People say first love is always impressive.
And people like Yan Han who have waited more than twenty years for their first love...
It is not an exaggeration to say that even though his memory is far from being as vivid as Lin Jianlu's, Yan Han feels that even if the world falls apart and the sea changes, he will always remember the scenes before and after Lin Jianlu confessed to him that day, and what he said at that time. Remember.
At that time, Lin Jianlu first asked him if he had a crush on Wei Ningxin.
At that time, he was afraid of exposing his sexual orientation, so he used a lot of excuses to divert the topic, such as "I can't even reveal my gender, so I don't have time to think about whether I like it or not", it is really true. Explained a lot.
Then Lin Jianlu pushed him into a corner first, then kissed him, and then asked him: "I just wanted to ask you, except for Wei Ningxin... If someone already knows your gender, it won't affect your study." people, can you?"
At that time, Yan Han was completely stunned by the fact that Lin Jianlu confessed to him, and all the things he thought about later were related to Lin Jianlu. As for Wei Ningxin...
He never regarded him as a possible boyfriend, and seeing that Lu didn't mention it again, he simply forgot about it.
But now, let's analyze it based on the context at that time... How does it seem that the effect created at that time is: he didn't develop a relationship with Wei Ningxin just because the other party didn't know his real situation
Because even gender is false in the eyes of others, he simply doesn't think about falling in love with other people.
And based on such a premise, further development, it becomes... I will be with Lin Jianlu because the other party knows all my secrets...
Yan Han thought, isn't this a big misunderstanding
Although he never thought of it that way, but with Lin Jianlu... the other party seems to think so all the time
The brows that were originally handsome like willow leaves are now tightly knit together, Lin Jianlu's sharp eyes are staring at Yan Han, as if he doesn't intend to let go of any of his every move, or even a little bit of it. change of expression.
The person who can keep completely calm at any time is tense this time, and Yan Han can feel his tension from a step away. Yan Han was a little speechless, but said in time: "How is it possible? How could I like it?" he?"
Putting aside the nervousness on his face, Lin Jianlu still had no expression on his face.
But after hearing Yan Han's words, his frown did relax, as if the whole person breathed a sigh of relief...
Well, I have to say, this change is quite obvious.
It is rare to see Brother Da Lin like this, Yan Han followed helplessly: "What do you think, I'm already with you, how could I like someone else?"
"Sorry, that's not what I meant." Lin Jianlu apologized sincerely.
Probably thinking that Yan Han was angry, his brows that had just relaxed frowned again, and explained seriously: "I know that since you are with me, you must have thought it through, and you will be responsible for the relationship between the two parties... "
"Well, since you know all about it, why do you still think you like Wei Ningxin?"
It was because he didn't make it clear that he caused a misunderstanding with Lin Jianlu. Yan Han didn't want to fuss about this issue too much.
But now that the words have come to this point, he can't help but ask, after all, he still feels a little unhappy, because Lin Jianlu doesn't understand his intentions, and because Lin Jianlu doesn't seem to understand him as a person.
Unexpectedly, facing such a question, Lin Jianlu was silent again.
He was silent, and Yan Han didn't urge him, just stood face to face with him until Lin Jianlu thought of how to describe his feelings in words.
Most of the time, Yan Han is an impatient person, only when he faces Lin Jianlu every time, he will subconsciously maintain patience.
First of all, Lin Jianlu's thinking is different from ordinary people, and he always needs more time to deal with emotional matters.
The second is that Yan Han has no experience in dating, but he knows that the way to maintain a relationship is to communicate, and if there is anything that the two of them talk about, the problem will most likely be resolved.
So he is willing to wait.
After a while, Lin Jianlu finally thought about what was in his heart, organized it into words and said: "I know you won't like someone and agree to be with me at the same time, I never thought about you in that direction. "
"Yeah." Yan Hanxin said that it was good to know, and he folded his arms, motioning for him to continue.
"But sometimes I can't help but think, if the person who knew your secret wasn't me, what would the situation be like now?" After Lin Jianlu finished speaking, a look of loneliness appeared on his expressionless face. look.
Yan Han: "..."
"I like you, and I can tell a thousand and ten thousand reasons why I like you." With such a lonely look, Lin Jianlu said in a slightly hoarse but still pleasant voice: "But what do you like about me?" ?… You never said that.”
"..." Yan Han was stunned: "Didn't I say that?"
"So sometimes I also wonder, is it because I happen to have a system, and I happen to be someone who knows your secrets, so you are special to you, so you accept me."
Lin Jianlu didn't answer his words, but smiled wryly and said:
"Sometimes I also wonder, would you still be with me if these preconditions didn't exist?"
Yan Han: "..."
Forgive him, he has never noticed... Brother Dalin actually has such a sentimental side!
"Sorry, I'm a selfish person."
In Yan Han's daze, Lin Jianlu continued to speak: "At first, I just hoped that you could be with me. As long as you are with me, I have nothing else to ask for. But after being together, I couldn't help wanting more Many, I want to know if you really like me from the bottom of my heart, I want to know... "
Well, not only is it sentimental, but it sounds a little inferior.
