang Xiang and Wanxin, in the end, all the persistence and belief that we once had have become lost.
It was another spring, summer, autumn and winter, and I saw Zhao Yuan coming out to everyone. He was going to look for Wenxi, and I realized that Wenxi and I had chosen the same path. I also saw Zhengjuan asking around where I was.
I only hide myself deeper, deeper. I once asked An An, and An An said: "Actually, I really want to stand in your position. I really want to say that the only person Juanjuan loves is you, and the person you love is also her. You should do whatever it takes to protect her. Together. However, the most important reason that allows Zhengjuan to give birth to a child for a man must not be the so-called current situation or external oppression. It must be that this man loves her more than anything else, and there is no sincere love. Feelings can't be moved, even if Zheng Kai disagrees with her, he kisses her goodbye in public because of Gu Xi. He loves her, and he must love their child to the core. Even if Juanjuan feels empty and lost somewhere in her heart, at least, She should be happy except for true love.”
In fact, I have understood my own thoughts for a long time. I just hope that except for Wang Xiang, everything can be clear and rational. Please help me confirm it.
Zhengjuan came out to find me, temporarily leaving her lovely son behind.
I saw the man's message under her Weibo: "Find her, know that she is safe, tell her that I miss her too, and tell her that our world is more important because of you."
He said this sincerely. He is a rare man. Maybe he doesn’t have many strengths, but I know that for Zhengjuan, he can always persist in learning Taekwondo. He is working hard to learn for Zhengjuan. a management, and strive to take over the family business as soon as possible. When does one become better just because another person is around.
I admit that I cannot live without Zhengjuan, but I also know that there is another man in this world who cannot live without his wife, and there is another boy who cannot live without his mother.
Even if it’s one to two, I still lose.
It’s just that I don’t know what the significance of my appearance is.
Asking myself, I have no way to live with Zhengjuan anymore, and I have no way to contact her as neither a girlfriend nor a lover. I am afraid of disturbing her family relationship and her love of being loved.
Unexpectedly, just as the rain was pattering, two men broke into my sight.
One is Wen Xi and the other is Gu Xi.
Maybe we were both lost in the world, maybe we were just escaping or feeling sad. He guessed my whereabouts through a phone call in the past.
The rain stopped that night.
The cold moon was like frost, covering the bamboo forest. I pushed the piano out of the forest, and in the cold wind, I listened to Wen Xi play for me a song about the night when the torch played the flute. It was so affectionate.
"Back then, the moon was as cold as water, but today the cold moon is silent. The same piece of music seems to have a different mood every time it is played." Wen Xi said with a smile.
Then he asked me to go back.
"Either cut it off or start it." Wen Xi said firmly.
I realized that he was different from me. Once he chose to leave, all messages from Zhao Yuan would be cut off. Not only Zhao Yuan, but also brothers like Zheng Kai and blood relatives like Wan Xin could no longer be contacted. Fuck him.
I told him that Xiaoman died, perhaps in order to use his death to fulfill the wish for him and Zhao Yuan.
I asked him, would you choose to go further
As wise as Wenxi, he lowered his head in silence. He reopened Zhao Yuan's Weibo, which he had not visited for a year, and only then did he learn about Xiaoman's death and Zhao Yuan's departure.
"Poor those children." Wen Xi just said that, holding Gu Xi's hand tightly.
"Maybe, after I find the answer, I want to know whether I have ever loved someone. Before he died, he must have been very clear that I had never loved him, so he chose to protect his oath and died in Hongxuan Under the gun of my uncle, but now, I am confused. If I don't see this answer clearly, I will have no face to return to my hometown. I have no face. Facing the dead, he gave me everything, even his life... "
I held Wen Xi's face, kissed him gently and listened to the tears on his face as he talked about the past in the fields.
Scene after scene. . .
Wenxi stayed for a day and then left in a hurry.
When the morning glow comes out, Wenxi leaves, and when the sunset glow sets, Zhao Yuan comes. I remembered inexplicably that participating in business was a disaster that meant we would never see each other again.
I can only tell Zhao Yuan frankly that Wenxi’s next step is probably to go to the prairie of Latin America, perhaps to the Mexican plateau. There are so many countries in Latin America, I am really not sure where he will go.
Now that Zhao Yuan has arrived, my hiding place may have been exposed, and I should probably move to the next location.
Looking at Zhao Yuan's dejected back, I felt deep pain in my heart. Just one day, Wen Xi and Zhao Yuan, just one day
I suddenly understood that the rain on Mo Shang was so blurry that no one could see clearly. . .