After listening to Chen Xingze's remarks at the party, Mi Sheng admitted that he was a sinner.
A sinner who secretly rejoices at the crime.
He arbitrarily changed what Chen Xingze said "the first time I want to do it with the person I like" to "the first time I did it with the person I like", and then stored it in his mind.
He doesn't care if this is self-deception or not. On the contrary, he likes this feeling very much. As long as it is a little bit realistic, the rest is all made up with fakes, so that it seems that all emotions are under his control.
"Mom, if it goes on like this, I may have to keep you company."
Today is a rare free time. Mi Sheng is organizing things for her mother. Her mother is going to participate in a hot spring recuperation activity for mental patients for three days. Aunt Wang will accompany her to take care of her.
"I finally understand why you like sleeping so much. People still have to dream to live. You said that if I were like you, it would be much easier."
Mother looked at him and asked softly, "Are you sleepy?"
Mi Sheng paused at his fingertips.
Mother: "Do you want to sleep?" She raised her hand to touch Mi Sheng's face, "Good boy, let's sleep when you're tired."
The sky is clear today, and the sun shines on Mi Sheng's face along the bay window. He pursed his lips, his eyes twitched, and he held his mother's palm with his backhand. "I'm not tired, Mom, I won't sleep, I will take good care of you. So you have to promise me that you must stay by my side in good health."
The mother's spirit is up and down, and more often she is half-awake, which relieves her troubles to a certain extent. She sometimes shows a loving smile, as beautiful as when she was young.
Aunt Wang came out of the room, saw Mi Sheng, and said, "You two are in a good mood today."
Mi Sheng hummed.
Aunt Wang added, "As soon as you are happy, the house is lit up."
Mi Sheng went on to help her mother organize things.
Aunt Wang looked at him and asked, "Have you bought new clothes?"
"Yes." He was still wearing the clothes he wore to the party yesterday.
Aunt Wang: "You haven't bought new clothes for a long time. You look so good." She walked to the kitchen, nagging as she walked, "You're just too thin. Yesterday, your mother was in good condition. She soaked glutinous rice and made it for you. Babao rice with lard and sand. But you came back too late, I put it in the refrigerator, do you want to try it? But your mother's craftsmanship is also very good, like a professional chef, which surprised me. Come and see Watch what she does."
Mi Sheng came to the kitchen, and Babao Rice was buckled on the plate like a shrunken yurt, very cute.
Aunt Wang picked up the plate, "I'll go and warm it up for you."
Mi Sheng stopped her, "Wait first."
Aunt Wang: "Aren't you hungry? If it's not hot now, I'll take your mother out, and you'll have to get hot by yourself."
Mi Sheng: "It's okay, I'll do it myself."
Aunt Wang went to help her mother make the final preparations before departure. Her mother rarely wore a skirt. Aunt Wang praised again and again, "Sister Xu, you are so beautiful."
Before leaving, Aunt Wang repeatedly asked Mi Sheng. "You must stare when you heat things, and turn off the gas when you're done. Lock the door and windows before going to bed at night. Don't underestimate the current thieves, those people can climb up!"
Mi Sheng was helpless, "Do you think I'm a three-year-old child?"
"You are more confused than a child sometimes."
It was rare for her mother to say goodbye to Mi Sheng. She took Mi Sheng's hand and said softly, "Good boy, rest when you are tired. Mom will help you share the pressure."
Mi Sheng smiled and nodded.
The bus was waiting at the door of the house, and Mi Sheng sent them away to the windowsill. The weather was so good today that he stared at the pure blue sky for a while, before returning to the house until the sun started to shine. There was still eight treasures rice cooked by his mother in the kitchen, Mi Sheng hesitated for a moment, and finally took out his mobile phone.
Chen Xingze received a message from Mi Sheng on the way to the teaching building. Mi Sheng asked him if he had a class today and if he wanted to go to his house.
Without any hesitation, Chen Xingze replied "No class".
"I have something to go. You can help me take notes. If the teacher asked, he said that I went to the hospital with a sprained foot." Chen Xingze hurriedly left a sentence and ran away.
"Hey!" Shi Kai shouted from behind, "What are you doing! It's a review class!"
Lu Xiaofei looked at Chen Xingze's back and said, "Looking at this speed, I don't know if I thought I won the lottery."
Shi Kai didn't answer, Lu Xiaofei looked at him and said, "Are you going to confess to Aze?"
"You're sick!" Shi Kai turned his head and left.
"Why are you sick?"
"How could I have confessed to him? Besides, no one has confessed these days. Smart people will hint, do you understand?"
"But Azer is not smart at all in this regard."
Shi Kai didn't speak, and Lu Xiaofei didn't ask anymore. The two walked quietly all the way to the door of the teaching building. Shi Kaicai whispered, "Actually, it's not smart, but now no one wants to suffer. Unless they are sure of everything, the one who confesses first will always lose first."
The two came to the classroom, ten minutes before they left. They were sitting in the back row, the curtains were not drawn in the classroom, and the orange-red walls were a little dark.
Chen Xingze took a taxi directly out of the school gate to Mi Sheng's house, got off at the gate of the community, and ran to Mi Sheng's house at a sprint speed of 100 meters.
Mi opened the door, and Chen Xingze was out of breath.
