"The Change of Heaven"
Volume 2: The Horizon
Chapter 118 Sudden Change
Many years later, when I think back on this incident, I always feel that Huang Yi and I were just playing a game of house. We were just too involved and it was too real, so real that every heartache was so vividly remembered and hurt my heart.
In fact, I wanted to talk to her, but seeing her innocent and cheerful face, she even came up and touched Yi Yue's chubby cheeks, and joked with the child softly: "Do you recognize your aunt? Do you want to call me mother?" So I continued to talk to her like this.
I followed her into the courtyard with a smile that made no sense, and tried to keep my eyes away from her teasing my daughter. I discovered that there were some plum flowers planted in the back of the courtyard. At this moment, only a hint of new green branches appeared, and there were no flowers. There were still withered petals that fell last winter on the ground. The bees didn't come anymore, and it was very lonely. Although the courtyard was clean and tidy, it was lifeless, and there was a bitter, dilapidated and exhausted atmosphere everywhere. I felt depressed and turned to her, but she was still completely immersed in her new role and couldn't extricate herself. She just happily teased Yi Yue, and her eyes occasionally fell on me, but then left immediately.
Huang Tian was standing under the eaves. It was only when I saw him that I realized I was not dreaming, but it made the pain in my heart even more intense. He was young and obviously could not understand us. His face showed a kind of surprise and helplessness that was not commensurate with his age. So much so that when I smiled at him and freed my hands to say hello, he was unable to react for a while.
Maybe it wasn't that he couldn't react, because in the end he couldn't help but get to the point: "Father is gone, why are you still doing this?"
No one answered him, as if no one cared about this question.
I think, in the end, the old man didn't die happily, and he didn't wait for me to bring his daughter back, who was still alive but couldn't be there. If he came back for a word of forgiveness, he would still be worried. But when Huang Tian died, although he didn't say a word, he still had a smile on his face. It might be because he thought that his children were all there and his eldest daughter had a good home.
They had no money to prepare a funeral for the old man. In fact, they were unwilling to accept help from the owner of the courtyard, nor from Chen Ou and He Bo. The family relied on Huang Yi to weave cloth and mend clothes for others to make a living. The old man still relied on Chen Ou to help him put the coffin together and bury it, but even so, they never notified me from beginning to end to ask me to help.
So I got angry, and it got more and more intense. Huang Yi and I had a quarrel over this. I finally played the role of brother-in-law again, doing it in a dignified and miserable way, and only then did I calm down all her words. After the tomb sweeping, I even asked them to add my name and Huang Xin's name on it.
Finally, we were able to completely convince ourselves that I was her brother-in-law.
Finally, we finally let ourselves be deceived, as if I were her brother-in-law.
I never carried much money with me, so I had to borrow from He Bo. He actually asked me to write an IOU, but after seeing my facial expression, he decided to give up. In the end, I left a written note stating how much I owed.
When I gave her the money, I was more careful. I left Yiyue to her for a few days, so it was only natural to leave her some money. The last scene in my mind was watching her holding the girl in her arms and kissing her lovingly. I said softly, "I'm leaving," and let Huang Tian respectfully send me out the door, and finally hesitantly called me brother-in-law.
Maybe we're all crazy.
As such, this love was never rekindled, and he was still buried quietly on the mountain outside Zigui.
I left that night, which was something I had never expected when I came, but I couldn't stay any longer. I asked the people I was traveling with to rest for a night before returning, and I left alone on horseback.
I didn't stop all night, I just changed horses at the post station on the road, and I didn't even go to find Chen Ou to question him. In fact, when I saw him talking to me about Yi Yue's strangeness, I should have thought of asking. I should have asked earlier. Now let this matter go with the wind and drift to where it should go.
Along the way, I wanted to use fast speed to dilute all the trivial thoughts, and my eyes would look around, but I saw the sky full of stars shaking, mixed with various spinning and swaying, just like the edge of a white skirt dancing in the snow; the wind blew towards me, splashing with cold air and mud, and it was as painful as if the snow mixed with the mountain was blowing on my face.
