After a day, He Shushan finally woke up.
It didn't break down and cry, or rejoice and joy, as everyone expected. When he opened his eyes and saw the handsome and indifferent man sitting beside the hospital bed, he just raised the corners of his lips calmly and asked with a smile, "Jinjie? Why are you here?"
When seeing the man gradually waking up, Chu Jinjie's hands clenched tightly into fists. During these dozens of hours, he imagined countless ways to face Shu Shan, but when this moment really came, he realized that he was still uncontrollably worried.
But... He never thought that he and Shu Shan would be in such a state.
His throat was choked because he hadn't spoken for a long time, and it took Chu Jin a while to adjust his state. Instead of answering Shu Shan's question, he asked directly, "Why did you cut your wrists and commit suicide?" , Chu Jinjie was stunned. He had been preparing for so long, but he didn't expect that this sentence would come out of his mouth. With a frown on her straight eyebrows, Chu Jin concluded, "You don't have to pay attention to what I just said, in fact, I..."
"I did this kind of thing that gave up my life because of you." Without any hesitation, He Shushan raised a relieved smile on his lips, and said: "Don't mind this, I'm just telling a fact. But You must not feel guilty because of my business. This is my business and has nothing to do with you. Now that I have completely let go, I think that we have known each other for twenty years, and you should not deny me as a friend , brother?"
Chu Jinjie suddenly felt a stagnation in his throat, and he stared at the chuckling man on the hospital bed with wide eyes, completely ignoring what he was saying just now.
"Jinjie, why don't you talk?" There was a gentle smile in He Shushan's light-colored pupils, his face was still a little pale, but he looked not much different from Wangri's and Shu Shan, "If you If you feel sorry for me and want to make up for me because of this incident, then you really don't pay attention to the relationship between us for twenty years. This has nothing to do with you, Jinjie."
The sunshine outside the window is rare in winter, shining on He Shu Shan's handsome cheeks, making that smile even more ethereal. Chu Jin stared blankly at the young man for a long time, then said suddenly: "This has something to do with me, you are obviously a very optimistic person, it is because of me that you are like this..."
"Jinjie, don't blame yourself." He Shushan chuckled, "Well, that's your fault. But now, I forgive you." There was a hint of relief in that voice, obviously gentle His voice was colder to Chu Jinjie's ears than the deepest ice in Antarctica.
Just like this person in front of you.
He had never felt so far away from this person.
It was obviously close at hand, but at this moment, that heart seemed to be sealed by layers of ice, so that he could no longer feel it.
Chu Jinjie lowered her head in silence. After a long time, he suddenly said, "He Shu Shan, are you going to abandon me?"
The smile on He Shushan's lips froze for a moment, but the corners of his lips curled up again in an instant, and he shook his head and said, "I will never abandon you, Jinjie. It's like what I said five years ago on the night Uncle Chu passed away. Yes, you are my only relative in this world, no matter what happens, I will not leave you first."
"But you have already chosen to leave first!" The voice suddenly amplified, and Chu Jinjie couldn't control her emotions all of a sudden, and growled. He and Shu Shan didn't react for a while, but it was Chu Jinjie who recovered first. He covered his face with his hands, and whispered: "Sorry, Shu Shan."
He Shushan shook his head slightly: "It's okay. By the way, Jinjie, I remember that yesterday seemed to be your wedding with Miss Kyle." Saying that, He Shushan smiled and looked down at Chu Jinjie's left hand, seeing each other With an empty ring finger, he couldn't help being taken aback, and asked, "Why didn't I see you wearing a ring?"
Chu Jinjie had already returned to his usual calm and calm appearance. He said: "The marriage plan with the Kyle Group has been cancelled." While speaking, although he still pretended to be indifferent, he secretly observed the relationship with Shu Shan look.
Seeing that the latter frowned slightly, and when a gleam of joy surged in Chu Jinjie's heart, He Shushan sighed and said: "Miss Kyle is very nice, I think a passionate person like her will definitely be able to I get along very well with you. And this marriage is also a good impetus for the Chu Group, helping to open up the American market."
Chu Jinjie was startled when she heard the words, and asked subconsciously, "You want me to marry her?"
But Jian and Shu Shan raised their lips with a low smile, and asked back: "Miss Kyle is your best marriage partner, Jinjie. I don't want you to miss it just like this. Of course, if you have someone else you like, then I will also encourage you to pursue others."
Chu Jinjie stood up abruptly: "I like you."
He Shushan burst into laughter suddenly, shook his head helplessly and said: "Jinjie, you will trouble me a lot. As the only child of the Chu family and the president of the Chu family, you need a good wife to help you You, support you, and this person obviously can't be me. And... sorry, I don't like you. "
Chu Jinjie suddenly opened her eyes wide, and took a staggering step back. Under the sun, He Shu Shan still had a calm and warm smile, just like what Chu Jinjie had seen in the past few years, but it seemed that something was missing.
