Ji Ling stared at Jing Sui in a daze, his brain was completely in a state of shutdown, and it took him a while to realize that Jing Sui actually said sorry to him!
He must be dreaming, or the kind of nightmare...
Jing Sui actually said sorry to him, no... why did you say sorry to me! You have done a good job, there is no need to say sorry to me, please continue to be ruthless!
I don't need to be sorry at all, okay! Ji Ling was roaring in despair.
Jing Sui looked at Ji Ling's sad and shocked eyes, the cold chill flowed through his blood, almost frostbite his internal organs.
Doing it all over again, seeing the damage I did to the young man with my own eyes was countless times more real than what I remembered, the cracks in my heart that were densely packed like spider webs were once again on the verge of breaking apart.
After a long time, Jing Sui spoke in a low voice, looking gently into Ji Ling's eyes: "You don't need to prove anything to me in this way, in the future... don't do such dangerous things again, eh?"
Ji Ling looked at the man in front of him in a trance, who was always cold and indifferent, but stared at him with such focused and gentle eyes, and finally felt sad.
So you who killed a thousand swords, you really have to be reborn! Why can't you hold on, as the male lead, you're going to join forces with those villains? !
Ji Ling is like a child who has suffered a lot of grievances. Although he encountered many difficulties before, he kept telling himself to be strong, to persevere, and not to lose hope in life, but fate still gave him a merciless blow ... being comforted by Jing Suiyi at this moment, he finally couldn't hold back the tears, and cried out with a wow.
How can you do this!
You are too much!
Jing Sui watched Ji Ling burst into tears suddenly, his shaking eyes were full of helplessness and despair, and the accusing gaze was like a sharp knife, piercing straight into his heart.
It turns out that the current self has already hurt him so deeply, how indifferent and ruthless must he be to cause the boy's emotions to be on the verge of collapse with just a single gentle word
Did my former self be so harsh on him...
Why... I didn't come back earlier
This thought came to his mind again, God gave him a chance to be born again, maybe it was just to let him witness for once how cruel what he did...
Let him hate the former self so much, but there is nothing he can do.
sorry.
In the future... I will never make you sad again, okay
The light in Jing Sui's golden pupils was dim, and he stretched out his hand to take the crying boy into his arms, brushed his palm gently over the boy's soft hair, and whispered in his ear, "Don't cry."
Ji Ling was held in Jing Sui's arms, comforted by his soft voice, his heart was ashamed, and he almost gave up on himself.
He felt the cold breath brought by the man's approach, enveloping him forcefully and gently, giving him a feeling that there was nowhere to escape... The last bottom line persistence allowed him to maintain his sanity.
He can't accept Jing Sui!
He is a straight man, and his current personality is set up to be infatuated with Jing Sui. It stands to reason that no matter how deep the injury is, as long as Jing Sui gives him a little sweetness, he can immediately turn around and give him a hug, as long as Jing Sui smiles at him To be grateful to Dade... But he really can't do it!
He is just a sailor who takes money to do things. It doesn’t matter if he likes it usually, but if suddenly one day the idol turns around and tells you, let’s be together, I accept your feelings. After they are together...maybe even kiss, slap...
Ji Ling's eyes almost went dark.
Thinking of being trapped in such a terrifying world and facing the risk of being raped by men, Ji Ling's strong desire to survive in such a desperate situation finally exploded his own small universe, and now he must reject Jing Sui!
The rabbit is in a hurry and will bite!
Ji Ling pushed Jing Sui away violently, looked at him with red eyes, and said angrily: "Don't lie to me, you were still comforting Ning Yu just now, you obviously like him, and you came here today because of him... you I'm just afraid that he will hurt me and be retaliated against, and I'm afraid that I won't be willing to continue to trouble him, I don't need your hypocrisy!"
Jing Sui was startled, his arms were empty, and the pain in his eyes could hardly be suppressed.
When he was reborn, the duel had already begun. The reason why he didn't fight at the beginning was because he hoped that Ji Ling could restore some of his reputation with his own hands. And he didn't show up for Ning Yu at all. If he had directly injured Ning Yu and taken Ji Ling away, the angry people would have vented their anger on Ji Ling and made him a target.
