The room was pitch dark, and Tang Zhi's body was pressed tightly, unable to move, and he was filled with panic.
"Xu Sheng?" He wanted to grab Xu Sheng's hand on his left shoulder, but as soon as it touched Xu Sheng's sleeve, his wrist was pinched and pushed back to the bed.
Tang Zhi couldn't help but struggled, but there was a huge difference in strength between the two, and resistance was in vain. Xu Sheng let go of his shoulders and pinched his waist through his pajamas.
Xu Sheng used unprecedented strength. Tang Zhi was in pain and wanted to curl up, but Xu Sheng forced him to unfold.
"It hurts," Tang insisted on him, "...can you get up first? What's wrong?"
Without saying a word, Xu Sheng pulled off the straps of Tang Zhi's pajamas and savagely opened the placket. The metal buckle of his belt pressed against Tang Zhi's hips, which was a little hard and a little cold. His rough breathing pressed against Tang Zhi's ears.
Then, he stopped, just pressing Tang Zhi and preventing Tang Zhi from moving, as if he didn't even think about what to do.
Tang Zhi was a little scared, but not to the point of fear.
He opened his eyes, and after a while, he finally adapted to the darkness, and could see the undulating outline of Xu Sheng's shoulders, and the dividing line between dark gray and pure black on the white ceiling and wooden ceiling.
Xu Sheng said nothing.
Tang Zhi smelled something very clean and very similar to him.
In the past, this kind of fragrance meant Xu Keyu to Tang Zhi, but at some point, it was suddenly replaced by Xu Sheng, and it became less tempting to run away.
Tang Zhi let him hold him down for a while, then carefully raised his hand that was not held down by him, hugged him, and asked him, "What's wrong?"
Tang Zhi felt that Xu Sheng might have been stimulated in some way, so he put his hand on Xu Sheng's back, gently caressing him up and down, and asked him again: "Are you unhappy?"
Xu Sheng didn't answer him, so Tang Zhi said again: "Don't be unhappy."
Xu Sheng's face was close to Tang Zhi's right side, and Tang Zhi turned away. Even though he knew something was wrong, he still came closer and kissed Xu Sheng gently.
He kissed the tip of his nose, then moved down and carefully kissed Xu Sheng's lips.
"Don't be angry," Tang Zhi asked Xu Sheng again, "Okay?"
The only sound in the room was Tang Zhi coaxing Xu Sheng, but Xu Sheng's attitude seemed to have softened. He held Tang Zhi's exposed waist again and rubbed Tang Zhi's skin with his thumb.
Not as hard as before, but seemed a little absent-minded.
"Xu Sheng." Tang Zhi whispered again.
His lips were very close to Xu Sheng's, and their breaths were intertwined.
Unable to tell who approached first, they started kissing. Tang Zhi opened his mouth slightly and licked Xu Sheng's lower lip. Xu Sheng's hand came to Tang Zhi's back and pressed Tang Zhi against him.
Tang Zhi climbed up Xu Sheng's shoulders and tried to pull Xu Sheng's tie, but Xu Sheng suddenly stopped.
He grabbed Tang Zhi's hand, paused for a few seconds, and pulled Tang Zhi's hand away a little. After a while, he got off Tang Zhi, lay down next to Tang Zhi, and pulled up Tang Zhi's clothes.
"...Xu Sheng?" Tang Zhi didn't react and called him softly with doubts.
Xu Sheng silently held the back of Tang Zhi's hand, holding it loosely in his palm like a fragile object.
Tang Zhi lay on his back and was in a daze for a while, when he heard Xu Sheng call him: "Tang Zhi."
He asked Tang Zhi in a very low and soft voice: "Do you treat everyone the same?"
Tang Zhi was stunned for a moment, and Xu Sheng asked him again: "Are you very good to Xu Keyu?"
The dark and cold air made Tang Zhi feel cold.
He raised his hands and folded his clothes again. He didn't know what Xu Sheng meant by his words, so he didn't answer anything.
After a while, Xu Sheng let go of Tang Zhi's hand and repeated: "You must be very good to her."
Xu Sheng sat up and asked Tang Zhi: "Where is the light turned on?"
Tang Zhi got out of bed. He couldn't touch the straps of his pajamas, so he could only hold on to both sides of his pajamas. He walked to the bed according to his impression and turned on a bedside lamp.
The light was soft, but Tang Zhi still closed his eyes, then turned to look at Xu Sheng.
Xu Sheng sat on his bed disheveled, his shirt wrinkled, but still handsome.
Tang Zhi turned on the light and saw Xu Sheng sitting still, looking directly at him, as if he had been stimulated by something, as pitiful as the last night in Xicheng, so he couldn't help but want to get close to Xu Sheng and comfort him.
