Chen Xingze and You Xiaolin were assigned to different junior high schools according to the school district.
Chen Xingze has worked hard for this, and he wants his father to find someone to transfer him to You Xiaolin's junior high school.
"Yutian Middle School is far from home, and it's not particularly good. Why go there?"
It's not a question of whether the school is good or not at all. Chen Xingze didn't care about the school at all, but unfortunately his parents did. No matter how much they spoiled Chen Xingze on weekdays, they would still be consistent in handling key issues.
Unfortunately, Chen Xingze separated from You Xiaolin.
It really is like a year.
Because of this jerky love, Chen Xingze matured more precociously than children of the same age, and felt the entanglement of emotions at a young age. He knew what it means to be sad and mediocre before a girl.
As soon as he entered junior high school, his parents bought Chen Xingze a mobile phone, and many students in the class envied him. It's a pity that Chen Xingze is different from other children in this respect. He is not very interested in these things, because he knows that You Xiaolin definitely does not have a mobile phone. Even if he does, he will not waste time on the phone.
After getting to know You Xiaolin, Chen Xingze developed the habit of keeping a diary. When he couldn't hold back his thoughts, he would look up his previous diary and look back on the past bit by bit. Can't stop crying and laughing.
Although he went to different schools, Chen Xingze's feelings for You Xiaolin did not diminish in the slightest. On the day of their graduation, Chen Xingze made a promise to You Xiaolin that they would contact once a week.
So the phone call time on Saturday became Chen Xingze's emotional sustenance. Every time he waited in front of the phone early, while reciting the number that he recited, he looked at the clock, and when he felt that it was almost the same, he dialed the phone.
His heart was beating like a drum, and he had to chat in the most ordinary voice.
These Chen Xingze have long been used to it.
The topics they talked about were very common and mainly revolved around their studies. In fact, Chen Xingze was not interested at all, but he wanted to hear You Xiaolin's voice. This topic was the easiest for him to talk about.
After chatting for ten minutes, You Xiaolin's mother would come to urge him. Chen Xingze hung up the phone reluctantly, and immediately began to look forward to the next Saturday.
Life would be great if there was a fast-forward button.
Sometimes Chen Xingze would also sneak into Yutian Middle School, but he didn't tell You Xiaolin. He just stood in the corner and spied the campus. Maybe because of someone he likes, he is very kind to Yutian Middle School, and thinks that the flowers and plants on the roadside are better than his own school.
One day, Chen Xingze came to Yutian Middle School and waited at the door for a while, when a boy ran out of the campus.
"Hey!"
"Zhang Yao." Chen Xingze greeted him, and the two walked outside together. It's lunch time now, and Chen Xingze came to find Zhang Yao for dinner. The reason he gave to Zhang Yao was that he did not go to school today on sick leave, and passed by after seeing his illness.
The real reason is that he misses You Xiaolin.
Zhang Yao was carefully selected by Chen Xingze. When he first entered junior high school, he used his perfect popularity to find out several friends who were in Yutian Middle School. Chen Xingze selected Zhang Yao from them, a person who was in the same class as You Xiaolin, very kind and a little silly.
"Let me treat you, what would you like to eat?"
"So good?! Then I want a hamburger!"
Chen Xingze entertained him at KFC opposite the school. He asked a lot about You Xiaolin, and Zhang Yao knew everything.
"You really pay attention to him. But yes, he has always been the first, and the teacher also pays attention to him. I didn't expect him to be famous and go to other schools."
Chen Xingze likes this kind of brainless person.
"Why don't you eat? Are you sick and have no appetite?"
He has enough spiritual food.
After dinner, Zhang Yao went back to school, and he never forgot to thank him. Chen Xingze maintained a kind expression and waved goodbye to him.
"Ah, my face is going to freeze with laughter..."
Chen Xingze stretched and returned.
It was a windless and lazy afternoon, the birds didn't fly, the insects didn't call, and everything went according to plan.
But life will not always be peaceful.
The days of breaking the calm are coming soon.
In the second semester of junior high school, Chen Xingze was dragged by Wu Xingzhi to participate in the piano competition and accidentally won the first prize. Chen He was very happy and bought him a DVD player as a reward.
