In the middle of the night, city B is full of dazzling neon lights, turning the whole city into a sea of lights. Probably because the neon lights at night were too bright, or maybe because the moon no longer had the strength to compete with these cold artificial lights, the moonlight dimmed and was gradually covered by flowing clouds.
A white Ferrari convertible sports car passed quickly on the road, perhaps because of the cold weather. In the early hours of the morning in the deep winter of City B, there were no vehicles driving, and there were not many pedestrians on both sides of the road. Few people found that fast-moving sports car, and they would only sigh: It is courageous enough not to pull up the hood in such weather.
The tears on He Shushan's cheeks had already dried up, he was holding the steering wheel with both hands, and his eyes were looking ahead without focus. There was a biting cold winter wind above his head. In the temperature of minus ten degrees, he only wore a thin coat. His hands were frozen purple because of the cold, and his lips were frighteningly pale, but he didn't seem to feel anything, he just gripped the steering wheel hard and drove forward.
This car was a birthday present from Chu Jinjie, who had taken over the Chu Group, on his coming-of-age ceremony.
He still clearly remembered that the man said this:
"You are an adult from today, you should have a car of your own. 』
At that time, he took the silver key with great excitement, and then drove the car around every day. Later, because he entered the entertainment circle, and this car was too ostentatious, he didn't drive it again for many years.
However, in the past few months, for some unknown reason, he always sat in this car involuntarily in the garage.
The gifts that Chu Jinjie gave were always extravagant.
From a set of electronic smart toys when he was six, to a Victorian piano last year.
This man has never been stingy about his financial needs, but he just gave him a gift, and he didn't even mention "Happy Birthday". In the past, He Shushan always thought that this man just buried his feelings too deeply, so outsiders seemed to think that he was too heartless.
But now, He Shushan deeply understood.
Chu Jinjie has feelings, but... never to him.
The night wind, as fierce as a knife, blew from all directions, and the thin coat couldn't stop the biting cold wind. There was a trace of abnormal flush on He Shushan's face, but he didn't seem to notice it at all, he drove calmly and rationally, entered the cx apartment with tight security, then parked the car and went upstairs.
He lied to Chu Jinjie about something.
In the past few months, since the night Chu Jinjie left, he never went back to the Blue Mountain Villa.
He specifically asked Mrs. Yuan not to tell Chu Jinjie about this, but he secretly prayed in his heart: this man will soon find out that he moved into the cx apartment, and use this to ask him why.
A few years ago, Chu Jinjie left a house with Shu Shan in the cx apartment. Although he is still an artist of Tianyu at this time, everyone has no objection to this matter, even Pan Lun dare not say a word. but…
He and Shu Shan have never lived together.
Every day when entering this community, he and Shu Shan were thinking that maybe in the next second he would see that cold and indifferent man standing downstairs of the apartment building, asking himself why he suddenly moved here.
But every time he turns that little corner in his car, he always finds—
Under the dim yellow street lamps, only the air flowed alone, and there was never a figure of that man.
So, he really didn't care about his own affairs anymore.
Therefore, when he was in Yongshengju, he only cared politely, and didn't even have the energy to listen to his own explanation.
So, he is really going to leave forever.
Suddenly let out a low laugh, the most desperate and sad voice, echoing gently in the narrow elevator. He and Shu Shan looked at the gleaming and helpless self on the shiny and reflective elevator wall, which seemed strange and familiar at the same time.
Familiar to see this person in the empty apartment all the time in the middle of the night in these months.
The corners of this person's eyes were red, his cheeks were pale, and his lips were colorless. He seemed to want to cry, but he couldn't squeeze a single tear.
With Shu Shan, with Shu Shan...
What a total loser you are!
The elevator suddenly made a "ding-" sound, and the metal elevator doors began to open to both sides.
"Hey Ah Qing, if I still eat so late, will I gain weight? You know, my physique is not good, and I always..." The young man's crisp voice stopped abruptly, and Xu Situ looked at the people in the elevator in surprise , exclaimed: "Eh?! Shu Shan?! What's wrong with you, why do you look so bad!"
Xu Situ quickly stepped forward to support He Shushan. He wrinkled his face when he saw Shu Shan's appearance, and said, "Have you not rested for a long time? Don't fight like this, Shu Shan, you can have songs at any time, but your body is the most important thing." .”
Zhu Qing, who was standing outside the elevator, heard Xu Situ's words, a helpless smile appeared on his handsome face. He entered the elevator and said, "Of course you don't understand. For singers like Shu Shan and the others, it's a good song." , that is their life."
Xu Situ snorted softly and said, "I don't care anyway, Shu Shan, you have to take good care of yourself! Anyway, your new single is over, so stop working tomorrow and rest at home!"
Zhu Qing heard the words, and said: "You should let go of the arms of others and Shu Shan earlier, and let them go home to rest. I really think that everyone is like you, and you don't get sleepy in the middle of the night?"
Upon hearing this, Xu Situ immediately refuted a few words. Zhu Qing chuckled twice, and ignored the arrogant child, but turned to Shu Shan and said, "Shu Shan, take a good rest. I know you have been feeling uneasy these past few months, but your body Most importantly, go to bed early."
He Shushan raised his head slowly and looked at these two people. In his line of sight, Zhu Qing and Xu Situ seemed to have three clones, swaying non-stop. His eyesight has always been very good, but at this moment, he couldn't see the expressions of these two people clearly.
"Well, thank you."
