"The Change of Heaven"
Volume 2: The Edge of Heaven
Chapter 148 Distraction
The young man stood beside the wooden chevaux de frise in front of the fortress. The jagged ends of the wood were originally sharpened, but over the years, they were all worn smooth. I wonder how many people have died on them. The young man was holding one hand on it, but he had no thoughts about it. His other hand was tightly grasping a long spear with a leopard tail tied to it. He turned his wrist from time to time, grinding the spear handle and making a rustling sound. The leaders and soldiers in the fence behind him were clamoring and calling him back, but he ignored them and just ordered them not to act rashly and to wait behind. Another young man behind him shouted even louder, asking him to get out, but the door was not opened. But in the end, he squeezed out of the crowd on the top of the fortress and jumped down from the top of the fortress nimbly. With this example, the clamor behind was even louder, so the young man had to shout even louder to suppress it.
The sound of horses' hooves was urgent. Why did the people come? What were they going to do? The boy looked behind him, and saw faces full of confusion and tension. He knew that no one could give him an answer. With so many people here, he might be the closest to the answer, but he didn't hope that he would have the luck to solve the mystery.
Originally, the young man hoped that everything in this restless land would calm down so that he could smoothly rectify this land, but he didn't expect that the first step here would cause a sudden turbulence. If he couldn't conquer this place, he would lose his life. It was really a big loss, but he still stood here, thinking in his heart that he would not break his promise to others even if he died. It was just that he felt a little guilty in front of his brother, but there was nothing he could do. He could only pat his shoulder and smile at another equally young smiling face. He said softly: "Leave it for them to carry on your back, and watch the front."
The younger boy may have misunderstood, or wanted to show his determination, he took off his shirt without hesitation, tied it tightly around his waist, and exposed his extremely strong upper body, which caused a few exclamations from the top of the city wall. The boy was quite proud at first, but when he saw his brother's helpless eyes leaving him, he suddenly felt that he might have done something wrong, and the joy on his face faded, and he immediately frowned and looked back at the mountain road with his brother.
In the distance, there were first spots of starlight in the bushes, and then gradually the flames gathered and slowly formed a dragon of fire, which illuminated the mountain road in front of me in a winding shape. In the flames, layers of black iron luster came into view, but suddenly a white rainbow passed by. But it was this white rainbow that made me suddenly cheer and jump for joy. I can still remember the days when I was in the clouds in the mountains of Wudi. Today seems to be back to that day, but maybe the reunion is above the dark clouds.
I turned around and shouted, "It's nothing, you can open the door, my wife is here."
They still kept the door tightly shut. I could only smile. If it were me, I would probably make the same decision. They only have this village, and they can't afford to gamble.
Before the dark clouds were filled with fire, the shiny black armor, the towering black feathers on the iron helmets, and the spears standing proudly on the sides of each rider, such an army quickly deployed in front of me, neatly and without any words, only the panting of the horses echoed in the whole mountain forest. The team left a gap in front of me, as if waiting for my inspection, but I was completely admiring this mighty and majestic cavalry army, and the voice of the fourth brother rang in my ears: "Third brother, you actually fought bloody battles with them twice, and you were able to survive and win. I suddenly admire you. How could I defeat them with one blow that day..." Before he finished speaking, a rider suddenly rushed out of the gap and immediately stopped in front of me. The person on the horse immediately jumped off, but my eyes were still on his horse, because there was a string of human heads strung around his horse's neck!
The man on the horse came close to me, took off his helmet, and suddenly knelt on the ground with his hands on his knees, and said heavily: "I am a guilty minister, Guo Xu, who failed to lead the troops and caused a mutiny in the army. If it weren't for the lady who came to the rescue, I'm afraid the disaster would have happened. I have failed the king's order and violated the trust. Now all I can do is to escort the lady here and ask for death."