Although this night was difficult, it passed so quickly that when I showed up at my house the next morning, my wife was really surprised who had just woken up.
"I left the bad guy at her aunt's house in Zigui. Now we can both relax a little." I leaned against the door, smiling tiredly, which must have been ugly.
She came up to me quietly, stroked my face with her hands, said nothing, and nodded with a smile.
I slept until the sun was setting, and when I woke up I found my pillow was wet, but I couldn't remember what I dreamed about. I slept for a long time before I sat up. I listened carefully but couldn't hear Yiyue crying. I just felt that the room was empty. I sat lazily on the couch, not wanting to do anything. I watched the red light coming in from the window, burning everything in the room, or bleeding everything, until finally, it was pitch black and I couldn't see anything anymore.
The door opened, leaving a piece of moonlight and a beautiful figure. She walked in, sat next to me, buried her head gently in my arms, and said nothing. I told her another story, a story that began in the snowy mountains and ended on the plank road in the forest.
That night, I slept very erratically, and so did she, waking up from time to time. Originally, we should have slept better now that the bad guy was gone, but now that she was really gone and no one was making trouble, we couldn't sleep. In the end, the two of us decided to let her stay in Zigui for a few days, and we would take her back as soon as possible.
We also joked with each other that we were really busy and toilsome.
In the following days, we had nothing to do. There was no more trouble from the bad guys during the day. Kong Ming, Wu Yue, Song Qian, Chen Wu and the others went to school together. The house became more empty. At breakfast, the half-grown boys stuffed their mouths with food while asking me this and that, mostly about the war in the south. I listened to their folk tales in Mingzi. I felt like I was not a human being anymore. I felt sad, but I could only smile in front of them. Kong Ming, apart from the initial greeting, did not express anything else. He just asked me sadly when Sister Yinling would come back before he left. I felt even sadder in my heart, but I could only talk about other things in front of them. When I asked about his husband's situation, my eyes would inadvertently glance at his wife, but he avoided her gaze back.
The teacher was Mr. Huang Tingyan, who many people had mentioned to me. I didn't want to disturb their studies. So I had to go out and find something to do. Brother Chen looked at me with a smirk. I was not here when there was something going on. Now that spring has been done and there is nothing important, I am back.
I heard that Aunt Zhang's health has improved a lot, but Uncle Zhang's eyes have some problems again. On weekdays, the old couple often hold hands in the yard to bask in the sun, and everyone takes care of them and takes care of everything. When I went to see them in the afternoon that day, seeing this scene, I felt relieved. I didn't disturb the old couple who were sleeping in the yard holding hands and leaning their heads against each other. I quietly walked away and pulled away a pair of children who were chasing and playing.
Ye Jian also grew a beard. When I saw him at the garrison, he was reading bamboo slips, pretending to be a scholar. However, looking at his facial expression, he did not seem to be pretending to know something. After he greeted them and chatted for a few words, a soldier came to report the situation to him, and he had no choice but to apologize and leave.
I picked up his bamboo slips and found that they were the latest court reports. I don't know why, but now even court reports have been replaced by bamboo slips. And it seems that the level of the officials who copied them has dropped rapidly, and their handwriting is not as good as mine. I looked at it carefully, and there was nothing going on recently. It was just some trivial things. It was boring to read the bamboo slips, but I always felt a chill in my back, as if something was about to happen.
Something happened in the past few days. I think it may have a great impact on Kong Ming in the future, but I don’t know to what extent.
At this time in Xiangyang, the sun was getting longer and longer, and by the time the sun was setting, I had already visited many places that day. Thinking that the evening drum was about to sound, I went back and drove a car to pick up the children at home. Because there were many students, Brother Chen found another place to build a school, and enclosed our original thatched cottage, leaving it for the teacher to deal with in the future.