I don't know if it's because Lin Jianlu seldom shows such a side, Yan Han can't care anymore at this moment, he can't help but say: "Of course I like you."
One sentence cut off all the words behind Lin Jianlu, and Yan Han said naturally: "I am not with you because you are the only one who knows my secret. If it is only because of this, theoretically Li Hongqing should He was the first to know my gender."
Lin Jianlu: "..."
With Huatou together, Yan Han's heart became even more furious: "Yes, that's right, I like men by nature. But if anyone can...then you won't be my first love."
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When Lin Jianlu frowned when he heard the word "like" spit out from Yan Han's mouth, he gradually relaxed. When he heard the word "first love", Brother Da Lin not only stopped frowning, but even tightened The corners of her lips were also relaxed!
The lips are bent into an arc as a whole, there is nothing wrong with it, Lin Jianlu is smiling.
Stimulated by this sudden smile, Yan Han slightly forgot about the anger just now, and then said: "As for why I like you..."
As he said, he no longer crossed his arms, but stretched out a hand and scratched his head indecently, "I'm not as smart as you, who can sum up everything, except you are good-looking and have a good figure. , Studying well is okay for me, I don’t think I can say anything, but I just know that I like you.”
The more he talked, the more he didn't know how to describe this feeling. Yan Han scratched his heart for a while, and finally pointed to Lin Jianlu's left chest with his finger: "Anyway, it's mine telling me that there is no one in this world better than you." It's more to my liking..."
Fingers pressed against the opponent's somewhat hard ribs and chest muscles, Lin saw that Lu hadn't spoken yet, Yan Han was already about to withdraw that hand in embarrassment.
But Lin Jianlu caught him one step ahead of time and put it in his palm.
Being looked at by the other party with a pair of warm eyes full of smiles, Yan Han was even more embarrassed.
—It must have been infected by Lin Jianlu, otherwise how could he have said so many nasty things in broad daylight? !
What likes come and go... It is always the most practical to live in the heart of the eldest brother. Saying a hundred words of likes is not as important as a day when two people are together. Language has always been the least trustworthy thing.
But he just said it, and explained his feelings to him...
I don't know if the sky is going to kill him, Yan Han is feeling embarrassed about this, at this time Lin Jianlu who is holding his hand tightly said: "You said you like me."
Yan Han: "..."
"You said you liked me for the first time."
Yan Han: "Yes, yes, yes, shut up!"
Blushing to the ears, the eldest brother thought, it must be that Lin saw the deer and beast-like self-explanation that had bewitched him just now, so he talked about such a long list of favorite topics in order to comfort him.
He didn't want to admit that he was shy, but Brother Yan was so embarrassed that he couldn't speak. In the end, he had no choice but to say with a strong attitude: "If you know this matter, it's over, and you are not allowed to mention it in the future! Do you understand?"
"it is good."
Lin Jianlu's raised mouth changed into a relaxed smile. From the moment Yan Han said he liked him, it seemed like the rain had just started to clear, and the sky was breaking, and no one else or anything mattered anymore. Now there is only an emotion that cannot be explained by thinking violently spreading in his chest——
like this person.
Really like this guy.
As long as this person is happy, he can even be desperate...
After the end of the sports meeting, time flew by like a flash, and the weather also cooled down.
Yan Han's life has returned to his daily routine of studying from dawn to dusk. Thanks to the newly acquired magical skills, his body has been gradually transformed to another level, and he will not feel cold even in thin clothes in winter.
Of course, this is also related to the fact that most of his attention is spent on learning.
In the whole semester, Yan Han is a desperate attitude in the eyes of outsiders.
He is studying when others are sleeping, he is studying when others are eating, and he is still studying when others are playing games!
Sometimes even Yan Han feels that there is nothing else in his life other than studying, and he suspects that he has learned stupidly.
But there is no way, he still has so much homework to do, so much knowledge to learn, so many Olympiad problems that he needs to solve...
Although he will not feel physically uncomfortable because of this, the long-term high-intensity study will still cause some psychological pressure and negative emotions for him. After all, no matter how hard other people study hard, there will always be a slow release time, even if it is just eating and sleep.
However, Yan Han’s life at school is a completely super-intensive study. Apart from sleeping for two to three hours a day, and shuttling between the dormitory cafeteria and the teaching building at three o’clock and one line, there is no other content.
Lin Jianlu, who saw these things in his eyes, often advised him to combine work and rest, and even settled the account for him:
"You are in school five days a week, and you have to study for 20 hours a day. After five days, that's 100 hours. That's not counting the time you spend studying on weekends."
"The burden is too heavy. No one has ever worked hard like you. If it weren't for the skills you possess, your body..."
"But don't I have magical skills." Yan Han said indifferently, "And I also have rest."
He doesn't work so hard every day. The reason why he hasn't collapsed is that every Sunday he will give himself a day off, and he will concentrate on playing with Lin Jianlu on this day.
At this moment, the two of them were lying side by side on the reclining chair in the living room of Brother Dalin's house, basking in the sun.
The winter sun was warm, hitting Yan Han's overly thin body, revealing a trace of pale and fragile beauty.