He immediately understood what was going on and stepped forward to help him up. "Don't blame you, don't blame you. This is my fault. Since I trust you, I accepted you as my subordinate to put aside all the hatred. But I have fought two battles with the Xiliang army, and both sides suffered heavy casualties. It is inevitable that there are some grudges. The conflict today was caused by my mistake, and it has nothing to do with you. Besides, you have calmed down the internal conflict, so you are not guilty, and you have made contributions."
After saying this, he walked to the heads, suppressed his thoughts, and sighed, "If you have no intention, why come here?" He turned around and asked Guo Xu, "Do they have any family members?"
What I got was a shake of the head. I sighed and looked at the angry eyes wide open on one of the heads. Finally, I closed his eyes with my hands. I took off my cloak and wrapped the head. "Then find their bodies, piece them together, and find a good place to bury them."
Yinling showed up late. After I explained the situation for a while, it seemed that nothing happened. I just waited for her to show up. Then she came on horseback. She looked at me and I looked at her. We were in the middle of the group of Xiliang soldiers and the southern mountain stronghold. Lieya greeted her first, called her sister and went to help Yinling hold the horse. He also asked about her family's situation. Yinling answered very gently and patiently, but her eyes kept looking at me.
I didn't say a word, just looked at her with a smile.
"Why are you like this?" Yinling smiled and pointed at Si's shirtless appearance.
"Brother told me to do this." Yinling looked at me helplessly, and I looked at Si helplessly and angrily. Si looked at me, and immediately looked from me to Yinling, and then from Yinling to me, as if very "helpless". So, I could only look at Yinling looking at me helplessly.
After a long while, I asked, "Why are you here?"
"Someone from the imperial court has come to announce the emperor's intention to appoint a crown prince and to order all the princes to come to the capital." She spoke in a very low voice, her eyes still fixed on the barricades of Shikezhai.
"Why does it take you to deliver the message?" I also lowered my voice, but looked at the open gate of the village with a smile. I patted the barricades with one hand for the last time, and walked in holding Yinling's hand with the other.
"Is there anyone under your command who can do things the way you do? I guess you haven't finished your work here." She entered the village with me in a very respectful and dignified manner, still muttering softly.
"Of course. Who among my subordinates can learn to do things the way you do?" I laughed, and she laughed too.
At night we stayed in a rickety bamboo building. Although this was a great respect, because there were pigs under other bamboo buildings, there were no fat guys grunting under our building, and there was no bad smell coming up, or even nothing. But this did not make me feel at ease, because at least the bamboo floor under my feet did not welcome me very much. It creaked and groaned to show its dissatisfaction, always wanting to make a hole to let me slip to the ground. If there were a bunch of pigs sleeping under it, at least if I fell, there would be a bunch of people to take my place. This reminded me of Zhou Yin and Zhou Jian's house. That one was also dangerous, and there was no objection. They just grunted and put me down, and there were only stones and hard soil underneath. This time, the ground below looked similar to the ground below the Zhou family, and it was high enough, more than ten feet above the ground. If I fell this time, I might break a few bones. I suddenly thought of another possible cause of death of the former Yue Hou. Maybe this person was too fat and broke the floor, fell down, and even made a big hole - in this way, it would be easy to bury him.
This kind of trouble would not have anything to do with Yinling. She just stood by with one hand holding the hem of her skirt, giggling as she watched me move cautiously and clumsily in vain, making the bamboo floor creak. For her, the continuous march for several days was a bit deadly. She kept yawning while using her other free hand to smooth the scattered hair on both sides of her forehead behind her ears. Maybe she thought this image was not good, but I didn't think so. I "helped" her to smooth down the two strands of hair. She asked with a puzzled smile: "You..." Before she finished speaking, she yawned again. Obviously, this look was not suitable for her image. So, I, go to sleep. She had no objection to this.
But she suddenly became energetic when she lay down that day, which was different from her usual character, and just the opposite of my performance on the bed. No matter how energetic I was before lying down, I fell asleep as soon as I touched the bed board; I mentioned it to Mr. Hua Tuo, and he casually said it was because I was tall. I don’t know why, and I still don’t understand it after thinking for a long time, but I think he must be right, otherwise why is Yinling different from me, and Lao Si is quite similar to me. So, when she started to ask me some questions, I gradually seemed to be a little listless. Especially when I heard Lie Ya’s happy snoring, she started to make trouble.
