Feel the man's gentle kiss fall down.
Ji Ling finally burst into tears!
If you want to ask him how he feels now, it is regret, especially regret.
If he had known the present, he would have taken it easy when acting, and occasionally gave Jing Sui a little sweetness, and he would not have fallen to the present situation.
After all, judging from Jing Sui's attitude towards himself, he is absolutely reluctant to force himself. The reason why he did this is probably out of the idea that he can only help himself in this way and let himself accept this kind of thing hapiness.
But the problem is - I have nothing to do! He was not QJed at all!
If he really did it today, it would be his first time.
And what made Ji Ling extremely terrified was that he actually felt super comfortable being kissed, and even wanted to try it a little bit. The instinct of the body ran counter to his thoughts. What did Jing Sui use for him! ! !
help...
Is he really going to go on the curved road from now on and never return? He hasn't talked about a pure love, and he hasn't held a girl's soft little hand yet, so he's about to do it in one step, and have sex with a man!
No, he can't give up!
Ji Ling made the most cruel heart in his life, biting the tip of his tongue, and burst into tears in pain. The pain made him pull back his reason a little bit. He looked at Jing Sui with extremely resentful eyes, and said tearfully: "You let me go!"
Jing Sui looked up, and found that the young man's eyes were so desperate and sad, and there was a trace of blood on his lips.
Jing Sui's expression changed suddenly, and he raised his hand to pinch the boy's chin, telling him to open his mouth. His chest heaved violently, and he said sharply, "What are you doing?!"
The young man looked at him desperately, fearful, fearful, and determined.
This look made Jing Sui finally make up his mind, and it was defeated in an instant, making his hands almost trembling. After a long time, he opened his mouth with difficulty, this supreme man who has always been strong and never showed weakness in front of anyone, at this moment there was a hint of pleading in his voice: "Don't do this, I won't hurt you..."
But the boy turned his eyes away from him, and his thin body trembled slightly.
He was afraid of this kind of thing, this kind of fear was engraved in his bones, so strong that he would rather hurt himself than accept himself.
In the room, the only thing left was the boy's suppressed panting with sobs.
I don't know how long it has been.
Jing Sui closed his eyes dejectedly, and said in a hoarse voice, "I won't move you, don't be afraid, it's okay."
He was silent for a few seconds, got up, picked up the boy and walked into the bathroom.
... ... ...
After the end, Ji Ling still burst into tears and kept crying.
Although he managed to keep his virginity, he was finally pulled out by the man's hands, and what made him feel ashamed and angry was that he actually enjoyed it!
Devil, Jing Sui is simply a devil!
Ji Ling's heart was ashamed.
Jing Sui has already left, but he still has no energy and doesn't want to speak.
Although temporarily out of the crisis, if Jing Sui insists on using this method to help him get out of the shadow, what should he do next time? After all, it was very difficult for him to resist today.
Thinking of this, Ji Ling felt extremely anxious.
This time it was really hard to eat.
The next day when it was time for dinner, Mrs. Shaman came over again. She obviously knew what happened last night. She looked at Ji Ling and hesitated to speak, but in the end she didn't say anything, she just looked at Ji Ling and sighed. .
Ji Ling was very bitter in his heart, and he really felt like he was riding a tiger. He was in a trance, and suddenly asked: "Aunt Shaman, does Your Majesty really like me..."
Seeing that Ji Ling was rarely willing to speak, Mrs. Shaman quickly revealed her loving eyes, and said affirmatively, "It's true."
Ji Ling lowered his head in disappointment, he also believed it was true now, but how should he face this feeling? Even if he doesn't talk about the mission, he has no way to accept a person who doesn't understand him at all, he doesn't even dare to tell the truth, and he doesn't want to fall in love with Jing Sui at all.
Eating, surviving, going home, everything is more important than falling in love.
In this case, he really has no intention of falling in love!
Ji Ling said sadly: "But he didn't like me before, why..."
Mrs. Shaman touched the boy's head, and said softly: "Sometimes it doesn't make sense to like this kind of thing. For example, I like you just because you are worthy of liking."
Ji Ling is tearful, but your liking is totally different from his liking, okay
Mrs. Shaman accompanied Ji Ling for a while and then left.
Ji Ling returned to the room dejectedly. Although today's meal was normal, he couldn't feel relaxed. Just when he felt very helpless and hopeless, a familiar voice suddenly sounded in his ear.
System: [Host, are you okay, are you okay?]
Ji Ling almost cried with joy, he couldn't wait to ask: [Did you help me apply for a replacement task?]
system:[…]
Seeing that the system didn't answer, Ji Ling's eyes darkened, and he said in despair: [Failed?]