Chen He also bought a bunch of Discovery documentaries for Chen Xingze, and Wu Xingzhi also gave him CDs of many foreign performers. But Chen Xingze was too lazy to look at these things, and he kept pressing the case after he bought the player.
Then one day of school cleaning and a half day off. After Chen Xingze finished his work, he went to eat in the opposite shopping mall, and when he was wandering around after dinner, he came across a stall selling pirated CDs. He remembered the DVD player at home that he hadn't used a few times, and decided to buy a disc and try it out.
He picked up a collection of recommendations at random.
When no one was at home, Chen Xingze went to the refrigerator to get some juice, and then went back to the room to pull out the DVD player.
The sound of the machine starting made him a little drowsy, and he yawned, flipping through the wrapping paper in the gap between the machine-reading disc, the instructions on the back clearly printed—
Part 1: Ang Lee's "Brokeback Mountain".
At every critical intersection in life, there are divine arrangements.
Chen Xingze didn't know when he was immersed in the movie. When he came back to his senses, it was already dusk, and he burst into tears.
Chen Xingze couldn't describe his feelings. He used to have difficulty expressing his love for You Xiaolin, but now it's completely different from that time. This movie seems to show him a different new world, who has been exploring An Ning all the time.
He buried his head in the pillow and cried for two full hours. The machine had finished playing the next movie, and he didn't respond. He cried until the end, trembling all over, and his feet were unsteady when he came down.
Before his parents came back, Chen Xingze left home and secretly went to a nearby Internet cafe.
Because it was the first time to come to this kind of place, Chen Xingze didn't even understand the basic Internet process, but at this time his inner desire was greater than everything, he asked the people next to him for help, and quickly learned how to operate.
He frantically searched for everything about the movie.
Then, he naturally found the word "homosexual"—
He stared for a long time.
This was the first time he heard the words that should have been unfamiliar, but it made him feel extremely familiar and kind.
He decided to buy the DVD of "Brokeback Mountain", not the cheap one on the roadside, but the genuine one with the best picture quality, so as to be worthy of such a perfect movie and the touch it brought him. and shock.
He wants to buy it and give it to You Xiaolin.
Chen Xingze found out that this movie has not been released in China, but some DVD stores may sell it. So in the days that followed, Chen Xingze went to almost all the DVD stores in the city, and finally found the movie in a shop opened by a foreigner that specialized in European and American video discs.
Chen Xingze spent a week's food expenses to buy the DVD. He was laughing all the way, holding the DVD, like holding a bouquet of flowers.
Chen Xingze sent the DVD to You Xiaolin by express.
He calculated the time. You Xiaolin should receive the DVD on Friday, without delaying a week of study. After watching the movie in the evening, they could just call on Saturday.
He thought well.
It's a pity that he didn't wait for the call that Saturday. When he called, it was You Xiaolin's mother who answered and told him that You Xiaolin went to school early in the morning for self-study.
Chen Xingze was a little disappointed, he thought it might be a bad time. The next week he lived like a year, and finally made it to Saturday, but he didn't get a call.
You Xiaolin went to school again.
Chen Xingze couldn't wait any longer, he hadn't heard his voice for half a month. Chen Xingze went to Yutian Middle School. He was not a student of Yutian. The guard did not let him in, so he waited at the door.
It was a cloudy day, and it was a little cold. Chen Xingze was afraid of missing You Xiaolin, so he never dared to change places. He waited at the door for four hours and finally got to You Xiaolin. The moment he saw his figure, Chen Xingze was elated.
"You Xiaolin!"
You Xiaolin was walking forward with his schoolbag on his back, when he heard someone calling him, he was startled, looked up and saw Chen Xingze, his brows suddenly wrinkled, and he walked around him.
Chen Xingze grabbed him.
"Why, you don't know me after you haven't seen me for a few days?"
You Xiaolin shook his head.
Chen Xingze saw that something was wrong with him. "What's wrong?"
He still shook his head.
