Chen Xingze thought that he did not meet Mi Sheng very often. Of course, this was a conclusion based on Lu Hao's comparison. He didn't know that for Mi Sheng, this was completely "frequent", and even reached a dangerous critical point.
"Can you stand running like this?" Jo reminded Mi Sheng when he was enjoying it. "I used to call him here, but now you've been there so many times."
Mi Sheng: "The kid is going to class."
Jo: "Don't you want to go to work? It's not that I'm nosy. You used to be unwilling to spend an extra penny when dealing with people, but now you have all your spare money on him."
Mi Sheng: "He's still a student, so he can't be allowed to spend money."
Jo: "Have you forgotten what's going on in your family? Besides, Chen Xingze is so much younger than you, and he still loves that straight man. Do you think you have a chance?"
Mi Sheng flicked the cigarette, "When did I say I was interested in him?"
Jo sneered.
Mi Sheng made a small face and turned his head away from him.
"Life is so boring..." Mi Sheng was lying on the bar, like a lazy cat in the afternoon, complaining softly, "You can treat me as spending money to buy a dream to relieve stress, okay?"
"You play yourself carefully."
Mi Sheng yawned and said sleepily, "No way..."
A sentence of spending money to buy a dream made Mi Sheng find a reasonable excuse for his emotions. He contacted Chen Xingze more and more actively, and wanted him to help no matter what difficulties he encountered.
Chen Xingze was different from others. He kept his mouth shut when he came to help. Mi Sheng's mishaps and abnormal work and rest will all be talked about. He will also criticize Mi Sheng's chaotic private life and ramble like an old mother. Mi Sheng also felt annoyed occasionally, and when he was in a hurry, he would scold Chen Xingze away. But the next time he needed help, he was the first to find him.
Like chronic poisoning.
Mi Sheng knew that Chen Xingze did not agree with his own way of life, but he still tried his best to help him, which made Mi Sheng unable to stop.
The worst conflict between them occurred on a winter day.
At that time, Chen Xingze had a heavy workload and was preparing for the art exam. And Mi Jie's boyfriend's work has been finalized, and he is ready to take Mi Zhenguo away. The relationship between Mi Sheng and his family has always been very rigid, but when it comes to parting, Mi Sheng is still very reluctant. He wanted to give Mi Jie a sum of money, but unfortunately his savings had already been used up.
Coincidentally, the yellow producer with a unique hobby was in Beijing. Mi Sheng bit his teeth and contacted him through Gao Xiwen. Producer Huang was obsessed with Mi Sheng, and Mi Sheng himself was in a hurry to spend the money. The two hit it off and it was another fierce battle. This time, Mi Sheng was very dedicated and persisted until the last moment, full of scars and incomplete.
The injury was much more serious than expected. He called Jo and asked him to come to Beijing to pick him up. Jo didn't know what to do, and gave Chen Xingze the address of Mi Sheng.
When Chen Xingze arrived at the hotel, he saw that Mi Sheng was half-dead, and immediately took out his mobile phone to call the police. Mi Sheng stopped him with the last of his strength.
"Don't call the police."
"You're already like this and still haven't called the police?"
"...What do you call the police if you want to?"
"what?"
Chen Xingze couldn't believe it. Mi Sheng tried to help him stand up, but he pushed him away. Mi Sheng fell to the ground, his eyes black from the pain.
"It's okay for you to stop when it's enough." Chen Xingze shouted at him, "Do you have to be so arrogant!"
Self-deprecating.
This is the most serious word Chen Xingze has ever scolded Mi Sheng.
This was also the first time that Chen Xingze left Mi Sheng, who needed help, where he was and left alone.
Mi Sheng sat on the ground for a while, and finally realized that Chen Xingze would not come back, he picked up the phone tremblingly, and called Jo.
"Why let him come?" His voice trembled, "I didn't provoke you."
