Although it was early summer, the rainy days made the rooftops a bit cooler at night.
Xu Yueyue stretched out a foot tentatively, poked her head and glanced at the distant ground, but after just one glance, her heart and liver began to plop.
She clung to the railing subconsciously with both hands, but still couldn't make up the mortal determination-this was the seventh floor, and she would be really dead if she jumped down!
The sky was dim, the school was already empty, and the teaching building was also empty. When Xu Yueyue came up, no one had been seen.
The lock on the top floor of the school was useless, and it was opened with a slight pry with a hairpin. There was nothing blocking Xu Yuelue along the way, and Xu Yuelue realized that it was so simple to leave a world.
Half an hour has passed since Xu Yueyue went to the rooftop. Xu Yueyue has been struggling with his thoughts holding the railings, jumping or not
In the distance, Ning Jinyu stood under the tree and looked up at Xu Yuet, who was doing a strange posture on the top of the building, without knowing why. He looked at the girl from a distance, and felt that the thin figure on the rooftop was a bit familiar.
While observing the terrain, Xu Yueyue also found Ning Jinyu standing downstairs. Out of the mentality of protecting the healthy growth of the teenager, Xu Yueyue beckoned to Ning Jinyu downstairs: "Go home! To commit suicide, don't scare you!"
Ning Jinyu laughed dumbfounded when she heard what Xu Yueyue said. She would think of others like this even if she was suicide. And... Ning Jinyu raised her head to look at Xu Yue's cautious movements. It didn't look like she was determined to die.
"You stand there and don't move!" Ning Jinyu shouted loudly at the top, and walked into the teaching building after speaking.
I haven't heard the words clearly yet, when Xu Yueyue looked down, there was no young figure under the tree. Xu Yueyue slander, what kind of person! The classmates in the school committed suicide, so they didn't even say to persuade them, and they ran quite fast!
Xu Yueyue took a deep breath, and made up his mind to prepare to jump down in a hurry. After breathing in, he was determined to be exhaled together when he exhaled that breath. Xu Yueyue was paralyzed on the rooftop, still not forgetting to continue the struggle in his head.
"Boom!"
Xu Yueyue was taken aback by the sound of opening the door, and quickly retracted the foot that had just been stretched out, just holding on to the railing, and looking at the entrance of the rooftop with vigilance.
Ning Jinyu stood where she was panting and pointed at Xu Yuet. She wanted to say something but then put down her hand and bent over and started panting.
Xu Yueyue looked at this person who came up suddenly and was too shocked to speak. Now people really came to persuade himself, how can this be good!
After a while, Ning Jinyu straightened up, took a sigh of relief, and walked slowly in front of Xu Yuet.
While Xu Yueyue looked at Ning Jinyu, Ning Jinyu also gave Xu Yueyue a full eye. It was indeed the girl on the podium last year.
Last year, this girl won the first place in the composition competition in the first year of high school. Ning Jinyu glanced from a distance in the broadcasting room when she came on stage to receive the award.
Although he was only looking at each other from a distance, the bright smile on the girl's face made him unable to move his eyes. The bright sun that day was beaten by her.
The girl was wearing a school uniform, her delicate and fair complexion in the sun made her glow, and her long hair was tied into a ponytail, revealing her smooth forehead. Under the slender eyelashes, a pair of clear and translucent eyes, with a strange light shining in the bottom of the eyes. The nose is very cute, and the lips are full and rosy.
The appearance of the girl on the podium was not thrilling, but the well-behaved and delicate appearance was branded in Ning Jinyu's heart.
I didn't expect to see you again this time.
The girl's face lost the bright smile and brilliance that day, replaced by decadence and blankness.
Xu Yueyue looked at Ning Jinyu's upright but unsmiling face, and she couldn't help feeling horrified, and she didn't know why this person wanted to come up. She squeezed her hands on the railing tighter, stammering and asked the person who walked in front of her: "You, you, you, what are you going to do?"