I leaned against the carriage all the way, leisurely breathing the warm and fragrant air under the setting sun, and greeted the familiar neighbors around me from time to time. Some people looked at me strangely, but I didn’t mind. I was so comfortable that day that I didn’t want to think about anything. Maybe it was just to pick up this member of our family.
Just before turning the corner, I heard a child crying behind the wall. The voice was very familiar, but I was not sure. Then, Chen Wu's anxious voice sounded, proving my guess: "Liang, stop crying. Do you want your third brother to help you vent your anger?"
I quickly stopped the car, got out, walked over, and stood at the corner, wanting to hear what was going on.
"You shook your head again. So what do you want to do?" Chen Wu's helpless voice soon sounded again.
I stood still and listened. It turned out that Master Huang was testing the knowledge of the students. On weekdays, Kong Ming always ranked first among the students of his age, but this day he ranked second and lost to a girl. Kong Ming felt very embarrassed and was angry. Song Qian mentioned that the girl was the master's daughter and might have known the questions long ago. Wu Yue advised that it didn't matter if he lost once in a while, and he could get first place in the future. Besides, the girl was one year older than him, so it was not shameful to lose. But no matter how these people persuaded him, Kong Ming just shook his head and didn't say a word.
After listening for a while, I was sure that I couldn't hear anything new and valuable, so I turned around and immediately saw that thing sitting on the steps of the door, with its head resting on its chubby cheeks, tears hanging from its eyes, and its mouth tilted high. Looking at its appearance, I couldn't help but smile. Immediately, several freshmen around shouted: "Brother Zirui, Liang..."
I waved my hand and nodded to them, indicating that I already knew. Then I walked to Kong Ming's side and asked, "Are you still crying? How can you be so embarrassed?"
Kong Ming stood up slowly, wiped his tears with his sleeve, and suddenly threw himself on my legs again, burying his face in my forehead.
I felt nothing but love for him, this thing was really too cute. I smiled and picked him up from the ground, wiped his tears with my fingers, and he immediately buried his head in my arms again, as if he had suffered a great injustice.
"If you lose, you lose. You can win it back next time. You can afford to win as well as lose. It's okay." I pretended to frown slightly, but I couldn't sound tough no matter what.
This time, this thing really cooperated with me. Even though it pouted at me, it still nodded hard.
"That's a good boy." I immediately used my stubble to sting the fat boy, making him hide, but finally he started to chuckle.
"Okay, let's go back." He suddenly had the idea to play a prank, and quickly grabbed Chen Wu's yellow hair with one hand, gently dragging him away. Immediately, the two brothers wanted to help him out, which made the bad guy in his arms laugh even more happily.
It was not until dinner time that we found out that Wu Yue, Song Qian and Chen Wu had also sworn brotherhood like the adults. Wu Yue was the eldest, and the other two were the second and third oldest. They made fun of this and made the bad guy laugh so hard that he almost got a stitch in the side. Only then did they appease him.
After dinner, I decided to visit Teacher Huang and take a look at what the girl who could outshine Kong Ming looked like.
I was looking for a place in Xiangyang City, and it was as easy as finding a stick of mao on my body. After leaving home for a while, I found this one by the north city wall. It was obvious that Brother Chen had made careful arrangements. If I hadn't come in person, I would have thought I was in the mountains. It was obvious that he had planted a circle of ten feet wide green bamboo outside the house. At this time of spring and summer, although it was dark, under the reflection of the lights on the city wall, it still looked vibrant and green. The path was paved with pebbles and went straight into the bamboo pond. There was a bamboo fence in the forest, and there were a few thatched cottages behind, most of which were made of bamboo for the railings and columns. Brother Chen must have known that this person liked bamboo, so he did this. This effort was sufficient. If it were me, I might not be able to do the same.
"There is a distinguished guest outside the fence, why don't you come in?" I was wandering on the path when suddenly a voice came from inside. The voice was neither humble nor arrogant, and it gave off the feeling of a great sage from outside the world.
However, when I saw his appearance, I immediately gave up this idea.