That's why I deliberately pretended not to care about him, stayed at the scene to appease Ning Yu, and minimized the adverse effects caused by this incident, so that even if the public had some dissatisfaction, most of them would only point the finger at him and ignore Ji Ling instead.
But Ji Ling didn't understand, all he saw was the picture of him leaving him and talking to Ning Yu.
This child has always been so simple and heartbreaking and helpless.
After a long time, Jing Sui let out a light sigh, and explained slowly and gently: "No, I did that just now to protect you."
Ji Ling immediately asked stingingly, "Are you protecting me?"
Jing Sui would not bother to explain such a simple truth to others, but when he looked at the sad young man, how could he bear his misunderstanding and sadness? He said: "This is a fair duel. It is against the rules for me to intervene. If I defend you too much, it will only make you a target of public criticism. Do you understand?"
Ji Ling froze for a moment, so you think so? This principle is very simple and easy to understand, he just didn't think in this direction just now, now hearing Jing Suiyi's words, he is even more desperate and angry :)
It turns out that you were not defending Ning Yu just now, but me!
It’s fine for you to be reborn, and it’s fine for you to feel guilty, I can barely understand... But your affection for the protagonist makes me so sad and indignant, how can you ignore him so much? To ignore the righteous and kind protagonist for the sake of vicious cannon fodder like me!
It's just shockingly frivolous!
No, I, Ji Ling, will never admit defeat!
He took a deep breath, fixedly looked at Jing Sui, and said coldly, "Really?"
Seeing that Ji Ling finally calmed down a bit, Jing Sui thought that he understood what he meant and accepted his apology, but at this moment he saw tears welling up in Ji Ling's eyes again, looking at him with an extremely strange gaze. looking at him as if he was a very scary being...
Ji Ling's eyelashes trembled slightly, and there were tears in his eyes, but there was a sad smile on the corner of his mouth, and he said word by word: "Apart from your status as a nobleman, what else can you compare to him."
Jing Sui's expression finally changed.
Ji Ling clearly and slowly repeated that sentence word for word. His eyes were full of despair, sadness, and pain. He fixedly looked into Jing Sui's eyes, "This is what His Majesty said to me that day. I remember every word clearly."
Jing Sui's lips moved slightly, but no sound came out.
"At that time, Your Majesty probably didn't expect that I would go to Ning Yu for a duel... But what I didn't expect was that you love him so much." Ji Ling looked at him disheartened, and sarcastically opened the corners of his mouth, trying to maintain There seemed to be an inaudible tremor in the calm voice, and he said: "In your capacity, in order to protect a person, you are willing to treat me like a trash dandy that you look down on."
"I naively hoped that you didn't deny that day, but you just perfunctory my words, and you just made up an excuse to reject me. I didn't believe that you really liked him...but now I finally believe it." Ji Ling Smiling and laughing, tears flowed down silently, "So you like him so much that you can intervene in duels for him, clear obstacles for him, and solve all troubles for him. Come and lie to me for him."
Every time Ji Ling said a word, Jing Sui's complexion became paler.
What he wanted to refute was that he couldn't be bothered to do such a despicable behavior. He is fully capable of protecting his lover, just like I want to protect you now.
But even if I say it's not like that now... who would believe it
If it weren't for the experience of that life, if it wasn't for the hundreds of years of painful regrets, even he himself wouldn't believe it.
I can't believe that I would be like this, caring about a person.
Jing Sui closed his eyes, concealing the tiredness in his eyes, and said, "It's not like that."
Ji Ling suddenly shouted in grief and indignation: "Enough!"
He glanced at Jing Sui resentfully, raised his hand to wipe his eyes, seemed to finally be unable to hold on any longer, turned around and ran away from Jing Sui!
Jing Sui stood there, watching the young man pass by him, that hateful look in his eyes, like a thousand feet of freezing cold, made him unable to move.
Sometimes once the damage is done, even if it takes a hundred times and a thousand times, it will be irreparable and irreparable.