"Not yet. Why were you pulling my hair just now?" The bad guy used his hair to touch my face, stared at me with a pair of watery eyes, and got into my arms without any hesitation.
"It looks good..." I kissed her face, resisted the sleepiness, and forced myself to smile at her.
"Naughty." She suddenly pouted her lips and kissed me: "Don't you want to ask me something?"
"What are you asking? I found out after talking to that fat guy just now."
Half an hour ago, Sumarda's eyes kept turning from me to Yinling, and from Yinling to me. Although I didn't say anything, Sumarda's impression of me must have changed a lot. Although he may have heard about me at the beginning, he didn't believe what he heard. This time, not only did someone speak for me, but he also saw it just now, especially when Yinling mentioned that I defeated the army outside twice and made them willing to serve me, and used them as my personal guard without any scruples. He praised me for my courage, but I was ashamed. My few rebels must have thought that they had waited for an opportunity, and they just instigated the people to kill me in the village, and then slaughtered the whole village, but reported to the upper echelons that the people in the village killed me. They could only destroy the village to avenge me, which would be bad. This reminded him a little, and he should be more afraid of me. He asked me how to deal with these troops, and I did everything as usual. He had an incredible expression, and Yinling took the opportunity to brag about me, talking about how I used to be so versatile in the army. I humbly told him not to mention it again. I appointed him as a guard, which showed my absolute trust in Guo Xu. It was not his fault, so why should I change him? Then I took the opportunity to propose to give Shikezhai some good land for cultivation, as long as he did not violate the land of the naturalized people. Later, he discussed with everyone, and when he finally came back to face me again, he saluted respectfully and said he was very happy to accept it. I think he was mainly targeting the land.
"But I am really scared." Thinking back to the scene just now, he suddenly felt that the time when Yin Ling entered Guo Xu's camp was really difficult and dangerous: "How can you defeat the rebellion of Guo Xu's men?"
Yin Ling hurried along the way, but as soon as she entered the camp, she could still feel that the atmosphere here was not right. Although Guo Xu was very polite, the eyes of the people around him were quite strange, and they were always flirting with each other. Looking at Guo Xu carefully, a good young man seemed to deliberately frown and his toes were also working hard. Yin Ling could immediately feel that something was wrong. Thanks to Yin Ling, she immediately had her men take a few pieces of high-quality silk from the car and said to the generals, "You have worked hard to protect me during this period, and these are specially for rewarding you."
Guo Xu did not move, and neither did the people behind him. Yin Ling knew that there was something wrong with these people, so she asked the soldiers to directly offer the silk. She heard a cry from the soldier in front, and this cry saved Guo Xu's life. He saw a sharp blade behind Guo Xu pointing directly at his back, but because of this cry, the soldier let go, and the silk fell on the knife. The rebel panicked, but he was also very strong, so he raised his knife and picked up a piece of silk. But Guo Xu was also very skilled, and suddenly felt that there was nothing behind him, so he immediately fell forward. Inside the tent, they immediately fought in a group, and then waited for Guo Xu's order, and the soldiers from all directions entered together and killed the rebels immediately.
"Was it his idea to hang the head, or was it yours..." I felt that it was inappropriate for me to ask this, but she still answered: "Me, so I just dared to hide behind."
"I'm sorry to drag you into this kind of thing again." I felt a little uneasy, not knowing what to do or what not to do.
"Nothing. After I came in, I felt that the two leaders had unfriendly eyes. I thought something might happen tonight, so I told Guo Xu to stop when the time comes." She tried to smile: "I'm going to sleep tonight, Zirui, I leave it to you. There are fifty of us around the building, so it's up to you and Beihai when the time comes."
"Okay, sister, watch me!" This voice was not mine. So, I immediately jumped up and dragged the eavesdropper out of the door by the ear, waiting for Yinling to come to the door and explain everything to us.