Frankly and simply, a middle-aged old man. And this is only a pessimistic estimate. If it is optimistic, it will be worse. I don't know why I have this view, but this person really looks like someone from outside the world, because I really never thought that a person in the market could look like this. I even thought very badly that his appearance was the main reason for his birth. But I still saluted very politely, and when I saw him waving to an ugly girl with yellow hair to serve me a cup of fragrant tea, I was sure that this person was his daughter without thinking, and I immediately praised this girl for her intelligence, thinking that this girl is indeed outstanding, at least in appearance.
But I never talk nonsense, especially when I see this father and daughter. And I don't have any intention of staying for long, otherwise I will have nightmares and shout at night, which will make Pearl worry.
After some pleasantries, I politely asked him what he thought of Kong Ming. His answer was very simple: "Kong Ming? He is a promising talent. I just hope that his talent is not used in the wrong way."
I felt that he was holding back on what he said, at least I was hoping that he would praise Kong Ming a lot, but from his tone it seemed that he had no special feelings, as if Kong Ming was just a slightly smarter one among the group of children. This actually made me feel a little unhappy, and his next words were quite uncooperative, but I still maintained the image of a hypocritical hypocrite.
When I left, apart from the respectful thank you ceremony, I didn't even know who I was, but I think he must know who I was. I also noticed that whenever we mentioned Kong Ming, the yellow-haired girl would get inexplicably excited, and her eyes would keep looking towards us. This girl must have fallen in love with our Kong Ming.
But I think she is a good match for Chen Wu, they both have yellow hair, but their eyes are still black, which is a little different from Chen Wu's rabbit. If she is paired with Kong Ming, it would be a bit of a loss for Kong Ming.
Finally I left there, and after I came out I realized that I was really biased. I didn't even ask about the situation of the three children in my family. Only then did I calm down.
I went back and found Kong Ming, put him on my lap, and talked to him for a long time. I thought there were some things I still needed to teach him. In fact, I was just repeating what Yin Ling had taught me before, so the final effect was the same—he fell asleep in my arms.
I also went to see Ziyu's father these days. Uncle Jiang's rheumatism is quite serious. Now he can hardly stand. But he was still very excited when he saw me. He even apologized for not being able to greet the young master, which made me feel very uncomfortable. When he talked about it, he always asked about my father's news. I haven't been with my father for a long time, so I can only add some good words to the story as much as I can. I heard in Luoyang that Uncle Jiang used to be my father's subordinate and we had a good relationship. But there was one question I didn't dare to ask, which was why he went to Xiangyang instead of staying with my father. After hearing him praise my father for a while, he respectfully asked Uncle Jiang to have a good rest and took Yu away. When he left, he still struggled to perform the master-servant ceremony with me, which made me feel very uncomfortable.
Even so, I can't stand Jiang Bo. If the relationship is so good, why did he leave Shanghe? Thinking about how my father treated Ziyu, I know that he also valued Jiang Bo very much at that time. So, why is it like this now
Jiang Bo has always been a strange person. I don't know if he dotes on Zi Yu too much and is afraid that he will get into trouble when he is out. However, if you consider that there are villains like Zi She out there, his actions are worthy of recognition. But when I first saw Zi Yu on the street, I really thought he was a few years older than me because I had never seen him before.
Within a few days, I visited all the families I knew, but my master's wife and Huang Yun had gone back to their hometown in Changsha. They both had children. My master's wife gave birth to a son first, and because my master left a name before he left, he was called Huang Fei; Yun's sister gave birth to a daughter two days later, but she didn't leave a name, so now her family calls her girl.
I noticed one thing, that from Brother Chen onwards, almost all my acquaintances would keep their eyes on the ends of my short hair for a while, but no one ever mentioned it from beginning to end.
I inevitably began to miss Yinling again, but I didn't know how to tell my wife. I knew I had to go find her, but I didn't know where she was now. But every night when I watched her fall asleep, I would swallow the words that came to my lips again and again. I thought I was a coward, but I began to think about some questions, things I had never thought about before: What kind of relationship did Yinling and I have? Was it a husband-and-wife relationship? Or something else
I couldn't give an answer, and I hoped to make it an excuse by saying that I was only eighteen years old, but then I found out that I was already eighteen years old.