Even if the body doesn't feel tired, the long-term use of the brain and not sleeping is still very exhausting. Yan Han looks thinner than in autumn, and his appearance is getting weaker and weaker.
It hurts just to watch the change.
If he didn't know that there was nothing wrong with his body, that peerless martial art skill would continue to strengthen his body and various functions. Lin Jianlu couldn't bear to let him continue like this.
But it is precisely because of this Yan Han that he is always dazzling and radiant.
Possessing divine skills is just the beginning, and only those who can truly use those skills to the extreme and use them for him will be full of charm.
What's more, there are very few people who are as strong and courageous as Yan Han, who can resist all kinds of temptations and concentrate on studying.
Regardless of the time difference between eating and sleeping, it is not impossible for other people to spend the whole day studying and persist in studying efficiently throughout the day.
But one day or two is fine, there are very few people like Yan Han who maintain a high intensity of hard work.
And this kind of days of concentrating on studying, Yan Han has already passed a full semester.
Yan Han said, "I'm really fine."
Every time he saw Brother Da Lin's distressed expression, he would feel a little overwhelmed, and occasionally felt sorry for not being able to accompany Lin Jianlu often because he had to concentrate on his studies.
In fact, the reason why he studies so hard is not simply to save his life at the beginning.
In addition to living, he also wants to live with Lin Jianlu forever. Yan Han's world has changed from one person to two without knowing it. Based on this premise, he was admitted to X University and successfully passed Completing the system tasks became the first thing he had to do.
After all, two people are together, the road ahead is still very long, who knows what twists and turns there will be.
Completing system tasks is just the first hurdle of these difficulties.
Enjoying the two-person world without the pressure of survival has become the only motivation to persevere every time and not be driven crazy by boring learning.
The simple thing is that although Lin Jianlu often expresses distress, he has never stopped or hindered him from studying like this. Usually Brother Dalin is still his encyclopedia and all-purpose small dictionary for his studies, which is very easy to use.
In such a state of studying hard, Yan Han spent this semester in a very "high profile".
His mid-term and final grades are very satisfactory, because he has already learned all the content of this semester by himself, and he has understood and mastered every knowledge point of every subject, so Yan Han just briefly reviewed before the exam After a while, he got a very high grade.
This made Yan Han very happy, and he had more confidence in the future, and he was very motivated to continue learning.
He has even started to plan non-stop for his winter study.
But before the long winter vacation, the school arranged a winter camp for them.
This is also one of the traditional activities of Luze High School, and every sophomore in high school has to experience it once.
In the words of the school, it is to polish the will of the students again through this winter camp.
But no matter what the original intention of the school is, many students themselves are interested in this kind of group travel activity, not to mention that this group activity lasts up to four days, which means that they will live together for three nights outside!
Although the seniors who participated in the winter camp said that it was not fun, it was not fun at all.
But before the departure, most of the students still couldn't help feeling excited, so excited that they couldn't sleep.
Of course, Yan Han hasn't slept well since the day the itinerary was confirmed.
Not excited.
On the contrary, it is sad.
As a traverser with a system, he always considers the situation differently from other people.
For this winter camp, other people think about what to eat, what to play, and where to hang out together when they disband, but the first thing he did was to inquire about the previous four-day and three-night winter camp. Three nights, how does the school arrange people's accommodation.
Due to the large number of students, considering that not all students are not short of money, the school does not charge a lot of fees for each student.
Therefore, under the condition of limited funds, the accommodation conditions of the winter camp are that boys in a class live in one room and girls live in one room, and they live in the kind of Datong shop with two floors...
Upon hearing the news, Yan Han looked at his indistinguishably beautiful face in the mirror, remembering that his identity was still "Yan Han", he almost burst into tears.
It is unrealistic to have a single room. It is said that the dormitory is specially prepared for students of their school. There is no single room at all. He must live with his classmates.
But he can't go to the boys' dormitory and live in the same room with the boys in his class.
Although Yan Han wants to live in the boys' dormitory even if he dies now.
He was originally a man!
It's not that he's afraid that the gender issue will be exposed. Today, the elder brother is already familiar with hiding all kinds of secrets, and has his own way of doing it.
Instead he was afraid...
This principle is similar to the fact that he would rather suffocate than go into the women's bathroom. He was forced to hide his true gender, but he didn't want to infiltrate girls and violate other people's privacy in the process of concealing his identity.
Anyway, he is also a man, just imagine living with all the girls in the class, in case if he sees something he shouldn't see...
Yan Han is crying, this is to force him to poke his eyes!
Before thinking about the accommodation issue, my elder brother was quite interested in the activities of this winter camp.
His unrivaled martial arts skills have already unlocked the second level, which is as light as a swallow. Yan Han believes that no matter what form of training, he will not be able to defeat him. He just wants to take the opportunity of this winter camp to test his skills...
But after inquiring, I found out that this is the case...
He was already thinking about whether he should call himself sick, so he just didn't participate.
"I understand your thoughts." Lin Jianlu said, and after a pause, he said: "You can participate in the winter camp as usual, leave the accommodation to me, and I will find a solution."