However, Yinling overestimated the second-in-command this time. He did not dare to come after all. Perhaps it was because we were well prepared that he canceled the plan, or maybe he simply did not dare to come.
The next day, I waited until she woke up and told her that nothing had happened. She rolled her eyes in confusion and thought that she had overestimated that fool. But the fourth child suddenly said something that made sense, "He might have fallen in love with me."
I couldn't leave yet. That morning, although I wasn't in the camp, I hadn't left yet. Although Yinling thought it was very important for me to go to Luoyang, at least the other princes would think so. Among the so-called four regents, the other three were all closely related to me. One was my real father in name, one was my mentor, and one was my brother and future brother-in-law. The princes might not expect to know the ideas of these three "old and slippery" people, but I knew that even if the three of them wanted to discuss important matters, they would probably call me. Although I was just a country bumpkin from Yue in the south of the world, anyone who knew a little about these palace affairs knew that I was a special and important person. Moreover, I didn't look as mysterious or even "stupid" as the three of them, so I was obviously a very good place to make up words and a person who could be flattered. But this was not an enviable position. I even hoped to get seriously ill and not go, but my proposal was immediately rejected by Yinling. However, she also brought me good news that I didn't know how to deal with. It was indeed good news.
"You can't hide, you have to go. However, I can't accompany you, you have to go by yourself. I have to help you take care of Yue State, and Sister Pei can't either, she... is pregnant." I needed a moment to understand the meaning of this sentence. Yinling waited all night to tell me, and she didn't even intend to explain why she didn't tell me last night, but now she was telling me.
I don't know what Yinling is thinking, and I don't even know what I feel in my heart. The joy of having my own flesh and blood seems to be immediately diluted by an inexplicable sense of apology, panic, and heartache. I don't even know what to do.
If there is true love in one's heart, how can I split it in two? I won't, I can't, I don't even want to think about it. I only know that I finally chose this path, and the consequence is that I'm afraid I will be immersed in the pain of "having two wives" for the rest of my life.
It seemed that I just answered "Ah, oh" at that time, letting go of all the embarrassment and melancholy at the scene, and hurriedly found something to arrange this day.
In the past, when I was in Luoyang, my teacher and Brother Meng De talked to me about the southern part of the world. I could understand the deep meaning of their words more and more. So, I told her as if I was explaining something that needed to be explained, but I said casually: "At first, I asked you where Jiaozhou was. You were in the south of the clouds in the southern sky, at the edge of the sky. Later, I grew up and walked south. I walked very far. The clouds that were originally in the southern sky disappeared behind me (north). I had not yet reached Jiaozhou. When I climbed over many high mountains, I found that there were still thick clouds in the southern sky. When I really arrived in Jiaozhou, I had forgotten how much I longed for the horizon, because looking south, there were still so many clouds in the southern sky; many things are not as good as I imagined, but also much better than I imagined."
From time to time, the wind gently blew through the bamboo leaves as we strolled under the bamboo. Birds suddenly flew through the bamboo forest, leaving behind a few sharp whistles. Apart from that, the only company we had was the withered grass and trees rustling under our feet.
"Yinling, don't leave!" I held her back and said, "Rest here."
I pointed to a huge rock protruding from the side of the road. It was polished very smooth, as if many people had sat on it, perhaps the locals' lovers. She looked at it and shook her head. She must be tired after walking for so long. I pulled her to sit against the rock, and she naturally leaned her head towards me. I also naturally put my arms around her.
But before we say or do anything, we must first be careful of someone. Originally, I was not so cautious, but last night's previous record and this person's usual nature told me that I must be wary of this person.
"Po Liu Han Lie Ya!" I wasn't actually sure, so I just shouted in the direction he came from. But in order to prevent him from hearing my test, I shouted loudly with a hint of anger.
But it turned out that my worries were correct, and a big guy with a silly smile and the image of a "simple and honest friend" appeared in front of me.
"Go to the open field in front of Shike Village and practice martial arts, all in one move!" I also smiled and ordered loudly.