"Sorry, I don't like you."
This sentence said the cruelest content, but the tone was very gentle, the kind of gentleness unique to Shu Shan. But at this moment, Chu Jinjie really felt the poison called tenderness——
What is it called, the taste of bone-piercing intestines.
In the next few days, He and Shu Shan recovered quite quickly, even at a speed that even the doctors thought was incredible. It was probably because he was in a good mood, or because he had let go of all the heavy burdens that had weighed on his heart for many years. In short, after just over half a month, He Shushan planned to leave the hospital and stop recuperating.
In the past half a month, cx Entertainment has taken over the public relations with Shu Shan during the hospitalization, and it did a good job. The fans only thought that Shu Shan had a serious illness, but he will be discharged from the hospital soon. Only Qi Wenyuan and Uno knew what happened.
As for Chu Jinjie, she put everything aside for the past half month and came to the hospital to report on time every day. If it wasn't for He Shu Shan's tactful refusal, he might still want to stay in the hospital directly.
However, he just watched from the side all the time, and occasionally talked a few words with He Shu Shan, but he never mentioned the short and not good communication between the two on the first day.
He and Shu Shan seem to really just regard him as a friend and a brother, talking and laughing are very normal, there is no coldness or neglect, and no special care. What kind of smile he used to look at Qi Wenyuan, what kind of tone he used to talk to Qi Wenyuan, then... that's how he would face Chu Jinjie.
The deep affection that had been lingering in his eyes for many years seemed to have been wiped out overnight without any retention, the determination was so terrifying that even Qi Wenyuan was shocked.
How deeply you once loved, how completely you abandon now.
"I've packed everything, so I'll go out first." Steward Wang bowed respectfully, then turned around and walked out the door with the suitcase in hand, leaving only He Shushan and Chu Jin behind. The two of them stayed alone in the huge single ward.
Standing by the window with Shu Shan, he brushed the thick curtains with his hand, and looked downstairs. The floor of this hospital is not high, only eight floors, so even on the top floor, He Shushan can clearly see the children playing on the grass in the yard.
The tall one is lifting the ball high, while the short one keeps jumping and stretching with a mournful face.
Seeing this, He Shushan couldn't help laughing, and said: "Jinjie, you were not as cute as that little boy when you were young. I remember when I first saw you, you looked like a little adult, and you never smiled. Meaningless."
"At that time, I was already eleven years old."
In the winter afternoon, the bright and slightly hot sun shone through the window on He Shushan's delicate face, and the yellowish hair shone with a touch of gold, but He Shushan didn't look back, he still looked out of the window and said with a smile: "Yeah , you are an adult, so you won’t play such childish games anymore.”
There was no expression on Chu Jinjie's stern face, she stared deeply at the young man by the window, and after an unknown amount of time, she suddenly said, "And Shu Shan, how long do you want to play this game?"
The body was startled suddenly, and Shu Shan didn't look back, and asked in doubt: "What are you talking about? Hibiscus knot."
"I was wrong, I was wrong from the very beginning. I surrendered this game, I lost completely, I have never lost as badly as I have ever lost. And Shu Shan, end this game, I don't want to play anymore." Voice It was the calmness after trying to suppress it, and only the slightly trembling voice revealed the ups and downs of this man's mood.
But He Shushan laughed out loud, and said: "Jinjie, don't think too much, I didn't play games with you, don't get me wrong."
"And Shushan!"
The voice rose suddenly, with a sense of determination, Ling He Shushan's fingers grabbed the thick European-style curtains, his body became completely stiff, and he didn't dare to turn his head to look at the man at all.
He had never heard Chu Jinjie's voice like this.
Such an unfamiliar voice seemed to be about to cry, with a strong meaning of pleading.
He dared not look back.
He was afraid that as soon as he saw this man, his heart that had been sealed off would betray him involuntarily.
"And Shu Shan! Are you really going to abandon me!"
He and Shu Shan pinched the curtains tightly, the originally flat fabric was wrinkled by him, but he still didn't dare to move. I can only pretend that I didn't hear anything, and still look out of the window.
"And Shu Shan! You once sang 'Entering the drama and falling in love, I have played the piano for you all my life'. Your life is not over yet, and you still have to play the piano for me, why don't you play it!"
He and Shu Shan clenched their teeth, still unwilling to turn back.
"And Shu Shan! You told me five years ago that you would never leave me first, and that I was your last relative in this world. You said that you would hold me tightly every winter night like this, Don't let me face an empty house alone!"
He Shu Shan's eyes widened suddenly, he never expected that this person could still remember what he said five years ago so clearly.
"He Shu Shan! You held my hand twenty years ago, you told me your name is He Shu Shan, and you will live with me from now on. But now, you are the first to shake off my hand hand, you don't..."
"It was you who abandoned me first!"