He mumbled a reply, and he and Shu Shan walked out of the elevator door. Open the door, enter the house, and block all the hustle and bustle outside the house. And at the moment when the door was suddenly closed, He Shu Shan's body suddenly slid down, his back was leaning against the solid door panel, and he sat paralyzed on the ground.
The whole face was buried in the cold hands, and Shu Shan's body couldn't stop shaking, a low whimper came from his throat, but no tears flowed from his eyes. He finally felt the feeling of evaporating all the water in his body.
On that night when he was abandoned in the recording studio alone, he was never as desperate as he is now.
As if everyone would secretly get lucky when they were in grief, he always thought that there was still a chance, a chance, between him and that person. But today, when he really saw that bright and hearty woman and her tightly holding Chu Jin's arm, he really felt that everything had long since come to an end.
Those arms that had hugged him for countless nights, the chest that made him feel endlessly warm, the hot hands that pulled him out of the dark abyss, all truly no longer belonged to him.
And belonged to that woman.
He never realized that he could be so jealous, and he never realized that he had such acting skills.
He pretended to be nonchalant in front of Qi Wenyuan, pretended not to care in front of everyone else, and even pretended to be so frank and pointless in front of that man. But... the feeling of being stabbed from the bottom of his heart couldn't make him lie to himself at all.
"Hiknot... hibiscus... hibiscus..."
He and Shu Shan's voice became lower and lower, and finally became an indistinct sob.
Probably due to the excessive burning, his complexion has long since turned red from the beginning to a terrifying paleness, only his eyes are still terribly red, shockingly red.
In the room that was so quiet that even the air was still, He and Shu Shan just sat in front of the door for an unknown how long. The sound of the heater was blowing little by little, and slowly, this monotonous sound was suddenly mixed with a song that was so weak that it was almost inaudible.
The song was choked with sobs and echoed lowly in the room, containing the most sad and painful look of despair.
"Entering the play with heart and soul, I played for you..." The indistinct voice stopped abruptly, and he hugged his legs with Shu Shan and buried himself in his knees. After a long time, he gave a low laugh , and continued to sing the last line: "I have played the piano all my life for you."
In the darkness, He Shushan slowly raised his head, looking at an unknown point in the air with a wry smile. That smile was bitter and sad, it was obviously a smile, but it seemed uglier than crying.
The past is like flowing clouds, flashing past He Shushan's eyes one by one.
From the arrogant and indifferent boy I met for the first time, to the small wooden car later; from the osmanthus grove that covered the sky, to the shimmering blue mountain lake; from the wrong kiss at the beginning, to In the end, that person looked indifferently in Yongshengjuli.
In the end, everything turned into the man's simple words that didn't even change his tone—
"And Shu Shan, I'm getting engaged. 』
"Hehe, yes...he's getting married."
The extremely sour voice resounded in the quiet room, and Shu Shan suddenly leaned back against the solid door panel, and looked up at the pattern on the ceiling illuminated by the light outside the window. For some reason, he seemed to see the most memorable afternoon in his life that he saw twenty years ago.
The young man looked at himself arrogantly, although his words were extremely polite, but his expression was an undisguised indifference.
It turns out that all of this...was it all doomed from the very beginning
"I'm so tired, Jinjie." A warm smile suddenly appeared on his lips, and he said with a low smile, "I've been chasing after you for so many years. I'm really tired. When will you... be able to come back?" Come and see me?"
Slightly maniacal laughter gradually sounded, and finally people couldn't tell whether the person was laughing or crying.
Suddenly, He Shushan propped himself up and stood up. The hot blood all over his body suddenly crowded into his brain, making him almost lose his balance and fall down again. He staggered a few steps, and finally stood firm while leaning on the wall.
In the darkness without the lights on, He Shushan stood quietly in the same place. After an unknown amount of time, he suddenly stepped forward without any warning. Borrowing the moonlight, he walked step by step into the open kitchen, then lowered his head, looking expressionlessly at the sharp knife stuck vertically in the wooden furniture, glowing coldly.
He seemed to hear Qi Wenyuan's anxious and comforting words in the past few months, but Ling and Shu Shan's faces did not show any turmoil. He slowly stretched out his hand towards the sharp weapon.
"Ayuan, I'm really tired. I'm sorry."
With a faint sound of drawing a knife, He Shushan seemed to have seen those fans screaming with their names held high in concerts.
"sorry."
Holding the cold knife handle tightly in his hand, he walked towards the bathroom with Shu Shan. He turned on the faucet and watched the hot water fill the pure white bathtub little by little. He seemed to see the scenery he had seen with that person in front of that Blue Mountain villa in the past few years.
The warm sunlight shone on the small artificial lake, sparkling and rippling.
If it is said that this person gave him life and allowed him to escape from the dark and hopeless childhood. And now... this person ruthlessly took back everything he thought he had once owned.
He Shushan raised his head and turned off the faucet. Leaning against the cold tile wall, he smiled softly and said, "You have the right and qualification. Chu Jinjie."
As the voice fell, there was a sound of a sharp instrument piercing the skin with great force. A glaring column of blood splashed out quickly, and a beautiful blood flower bloomed on the snow-white tiles. And Shu Shan's body twitched, and then the whole left arm fell down without any strength, and slapped heavily in the hot water of the bathtub.
Because of the heat and water flow, the blood flow intensified rapidly, as if he had been paralyzed. He Shu Shan could not feel the piercing pain from his left wrist at all. release.
Because of deep love, so can not give up.
Because I couldn't give up, I was hurt.
And at this moment, he was finally able to escape from that person's shadow forever.
get away…
A heart that cannot be avoided.