There was no warmth left in the lonely night of late autumn.
Shen Yuhan returned to his room in a daze. He didn't know how he got into bed or how he curled himself into the quilt. He even found it difficult to breathe and felt extremely uncomfortable.
I don't know if the old man sent him here to suffer like this because he saw that his life was too easy or something.
Once you're dead, you're dead. How can you come back to life after thousands of years? It's still unknown how many thousands of years later you are.
He doesn't like modern times at all, and he doesn't like the people around him at all. None of them are sincere.
Shan Qihuan is so mean. I clearly treat him sincerely, but he just thinks he is acting. He is the one who treats me the best, and he is the one who gives me the best. Now he is the one who hurts him the most.
He couldn't change the fact that he was "Shen Yuhan", but how could he see it after he had shown his kindness so much? Was it because the time was too short
From now on, we are separate and have nothing to do with each other, but will we still live under the same roof
I have always treated him as my husband, but he actually made me sad like this.
But who can he blame
Blame God
Shen Yuhan buried his face in the quilt and sobbed non-stop.
He missed his family. Although his mother treated him harshly in the past, no one had ever said such harsh words to him. His father loved him very much too. He was worried about his marriage before the emperor issued an edict. Although his brothers had their own personalities, they would bring him souvenirs whenever they came back from wherever they went.
On the night before his wedding, his brothers all cried.
It is said that men don't shed tears easily, but only when they are heartbroken.
They must have been very sad to see him marrying far away, and he was sad too. He never thought that they would be separated forever. If they were still in Qi State, and if they had not been robbed by bandits, perhaps their family could have been reunited in their lifetime.
But here, he was cold, hungry, and sad, and his family had no idea about it. He also had no idea about the situation of his family. If they were in Qi, they could still communicate.
It would be better to marry the terrible King of Chu, who is also old. At least he will be affectionate to an old man.
Yes, he is still alive in someone else's body, but all his family members have passed away long ago, gone!
The more he thought about it, the sadder he felt. Shen Yuhan stared at the ceiling with his eyes wide open and tears streaming down his face silently. After a while, he burst into tears, his grief evident in every possible way.
There were bouts of coughing later on.
He had a slight cough when he came back this evening and is crying now. Not only does he feel bad mentally, but he also feels worse physically.
Shen Yuhan coughed until his face turned red and he almost suffocated, so he had to sit up. The more itchy his throat became, the more he coughed.
He wants to go home, he wants to stay in the modern world,
The atmosphere here is open and everyone is free. He knows nothing and cannot learn anything. Modern people have been in this environment since birth and they learn everything quickly, but he has to ponder for a long time when he hears a strange word or character. This place is suitable for all modern people but not for him. It is not suitable for him, a person from an unknown dynasty.
People here stay away from those who don't like them. They can divorce at any time, meet new people, fall in love, and rebuild a family after two days of the New Year.
But he can do it, he can. Shan Qihuan mentioned that after "Shen Yuhan" pursued other people, he minded but was still willing to be with him again. What about him? They slept in the same bed, and so many people knew that they were married.
He had never been married, and it was he who pursued Shan Qiyun, so he had no way to defend himself.
But how could Shan Qihuan treat him like this? He left her cleanly and directly parted ways with someone he had no feelings for.
But he was an old man with old-fashioned ideas. He didn't want to stay. To this world, he was just an outsider.
He thought sadly and angrily that since "Shen Yuhan" had no relatives or friends, no one would pity him when he left this world.
If I die again, will I be able to wear it back
Yes, he came back after he died, and maybe after he dies he can go back to Qi State!
After he returned, he wouldn't have to secretly learn modern knowledge every day, nor would he be misunderstood, let alone despised by his husband. After all, he had already died once, so he didn't care about dying one more time.
No matter how unnecessary everything is in modern times, he still wants it!
But how is he going to die
Thinking of this, Shen Yuhan's tears suddenly stopped. He jumped off the bed barefoot and ran to the balcony. He remembered the news report that someone climbed to the roof and jumped to commit suicide. There was no possibility of survival above the tenth floor. This was the first way to die. But this was the third floor. At most, he would break his legs, paralyze his lower limbs, and be half dead. Life would be as good as death. It was terrible.
The second way to die is to be hit by a car. It is easy to die on the highway, but there are no cars in their community, and there are only slow-moving vehicles on the streets outside. He also knows the roads, so this way of death is also relatively safe. He will probably only break his legs and feet, and it is just as good as death. It is acceptable.