Chen Xingze remembered something and asked him, "Have you received the things I sent you? Why didn't you tell me, and didn't go home for two weeks, what happened?"
You Xiaolin suddenly looked straight at Chen Xingze, Chen Xingze felt a chill in his heart from what was in his eyes, as if he had a premonition.
"You ask me what's wrong? I also want to ask you what's wrong, how can you look at such disgusting things?"
Chen Xingze was stunned.
Life will not always be peaceful.
The ignorant years will eventually end, in the way you wish, or not.
That was the first time Chen Xingze had quarreled with You Xiaolin, the first time he spoke to him in a very stern voice, the first time he was not stroking, but grabbed his arm with an inescapable force.
It was also the first time I shed tears in front of him.
"Do you say it again?" Chen Xingze's voice trembled with anger, "Who are you calling disgusting? Say it again!"
You Xiaolin was not to be outdone, just like when he corrected Chen Xingze's wrong questions on weekdays. "Why do you look at this kind of thing, it's so disgusting that I can't eat for a few days. You don't go to school well every day, so you can't figure out what to do. What if these things are seen by your parents and your teacher?" You Xiaolin was also very excited, Talking very fast. "Don't worry, I've already folded the disc and threw it away, don't mess around anymore!"
Chen Xingze was stunned.
He couldn't shed any tears and turned his head away. When he saw cars passing through the street, he suddenly remembered the bridge in the movie. If he died in an accident like Jack, would You Xiaolin regret it? Will he regret saying such hurtful words to him now
"You don't look at this kind of stuff anymore, or—"
"Apologize."
"what?"
Chen Xingze looked at the busy traffic on the street and whispered, "I want you to apologize to me."
"Chen Xingze?" You Xiaolin didn't seem to understand what he meant, and said worriedly, "Don't do this anymore, you always walk around like this, I'm very worried about you."
Chen Xingze felt that he couldn't stay any longer, otherwise he would definitely faint here.
He stopped a taxi to go home.
There were neon lights outside the car window, You Xiaolin chased after him, shouting something, Chen Xingze closed his eyes.
Chen Xingze fell ill for a while, and his inner demons added to his body, and the high fever persisted. Wu Xingzhi was so anxious that he took him everywhere to see a doctor, but he never got better. In the end, the high fever turned into pneumonia, and Chen Xingze was admitted to the hospital. He was sensitive to the erythromycin drug, and after every injection, he kept vomiting and couldn't eat anything. After a few days, he lost a lot of weight.
Later, Wu Xingzhi inadvertently told him that someone had been calling home to ask for his news.
"Who?"
"You Xiaolin, your best friend."
Chen Xingze contacted Zhang Yao to inquire about the situation. Zhang Yao said that You Xiaolin was in poor condition recently. He had failed the important mock exams and was told many times by the teacher.
Chen Xingze was lying on the hospital bed, with the blue sky and white clouds outside the window, and the fragrance of birds and flowers.
In the same fine weather, he went to You Xiaolin again.
"I'm sorry before, I shouldn't have sent you that kind of thing."
He once asked himself how much he could do to You Xiaolin.
"I just looked fresh, so I thought I'd show it to you too."
He felt he could die for him.
"I only reacted now. Fortunately, you threw it away, and I was afraid of being known."
Since it's okay to die, it shouldn't matter.
Chen Xingze was heartbroken, and he still wanted to chat in the most ordinary voice. He is not very used to it yet, but he believes that one day he will get used to it.
"It scared me to death, I really thought you were a jerk. I haven't been able to read any books recently." You Xiaolin said with a smile, "It's fine, don't do this in the future."
"Hey, um."
Chen Xingze understood one thing that day. Faced with the same thing, different people's feelings may be diametrically opposed, and no one can simply conclude who is right and who is wrong. If he died unexpectedly, You Xiaolin should regret it, but it was not the regret he wanted. He can be Jack, but You Xiaolin can never be Ennis.
Maybe it was a hindsight. On the way back, Chen Xingze thought to himself, when he found that the movie was not allowed to be released in China when he searched in the Internet cafe, when he traveled all over the city and couldn't find a shop that sold this CD When, shouldn't you understand something