"I did not do it on purpose."
Fang Yan squatted down and frantically tried to help Fenghuang up.
Just as he lifted the Phoenix's body, his shoes slipped and he fell to the ground because of the moss on the stone.
At this time, Fang Yan had already lost control of his body.
Snapped---
His body pressed heavily on Phoenix's chest, and the two bodies collided heavily.
If it weren't for the soft and warm flesh underneath, the wound on his chest would have been torn open.
Fenghuang was pinned down by Fang Yan, without struggling or screaming, just like she was lying on her own bed.
She looked at Fang Yan with bright eyes and said, "Is this what you have always wanted to do?"
"No." Fang Yan quickly denied.
After a pause, he continued, "I didn't know much before, so I had some unhealthy thoughts-----"
Fenghuang sighed softly and said, "Yes. I didn't know much before, so I had these unhealthy thoughts. After I became sensible, I began to have unhealthy thoughts about others. Now you want to do this to Ye Wenrou? It's a pity that you can only think about it. Anyway, you can't beat her."
"------"
Fenghuang looked at Fang Yan and said, "Although I didn't refuse, are you going to keep pressing on me and chatting like this?"
"No, no. I'll just take a rest and get up soon-----" Fang Yan said.
He climbed up from Phoenix's arms, and then pulled Phoenix up from the ground.
Phoenix's back was soaked by the water stains on the grass, and her red hair was wet and tangled, like a red flame.
Phoenix's character has always been arrogant and domineering, like a rose with thorns, and she has always been a female existence like a "flame". However, after experiencing this incident, this flame was completely extinguished.
Having lost their original sharpness and vitality, the eyes began to become cowardly and evasive.
That incident hurt her so deeply that she might not be able to recover in a short time.
Phoenix looked around and pointed to a large rock in the forest and said, "Let's not go. Just sit there for a while."
"Okay." Fang Yan nodded.
The stone was a little wet, so Fang Yan took off his coat and spread it on it, and the two of them sat together, shoulder to shoulder.
I have a lot to say, but when we actually sit down together, I don’t know how to start.
It is a pus scar, a scar. Even if you want to open the wound and apply medicine on it, it will be most painful when applying the medicine.
Fang Yan was afraid that something he said might hurt Fenghuang's sensitive nerves again.
From beginning to end, they never talked about Bai Xiu.
They never mentioned this name, because it was a curse that could not be solved but they wanted to forget forever.
"Fang Yan, you shouldn't have come----"
When Fang Yan was hesitating about what to say, Fenghuang took the initiative to open the topic.
"I said, if I don't come, I'm afraid I will regret it for the rest of my life----" Fang Yan said with a smile. He took out a piece of sugarcane from his feet and gently sucked the sweet juice from the root. This was something they often liked to do when they were young.
Phoenix also took a piece of sugar cane and chewed it, saying, "When you didn't come, I was hoping that you wouldn't come. Because I was afraid that after you came, I wouldn't know what kind of expression I would use to meet you - I wouldn't know what to say to you. I don't want to say sorry again, but I am really sorry for you."
"No need to say sorry, you have done nothing wrong to me." Fang Yan said, "Even if you have, you have already paid it back. Is there anything more precious than paying with your life?"
"I wasn't trying to make up for it. I just thought at the time that it would be better to just die like that." Phoenix said in a low voice, "Because living is too tiring."
"I understand." Fang Yan nodded. "What happened in the past is in the past. We don't need to talk about it again in the future - but you have to come back with me."
"Go back?" Fenghuang smiled and asked, "Where to go back to?"
"Go home. Or anywhere----" Fang Yan said stubbornly: "But not here."
"Fang Yan, don't force me. Please don't force me, okay?" Fenghuang looked at Fang Yan pleadingly and said, "I can't go back, and I don't want to go back - where can I go back to?"
"If I go back home, how can I face the way my family looks at me? If I go back to Yanziwu, how can I face their comments about me?"
"Go abroad. Go abroad----" Fang Yan said. At that time, Li Yun wanted to send Jiang Shangxin abroad, but he was stopped by himself.
In Fang Yan's opinion, maybe it's a good choice for Fenghuang to go abroad. After all, no matter how dissatisfied the An family is with this woman, they probably won't kill her to silence her-----
"No matter where I go, they can find me. I can't escape, and there is no way I can escape - even if they can't find me, can I live my life in peace and pretend that nothing happened?"
"Fang Yan, it's not that I can't get over other people's hurdles, it's that I can't get over my own hurdle - there are too many distracting thoughts in my mind, and the guilt in my heart is too deep. I will be tortured by these thoughts and go crazy." Fenghuang said with bloodshot eyes, looking like she was about to go crazy.