But things suddenly changed one day, but unfortunately I couldn’t remember which day it was.
It was an afternoon in late spring, and the weather was warming up quickly. Many people outside had changed into single shirts and hemp straw sandals. The women in those places in Xiangyang were already wearing clothes that were quite similar to those they wore when they slept at night, almost hawking their wares on the street. It reminded me of the time when Yinling took me out, she always avoided this road. When I asked her what that place was, she always blushed and didn't answer. When I didn't know before, I only knew that there were many women there. Later, when I knew it, I was also ashamed to mention it. But once I got married, my impression of that place faded. But on this day, when I was walking on the street, someone stopped me and asked me to take a look at the situation on that road. I remembered something I saw in this same place a long time ago. At that time, I was more than two heads shorter than Yinling, and I was still a silly baby who could only step on my sister's shadow.
I was distracted for a while, then looked at the person who called me. He had broken through the blockade of the group of old ladies and was approaching. Looking at the iron rod hanging on the horse, I quickly recognized that he was the leader of the guards at the foot of Zhunling Mountain. His name seemed to be Cheng Yuanzhi.
"General Cheng, what do you want from me?" As soon as he saw him in plain clothes, he knew something was fishy and quickly dragged him to a secluded place to question him.
"Young Master, the Master asked me to write you a letter... And Young Master, please take me to find a place to hide quickly. In the past two days, I have always felt someone chasing me. I guessed that he was chasing this letter. I didn't dare to sleep. I changed horses along the way and just ran here. Don't let him know that I came to find you. I'm afraid of getting the Master into trouble." He took out a wet leather bag from his arms and handed it to me with an embarrassed smile. Then he looked back anxiously, making sure that there seemed to be nothing suspicious behind him, and then he felt relieved.
The cowhide bag had been soaked with sweat for two days, and the smell was really unpleasant. But when he heard the last sentence, he looked around, quickly put the bag into his sleeve, and gestured to him to follow me.
The nearest suitable hiding place that is not my home is the teacher's thatched cottage. The thatched hut there has collapsed, and only the study hut is still there. Only the medicinal herbs planted on the ground still have their original scent, which makes me feel sleepy when I get close to it and smell it.
This place had been unattended for a while, it was a bit run-down, and no one was guarding it. There was only a row of low fences. I told him to pull the horse in, and then I quickly closed the fences and motioned him to follow me. I treated this place like my home, and directly led him in. I asked him to find a place to sit, and I immediately sat in my previous seat, although the table and mat were gone.
He had just pulled the belt away from his nose and used his fingers to pick out a slightly damp piece of silk cloth with some ink stains on it. He brought it close to his eyes and was about to take a look when he heard a horse neighing on the road outside. Immediately, the horse in the yard also neighed.
"Oh, your horse, I'm afraid you're in heat, my horse just neighed..." Ben Yu joked, but he saw that he clenched the iron handle in his hand with a serious look on his face.
"That person? He actually followed me here." I lowered my voice and immediately dragged him to the window and looked outside. It was not a big deal to take a look, but after this look, I patted Cheng Yuanzhi, pointed outside without saying a word, and told him to go out.
He was naturally puzzled, but when he saw that I didn't show any sign of giving in, he looked in the direction of my finger. His face immediately became excited, and he rushed out quickly. As a result, the iron rod broke the railing near the window, and he rushed out directly from the middle of the railing.
I was not sure what the teacher would think when he saw this person at this time, but I was sure what his reaction would be when he came back, so I could only be sure that I had to find someone to fix it quickly. I had to find someone quickly, not because I was afraid that the teacher would come back soon, but because I was afraid that I would forget and I would be in trouble when he came back. Because I was sure that nothing could be decided in the court before the autumn harvest, because the two people in Luoyang were like this when I left, so the teacher would not be able to come back before autumn, and maybe he didn't need to come back.