In the abyss, how can we hope to leave easily
What about redemption
But even so, in this life, please allow me to protect you, even if you spend your whole life begging for forgiveness, it doesn't matter.
... ... ...
Ji Ling just performed supernormally, finally got rid of Jing Sui, returned to his home, and began to call the system impatiently.
Ji Ling: [This mission is so cute, I won't do it!]
System: [... Calm down.]
Ji Ling: [I can't calm down now! ! !]
system:[…]
Ji Ling: [He must have been reborn, otherwise he would not have said such things to me, the hero has been reborn, how can I do this task!]
The system also saw the scene just now, and couldn't be justified, so it had to hint euphemistically: [But if you don't do the task, what will happen to your reward...]
Ji Ling was furious, let him stay in this strange world full of scary bosses, and live in fear every day, fearing that he would die, it would be better to let him die! He took a deep breath and said: [If it's really not possible, let's read the file and start over.]
The system is a bit embarrassing: [We haven't determined the reason for the rebirth of the character in this world yet, so even if the file is loaded and restarted, there is no guarantee that it can be completely restored to the original state...]
Ji Ling's eyes darkened when he heard the words, and he almost fainted: [So you mean, even if you do it all over again, there is no guarantee that they are all normal?]
The system dare not speak.
Ji Ling laughed back angrily: [Even if the failure of the first mission was my fault, but now they are all reborn, it must not be my fault, right? This is completely different from what we agreed on before. This is a serious violation of integrity. I ask you to give me an explanation!]
System: [Don't worry, I will report this situation to my superiors and give you an explanation as soon as possible.]
Ji Ling looked indifferent: [Your words sound very familiar to me.]
system:[?]
Ji Ling: [One of my mother’s colleagues bought a house last year, but when they actually received the house, they found that it did not match the model house, and the developer’s original promise was not fulfilled, so they went to the developer’s theory and asked for an explanation. , The sales manager on the other side replied her like this every time.]
system:[…]
Ji Ling: [The point is, this matter has been going on for a whole year, the banners have been pulled up, the doors have been blocked, and the other party is still prevaricating like this until I die:)]
system:[…]
Ji Ling sincerely sighed: [So you must not be like this, right?]
System: […] dare not speak, dare not speak.
... ... ...
Ji Ling fell asleep and woke up in the afternoon of the next day.
Although he found a reason to run away from Jing Sui in a flash of inspiration yesterday, and then slammed the system again, his mood was still very low, and for a moment he really wanted to break the can, but he knew he couldn't do this.
No matter whether the system can give him a satisfactory answer or not, he still has to rely on himself in order to complete the task, and he cannot completely pin his hopes on others. He has to cheer up. Efforts may not necessarily result in results, but there will be no results without efforts.
If he wanted to go home, he couldn't give up now.
After calming down and thinking about it carefully, although the situation is really bad, he is not hopeless, because the real decisive condition for completing the mission is that the protagonist Gongshou loves each other and HE, as long as this goal can be achieved, the process is not important anymore .
So what if they were all reborn? Rebirth essentially just adds a piece of experience, knowing some things that will happen in the future, it is not a big change, split personality of living people, these people are still themselves in essence, have their own personality and thoughts, and many deep-rooted things will not be caused by rebirth. just changed.
Just like a fool will not become wise just because of rebirth, a cruel and evil person will not become kind and compassionate just because of rebirth.
So they hated themselves so much in their previous life, so naturally they wouldn't fall in love with them just because they were reborn.
The reason why Jing Sui and Brandon treated them uncharacteristically was not so much because they liked them, but because they felt guilty. Because they sacrificed their lives to save them in their last life, they felt regretful after their death. After their rebirth, they wanted to It was barely possible to make up for it. After all, he belonged to the decent camp and was not so insane.
As for Carlos and Wen Yan, the two insidious villains who disregard human life, even if they are reborn with their personalities, they are probably mostly calculating against themselves, and bad guys will not change their minds and become good people just because they are reborn once.
Taking a ten thousand step back, it doesn't matter whether they feel guilty or full of calculations towards themselves, they are just an insignificant cannon fodder, as long as Jing Sui can love Ning Yu, there is still hope for completing the task!