The third way to die is drowning. He remembered that they said that "Shen Yuhan" was pushed into the water and then he came over. But now he couldn't find any lake, so he couldn't die. Maybe he would be rescued by a kind-hearted person passing by.
The fourth way to die is to slit his wrists and commit suicide. There is a knife in the kitchen!
Shen Yuhan returned to the house from the chilly balcony. He was crying. He didn't even take his coat. He went downstairs barefoot and ran straight to the kitchen to look for a knife.
Shan Qihuan next door also felt bad.
He thought about it for a whole night and knew what would happen to Shen Yuhan after he said those cold words. He was such a crybaby and he looked particularly sad every time he cried.
He thought that it was okay for Shen Yuhan to cry just this once, and she wouldn't have to be made to cry by him again.
In fact, Shen Yuhan is not as bad as imagined. He actually has a good temper and I have never seen him angry. He is just a little spoiled, likes to act like a spoiled child, and likes to cry. He is very obedient in front of him and will do whatever he asks him to do, but he will never make excessive demands.
How could such a good person like Shen Yuhan fight, quarrel and swear with others? Maybe it was because his parents left that his temperament changed drastically. Now that his grandfather has left, he has lost his support and peace of mind, so it is understandable that he has changed back to his original state.
Shan Qihuan was lying on the bed without concentrating on sleeping. He didn't dare to open the video call even though his phone was on. He still heard crying coming from next door. As expected, the girl was crying miserably and coughing. He didn't know if it was because she didn't wear enough clothes today and had a cold.
He was about to lift up the quilt several times, but finally let go of his hands that were holding the quilt.
When he put down his hands and lifted the quilt for the fifth time, there was no crying sound from next door. Then he only heard Shen Yuhan getting out of bed and opening the door to the floor-to-ceiling window on the balcony. The next room and his balcony were close together, so the sound was very clear.
Why open the window in the middle of the night
Not knowing whether the window was closed or not, Shan Qihuan heard Shen Yuhan opening the door and ran downstairs.
What are you doing here
Shan Qihuan couldn't let it go, and for the sixth time he finally lifted the quilt and opened the door to go out.
Yes, he went downstairs to get some water, but also to see what Shen Yuhan was doing late at night.
He followed her downstairs without turning on any lights, and it was pitch dark.
There was a night light in the stairs, but it was not on. Shen Yuhan was obviously heading downstairs, so why were the lights downstairs not on either? What was he doing
If he makes me cry, I can just run to the living room to watch TV, or watch it on my phone, or run outside to get some fresh air.
Shan Qihuan's idea was obviously wrong, the TV in the living room was not turned on.
Then Shen Yuhan went downstairs to drink water
But he was crying like that just now, so it was very logical for him to suddenly run down to drink water.
Then, Shan Qihuan heard clinking sounds coming from the kitchen, which only knives could make.
What was he doing in the kitchen getting a knife
Shan Qihuan first turned on the light in the living room, followed the sound into the kitchen, and then turned on the light in the kitchen as well.
Shen Yuhan, who knew that Shan Qihuan had followed him, was startled by the sudden light. He wanted to find the fruit knife, and after searching for a long time, he finally found out where his aunt had put the knife. The knife was sharp, easy to cut, and heavy.
At this moment, he was still holding a meat-cutting kitchen knife in his hand. He was using the moonlight to place the knife on his wrist, wondering if he could cut his skin. If a knife could cut pork bones, it could probably cut his skin as well.
However, he would never end his life in the kitchen. If he bleeds all over the floor, Aunt Wang will have to clean the kitchen. Aunt Wang usually treats him very well and is especially considerate of his taste.
Just when I was thinking about where to end my life, the light suddenly came on.
Shan Qihuan was frightened by Shen Yuhan who was holding a kitchen knife and preparing to stab him!
He reacted quickly, stepped forward to snatch the kitchen knife from Shen Yuhan's hand, threw it on the table, and immediately carried him away from the dangerous place of the kitchen.
Shan Qihuan was anxious: "Shen Yuhan, what are you doing in the kitchen getting a kitchen knife?"
It only took a moment for Shen Yuhan's feet to leave the ground as he was carried out of the kitchen. When he came to his senses, Shan Qihuan had already placed him on a chair at the dining table!
Shen Yuhan looked at him fiercely, and her already red eyes became even redder, and tears began to flow down.