This time we can get rid of this person smoothly.
"How did Zirui know that?" Yinling asked in surprise, looking at Si's back.
"This guy likes to fight and show off. He followed me because I didn't know what he was going to do, so he was warlike. Because I discovered him, he was in a dilemma, so I let him show off his power in front of the southerners, and then he left happily, so he likes to show off." In fact, it was fortunate that the fourth brother followed me, so that I could find something to say and avoid the embarrassment of being speechless all the way.
"Zi Rui can recognize people, but can he recognize himself?" Yin Ling looked at the road she came from. Si was no longer on the road. She seemed to be in a daze. I thought about her question and shook my head. I only said: "If you don't know, you can't recognize."
"I have known you since we were siblings. Every time you made a mistake, I couldn't bear to hit you, but you were afraid of being hungry, so I starved you for half an hour and ate in front of you, letting you kneel there and think about how you made a mistake." Yinling said, "If you were really wrong, you would admit it immediately and swear not to do it again. Then I would let you eat, and as soon as you ate, your face would be full of smiles." After saying that, she reached out to pat and pinch my cheeks, and suddenly "sighed": "You were so cute before, but now you are skinny and tight, not as easy to pinch as before."
"But if you are wrong, but not serious, and you think that the punishment is too severe compared to not eating for half an hour, you will admit your mistake hesitantly, but very reluctantly, eating with tears in your mouth. But if you really think you are not wrong, then it will be a trouble for me. Afterwards, even if I ask you to eat, you will not eat, and just go back to your room angrily and close the door, then I will have to persuade you." After finishing this, she sighed again: "Then I have to ask you what's wrong? If it's really not your fault, then I have to coax you and apologize, otherwise this matter will not be over, and you will really not eat for several days. Uncle Zhang and Aunt Zhang sometimes laugh at me: This thing has a very bad temper."
"Later I changed it. If you don't want to eat, I won't eat with you. Well, fine, although I was not happy, I ate anyway. But after eating, I went back to my room angrily and didn't come out." Yinling's hand moved to my nose again and pinched it. "You have a good heart and can distinguish between good and evil, but you have a bad temper, you will throw tantrums, and you will do things too much. If you didn't think about others, I even think you would go astray."
After she finished speaking, Yiren sighed again: "Although I don't think it's a good idea to do this, and my father doesn't think it's appropriate either; but if you weren't like this, how could I still be with you in this life?" She obediently moved into my body again.
"That year, I held you in the water like this, afraid that you would fall asleep and fall in." I gently stroked her hair with my chin, and said softly: "We have been through the water and fire, so what can't we overcome?"
"When they are apart, they miss each other, and when they are together, they are sad. The husband is anxious and the wife is worried." Yin Ling sighed, "Zi Rui is unwilling and unable to enjoy the blessing of having two wives. I don't know whether his wife is happy or sad!"
This is what I really think. Her words suppressed all the words I wanted to say to comfort her. How could I comfort my wife? In Guangxin, my other wife was also waiting for me. She also had my blood. What could I do to her
We sat there for a long time without saying a word. After a while, Yinling suddenly started to sing. She had sung the same song when she was waiting for me in Yue, the same song she had sung on the day we met on the cloud: Thinking of my enemy, I look at the cliffs. Where is the grass to ride my horse? The sun is setting in the west. I am lazy and wear flowers. Although I am tired and can't sleep, it's just for him. The wild grass in the valley is clear, and my beloved should be included in the painting. I am only afraid that the color of the silk is not good, but it will hurt him.
The weather in the mountains is more changeable than outside. I don't know when it started to rain. The warmth of the sunny days a few days ago suddenly faded, and the forest suddenly became cold, which made Yinling, who was wearing thin clothes, shiver a little, but she didn't mean to leave immediately, and still curled up in my arms. Feeling her shivering, I opened my clothes and wrapped her in my arms.
"I have to go. I don't know how long this trip to the north will take. I can only leave this to you. I will take Song Yudong, **, and Xu Zheng with me. I leave this to you. Remember, I will take Xu Zheng to Luoyang!" I almost slammed the last sentence, hoping that she could understand.