Thinking of this, Ji Ling finally cheered up a bit, and began to carefully analyze the situation he was facing now.
In the previous life, I succeeded in plotting against Ning Yu, the hero of Jing Sui saved the beauty, and showed her affection in front of the whole people. Because of this incident, I caused strong dissatisfaction among the people towards the nobles. Using such despicable methods in a duel is undoubtedly a violation of the laws of the empire. Jing Sui wanted to punish him in order to calm the anger of the people, but at the critical moment Ning Yu stood up to intercede for him and forgave him generously. He ultimately escaped punishment.
The reason why Ning Yu did this, Ji Ling thought, was that on the one hand, it was because Ning Yu himself was a bright and broad-minded white lotus persona, not the kind of vicious person who would get revenge; on the other hand, it was because he was actually a smart person. Killing himself at such a time is of no benefit to him. It is better to accept it as soon as it is good. It will not only win a good reputation, but will not arouse the resentment and resistance of the imperial nobles towards him. He offended Grand Duke Ji Ting in every possible way.
Kindness and integrity does not mean low emotional intelligence - it is vividly demonstrated here by Ning Yu.
But this time, the person who was saved by the hero became himself...
Facing Jing Sui who played out of common sense at that time, Ji Ling was very collapsed and desperate, but now that he thinks about it carefully, it is actually not that bad, because Ning Yu is still gaining both fame and fortune. Not only did he win over himself openly, but also because of Jing Sui's protection of himself, he won the sympathy of the people.
If you want to talk about the only change, it is that Jing Sui is the one who is responsible this time...
But it's not a big problem, because Jing Sui's handling at that time was very clever, which greatly calmed the emotions of the people. Even if some people were still dissatisfied, it was not enough to affect the situation. While protecting himself, he let the bad things happen. impact is minimized.
So Ning Yu and Jing Sui actually suffered no real loss in this incident.
What really worried and troubled Ji Ling was Jing Sui's attitude towards Ning Yu.
Because he did not hesitate to attack Ning Yu for his own sake!
In your previous life, you were a married couple anyway. If Jing Sui was really reborn and felt guilty about himself, then it should be love for Ning Yu.
So here comes the problem.
With Jing Sui's rational, calm and indifferent personality, would he ruthlessly attack his lover because of a trace of guilt towards himself
This doesn't make sense!
And if what he said yesterday is true, then it seems that he has put his own importance in front of Ning Yu. It is possible that he died for him once. He finally found out that he is good and was moved by his love. If you like Ning Yu again, do you like yourself instead
No way-
Thinking of this, Ji Ling started to panic again, so panicked!
No, definitely not!
With Jing Sui's ruthless character design, it is already the original author's cheating to fall in love with Ning Yu, which is an irresistible force of fate. If Ji Ling hadn't read the original text, he would not believe that someone like him would really love her Ning Yu... So how could such a person fall in love with him just because he died for him
It's so easy to like him, is he still that ruthless majesty
Ji Ling was in a mess.
If he had known that today would happen, he would never have saved Jing Sui at that time. Anyway, Carlos might not have won if he hadn’t done so... If God gave him another chance, he would save a dog. Will not save this heartless dog emperor! (Here refers to the feeling of being unkind to Ning Yu
Ji Ling just thinks about it during the day, at night, when eating, and when sleeping.
Cheer yourself up for a while.
After a while, I was vented again.
He looked blank for a while.
He hesitated and struggled for a while.
After thinking about it, I couldn't come up with a clue. I really couldn't understand the reason why Jing Sui did this. It seemed that something was wrong, but I couldn't figure it out. I didn't know what I had overlooked... He hated this kind of deep thinking People who speculate!
Because of this accident, Ji Ling didn't leave the gate every day, full of worry and confusion about his future.
... ... ...
That night, he sat in his yard as usual, staring at the sky in a daze. The nine shining satellites in the sky reminded him every moment that this was not his world...
Wen Yan walked in from the outside, and immediately saw the pale young man sitting there with a dazed expression, looking up at the sky in a daze, so lonely and lonely.