Jo didn't apologize, but said indifferently, "I'm trying to make you sober. If you haven't been to Beijing so diligently in the past six months, can't you get the money now?"
Mi Sheng wanted to get angry, and wanted to scold that Lao Tzu was willing to take care of you. But the current tragic situation tells him that even if he shouts out, there is no deterrent.
Mi Sheng hung up the phone and dressed with an empty head.
While he was putting on his shirt, the door was slammed. Mi Sheng shook his hands and did not fasten his buttons. He came to the door and put his eyes on the cat's eyes to see that it was Chen Xingze who had returned.
Chen Xingze raised his head the moment he covered the cat's eye. They looked at each other. Chen Xingze said, "Open the door."
The buttons that Mi Sheng did not fasten were all fastened by Chen Xingze. Mi Sheng kept watching Chen Xingze, watching him treat his wounds. The body was already numb from the pain, but Mi Sheng didn't make a sound.
There was silence in the room. After a while, Mi Sheng saw tears falling from Chen Xingze's cheeks, dripping on the blanket, and seeping into the gap, leaving no trace at all.
"I didn't cry, why are you crying?" Mi Sheng asked.
Chen Xingze lowered his head to put on socks for him, and Mi Sheng's ankle had deep rope prints.
"We've known each other for a long time..."
"yes."
Chen Xingze: "Before, I just found a random number on the Internet. When I contacted you, I didn't have any hope. But you became friends with me and told me a lot of things I didn't understand. Although you lied I am, but I also like the fake stories."
Chen Xingze helped Mi Sheng put on his socks, and then helped him put on his shoes. Mi Sheng was like a baby, and he let him do it.
"I'm only familiar with friends in your circle. You are older than me. I use you as a reference for many things. Seeing you like this, I can't help but wonder if I will become like this in the future."
"Impossible." Mi Sheng interrupted him, "How could you become like this, don't think about it, it's impossible."
Chen Xingze: "So I always try my best to help you. I hope you can be happy. If people with conditions like you can't have a happy ending, then I really have no confidence in the future."
Chen Xingze lowered his head, which made the tears flow faster.
"I beg you, you should give me some encouragement, okay? Let me see something good. Lu Hao hasn't contacted me for more than a month, and I can't find him. I don't know what's wrong. He is not The kind of people who suddenly disappear, but if they get enlightened, they might not be able to.”
Mi Sheng looked at the sobbing teenager in front of him. He closed his eyes and his eyelashes were full of tears. Those beautiful hands kept wiping away tears, but they couldn't finish them. The pressure accumulated for a long time was released, and Chen Xingze was fragile and uneasy.
Mi Sheng stretched out his arms and gently hugged the boy in his arms.
"It's okay, it's okay..."
He comforted him with the softest voice, but there was an inexplicable joy in his heart.
He doesn't look for you anymore
It's better not to find it.
Tears seeped into the wound, and the sting hurt, but Mi Sheng thought it was okay.
Fighting poison with poison is just right.
That day, Chen Xingze sent Mi Sheng back to Jincheng. About a week later, Chen Xingze received news from Lu Hao.
Chen Xingze asked Lu Hao why he had not been in contact for so long.
Lu Hao said something happened at home.
Chen Xingze asked what was the matter.
Lu Hao said that his mother was gone.
Chen Xingze didn't understand what the word "go" meant. He typed out the words "Where are you going?" on his mobile phone, and suddenly stopped a second before sending it.
Zhao Shan suffered a heart attack in mid-January. It is said that she was alone at home when she became ill, and her family returned late.
Chen Xingze's mouth rotted away in just five minutes.
Variables always happen when people are caught off guard. Before this day, Chen Xingze never felt that Lu Hao would encounter any insurmountable obstacles in his life. Even if he was always innocent and stupid, Chen Xingze felt that the world could not hurt him.
