Chun Xing spoke a lot of nonsense in a disjointed manner. At first, You Yuji didn't understand what she was saying. After listening to her for a while, You Yuji pondered carefully for a while before slowly figuring out a story that was not quite perfect.
Chun Xing used to think that she would take the secret between her and Wang Jiang into the coffin. But she was no longer afraid of death and had no more worries. She blurted out all those bits and pieces of nonsense, as if she had said everything in her heart, and she felt relieved for no reason.
After a long silence, You Yuji gently stroked the scratches on Chun Xing's hand and said softly, "It was God's will that she was rescued."
Chun Xing stared at the roof in a daze with tearful eyes. She knew You Yuji was trying to persuade her not to think too much, but Wang Jiang was gone, and the breath that kept her alive was gone.
You Yuji looked at her expression, was silent for a while, and asked: "Does he have any family?"
Chun Xing shook her head: "Someone from his hometown sent him a letter a few years ago. His only grandfather is no longer around."
"If you are gone, no one in this world will remember him anymore. The traces of his life in this world will soon be completely erased."
A strange color appeared in Chun Xing's dull eyes. She turned her head and looked at You Yuji in confusion.
"Everyone always has something to pursue in life. He must have some regrets that he hasn't accomplished. Don't you want to help him finish what he hasn't done?" You Yuzhi asked gently.
Chun Xing fell into confusion and remained silent for a long time.
You Yuji gently wiped away the tears that kept flowing from her eyes. She said softly: "Everyone has his or her own way to go. I can't help you much, and I can't help you all the time. But if you want to leave Jinnan Palace, I can help you."
You Yuji touched Chunxing's forehead with the back of her finger, and when she saw that she no longer had a fever, she withdrew her hand.
"Have a good sleep. If there is anything you can't figure out, think about it after you've had enough sleep." You Yuji tucked the corner of the quilt for her and said, "Go to sleep."
You Yuji knew that Chun Xing might not be able to sleep for a while, so she got up and left without waiting for her to fall asleep.
After leaving the courtyard, You Yuji hesitated for a moment and did not return directly to Tanxiang Yingyue, but went to the princess's residence first. She promised the princess that she would consider her proposal and give her an answer.
Seeing You Yuji, the usually serious Nanny Gu immediately put on a smiling face, lifted the curtain herself, and said with a smile: "The princess was just thinking about the madam!"
"Do you have something to ask me?" You Yuji asked.
"No, it was some tribute silk and a large piece of purple jade sent from the palace. The princess said that when she saw the jade, she immediately thought of Madam, and thought it would be great if she could find a skilled craftsman to make a set of jade ornaments for Madam! The princess was just about to send someone to deliver it to Madam."
You Yuji felt the change in Nanny Gu's attitude towards her. While listening to her, she had already walked into the room. The princess was sitting on the bed, drinking medicine. When she saw You Yuji coming in, she immediately put down the medicine in her hand, forced a smile, and said, "Come and sit down."
You Yuji took a few quick steps and sat down beside the bed, saying, "Princess, you should drink the medicine first."
The princess nodded and picked up the medicine. There was not much medicine left in the bowl, so she frowned and drank the medicine in the bowl in one gulp, then handed the empty bowl to the maid.
You Yuji held up a small dish of candied fruit and handed it to the princess. The princess took a piece and ate it to relieve the bitterness in her mouth. As soon as the bitterness in her mouth subsided, the princess sighed softly. She lowered her eyes and looked at her belly, sighing: "I don't know if I can keep this child..."
You Yuji followed the princess's gaze.
She was willing to worry about the princess's affairs in the first place, largely because of this fetus. She never got pregnant, and she secretly thought that she should do more good deeds. If all things have spirits, the little star in the princess's belly might call for a star in the sky to run into her belly...
"Princess, please don't worry too much. Worrying is not good for your own injury or the child." You Yuzhi advised gently.
The princess forced herself to nod. She asked, "How are you thinking about it?"
"I know the princess has good intentions, to prevent me from being criticized and bullied in the capital." You Yuji said slowly, "But I think after thinking about it, this matter of adopting a daughter is really troublesome. If I have difficulties in the future and ask the princess for help, Yuji will be very grateful, and there is no need to go through such troublesome procedures."
The princess listened to You Yuji's words and knew that she had declined. Sometimes, the princess would wonder why You Yuji acted so decisively, as if she didn't worry about the subsequent troubles at all. However, since You Yuji had said so, the princess could only nod helplessly and didn't force it.
A maid came in hurriedly and whispered something in Gu Mama's ear. The princess saw it and frowned and asked, "What's wrong?"
Nanny Gu hesitated for a moment before reporting the matter.
It turned out that Chen Lingyan ran to Chen Anzhi and made a big fuss, crying and complaining that Chen Anzhi failed to handle the things in her backyard well, causing harm to her family.
The princess sighed and said nothing, nor did she tell Aunt Gu to go over. She naturally blamed Chen Anzhi, but Chen Lingyan also made her heartbroken. After the incident, her daughter had never come to visit her until now.
You Yuji looked at the princess's expression and thought to herself that she must educate her children well in the future and not follow in the princess's footsteps. She thought again, where is her child? You Yuji pursed her lips, and a trace of sadness flashed in her eyes.
When Chen Anzhi was sweating profusely from the burns on his hands, Chen Lingyan rushed in.
Chen Anzhi took a deep breath and endured the pain in his hand, and let Wangshan help him sit up. He frowned and looked at Chen Lingyan, and asked worriedly: "Lingyan, how is the injury on your chin? Does it hurt?"
He looked at Chen Lingyan's chin, but the gauze was stuck to her wound, so he couldn't see the wound clearly.