There was still a trace of fatigue on her face: "I know, I know!" She was even a little unhappy: "Don't I know what you are thinking? Yulin Taishou is in Guangxin, and if you take Xu Zheng away, I can do whatever I want with the two families in Tanzhong. Who do you think your wife is? From governing a country to making plans, your son learned from me. And why are you so loud and fierce?"
The girl in my arms suddenly started to act like a spoiled child, pouting her lips and pointing a finger at me, "So fierce, so fierce, so fierce." As if the girl in my arms was just a child, I suddenly felt relieved by her, and pulled her closer to me, hugged her tighter. Suddenly my nose felt sore, and I hugged her closer to me, not wanting her to see my face, but I felt her trembling slightly in my arms.
Everything is left to be said without words.
But just as we were about to go back, we saw a head looming in the bushes. This time, Yinling and I caught him in the bushes. He said that he had finished his martial arts performance and immediately hurried back to continue eavesdropping. Looking at his wet clothes and sweat on his face, we can see that eavesdropping is also a very physically demanding job.
After a few days, I finally had to leave. I remember that I finally pulled her into my arms. It’s not that I couldn’t find anyone else, but I just said softly: "You can act like a spoiled child anytime in the future." She pouted and snorted in response.
I left with peace of mind. After planning with Yinling, and with Yinling in charge, I felt relieved. Although she was quite surprised when I first came up with my idea, after talking to her about the various situations here and mentioning Shifeng in the south, she finally thought this was a good idea, and the more she thought about it, the more interesting it became. In the end, she even laughed. In the end, she added a lot of details and decided on the way to pacify this place.
When I left the mountain, I asked about the date and realized that it was already the second day of the Chinese New Year. After the New Year, nothing happened. The southerners did not make any big moves. It seemed that this year was not important to them. Looking at the stove in the middle of the hall, it was actually just a brazier. No one cleaned it deliberately during the New Year. I knew that it was very different from the customs in the Central Plains. I thought to myself, it is not our turn to be badmouthed by the Kitchen God in heaven. We are innocent. I comforted myself and rode back to Guangxin via Tanzhong that day.
We had no trouble along the way, although there were several times when the southerners in the mountain stronghold passed by us with their weapons, walked with us for a while, passed in front of us, or passed behind us. The scene was much bigger than when I came here and a man pretended to be a boy, but in fact it might be a girl, came to rob me. However, after looking at my flag, they did not fight with us, which was different from that guy. Gao Sheng was very cautious and told everyone to be careful every time, but it seemed that they had no hostility towards us. There were even two who had passed by us, but suddenly ran back, looked at our flag as we marched, drew something on their hands and ran away. This strange behavior caused everyone to talk and laugh. Gao Sheng was also puzzled in the end. He looked at me, shook his head, and couldn't figure out the clues. But I didn't do anything. I just smiled and didn't even specifically order them to be on guard. Anyway, Gao Sheng was more meticulous than me, so I just let him come. I wouldn't make things difficult for these southerners. Gao Sheng asked me what to do, and I just went back and let them spend the New Year in peace.
In fact, I was an ordinary person before, and I know that if everyone in this world has enough food and clothing, there will be no trouble. As long as people can still get by, who wants to change dynasties? And I am going to be a father, and I will never let anyone stop me from going home to see my bones, although now, I may not be able to see anything.
But I had already expected that no one would touch me. If someone dared to "touch" me, Yinling could immediately "touch" the fat man, and Guo Xu could "touch" this mountain stronghold in a few days. And even if they wanted to touch me, I guess there was no mountain stronghold here that could stop me on the main road. Especially after seeing everything in Shike Village. It made me understand more clearly that it was not easy for us to attack the mountain, but on flat ground, the wooden poles of different lengths in their hands would definitely not be able to stop the "junk copper and rotten iron" in the hands of our five hundred warriors. Although I have never had much confidence in our weapons, compared with them, I suddenly felt that junk copper and rotten iron is also a very good word.