Mi Sheng was wearing a white shirt with a loose button on his neckline, and he could see the delicate collarbone. His sleeves were rolled up to his elbows, and his forearms were white and smooth, with almost no body hair.
"Why are you sweating so much?"
"…It's a little hot outside."
"come in."
This is the first time Chen Xingze has come to Misheng's home in Shanghai. It is a very ordinary residential building, with a small three-room apartment of more than 90 square meters. It has been some years since the decoration. The main advantage of this community is that it has good greenery, a deep environment, and quietness in the midst of the hustle and bustle, which is very suitable for recuperation.
only…
"You are so messy here."
"Is this your catchphrase?" Mi Sheng leaned against the load-bearing wall in the living room and lit a cigarette. "Everywhere is messed up."
Chen Xingze glanced around the room and looked back at Mi Sheng. Mi Sheng was originally white, and he was wearing white clothes. He was lit by the strong sunlight, as if he was about to disappear. Only the drifting smoke brought everything back to reality. Chen Xingze felt that the house was so quiet that he could hear his own heartbeat.
"Why did you call me here?"
"Why don't you do it." Mi Sheng said calmly, smoking a cigarette, "I order too much takeout, and I can't eat it myself."
"Ah?" Chen Xingze never thought of such a reason. "Too many takeaway orders?"
"You don't want to eat?"
"No, I'm hungry."
It's rare to lie, Chen Xingze's chest is about to be drawn together.
Mi Sheng got up, "Then I'll go and warm it up for you."
"I'll do it myself."
"You sit."
Where can Chen Xingze sit, "Where is the broom, let me help you clean up."
Mi Sheng pointed to the windowsill.
Chen Xingze threw himself into the general cleaning with enthusiasm for work. The first thing he cleaned was Mi Sheng's room, which was also the messiest room in the whole house. Chen Xingze swept a pile of dust under the bed, causing him to cough a few times.
Mi Sheng's clothes were piled on the chair, Chen Xingze shook them off one by one, and then went to the closet to look for hangers.
In class, Shi Kai and Lu Xiaofei deserted together. Since Chen Xingze left, their topic has always revolved around him.
Lu Xiaofei wanted to bring the two roommates together.
"To be honest, I think you and Aze are a good match."
"Where is it?"
"You are too serious, you have to match the seriousness of A Ze."
Shi Kai glared at him, "Who said it's not serious?"
"Seriously, do you want to have a good talk with him."
"You didn't see how fast he ran just now?"
"You have to have a long-term vision. No matter how good-looking that person is, he is ten years older than us. There must be a deep generation gap, or you and A Ze have more in common. Don't look at A Ze is obsessed with him now, it is because we are still students. It's normal for Azer to be curious about people in society, but the novelty will definitely diminish in the future."
Shi Kai's face was cold, "If only it were that simple."
Lu Xiaofei provoked him and said, "You still persuaded Aze to have confidence. I think you should have confidence. You can't wait to look at people with your nostrils on weekdays.
Shi Kai: "I won't counsel others."
Lu Xiaofei: "Then why don't you go? A Ze is a very simple person. You might just take the initiative and you will be successful."
After listening to Lu Xiaofei's words, Shi Kai fell into silence, as if he was recalling something, and after a while he said, "... Simple doesn't mean that you haven't experienced anything, do you still remember Lu Liang?"
Lu Xiaofei: "Remember, isn't it your friend, the one who broke up with her boyfriend last year and was about to die."
Shi Kai: "Yes, I told Chen Xingze about this later in an English class, but he kept taking notes and his attitude was very perfunctory. I scolded him that he had never experienced anything to be so irrelevant..."
Lu Xiaofei: "Then what?"
Shi Kai: "Then he put down his pen and said to me, 'It's really okay, your friend will be happy'. He made a special guarantee, and it didn't seem like comfort. It was like the real thing, so I asked him 'yes' Who told you' and then he froze."
Lu Xiaofei: "Stopped? Why?"
Shi Kai: "I don't know, I just asked casually. Later, he seemed to think of something, but he didn't tell me. He was like a lost soul all day, staring at one place in a daze, as if he was about to cry. Yes. At that time, I felt that he should be hiding a lot of things in his heart."
Lu Xiaofei frowned, "Why didn't I understand?"
Shi Kai sneered, "Of course you don't understand your emotional intelligence."
After cleaning the room, Chen Xingze quietly came to the door of the kitchen, and Mi Sheng was following Aunt Wang's instructions before leaving, staring at the heating steamer without blinking.
He didn't notice the person standing at the door, just looked at the eight treasures rice in the pot. He was no longer as smart and agile as he was holding his arms in a daze, his back was naturally slightly hunched, and his spine was not as strong and powerful as a young man.
Chen Xingze stood silently.
who told you
Who made you believe without hesitation at the very beginning that people like us can be happy too
Who protected you when you were budding
Is this person doing well on his own
There is the fragrance of rice in the air, as well as the wafting fine dust. There are condiment bottles on the kitchen table, and there are oil stains that cannot be wiped clean. The details of each piece are intertwined, making the picture in front of you have a real soul-penetrating reality.
The sun climbed up Chen Xingze's back, and it was hot and itchy from the sun. He stood still, watching quietly.