The system said slowly: [That's not true, I don't know the result yet. I have already submitted the application for you, but you know that we have to manage thousands of worlds at the World Traveling Management Office. The procedures are complicated and cumbersome, and the superiors are very busy. The application has to go through layers of approval, and your situation is quite special After receiving the application, the leader still needs to conduct investigations, hold meetings, discuss, vote, and finally form a formal document for approval. It may be difficult to get results in a short time.]
Ji Ling: […]
The system also felt a little embarrassed after speaking, and comforted: [But I think there is still hope, after all, this matter is not your fault.]
Ji Ling couldn't laugh.
But he still managed to pull himself together, at least the result hasn't come out yet, what if... there is really hope? He couldn't help but ignite a small flame of hope in his heart, and he would never give up until the last moment!
Ji Ling calmed down, and then asked in doubt: [Then why are you back now?]
System: [I'm worried about you, I'm afraid I won't be able to see you for the last time...]
Ji Ling remembered what he said last time, and showed a stiff smile: [... Thank you.]
System: [Should be, I can't help you with anything else, just talk to you for a while.]
Ji Ling was suddenly touched: [All QAQ]
The system shuddered: […] What's so fat about it? It feels like his host has started to go crazy! Is this task really that difficult
... ... ...
After a few days, the system finally understood why the host behaved like this, it was really too hard.
He has been with the host for a long time, and he is very aware of how greedy the host is. When he stays at home with nothing to do, he can eat from morning to night every day without stopping.
I often feel with him that there are not so many novel delicacies on earth.
Food is almost his only pleasure in this strange world.
But now his host faces so much delicious food every day, but he has to pretend that he can't eat it, his face is ashamed, and he has to worry about whether the food has been poisoned. What a cruel thing! I can't bear to look at the system.
Finally one day the system said: [I think if it’s not counted, isn’t it just sleeping with a man, and Renren will pass.]
Ji Ling's eyes were blue and black, and he said weakly, "Is it a question of sleeping with someone now?" I can't come down now, if a sudden change of attitude arouses Jing Sui's suspicion, do you think Jing Sui's arrogance will tolerate me deceiving him like this?]
The system thought for a while and said: [Probably not.]
Ji Ling said: [That's right, if his identity is exposed, not only will he not tolerate me deceiving him, but he may also discover the secrets of this world because of me as an outsider, that is a big problem!]
The system also became nervous when he heard this: [You are right, he cannot discover the secrets of this world.]
Ji Ling sighed faintly, and lay dead on the bed.
The system is silent.
It's not easy being a host.
Ji Ling stared blankly at the top of his head. Although fear of revealing his identity was the main reason, sleeping with men was also a big problem! If you don't agree, you can't agree to death!
If you don't agree, you can only endure it.
... ... ...
That day Ji Ling came out of the house, rubbed his eyes, and found that the atmosphere outside was lively with lights and festoons, he was very puzzled.
Although I shouldn't ask too many questions according to my current personality, I couldn't hold back a waiter and said, "What are you doing?"
The waiter faced Ji Ling with a respectful tone that couldn't hide his excitement, and said, "Your Majesty is going to hold a banquet in the palace and announce that he will hold a wedding with you at an optional date. Soon, we will call you Your Highness the Queen."
Ji Ling's eyes darkened, and he almost fainted!
What
Marriage is such an important matter, why has no one told him about it before!
Ji Ling finally couldn't sit still anymore, he didn't dare to see Jing Sui, he thought about going to Madam Shaman's.
This is the first time that Ji Ling has walked out of the palace in this period of time. Mrs. Shaman was very surprised and said, "Xiao Ling, why are you here?"
Ji Ling opened his dull eyes and said in disbelief: "I heard that His Majesty is going to announce that he is going to marry me, but I have never heard of it before."
Mrs. Shaman laughed when she heard the words, and she said dotingly: "We didn't tell you about this matter because we were afraid of disturbing you. Don't worry, His Majesty will prepare everything, and I will definitely give you one A grand wedding."
Ji Ling said anxiously: "But I don't want to marry Your Majesty..."
Mrs. Shaman said lovingly: "I know what you are worried about, but it doesn't matter. No matter what you have experienced, you are still my aunt's little baby. Jing Sui also likes you very much. If anyone dares to say that you are not worthy of him, Auntie will show them off! Who else is qualified to be the queen besides you?"
Ji Ling: "..."
Mrs. Shaman said: "I've been looking forward to this day, I don't know how long I have been looking forward to it, and you will call me mother in the future."
Ji Ling: "..."
He walked out of Mrs. Shaman's palace in a daze.
