The college entrance examination was only a few months away, and it was too late anyway. After discussing with his parents, Chen Xingze decided to repeat his studies for a year.
Wu Xingzhi also contacted the composition teacher of the orchestra to figure out the performance schedule for next year, and spared time to help Chen Xingze take professional courses.
It took about a month to prepare for these things, and Chen Xingze completely changed his face and worked hard. In order to recover, he stopped all his communication and entertainment equipment. He didn't know that Mi Sheng had been searching for him like crazy during this time.
Everyone is urging Mi Sheng, whether it is work or family, but Mi Sheng has a heart on Chen Xingze. He wanted to find a chance to chat with him, otherwise he wouldn't be able to do anything at all.
But Chen Xingze disappeared just like that.
At the beginning, Mi Sheng comforted himself that Chen Xingze should be taking the exam. But exams don't come every day, so you don't need to turn off your phone all the time. After two weeks of waiting, Mi Sheng decided to go to Chen Xingze's city.
Jo blocked the door of the bar and refused to let him go, and he listed to Mi Sheng what he should do. "How much work has you done in your studio? Have you found a good nanny for your mother? You still have to find that child before you finish so many things, Mi Sheng, calm down, okay?"
Mi Sheng nodded obediently, "Okay, I know. When I talk to him, I'll do it right after the talk."
"Mi Sheng!" Jo squeezed his arm with hatred. "What did you say back then? It was just a dream, so wake up now. You are so different from him, do you think he might want to go with you?"
"But I have something to tell him, I have to talk to him." Mi Sheng repeated the same words over and over again, his voice getting lower and lower, he raised his head and looked at Jo pleadingly, "Will you let me go to him? This time, I couldn't find it and I really gave up."
So Jo accompanied Mi Sheng to Chen Xingze's city. Mi Sheng didn't know where Chen Xingze lived, so he went to his school and waited. At that time, Chen Xingze was taken by Wu Xingzhi to see the orchestra teacher and went there for a long time. Mi Sheng squatted at the school gate, and occasionally asked Chen Xingze's classmates, but they, like Mi Sheng, didn't know where Chen Xingze was.
After a week of waiting, Jo couldn't take it anymore, "If you're going to waste time here, I'll go back first."
Mi Sheng didn't speak, he stood at the school gate with his head bowed. His coat was moderately thick, but because he was too thin, it looked like it was only wrapped in a layer of paper, as thin as a withered pine branch on the side of the road.
Jo walked with Mi Sheng all the way and saw his pain very clearly.
"You've been losing your mind for the past two days, and I didn't tell you." Jo put his hands in his pockets and stood behind Mi Sheng. "Song Boyang contacted me."
Mi Sheng's shoulders trembled, and for a while, Jo felt that he was even more depressed.
"Actually, it's not the first time. He contacted me once last year and wanted to find you, but I refused. This year..." Jo paused, then added, "This year's situation is different, your sister moved away, Auntie needs someone to take care of you all the time. You definitely can’t go out to work for several months like before. Although Song Boyang doesn’t get along very well, he has a stable job and a guaranteed life. It will be much easier for you to follow him. ."
Mi Sheng didn't look back, "Follow him, you forgot how I became like this?"
"So I didn't tell you when he came here last year. I'm not advising you to get back together with him. Song Baiyang is indeed a bastard, but don't make it difficult for you to live. You can treat him as Gao Xiwen, and you can take what you need. You can make other plans when you get through this time."
Mi Sheng did not speak.
"I've been thinking about whether or not I should tell you about it these days. But now that you're like this, I don't have a choice. Mi Sheng, who said ten years ago that you would never do stupid things again?"
Mi Sheng stared blankly at the campus.
When he was betrayed that year, he vowed that he would never repeat the same mistakes. When he saw that kid before, he also said that he would never be hurt by a kid.
The snow is like a mirror, reflecting his indecisive heart.
Mi Sheng was shivering in the cold wind, her thin lips were purple, and it was still hard to believe such a result. He didn't know when the change started.
"I thought it was my turn too..."
As everyone knows, it is still empty.
"If only I didn't let him drink that night..." He began to forcibly look for reasons, if he didn't drink, it would be fine, if he didn't confess, it would be fine if he didn't go to bed, and it would be fine if he wasn't so invested.
If only that kid wasn't so gentle.
The school was in session time, and there was a sense of quiet solemnity. For a moment, Mi Sheng didn't even know why he came to such a place.
He squatted down slowly with his body in his arms.
The stars and moon hanging in the sky will not make people sad. People only become sad after touching their phantoms reflected in the water.
When Chen Xingze contacted Mi Sheng again, it was already summer.
After the college entrance examination was over, Chen Xingze was able to face the exam with a calm mind because he had decided to repeat his studies. Wu Xingzhi let him rest for a few days to combine work and rest, Chen Xingze turned on the phone after a long absence, and it was empty.
Chen Xingze didn't know that the operator would only keep the records of the last few days for the phone that was turned off, so he didn't see the countless calls from Mi Sheng a few months ago, nor did he see the weak and pleading messages he sent late at night.