He had heard from Lu Hao that Zhao Shan's heart was not very good, but just like Wu Xingzhi always said that he was not in good health, and Chen He always felt that he was getting old, he thought that the words of adults were just words.
As soon as he closed his eyes, he could see Zhao Shan's smiling face when he drove hundreds of kilometers to bring him roses, and he could smell the aroma of the coffee in front of them during their last conversation with one breath. How could he trust that person who asked him for help in a very gentle voice Auntie is no longer there.
And what he couldn't believe, how could Lu Hao, who only knew giggles all the time, believe it.
"Actually, I couldn't cry at first. I always felt that someone was joking with me. She would call me in the next second. I've been waiting."
Lu Hao had never spoken in such a low voice, like an adult.
The moment Chen Xingze heard the voice, he knew that those dreamy fairy tales were gone.
The person he loves the most, in the cruelest way, has grown up in an instant.
Chen Xingze didn't know what to say. When he felt the grief, he knew that comfort was useless.
Lu Hao asked Chen Xingze for help and went to see his father at home.
"My father is not in good health. I can't go back now. Can you help me see him?"
At that time, Chen Xingze was in the critical stage of the art examination, and there was a school examination soon, but when Lu Hao spoke, Chen Xingze agreed without thinking.
After Mi Sheng found out about the situation, despite Jo's objection, he dragged his still unrecovered body to accompany Chen Xingze to Lu Hao's house.
That was a bad experience.
When they arrived, there was a fierce quarrel in Lu Hao's house.
Chen Xingze heard from Lu Hao that they all depended on Zhao Shan for their fortune. When Zhao Shan first retired, the conditions were not good. She looked average and had no money. And Lu Hao's father is very handsome, and his family is considered middle-class. At first, the man's family disagreed, but Lu Hao's father fell in love with Zhao Shan, and the two eloped, and only returned after Lu Hao. When raw rice is cooked, the family has to agree.
In the days that followed, Zhao Shan managed the family business by herself. She bought several houses for Lu Hao's uncles and Lu Hao's grandmother, and everyone lived a comfortable life.
Now that the mainstay of the family has fallen, the days of pleasure are over, and everyone is fighting for the ruins and wreckage.
Chen Xingze had never seen such a posture before, so he didn't dare to let out the air. And Mi Sheng had long known that the world was hot and cold. He kept Chen Xingze behind him and asked Lu Hao's father to speak alone.
Lu Hao's father was the only one who didn't join the quarrel. He was already sick, but now he is even more haggard because of the death of his lover.
"Thank you for visiting me. I'm not feeling well these days. I couldn't speak for the first two days, so I didn't call Lu Hao. Don't worry, I already contacted him this morning. Your aunt Zhao often I mentioned you at home and said that you are a rare good child, and she likes you."
Chen Xingze was so sad that he said to Lu Hao's father, "Uncle, please mourn."
The boy's voice seemed so sincere in the hoarse quarrel behind him, Lu Hao's father felt sad, suppressed his crying, and said what was in his heart: "I really want to go with her..."
Chen Xingze cried and said, "No, what about Lu Hao, think about him."
Lu Hao's father said, "Lu Hao has been clamoring to come back, saying that he is reluctant to keep his mother here." He pressed his forehead, "But I don't want him to come back, I really don't want him to see the family become like this already."
For a long time after leaving, Chen Xingze's ears were filled with shouts. He took out his mobile phone, called Lu Hao on the road, and told him that he had gone to his house to see it, everything was normal, and his uncle was in good condition.
Mi Sheng stood quietly beside Chen Xingze, watching him pretend to talk to Lu Hao with ease.
When it came to the last time he couldn't put it on, Chen Xingze squatted on the side of the road with his body in his arms.
The cold wind blew, and the vegetation withered.
"Don't come back..." Chen Xingze said with all his strength, "Lu Hao, don't come back, stay in the United States."
After a long time, Lu Hao seemed to say sorry, but Chen Xingze couldn't hear it clearly.