"Hey, you guy, why are you still standing there in a daze? Are you coming over here or I should go over there?" The man was really rude, but his words sounded quite like mine. Most of the people I interact with have a bad habit, which is that they learn good things very slowly, but learn bad things quickly.
Although I felt that these people were quite disdainful of me, I could only come out honestly and bow respectfully: "Sister Qi, you are here."
"Yeah." The pretty girl dressed like a man snorted at me and added, "Stand aside for now, I'll talk to you soon."
Then, she vented all her anger on this honest farmer, and I was happy to watch her from the sidelines: "You are such a good guy, Cheng Yuanzhi. I wanted to be your companion, but you ran away when you saw me. I chased you for two days, and you actually ran away without sleep. In the end, I couldn't catch up with you. You also made me unable to sleep."
Cheng Yuanzhi's face turned purple, and I almost laughed to death, which made someone pick up the hilt of a sword and hit me on the head, but I escaped politely and gracefully.
This speech made Cheng Yuanzhi speechless, but it was not Cheng Yuanzhi's fault, because Sister Qi dressed like a fake daughter. But I seemed to be speechless too, because according to my previous understanding of this person, although this person who was teaching others a lesson showed a kind of generosity and tolerance in front of many people, under this deceptive guise, this person was obviously a woman with a heart. As long as I dared to have different opinions and expressed them, I would be eliminated immediately, and the only difference was the way I was eliminated.
This talk, which started from the Three Sovereigns and Five Emperors and ended in Xiangyang, lasted for quite a long time. During that time, I wanted to find a place to sit down and try to take a nap, but that person asked me to teach together and understand the spirit. This made my day miserable.
But I had a solution. When her history just mentioned that Cheng Yuanzhi came into the city, I quickly suggested to my sister who was still outside the city that she should go to my house to have a good rest to avoid damaging her appearance.
This sentence was quite useful to the girl. She immediately felt sleepy and yawned a few times when Cheng Yuanzhi entered the city gate, which was a historical mistake. As a result, she let Cheng Yuanzhi go as soon as he entered the city gate.
Then, he gave me some instructions.
Now, I really wasn’t sleepy at all, and was even a little surprised, thinking, it’s finally here.
Dong Zhong finally got promoted. From the various situations in the court, it seems that the emperor trusts him and wants to use him to build another power of foreign relatives. Whether all this is still under calculation, at least Dong Zhong's followers have begun to become active. Moreover, it seems that he has not forgotten me. There are rumors in the capital that someone may be unfavorable to me. My sister also explained that I am already a commoner, but the people still talk about Ping An Feng Yun Hou and Ping An Feng Yun Hou all day long. What official position Dong Zhong was before and what official position he is now, it seems that the people are not interested, and no one knows.
My father sent General Cheng to tell me the news, but he still felt uneasy, so he sent my sister as well. This was to make me understand my unfavorable position and the seriousness of the matter, and that it would be best for me to find a place to hide.
For dinner, my sister and I ate together in three meals. The atmosphere was a bit tense. I tried to make some jokes to ease the atmosphere, but no one responded, which made me very embarrassed.
After dinner, I respectfully sent my elder sister back to rest. The rest of the time was even more difficult to pass because Guo Pei didn't say a word.
It would have been fine if she didn't say a word, but she was still packing up my clothes and other things, and she also ordered the servants to prepare a carriage and horses for me. I wanted to lend a hand to help, but she actually told me to sit down in a commanding tone, and to sit obediently, which was completely impossible before. Only someone like me who was used to being taught a lesson by Yinling would actually sit obediently on the couch next to me and not say a word.
Guo Pei's back looked like a silver bell, even when she was secretly sobbing. My reaction was the same as before, I stood up at a loss, slowly approached, secretly leaned over, and looked at her face stupidly.
Her actions this time were different from Yinling's. When Yinling found me like this, she would just hug me and cry in my arms, and she would quickly turn her back to prevent me from looking at her, but this was enough for me to see the tears on her face.