He thought everything was the same as before.
But he could never get in touch with Mi Sheng. In order to relieve Chen Xingze, Wu Xingzhi proposed to take him on vacation abroad. Chen Xingze did not go. He confessed to his mother that he wanted to find a friend. Wu Xingzhi agreed and instructed him to pay attention to safety, go early and return early.
Chen Xingze went to Jincheng and saw Jo, he asked Jo if Mi Sheng was there, and Jo replied that Mi Sheng had left.
"Gone? Where did you go?"
At noon, the bar was closed, and in the dim hall, only a light was on at the bar, which was a little dazzling.
In the hot summer, Jo made Chen Xingze a cold drink.
Chen Xingze took the cold drink, thanked him, and asked, "Where is Mi Sheng?"
"Shanghai."
"Go to work?"
"no."
"travel?"
Jo sneered, and Chen Xingze looked at him blankly. Jo put down the cup and said, "He took his mother to live with Song Boyang."
"Who is Song Baiyang..."
"Mi Sheng's boyfriend."
Chen Xingze opened his eyes in surprise
Jo: "To be precise, it should be your ex-boyfriend, I remember I mentioned it to you."
As soon as he said this, Chen Xingze immediately remembered, "The one from ten years ago?"
Jo hummed.
Chen Xingze sat dazedly on the chair, "Why so suddenly..."
"Misheng needs money," Jo said.
"Money?" Chen Xingze frowned reflexively. "It's money again. Did he go to Shanghai because of money?"
"Yes." Jo admitted refreshingly, looking at Chen Xingze, "Why, do you have any dissatisfaction?"
No matter how slow Chen Xingze is, he can detect oppression and hostility from Jo's tone and sight. But he still had something to ask. "Just because of that? Just because I'm short of money—"
"right."
This time Jo didn't give Chen Xingze a chance to say a complete sentence. He put his hands on the bar and looked at Chen Xingze coldly.
"It's money, do you have an opinion?"
Chen Xingze lowered his head, feeling an indescribable discomfort in his heart.
"Little devil."
Suddenly hearing this word, Chen Xingze's fingertips trembled. He finds that he prefers to hear Mi-sheng call him that than Jo or whatever.
Jo asked him, "Have you experienced setbacks?"
Chen Xingze looked up at Jo.
Jo: "The 'frustration' I'm talking about is not in a bad mood, not in unrequited love, not in lovelorn, not in bad exams, but when you are really in a desperate situation, have you ever been?"
This series of "no" made Chen Xingze speechless.
Jo said: "I can tell you that Song Baiyang is a scumbag. He is two years older than Mi Sheng. They were together for more than a year at the time, and then they were spotted together by the agency. Back then, the two fell in love with you and me, and they agreed. If you want to live an open and honest life, you decide to come out together."
Chen Xingze opened his mouth slightly.
Jo said: "Interesting, right? Mi Sheng also had such a naive time. As a result, Song Baiyang was frightened and fled, only Mi Sheng disclosed his identity. Then it was all over. The brokerage company terminated his contract with him, and he owed a debt for breach of contract. Kim. His family was also affected a lot. Did you know his mother was mentally ill?"
Chen Xingze clenched his hands and shook his head slowly.
He didn't know, Mi Sheng was always so cynical, he never told him anything.
"His mother was frightened. They used to live on the first floor. The children in the courtyard smashed the glass of their house at night and poured chicken blood into the house. Later, they were caught and said they wanted to help them exorcise evil spirits."
Chen Xingze's back was dripping with sweat.
really.
His first reaction after hearing these things was to suspect that Jo was lying to him.
How in the world can this happen.
Jo: "His father was also ill at that time. He kicked Mi Sheng out and never let him into the house again. Since then, Mi Sheng has been working by himself to make money, paying liquidated damages, supporting himself, and subsidies. home."
Chen Xingze felt as if his heart was being held by something, and it was difficult to even breathe.
In the repressed silence, the wall clock twitched.
Jo picked up the cup again and wiped it carefully.
"You'll never get a chance to experience that kind of life, and for a lot of people, a kid like you is showing off the pain. You can drink a cold drink and look down on him arrogantly."
"I didn't look down on him!" Chen Xingze anxiously defended himself, "I questioned him, but I never looked down on him!"
"It doesn't matter what happened now." Jo said lightly, "He has already left, and he didn't leave you with his contact information, he just doesn't want you to find him again."
"Why?" Chen Xingze got up from his chair excitedly, "I'm friends with him, why can't I find him anymore?"
Jo's hand wiping the cup stopped.
"friend?"
Jo remembered how Mi Sheng waited at the gate of Chen Xingze's school on a cold day, not knowing whether to cry or laugh. He looked at Chen Xingze and said to him with unprecedented sincerity: "Little devil, you should have pity on him and don't appear in front of him again."
"Don't call me that!"
Chen Xingze was suddenly furious, and he suddenly found that he could not bear to be called by anyone other than Mi Sheng. He pulled his bag and left without looking back.