It's as if he doesn't belong in this world at all.
Bitterness appeared faintly in Wen Yan's eyes. Thinking of what happened that day, his heart felt dull and aching. Although Ji Ling had no accident in the end and even escaped intact, for him who was obsessed with Jing Sui, the result was the same as that of his previous life. It's no different.
Because the person he loves disdains him and only cares about other people.
Jing Sui seemed to save Ji Ling, but in fact it was just to protect Ning Yu, so that Ning Yu would not be retaliated for accidentally hurting Ji Ling. He could see this, and many people could see it.
Ji Ling should have seen it too.
So now, how sad should the boy be
Wen Yan walked over gently, his heart was full of pity, his dark eyes gazed at Ji Ling's face tenderly, and he said in a low voice, "It's late, why don't you go to rest?"
Ji Ling turned his head dumbly, looking at the silver-haired man standing respectfully in front of him, this is not a worry.
I thought he would stop wasting time pleasing me after he became the speaker. In his last life, he was always perfunctory to himself. In this life, he didn’t know what he was thinking. sense.
Because of his low mood, Ji Ling didn't bother to find words to run on Wen Yan. After thinking about it, he was also a reborn guy. Feeling helpless and at a loss, he couldn't help asking him the doubts that had accumulated in his heart for a long time, and said: "Do you think His Majesty might like me?"
Wen Yan looked at the young man's pale and delicate face, and in the night, the helplessness and fragility in those clear eyes could be clearly seen, and asked him this question so lonely... Wen Yan felt pain and pity in his heart, and could hardly bear to speak.
He knew very well that it was impossible for Jing Sui to like Ji Ling.
In the last century, Ling was infatuated, but he couldn't exchange Jing Sui's look back. That man has no heart at all, and he doesn't know how to love someone.
But how could he say this cruel answer to these eyes that were almost shattered
Wen Yan was silent for a long time, then slowly said: "Your Majesty will definitely like you."
When Ji Ling heard this, his face was almost ashamed. He wanted to kill himself. What kind of insanity did he commit to ask Wen Yan this question? I just want to hear the answer that suits my heart, and I don't want to hear anything else!
With tears in his eyes, he stubbornly refused to listen: "You lied to me! He won't like me!"
Wen Yan looked at him with heartache. His beloved boy was originally a confident, bright and proud person. He is the most noble prince in the world. Saying such self-abandoning words.
How deep was the injury that made him so desperate
Wen Yan's hand hanging by his side was slowly clenched, and suddenly he knelt down in front of Ji Ling on one knee, raised his eyes to stare into Ji Ling's eyes, opened his thin lips lightly, and made a hoarse voice: "If he doesn't like you , then you...can you stop liking him?"
As long as you say no, I will never let you go.
Ji Ling looked into Wen Yan's eyes. In the man's dark eyes, there was an extremely complex and gloomy color, as if something terrible was deeply suppressed and bound, ready to move, as long as he said a word wrong, he would release it. Among them, the imprisoned demons are like...
Ji Ling shivered subconsciously.
I just want to hear you say he won't like me, but you throw the question back at me and scare me! Sure enough, it is impossible to have a pleasant chat with a big villain like you!
Ji Ling, who didn't dare to break the human design, lowered his eyes sadly, and said with a sob: "I, but I can't help but like him..."
When Wen Yan heard these words, the cluster of flames in the bottom of his eyes seemed to be extinguished by something cold, leaving only a piece of ashes, bleak and dull.
The corners of his lips raised slightly, revealing a sarcasm, as if mocking his wishful thinking.
After a while, he closed his eyes and opened them again. In the black phoenix pupils, there was only thick blackness that could not reveal a trace of light. He gently took Ji Ling's hand and said softly, "I will help you."
Ji Ling looked at him blankly.
Wen Yan stared at him deeply, his hoarse voice was thickened by the darkness of night, and he said word by word like a promise: "As long as it is your wish, I will help you achieve it."
In the last life, I selfishly longed to possess you by despicable means.
In this life, I only want you to be happy.
It doesn't even matter if it pushes you towards someone else.