"I know you feel bad, but things have come to this point, and we need to consider the best solution. I don't think it's the best solution for you to become a monk."
"I think so," Phoenix said. "Even if they are not satisfied with me, would they still embarrass a nun? Besides, I feel very peaceful in my heart these days living in the mountains. I serve Buddha wholeheartedly and study Buddhist scriptures diligently, which will alleviate the pain in my heart. This is exactly what I need."
"Fang Yan, before I made this choice, I was confused and at a loss. I didn't know what my next step should be, and I didn't know what my future would be like. But after I made the choice, my mind settled down all of a sudden. I know better than anyone that the current state is what I want the most - don't persuade me anymore, okay?"
Fang Yan remained silent.
He was unwilling to accept such an outcome.
However, he didn't want to cause more trouble to Fenghuang. He hoped that she could get through this.
Fenghuang reached out and stroked Fang Yan's face, using her fingers to gently smooth out Fang Yan's frown, and said, "Fang Yan, I don't want you to come, but I'm still very happy that you're here - women are always so contradictory."
"Like you just said, let's put aside all the past. It's like we just met today - Fang Yan, promise me, okay?"
"Okay." Fang Yan said through gritted teeth.
"I want to drink strong liquor." Phoenix said.
"Okay. I saw a farmer when I was going down the mountain just now. I'll go buy some meat from them."
Fang Yan is in poor health now, so it is unrealistic to use stones to kill rabbits and pheasants. The best way is to find hunters in the mountains to buy these things. People in the mountains are definitely not short of game.
"I want to be ambushed from all sides." Phoenix said.
"Okay, I'll borrow a pot from them and set up an ambush for you."
Fang Yan glanced at Fenghuang, then stood up and ran back the way he came.
Fenghuang stared at Fang Yan's back infatuatedly, chewing the sugarcane in his mouth until it was mush and swallowing it into his stomach.
Just like it was Fang Yan!
Fang Yan came back soon.
He had a sack on his shoulders and a large pot in his hands.
Fang Yan put the big pot on the ground, and then took out the contents of the sack one by one.
Every time he found something, he would introduce it to Fenghuang as if it were a treasure, just like the first time he took her to the mountains to hunt rabbits and set up an ambush from all sides.
"This is dried rabbit----"
"This is half a pheasant. They only have half of it."
"This is the dough they sent me. They were going to use it to make pot stickers tonight, but I borrowed it."
"Here's the oil and the salt -- and these are the dried chilies they picked off the wall of their house --"
Fang Yan fished out a white plastic bucket from his pocket and said, "Didn't expect that? They also have bulk liquor. I just took a sip. It's not as refreshing as Yanziwu's Shaodaozi, but it tastes pretty good. The big brother said there are three pounds of it. I haven't touched liquor for a long time. Let's satisfy our craving for alcohol later."
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Fang Yan followed Yanziwu's example and built a simple stove with a few large stones on a dry ground. He washed the large iron pot in the stream and then put it on the stove.
Then clean the rabbit and pheasant, cut them into large pieces with a blade, and put them into the pot one by one.
Just grab a handful of wild mushrooms and mountain beans and throw them in, then add a certain amount of stream water.
Because it had just rained, the most difficult step was to find hay and firewood.
Of course, this was no problem for Fang Yan. He dug a few rabbit holes filled with soft and dry weeds.
Then he pulled out some old branches from under some rocks that had not been rained on, and used the lighter he got from the farmer's house to light the hay. The fire started to burn fiercely.
Phoenix was happily helping to light the fire, and from time to time, he would laugh like a silver bell at Fang Yan's words. The laughter could be heard from far away, and it was the most beautiful sound in the forest.
This scene was so familiar, exactly the same as when they were ambushing in Yanziwu.
When the soup was boiling and the meat was cooked, Fang Yan poured in the prepared oil, salt and seasoning. He also threw in a handful of chili peppers and poured in some strong liquor. The big pot began to smell fragrant, and even the mist coming out made people greedily inhale it into their lungs.
Fang Yan opened the wine barrel, gulped down a mouthful, and then handed the barrel to Fenghuang in front of him.
Fenghuang took the barrel of wine, tilted his head back and took a big gulp.
"Eat meat." Fang Yan handed the chopsticks made from tree branches to Fenghuang.
Fenghuang took the chopsticks, picked up a rabbit leg from the pot and started eating.
The rabbit legs were too hot right out of the pot, and Phoenix ate them too quickly, so she had to stick out her tongue from time to time to blow out some cool air.
However, she still ate greedily without caring about anything.
She chewed the rabbit meat with a look of embarrassment on her face, and tears streamed down her cheeks.
From now on, there will be no more Phoenix! (To be continued)