"Why are you pretending here?" Chen Lingyan's red eyes widened. "If it weren't for you, would I be hurt?"
Chen Anzhi was speechless. He opened his mouth and said guiltily after a long while: "It's my fault. I have implicated you and mother."
Chen Lingyan wanted to quarrel, but Chen Anzhi's attitude of admitting his fault immediately made her even angrier. She stamped her feet hard and said angrily: "Do you think guilt is useful? Or apology is useful? Look at your cowardly behavior!"
Chen Anzhi looked up at the aggressive Chen Lingyan in astonishment, and couldn't believe his ears. Could it be that he heard it wrong? His sister, who had always been well-behaved, actually pointed at his nose and scolded him for being a coward
Is this person really the little sister who used to be so cheerful and well-behaved
"What do you mean by that expression?" Chen Lingyan pinched her waist with one hand and pointed at Chen Anzhi with the other. "Do you think you are so great? Isn't it just your luck that you were born in your mother's belly? Everyone would say behind your back that you are good for nothing except a pretty face!"
"Ling Yan..."
"Am I wrong? Look how angry you made your father and mother! How can you compare to your cousins? We are all princes, but who is as foolish and useless as you!" The more Chen Lingyan spoke, the more she pulled the wound on her chin, which was burning with pain. The more the wound hurt, the more wronged she felt, and tears fell one after another.
"You think you are so good all day long! But you were fooled by that bitch Fang Qingyi! You deserve it! You deserve it!"
Chen Anzhi's pale face flushed, and his hands on the bed slowly tightened. Fang Qingyi became a thorn in his heart, reminding him of his blindness from time to time, and Chen Lingyan just mentioned it like this.
He couldn't help but retort: "You were also deceived by her..."
Chen Lingyan originally felt that she had said a lot of excessive words, and was about to turn around and run away when she heard Chen Anzhi's words. The grievance in her heart was instantly ignited. She stomped her feet hard again and smashed the tea set on the table.
She rushed to Chen Anzhi and almost poked his nose with her fingers.
"Do you know what people outside say about you? Everyone says that the wise King of Jinnan will be ruined by you. You are the biggest stain in my father's life!"
"Ever since you met Princess Que that year, you've become mysterious, using this woman as a substitute and that woman as a shadow! As a prince, you can't have the good life you want, but you make yourself unhappy! Yes, I look down on the grassland women from Sidi. But you believe everything that crazy Fang Qingyi says. You believed her when she said You Yuji and Zhao Sheng had an affair, without even any verification! Well, now she wants to divorce you! To put it nicely, it's a divorce, but to put it bluntly, it's a woman divorcing a man!"
"You are a noble prince, but you were divorced by a girl from the grassland. Aren't you ashamed..."
Chen Anzhi listened to Chen Lingyan's words in a daze. His face flushed, then turned pale again. Chen Lingyan's accusatory words were right next to his ears, yet seemed very far away.
That day, the horrible face that Fang Qingyi used to accuse him gradually overlapped with Chen Lingyan's.
Could it be that what they both said was true
Is he really that bad
The noble prince was completely devastated by the unexpected change and fell into a deep vortex of self-doubt. He began to question himself and what kind of joke his past self was.
Tears fell, and I didn't know whether it was out of regret, guilt, or because I couldn't accept the real me.
Two days later, Chen Anzhi was able to get out of bed and was supported by Wangshan to go to the princess's courtyard. He was concerned about his mother's health and wanted to visit her.
Nanny Gu stood on the stone steps under the eaves, her face stern: "The princess has gone to bed. Tell people not to disturb her. The prince should go back."
Chen Anzhi's face was pale, and he endured the pain, causing the wound on his abdomen to ooze blood again, but he was still turned away. He looked past Aunt Gu and asked, "Aunt, how is my mother's injury? Is the baby in her belly okay?"
Nanny Gu looked at Chen Anzhi's pale face and couldn't bear it. She sighed and said, "The princess's health is being monitored by the imperial physician. My Lord, please go back."
Wangshan also advised: "Master, let's go back. It's windy outside, you can't be blown by the wind all the time."
Chen Anzhi put down his hand that was on Wangshan's shoulder, took two steps back, and knelt down facing the closed door.
Nanny Gu quickly stepped back two steps to avoid it.
Chen Anzhi kowtowed three times seriously.
He was staggering and unable to stand up. Wangshan hurried over to help him up and walked back with him.
"Go..." Chen Anzhi hesitated for a moment, "Tanxiang Yingyue."
Chen Anzhi's residence was not far from the princess's place, so he could barely walk over. However, Tan Xiang Ying Yue was a little far away, so it took Chen Anzhi a long time to get there.
When he arrived at Tanxiang Yingyue, Chen Anzhi was stunned by the scene in the yard.
The aroma of roasted whole lamb filled the air, and the two maids who were sprinkling spices on the roasted whole lamb were chatting and laughing. Two maids squatted nearby, peeling the mud off the beggar's chicken.
Cuiyu, Hongzan and two maids were playing dominoes. There were two more maids standing behind them, learning how to play.
You Yuji sat comfortably on a rattan chair with a dark cat in her arms. She was combing the cat's hair while basking in the sun.
Chun Xing was there too. She sat quietly beside You Yuji, staring blankly at You Yuji combing Baisui's hair.
Almost everyone in the yard was wearing brightly colored new clothes, with smiles on their faces, and the whole atmosphere was filled with joy, which was in stark contrast to the bitter cold where Chen Anzhi was.
Chen Anzhi suddenly realized that since when did the people around him no longer wear white because of his preference.
Si Que walked out of the house with his zither in his arms.
After all, she was wearing a red dress.
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