So, they all think that this is good for themselves, what they want, and can comfort them... But it's not at all!
Is my rejection not obvious enough? !
Ji Ling was very wronged. He felt like a person from the earth who met a group of aliens who could not communicate. The people on the earth like apples, but the group of aliens desperately wanted him because they thought he was cute. My most beloved bananas are scrambling to give him to eat, forcing him to eat. If he doesn’t like it, he can only hold his nose and eat it. But the person who ate this person is jealous and unhappy, and the person who ate that person is jealous Don't be happy, don't eat any of them and might get killed by angry aliens :)
He obviously doesn't want anyone, he just wants to go home, but everyone is forcing him to make a choice.
Although Ji Ling knew that they couldn't blame them all, he also had a part of the reason. He played such a character, but he didn't dare to tear off the disguise and be himself...
But, he acted very badly, he tried his best not to be liked, he is so vicious! Why do you still fall in love with this? !
He really couldn't figure it out.
On the way back, passing the garden, Ji Ling was walking among the flowers, and suddenly saw clusters of beautiful red flowers blooming on both sides. This flower blooms very gorgeously, a bit like roses on earth, the petals are delicate and beautiful, but the color is translucent, dreamy and unreal.
Ji Ling suddenly remembered the information he used to watch on Starnet while staying at home. At that time, because most of the time was boring, Ji Ling watched all kinds of movies and TV dramas and forum posts, and also read a lot of novel and cold knowledge on the universe, which made him feel sad. He opened his eyes wide, because this flower is so beautiful and unforgettable, so he has some impressions.
This flower is called the Tears of Starlight, and it is an endangered species. It is very difficult to see it outside, but I didn't expect that there are still a few in the palace.
Although the flowers are beautiful and usually safe and harmless, if they are eaten with manluo fish, they will be highly toxic.
Manluo fish is also a very precious and rare fish. It only lives in the extremely cold glaciers at the bottom of Xianyunxing. Although it tastes extremely delicious, it is not eaten by ordinary people.
These two things are very rare, and many people may never see them in their entire lives, so this knowledge is quite remote, and Ji Ling saw it by accident at the beginning.
But it's a coincidence... In Ji Ling's recent dinner, there was manluo fish almost every day.
Just because he liked it once before, this dish has become his daily cuisine and one of his favorite foods.
Ji Ling's eyes changed for a moment, and he looked around cautiously, making sure that there was no one, and suddenly stepped forward and secretly folded two flowers.
He returned to his room nervously, closed the door, and then said to the system: [You can help me find out, if this flower is eaten, what is the fatal dose?]
The system turned pale with fright, wishing he had the hand to stop the host, excitedly said: [Don't be impulsive! There is only one life, do it and cherish it!]
Ji Ling: [... I don't want to die, so I asked you to help investigate?]
system:[?]
Ji Ling: [I only remember that eating this flower together with manluo fish will produce toxins, but the specific dosage and detailed information are not clear. I am afraid that I will die if I eat too much, so I asked you to help check it.]
The system breathed a sigh of relief, as long as the host didn't want to commit suicide: [Are you planning to pretend to commit suicide?]
Ji Ling's eyes moved slightly, and he said, "It's sort of..."
The system sees the host as very pitiful. Since it is not a real death, it will no longer dissuade it. If suicide can temporarily free the host from these people, it would be a good way, so it said: [Just wait a moment.]
After a while, the system came back and said: [With your physical fitness, you can eat half a flower at most, if you eat more, you will not be able to save yourself.]
Ji Ling took a deep breath: [I see.]
He stared at the bright red and beautiful flowers in front of him, struggled with the look in his eyes for a long time, and finally made a decision. Since there is no hope of completing the task, what else do you care about
Aren't you all born again
Say you love me
Want to make it up to me
Everyone doesn't follow the plot, what do you think the world has collapsed into? You know how to bully people by taking advantage of your rebirth!
That being the case, who wouldn't be reborn!
Come on, hurt each other.
The big deal is that we stand on the same starting line and have a fair duel!
... ... ...
Sitting in his study, Jing Sui learned that Ji Ling went to his mother's place in the morning, then went back to stay in the palace, and went out to eat something in the evening as usual, looking quite normal.
He thought of the internal and external troubles during this period of time, and his eyes showed a little tired look. Dealing with Carlos had already troubled him very much, and the young man made his heart ache even more, and he was really exhausted physically and mentally.
He didn't know what else he could do to make the boy come out slowly.
He has been enduring and indulging, but he just doesn't want the young man to be sad, even if he misunderstands himself, he will let him do whatever he wants... But his step by step retreat, in the end, only makes the young man farther and farther away from him, and even suffers from being deceived and hurt.