"I'm determined to die, you, you don't have to persuade me! You go quickly, the people who jumped to death are terrible, and I don't want to leave an indelible shadow on your youthful growth path." Xu Yueyue took care of herself After saying this long paragraph, Ning Jinyu's face in front of him remained unchanged.
"Have you written a suicide note?"
Huh
Xu Yueyue stared at the young man in astonishment, and after thinking about it, he hadn't written a suicide note yet. Xu Yueyue shook her head dullly, and said to herself: "That is, how can I forget such an important thing as writing a suicide note! I'm so impulsive!"
"You come down first and write a suicide note." The young man reached out to Xu Yuet, "I'll deliver it to your home after I finish writing, so you can leave with peace of mind."
Xu Yueyue stared at the young man's hand in a daze, thinking of the young man's words, for a good reason, Xu Yueyue reached out and took the young man's hand and jumped from the roof.
The boy took out a pen and paper from his schoolbag and handed it to Xu Yuetue. Xu Yuetue took the paper and pen. The two of them sat cross-legged on the ground facing each other.
As soon as Xu Yueyue wrote a line, the boy corrected it: "Dear parents? How alienated are you? At the very least, you should write dear parents."
Xu Yueyue raised her head and stared at the young man, but the young man stared at her indifferently. Xu Yueyue crossed out that line and wrote "Dear Mom and Dad".
Writing further down, Xu Yueyue held back for a long time and didn't write it. Xu Yueyue scratched her head. She usually writes essays very smoothly, but at this time, she is stuck in writing a suicide note.
Xu Yueyue just gave up and threw the pen and paper aside, "I can't write!"
"That's not okay, your parents don't know why you left when you are gone. It's not good for the elderly to lose the child without knowing it!" In his hand, he continued: "What about suicide, it's best to do it in one step!"
Xu Yueyue helped the emperor, my parents are not old enough, OK? Also, suicide needs to be done in one step or something, this kind of shit theory can also be pulled out, as if you have experience!
"You can write, you can write!" Xu Yuelu was a little annoyed, she squeezed the pen and paper into the young man's hand, and the young man stuffed it back again: "I said, you write."
"To the parents who are about to lose their children, you have worked hard to raise me up, send me to school for education, give me care and love..." Xu Yueyue's hand shook slightly, and the boy looked in his eyes and continued. : "I am about to leave with deep despair for this world and guilt for you because of some last resort but must die."
"You have lost a daughter who has been raised for many years, but I have been relieved, because in this world I have no people and things to miss anymore." Xu Yueyue couldn't help his nose sour, took a hard breath, and continued to quickly write.
Ning Jinyu stared at Xu Yueyue with red eyes, thinking about what could be done like that.
"I will not see the light, the fragrance of the birds and flowers in this world, the ebb and flow of the tide, and the warmth from this world. I cannot spend the next half of my life with you, and I cannot look at you. Being aging by my side, I can’t... ”
The boy's tone was dull, but they all pierced Xu Yue's heart. Xu Yueyue dropped the pen and paper, and finally couldn't help crying loudly.
Ning Jinyu looked at Xu Yueyue, who was in tears, calmly said: "What happens is not worth making you embarrass yourself."
He gently stroked Xu Yuet's back for her comfort, and Xu Yueyue unscrupulously cried out all grievances and dissatisfaction under the comfort of the teenager.
"With her, all my self-esteem has been worn away, without a bit of ego, so stupid to show my sincerity and be trampled by her all the time."
"Always go shopping with others and call me to send money, and laugh at me as a cash machine that doesn't need to be returned."
"I am not allowed to be friends with others. I can't say a few more words, but I can play with anyone and leave me anytime, anywhere."
"I told her of my plan. She would just keep hitting me and let me give up, never encouraging me or agreeing with me."
"The daily task of every day is to belittle me and laugh at me, and she is happy when she sees me inferior."
Xu Yueyue choked and accused Dai Qiu, "She was so excessive to me, but I still couldn't see clearly, so I continued to accompany her, thinking she was just joking."