I hugged her from behind and gently advised her, "The situation in the world will not be like this. I will only go out for a few days and will be back soon. This is Jingzhou. If they want to deal with me, they will most likely use assassins like Ren Xia to do it. As long as I disappear, no one will be in trouble."
"I'm not afraid, so why should you avoid me? Why not hide together with me?" Guo Pei actually made such a suggestion.
"Silly, I'm seeking refuge, and if you don't see me, your father will definitely blame me." I smiled at her, and inadvertently used the words that Yin Ling used to coax me. When I mentioned her father, I trembled.
"My father has passed away a long time ago, and my stepfather will be happy that I am with you." When she wanted to argue, I was silent and just kept holding her.
There was silence on the field for a long while. At the beginning, Pei could still lean gently in my arms, trembling from time to time, but later her body rose and fell more and more, making my heart nervous. Finally, she suddenly broke away from my arms, stood five feet away from me, and looked at me, who was a little surprised and confused by the sudden change.
She was still panting, staring at the couch beside her, and finally said something that made me ashamed and embarrassed and that I will remember for the rest of my life: "You like Yinling, not me. If it was Yinling, you would definitely take her away. Maybe Pei was too selfish. But why did you keep it a secret from me? What you said and what you did, which one didn't have the shadow of Yinling? When you are with me, you always try your best to smile, why are you so sad sometimes? It's probably because you finally found out that I am not her. But you are still the great hero Ping An Fengyun Hou! Why are you so timid and cowardly that you dare not ask me where she is and how to find her. Why? Don't you know what you like? Then why did you go to Xiangyang that year? On the way out, I want you to marry two women? I dare not even think about the happiness of having two wives. I only ask Madam to agree that we cannot abandon the love of eighteen years and the righteousness of two generations. Zirui must marry both of them. Zirui likes both of them. But until now, you have not even mentioned the matter of marrying Yinling, but you always treat me as Yinling. You can see how deeply this hurts me. Pei is crude, but he also knows right from wrong. I know you are afraid of letting me down, but you are letting me down even more by doing this. Do you understand? However, I will tell you today that Wu County, which is a thousand miles away, has mountains a hundred miles to the south. The people in the mountains will say that there is a place where Yue people live in the mountains. If you meet someone from their tribe and mention Sima, everyone will know it. "After speaking, I shook my head and said, "I don't know what to say at this moment, and I don't know why."
After he finished speaking, he turned his head away, no longer looking at me. His sobbing was so sad that it broke my heart. He didn't say much, but I gradually understood what was going on. I immediately took the sword from the sword rack in the house, walked to the door, opened the bolt, and let in a ray of light from the waning moon.
"Thank you Madam for your criticism. From now on, I will not dare to hide anything from my wife. I will leave Xiangyang for a few months and wait until things are settled before returning. I need to think clearly whether I really love Yinling as my wife, otherwise Yinling will not be happy even if I marry her in the future. If I really love her, I will go to Wujun. If I don’t love her, I will go to Ming. If I love her, I will marry her again. Madam... When I was young, I said that I would only marry one person, but I didn’t expect that I might break my promise in the future. I don’t know how to start, but believe me, I can give you happiness. I will use my whole life to take care of you and make you happy." I felt that I was getting more and more reckless, and in the end I just wiped the wound that I had that year and sprinkled blood on the threshold: "I need to control my own life and not be controlled by God. If I follow God's drive and don't work hard, I will die under this door."
I didn't dare to covet the happiness of having many wives, but this matter finally fell on my head. Later when I think about the childish words I said on this matter, I can only say that I was still a complete child in this matter, and so was Guo Pei.
But we didn't say anything more that day. She silently wrapped my hands, then gently stroked them with her cheek, and finally I held her in my arms.
Later, she dragged me to sit down and played the zither. The two of us faced the moonlight and stars outside, and she looked at me and sang softly.
The first one seems to describe the story of me and Yin Ling: "The peach blossoms of Weiming wait for the rain to moisten them, the gentleman with a heart thinks of pure love, how many round circles can the bright moon have, trapped by love, spring all year round."