It turns out that letting go is sometimes not necessarily the right decision.
If I had insisted on keeping the boy by my side at the beginning, protected him well, and slowly released him, maybe now they are already together well, and all of this will naturally not happen.
Thinking of the torture the boy suffered at the hands of the rebels, regret and self-blame tortured his heart all the time.
It was he who didn't protect him.
Jing Sui finally made a decision to directly let the young man become his queen. With this title, Carlos could give up his heart. If he slowly approached him, one day, the young man could accept himself and walk out of the shadows.
Jing Sui let out a breath slowly, got up and went to the boy's direction, he wanted to see him a little bit.
He wanted to tell him personally that he had promised him his life.
This is also something that he regretted countless times in his last life and couldn't get it. At that time, he had everything in the world to be peaceful, but he didn't have the person he wanted to promise. Without the one person who wants to stay by my side at all costs...
This time, he won't let go, won't miss it again.
Jing Sui walked slowly and heavily, and finally came to the familiar door again, stretched out his hand and gently opened the door.
The young man lay quietly on the bed, defenseless and full of thorns when he fell asleep, like a beautiful little angel, Jing Sui couldn't help showing a trace of tenderness in his eyes, he slowly came to the young man, but just left After taking two steps, he stopped abruptly, and his pupils shrank instantly.
With his super perception, he noticed the abnormality immediately.
The young man's breathing seemed to be even, but it was much slower than usual. His usually pale face was now flushed with a faint blush, and his sleep was rare and sweet.
But Jing Sui was not in the slightest happy mood, he glanced sharply, and saw the translucent red petals scattered at the foot of the bed.
The translucent red petals are dotted on the silver-white sheets and the white ground, so beautiful and seductive, like some kind of charming picture he has dreamed of. His beloved is lying quietly on the bed covered with petals. On the pink lips, there is still a little flower juice stained, the color is beautiful and attractive, as if waiting to invite him to taste.
But Jing Sui is going crazy!
He immediately pressed the emergency button on the communicator, his voice trembling uncontrollably: "Bring the antidote!"
Then strode forward, knelt down on one knee beside the bed, trembling and lightly grabbed the young man's wrist, the young man's pulse was very weak, as if it would disappear at any moment... During this time, all of Jing Sui's restraint and pretense were completely broken, Fear spread uncontrollably in the depths of his eyes.
Ji Ling committed suicide!
How could I be so careless? How could you not be optimistic about him? How can you give him a chance to commit suicide
If Ji Ling died this time, what should I do
Unprecedented powerlessness enveloped him, making his blood cold.
The medical officers rushed in, and the room was full of noise. Everyone was busy, opening their eyelids to check the boy's condition, inject him with antidote, and check the heart pulse data. Jing Sui is as motionless as a stone statue, clutching the young man tightly, wishing that the person who died was himself, wishing to replace him.
Because he is not afraid of pain and injury, he is strong enough, but his boy can't... the boy is too weak to withstand any harm.
Just a little bit of danger is enough to easily take his life.
Time passed by every minute and every second, Jing Sui never felt that such a short time was so difficult.
It was so difficult that every second was like a knife.
Finally, the medical officer said respectfully: "Your Majesty, Ji Shao's life is no longer in danger."
Jing Sui said hoarsely, "Why haven't you woken up yet?"
The medical officer said: "It will take some time for the medicine to take effect, and I can wake up in about an hour."
Jing Sui stopped talking.
The medical officer wiped off his cold sweat, and walked out nervously carrying the box. He didn't dare to think about the scene he saw just now, and didn't dare to imagine what would happen to Ji Ling if he hadn't been rescued.
He had never seen such a terrifying and vulnerable side in that cold, powerful and almost unmoved His Majesty.
Jing Sui never took his eyes off Ji Ling for a moment.
The room fell silent, and it was only the two of them left.
Time passed slowly...
The eyelashes of the young man on the bed trembled suddenly, Jing Sui's expression suddenly became tense, he stared at the young man's face firmly, his thin lips were pursed and bloodless.
The boy slowly opened his eyes and looked at the man waiting by the bed.
In those water-blue eyes, there was no fear or panic at all, only a piece of calm, like a dead abyss without the slightest waves, or as if he had seen through everything completely, and nothing could move him anymore.
At this moment, Jing Sui instinctively realized that something was wrong.
But for a while, he didn't think of it.
At this moment, he heard the boy speak.
The young man looked at him quietly, with a hint of sarcasm in his calm eyes, his lips moved slightly, and he made an indifferent voice: "Your Majesty, I said I would never pester you again... Have you forgotten?"
Jing Sui's expression changed drastically.