It's too much to not let him die!
Shen Yuhan was so angry at Shan Qihuan that she started to talk without caring about anything else. She cried and said, "What do I do to you?"
Shen Yuhan thought that he was very fierce now, but in Shan Qihuan's eyes, he looked pitiful, not fierce at all, and even looked very aggrieved.
It is true that I have wronged him, and there is nothing wrong with that.
Shan Qihuan felt guilty, regretful and scared for the first time with Shen Yuhan. After being so "scolded" by Shen Yuhan, his mind began to become clearer.
"In the middle of the night, you used a kitchen knife to chop your own palms to make steamed chicken feet? And your shoes were not even on." Shan Qihuan was frightened by him, and his face looked too good. He did not dare to speak too harshly, and tried hard to suppress his worries. "Shen Yuhan, I would not joke with my own life if you wanted to!"
"Who wants to hurt you? Who are you to me?" Shen Yuhan kept retorting. He cried all night until his voice was hoarse and he couldn't even curse.
Shan Qihuan: “…” He almost forgot that Shen Yuhan was actually quite eloquent.
An hour and a half ago, he was the one who said that they would have connections with each other in the future, and Shen Yuhan immediately took advantage of it. There was nothing wrong with that.
Being blocked from speaking, Shan Qihuan could only squat in front of him and wipe his tears with his sleeves, and said in a soft voice: "What on earth do you want to do?"
Of course Shen Yuhan wanted to go back to Qi. He wanted to go home. He sniffed and said, "I want to go home. I don't want you to go home."
Shan Qihuan looked at him and asked him, these words really hit home, but compared with those excessive words he said tonight, they were nothing worth mentioning. It was his choice that led to the current result.
Moreover, Shen Yuhan wanted to "go home" but he didn't even have a home, so how could he have a home? No wonder he cried so miserably. Shan Qihuan felt uncomfortable because he didn't think it through.
Shan Qihuan's tone softened a bit: "Then you can't put the knife on your wrist. If you accidentally cut it and the bleeding stops, you will die."
"We are all related to each other, why do you care whether I live or not?" Shen Yuhan got angry with him.
The two roles were reversed from an hour and a half ago.
Shan Qihuan sighed. If Shen Yuhan was angry with him, then he was very successful in getting through it, and it also made him very worried, but he really hoped for this method.
Shen Yuhan turned around and didn't want to talk to Shan Qihuan. He pulled his legs back into the chair and curled up.
"I know what I said tonight was serious and made you angry." Shan Qihuan wanted to salvage something. He wanted to move along, but there was a dining table in front of Shen Yuhan, so he couldn't move over.
Shen Yuhan also made a gesture as if he didn't want to listen to him, and he covered his ears like an ostrich.
For a moment, Shan Qihuan didn't know what to say. He was the one who made the mistake first.
In fact, he regretted those words as soon as they came out of his mouth, especially when he heard Shen Yuhan crying in the next room, he almost couldn't help but run over to comfort him and apologize to him.
He knew why he wanted to do this, and it was because he knew that he had the heart to say those words. Sometimes, calming down was a torture for himself.
Perhaps, he should just make a clean break and when he shut himself out, he should also shut Shen Yuhan out. The way he looked at him these days and the way he protected him when they were alone at home were all impossible to ignore.
Maybe they could give it a try and give each other a chance to understand each other, but they don't have to be related to each other.
Shen Yuhan was looking for Shan Qihuan, so he sat on the chair next to him to accompany him.
It was not until Shen Yuhan coughed several times with his head down and there was a tendency for the cough to stop that Shan Qihuan realized something was wrong.
"Shen Yuhan, what's wrong with you?"
He reached out and touched his wrists that were exposed outside his pajamas; they were cold. He then touched the soles of his feet; they were also cold.
Shan Qihuan didn't care about his condition. After his coughing subsided, he picked him up and carried him upstairs.
Shen Yuhan's body suddenly flew into the air, and he hugged Shan Qihuan tightly around the neck: "What are you doing?"
Shan Qihuan glanced at his tear-stained face, and her heart tightened: "Go back to your room. You're playing with your own body and you'll lose more than you gain." The first sentence he mentioned was about Shen Yuhan, and the second sentence he mentioned was about himself. This was really a loss of both the wife and the army.
"If you want to go back, go back by yourself." Shen Yuhan glared at him with eyes red and swollen from crying, "Put me down, cough." This cough completely wiped out all his strength.