He took two steps, reached Xu Sheng, reached out and touched Xu Sheng's face. Xu Sheng did not reject him, so he leaned down, touched Xu Sheng's with his forehead, and said softly: "What's wrong with you?"
Xu Sheng still didn't speak. Tang Zhi didn't know what to do. He wanted to change the ceiling lamp, but Xu Sheng pulled him back again.
He sat on Xu Sheng's lap and Xu Sheng hugged him.
The two of them didn't speak for a long time, and Tang Zhi asked Xu Sheng again "Why is he in a bad mood?"
Xu Sheng did not answer, but said to Tang Zhi: "I'm leaving tomorrow. I don't know when I will come back. Since you have found a place to live, there is no need to go back. When your mother passes the sentence, you can find time to pack your things."
"Oh," Tang Zhi said slowly, "Okay."
"When Xu Keyu gets better, I will divorce her as soon as possible." Xu Sheng said.
"Well," Tang Zhi paused and said, "I'm not in a hurry."
Xu Sheng fell silent.
Tang Zhi's hand that was holding his gently moved away slowly, but his cheek was still on Xu Sheng's shoulder.
After being quiet for a long time, Tang Zhi suddenly called Xu Sheng's name: "Xu Sheng."
Xu Sheng said "hmm", and Tang Zhi said as if talking to himself: "Actually, I was thinking about this during the day."
"Which ones?" Xu Sheng asked him.
"You're getting engaged," he said, "I won't do this again."
Tang Zhi's body was very soft, like a helpless person who could only stay warm in Xu Sheng's arms.
His body language, voice and tone all seemed to express that he couldn't survive a day without Xu Sheng, but that was not what he said.
"Hug you, kiss you."
"This is wrong." Tang Zhi said, seemingly confused.
Xu Sheng hugged Tang Zhi. Tang Zhi's breathing was as weak as smoke standing in mid-air, and it would disappear at any time.
And Xu Sheng found that he couldn't even tell Tang Zhi about his decision not to get married.
It seems so inappropriate and ridiculous to say this decision based on wishful thinking and sentimentality at this moment.
Tang Zhi may be surprised and embarrassed, and may ask Xu Sheng "why".
When he didn't get a reply from Xu Sheng, Tang Zhi raised his head, looked at Xu Sheng with pure eyes, and asked him, "Okay?"
Tang Zhi's voice is naturally hoarse, and even his timbre can give people the illusion of being loved.
Only when you tell the truth unintentionally do you reveal your ruthless inner self.
Xu Sheng felt that Xu Keyu might have been driven crazy by Tang Zhi in this way.
Could Tang Zhi have the same attitude towards Xu Keyu? He quietly and sacrificially did a lot of things for her, and finally told Xu Keyu that he was sorry and didn't like you.
Soon, Xu Sheng rejected this idea.
Because Xu Sheng was Tang Zhi's first time, he felt that he was at least the most special person among the people Tang Zhi had unintentionally deceived.
Xu Sheng asked Tang Zhi: "You think so?"
Tang Zhi said "Yeah", Xu Sheng said "Okay".
Tang Zhi asked Xu Sheng if he wanted to do it one last time, but Xu Sheng originally planned to refuse.
But Tang Zhi's body was too soft. He sat on Xu Sheng, pushed Xu Sheng back, untied Xu Sheng's belt, and took Xu Sheng's semi-hard part into his mouth.
Xu Sheng can do a lot, but he can't say "no" when facing Tang Zhi.
Tang Zhi couldn't suck it all the way to the end, and squeezed the top with his tongue and mouth moistly. He held Xu Sheng's base with his right hand and stroked it up and down laboriously and sincerely.
Xu Sheng saw his eyelashes, his cheeks flushed with emotion, and the wounds on the fingers of his right hand.
The wound was red and there were traces of stitches. Tang Zhi did not wait for Xu Sheng and went to remove the stitches himself.
When Tang Zhi sucked his tip, Xu Sheng wanted to ask him for a moment if anyone could do it.
But the answer is no, Tang Zhi is not so casual.
The only real unanswered question is "who's next?"
And will you love others and consider me
No one in Xu Sheng dared to ask.
He stretched out his hand, touched Tang Zhi's cheek, clasped Tang Zhi's chin and lifted it up.
Possibly Tang Zhi was afraid of hitting him with his teeth, so he spit it out, and his lips touched the bright red tip that he had licked.
"Are you feeling uncomfortable?" Tang Zhi asked him almost shyly, "I'm not very good at it."
Xu Sheng grabbed him and pulled him up.
He didn't really do it with Tang Zhi, he just bent Tang Zhi's legs and moved in and out between his legs.
Both of them rubbed their erections, and finally they both ejaculated on Tang Zhi's lower abdomen.
Tang Zhi ejaculated earlier and opened his mouth to scream.
After a while, Xu Sheng's semen mixed with his, staining his nightgown and sheets.