The last poem seems to express her feelings: "Black scarf, white shoes, black frost robe, the gentleman thinks of Tao Yao in his dream, he wants to embrace her but regrets that we parted too early, he can't help thinking of her and feeling haggard!"
There was still a waning moon in the sky, but I saw it become full and round.
On the second morning, another person came to the palace. He was a guard of the palace, and he just went to the Prince of Ping'an's mansion to deliver a brocade box to Princess Yinling. After delivering the box, he left and left Xiangyang immediately. He did not go north, but went directly south. However, I didn't have to be on guard against him.
But I knew it was for me, and I knew what it was just by looking at its size. Then, Guo Pei made a flute bag for me and hung the lotus flower blood-drop thorn around my waist. I also read the instructions of Empress He with her. After reading it, I felt that I really had to go visit my mother someday.
Before leaving, he didn't have time to visit so many people, so he could only have a few nice words with the people in the mansion. He told Wu Yue and others to go to Ye Jian to practice martial arts well, and specifically mentioned Wu Yue to take good care of his two brothers. Of course, he also asked Kong Ming to let him study hard and not lose again, especially to that yellow-haired girl.
During this time, General Xiahou Yuan arrived, bringing greetings from Meng De. In addition to thanking him, I took this opportunity to ask Miao Cai about the recent situation between my sister and Meng De. Miao Cai cooperated with me and described vividly the scene of the two flirting with each other. To me, there was only more irritating things, not the most irritating. I shuddered. As a result, my sister, who appeared at some point, chased me around half of the yard for half an hour, and Miao Cai was punished to stand there.
Finally, I said goodbye to my sister with my head covered. I asked them when they would finish the job, and they chased me across half the yard. Finally, I was ordered to go over and got hit with the scabbard a few times, and that was the end of the matter. Someone dared to laugh secretly, so he was punished to stand for half an hour and got hit with the scabbard a few more times.
When we were about to leave that day, there were still people who arrived, but they hurried back. The teacher told them to hurry back, and they left immediately. This time, they returned just when I was leaving. He went back to see his daughter in the name of being a father, and occasionally brought his brother-in-law to see him.
He brought me back the Heavenly Wolf and the Spiritual Armor, as well as the teacher's words. Teacher, taking them with me may save my life in times of danger, but they may also bring me danger. Now it all depends on my decision.
I decided to take these two old brothers with me, and then I dressed neatly, put the spear on the gun rack back home, and replaced it with the Tianlang. Holding it in my hand, even if I was just touching it with a layer of fur wrapped on the outside, I really felt a lot more at ease. But then I thought about it, and I took the spear again.
Guo Pei brought me a lot of money, and sewed many bags to various places on my body, and also put some in the package. She asked me to bring a car, which was convenient. In fact, I felt that she was just moving, and it was not as convenient as one person and one bike. But now I think it’s right to listen to my wife. I almost acted like a spoiled child like I did to Yinling before. I secretly said that it was a close call and secretly blamed myself for not being shy.
In the end I only let my wife to see me off. She wanted to pick up Yi Yue at the same time, otherwise she would be too lonely and Yi Ren would feel relieved. In fact, she didn't want me to leave, but she had to do this. I was generous this time, but I am afraid I regret it.
All I can do is compensate her. I won’t go into details about how I compensate her.
On March 22nd of the first year of Chuping, Pei and I parted ways in Jiangling. She went west and I went east. I haven't seen her for several months since then.
That night I was suddenly awakened in the wild, and all I could think of was the two of them. I rubbed my face, shouted in the wild, and urged my horse forward in a very disloyal manner. From then on, I embarked on a journey of thousands of miles to find my wife. At that time, I didn't know what the outcome would be. I felt expectation, confusion, and excitement in my heart.
I still remember that I was on the road in the middle of the reed bank, shouting to the sky: "Silver Bell, here I come!"
That year, I was eighteen years old.