Shan Qihuan certainly didn't care about him. He was wearing thin pajamas, his hands and feet were cold, and he was coughing. These were all preludes to illness. He would never let Shen Yuhan suffer the cold downstairs.
Besides, Shen Yuhan was really young, so it didn't take much effort to carry him upstairs.
Shen Yuhan was worried, so she had no time to think about her husband's strong arms, which allowed him to carry him to the third floor in one breath.
Shan Qihuan did not carry Shen Yuhan back to their wedding room, but carried her back to his room. He knew that Shen Yuhan must have cried so hard that her quilt was wet, and the window of the room was not closed, but wide open, so there was no warmth at all.
Shen Yuhan felt uncomfortable all over. After calming down, he felt dizzy, his throat was dry, and his eyes, nose and throat were sore.
He was stuffed into the bed by Dan Qihuan. Although it was just stuffed, the action was still gentle.
Shan Qihuan went to the bathroom and wrung out a hot towel: "Wipe your face."
Shen Yuhan wiped his face in a way that he felt was rude and self-destructive, then stuffed the towel back into Shan Qihuan's hands and turned away from him.
Shan Qihuan didn't mind it either, so he went to the bathroom to wash the towel. When he came out, the towel was still hot, but this time he lifted the lower half of the quilt: "Put your feet out."
Shen Yuhan pulled the quilt, pulled his feet up, and looked at Shan Qihuan: "Hey." He showed his feet to others without hesitation!
Shan Qihuan had no choice but to pull his feet out himself. Shen Yuhan's kicks were not as strong as Shan Qihuan's hands, and he was defeated after struggling for only a second. By the time his face turned red, Shan Qihuan had already wiped his two feet clean with a hot towel and covered them before stuffing them back into the quilt.
Shen Yuhan pulled the quilt over her face and covered it tightly. She couldn't tell whether she was blushing from anger or shame!
It's annoying. He said he wanted to touch his feet, but he still did it!
"Tuck in the quilt and don't keep your head down." Shan Qihuan put his hand on Shen Yuhan's forehead when he came out of the bathroom. Fortunately, he didn't have a fever. He reminded Shen Yuhan, "Wait until I come back before going to sleep."
Shen Yuhan pulled the quilt under his nose, and seeing that he was about to go out, he asked sullenly, "Where are you going?"
"I'll go downstairs and make you some cold medicine. Drink it and then go to sleep." Shan Qihuan knew that from the moment he left the door, he would be responsible for the rest of the situation. He really didn't deserve to suffer like this. It was all his own fault.
"Oh." Shen Yuhan lay there with his hands on the quilt, watching Shan Qihuan leave.
Tonight, she went into the bedroom where her husband used to sleep for the second time. His bed was much more spacious than the one they slept in.
He first thought of Shan Qihuan wiping his feet, then thought of the nonsense Shan Qihuan said tonight, and how he sent him downstairs in the daytime. He was a little confused for a moment, his mind was full of random thoughts, but he was still angry with Shan Qihuan.
After a while, Shan Qihuan came back and brought him a cup of brewed Chinese medicine.
Shan Qihuan asked him to get up and drink the medicine: "Get up and drink it first."
The cup was transparent. Shen Yuhan saw the dark medicine and moved back. He didn't want to drink it. "It's bitter."
Shan Qihuan took a sip for him first: "Not bitter, but sweet."
Shen Yuhan believed him and sat up to take the medicine. After taking a sip, he found that it was indeed bitter, so he drank it all in a gulp. After finishing the medicine, he lay down again.
After the quarrel and the medicine were taken, it was already late at night.
After making sure that there were no protective measures that could be taken, Shan Qihuan lay back on the bed.
He asked Shen Yuhan: "Are you asleep? Call me if you feel uncomfortable in the middle of the night."
Shen Yuhan didn't respond to him. Shan Qihuan waited for a long time but didn't get a reply. He looked at his face several times to make sure he was okay before turning off the lights.
After all the lights were turned off, he gently rubbed against Shen Yuhan, kissed him on the forehead, and said in a low and hoarse voice: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said those words to you." He paused, a little embarrassed to say, "You still want me to love you, right?"
But Shen Yuhan didn't sleep at all. After Qihuan kissed the quilt, he endured for a while before quietly turning over and burying his face in the quilt.
My husband is so cunning, he actually kissed him at this time!