When Gao Sheng stepped onto the ground of Cangwu, he suddenly felt relieved. I smiled at him, and he also smiled at me, and asked me why the emperor had to make such a big fuss to appoint the crown prince, and why I had to rush over. I was silent for a long time, and I was also thinking. I originally thought that this was a very simple matter, but it seemed that it was not clear, and it felt very complicated, but I felt that once it was clear, and once it was clear, the listeners would definitely think that it would not be so troublesome.
I remember when I was changing horses and cooking at an inn, I suddenly thought of something, but when I thought of it, I still didn't know what I thought of: "One person's words can determine life, one person's words can determine death, one person's words can determine prosperity, one person's words can determine destruction. Now we have to decide this person, of course, everyone in the world who can speak must go."
Gao raised his head, as if he understood. I also seemed to understand.
Being a human being between heaven and earth is really not an easy thing, but everything seems simple.
In spring, the Marquis of Yue returned to Guangxin and ordered Xu Zheng, Song Yudong and other people to follow him. The next day he went to Beijing.
If history were recorded, this day would have ended with just one sentence, but things that cannot be recorded in history are more remembered in our minds.
Yinling left me a letter, which I handed to me when I returned to the city. She had already made all the arrangements before she came to see me, and the list of tribute gifts was complete. The carriages and horses were ready, and everyone was even prepared to see how I would arrange it when I came back, and they were ready to leave at any time. At the end of the letter, she also reminded me to take good care of Pei'er.
Two days after leaving the mountain, I supported my other wife. Although Pearl's pregnancy had not yet made it inconvenient for her to move, and although she also thought that she did not need such a big crutch, I insisted on doing so and was extremely serious and cautious.
She smiled and I was so cute.
I laughed too, but in my heart I wanted to cry. I really wanted to ask who started the saying of "the blessing of having two wives". Is it a blessing to have two wives? If he really felt that he was in a blessing, he would not know what love is. How can two people who love each other tolerate a third person? All the space in my heart that was occupied by Yinling must be vacated for Pei'er. This is unfair to Yinling and Pei'er.
Sometimes, I really envy **, he can quietly lie on the top of the palace wall and quietly watch the beauties passing by, then talk with a few soldiers who have the same hobby, and then ride out of the palace to find her - although he often ends up hitting a wall, after all, he is pursuing his own happiness. I once heard the soldier ** say that if his wife could have the beauty of either of the two wives of Yuehou, such as Mrs. Pei's cooking skills and Mrs. Ling's friendliness, he would be very happy. But when such a double happiness hit me, I couldn't feel the happiness that should have belonged to me.
Perhaps this is the so-called ultimate state of extreme joy leading to sorrow.
I wanted to give the child a name, but I didn't know what to name. My head was blank, and my heart was the same, as if it was divided into two halves, one half here, and the other half in the mountains to the west. I frowned and racked my brains, but still couldn't squeeze out a name that I was satisfied with. It was Pei'er who comforted me, saying that it was okay, because we didn't know whether the child was a boy or a girl, so it was not easy to name him.
Actually, we can choose two, one for the boy and one for the girl, but we seem to have forgotten.
During the two days when we were preparing to leave, Pei'er and I sat on the porch in the sun, quietly hugging each other, as if we had never been apart and would never be apart. We just stayed like this, not talking much. Pei'er was not a talkative person, and I didn't want to start more conversations except for a few questions about the family members and the planning of future children. I just wanted to accompany her all day and repay my debt as a husband. I knew I was about to leave, and I didn't know when I could come back. I gently stroked her abdomen, although there was no movement yet.
Life is always like this, with sadness and happiness; a few days of sadness accumulated in my heart, but was suddenly dispersed by a very tender voice calling "Dad". I turned around and saw Yi Yue lying on the mat. Nalan picked up Yi Yue with a smile and walked slowly towards us. Yi Yue also pouted, babbled, waved his fists, and came towards us.
Yi Yue can talk. Besides teaching her to call dad, she can also call mom. However, she calls Pei'er, Yinling, Nalan and even some maids mom. She is known as a role model of the whole palace city that "nǎi is mother". However, she also calls Na Yan "Lao Yan". No one knows who taught her this, at least no one admits it. Fortunately, this child was not taught to call me Lao Xie, and I should be thankful.
Yiyue's appearance and being able to call me daddy made me feel much better. I held her up to the sky and made her very happy and giggle. I used my beard to poke her chubby cheeks. Well, she obviously disagreed with me, so in addition to suddenly crying, she also peed on her daddy.
"She did it on purpose." I deliberately frowned while changing my clothes, and said to her seriously, "You did it on purpose."
Her cheeks were so cute and puffy that I couldn't help but want to pinch them, but Pei'er and Nalan usually stopped me. In the end, I could only use my fist behind Pei'er to block Nalan and gently pinch the guy in my arms. Nayan was watching the fun with a smile on her face and suddenly added, "It's very soft, isn't it? I pinched Nalan's too."
The Nalan brothers and sisters immediately started chasing and laughing. Nalan was a little shy, but she still laughed and scolded her brother all the way, and finally rode on her brother and punched Nayan's big head. During this process, Nayan kept laughing and ran around the beams and pillars in front at a leisurely pace. Finally, she suddenly jumped to the corridor and stopped running. She also carried her sister who was chasing her breathlessly on the corridor on her shoulders.
The children were all pestering Han Xian to take them out to play on the second day of the Chinese New Year. Now, I don’t know where they are going crazy. But it is the Chinese New Year after all. They have been in school for a year and have traveled hundreds of miles to get here. I didn’t take them to play much. It’s time to let them have a good rest. Although I feel a little sorry that I couldn’t see them, I am relieved. They may not know that I am back today. Yinling will never tell the children about such serious matters. Although many of my officials were not taken to Luoyang by me, they still did not leave. They often came or asked people to come to ask various questions. I kept silent about this and only mentioned the Chinese New Year, not government affairs.
Life is like this. No matter what, as long as you have a breath left, you have to live on. As long as you can eat enough and wear warm clothes, if things don't go well, just make do with it. Although what I said seems to be a bit annoying, but the ordinary people I have seen and heard think the same way. I don't need to lift myself up so high. After all, without the ordinary people in the world, let alone the Yue Kingdom, our Han Dynasty is nothing. Therefore, people must stand on their own position, and this position must always be with the ordinary people.
Therefore, as long as the Han Dynasty can still allow the common people to live a minimum life, I will never allow any movement to happen. Any movement may be fine for us, but it will definitely hurt the common people. But I feel that a movement is likely to happen after the Lantern Festival in Luoyang, and I can't estimate the size of this movement.
It was with such thoughts that I said goodbye to my wife for the second time. This time, we also had our first child, Yi Yue and I, whose gender I didn’t know.
Time was a bit tight, and I didn't have time to go to Xiangyang to reminisce with old friends. I could only wait until I returned, so I rushed all the way along the post road. Apart from apologizing to Lord Xu and taking care of Song Yudong, I didn't care about anything else.
A few days before the Lantern Festival, it rained continuously in the area north of Jingzhou, Yuzhou and south of Sili. Our trip was slightly delayed, and I arrived in Luoyang on the night before the Lantern Festival.
In less than ten days, it will be the second year of Chuping.
Before I entered the city, a fast horse from Jiaozhou handed me a letter from my wife. The gist of the letter was simple: Bingtanzhong was transferred to Wu'an, Shifeng was transferred from Wu'an Mayor to Wu'an Magistrate, the Liu and Xu families moved to the north of Guangxin, and a new area of Pingling was opened to build a tomb for me.
This is my plan. If you are poor, you will live in misery. If you are misery, you will be even poorer. Why not give the southerners a chance? Perhaps, everything will be different. But building a mausoleum is not in my plan.
That year, I was 19 years old. I really felt that I could live another three or two years without any problems, but Yue State still built a place for me to be reborn.