"So I endured it silently, but I couldn't really ignore it. I wondered if I didn't really do well enough, so she didn't want to really praise me. She is the friend I care about the most, and I don't want to lose her."
"But I really didn't expect that I was like a fool. I was sold and happily put myself in a sack to replace the money. I know to this day that the person I have been guarding for so many years has been playing me in the palm of my hand. between."
The young man gently caressed Xu Yue's back for her comfort. Under the young man's comfort, Xu Yue cried all grievances and dissatisfaction unscrupulously.
"It's too unfair, it's too unfair." Xu Yueyue sobbed, "Why did the six-year relationship be broken in one blow? I thought that when I gave my heart, others would return it with my heart. Why did I end up like this in the end?"
Is it true that Dai Curula is right, doesn't he deserve to own it
Ning Jinyu patiently listened to Xu Yuet’s words, and he was deeply moved by Xu Yuet’s innocence. “Some people are not confident enough of themselves, and they will ridicule the people around them and build a sense of self-consciousness on the surface. Feeling. It seems to your friends that this is the kind of person."
"She attacked you and prevented you from having other friends, in fact, she was afraid that you would leave her, because she knew that she was really only your friend."
The boy gently wiped away the tears from Xu Yuet’s face, “As for not paying the money back, it’s a matter of character.”
Seeing Xu Yuelu hesitating, Ning Jinyu went on to say, "There are still many beautiful people and things waiting for you to meet in this world, why can't you think about it?"
Yes, is there any last resort to separate me from my parents and isolate me from this beautiful world. I am too weak, but I am not strong.
The afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled on the two of them, forming a golden rim. The cool evening breeze blew across the rooftops, but she felt warm on Xu Yue’s face. The boy took out a tissue from his schoolbag and handed it to Xu Yue.
"I can't bear it, I can't bear my relatives, I can't bear this world." Xu Yueyue choked and said, the teenager gently wiped away the tears left on her face, "I can't bear to be in this world by myself anymore. Stop."
Ning Jinyu looked at the tearful Xu Yueyue crying in front of him, but her mind was blank, and she couldn't find any words to comfort her.
Xu Yueyue cried and twitched, stretched out her hand around Ning Jinyu, and whispered: "Give me a hug." Ning Jinyu did not resist, let Xu Yueyue hug herself and lay on her body. Sobbing.
After a long time, night fell, and the lights of nearby tall buildings had begun to flicker brightly and dimly.
Seeing that her mood had calmed down, Ning Jinyu kindly persuaded her, "You don't have to regret this kind of friend lost, you should be fortunate."
"How could it be possible to forget and forget." Xu Yueyue choked.
Ning Jinyu took out a pen and paper from her schoolbag and handed it to Xu June, "Write down the people and things you want to forget on paper, then fold it into a paper airplane and let it fly. It won't take long before you will really forget it."
Xu Yueyue dubiously wrote Dai Curly's name on the paper. She looked at the three words, still cruel.
Seeing her hesitation, Ning Jinyu said bluntly: "Don't have the idea of reconciliation. The farther away this kind of person is from her, the better."
Perhaps, Dai Curula can only accompany himself to this place. Maybe, it's time to change yourself.
Xu Yueyue made up her mind. She folded the white paper with Dai's name on it into a paper plane and let it go. The paper plane waved away in the evening wind. Xu Yueyue looked for the shadow of the paper plane in a daze.
Ning Jinyu packed her schoolbags and said to Xu June: "The world is so big, there will always be people who like your timidity and love your low self-esteem."
"Don't deny yourself blindly. Everyone is unique and has his own shiny side and dark side."
"She doesn't cherish you, it doesn't mean that you are not cherished."
"Of the 7.2 billion people in this world, each one will be a treasure cherished by another person."
Looking at Xu Yueyue, who was crying in front of him, Ning Jinyu said softly: "No matter how indifferent or cruel the world is, don't lose the ability to love and be loved."
"Furthermore." The boy raised his mouth at her, "You will definitely encounter something more worthwhile."
Xu Yueyue turned around, knowing that she would always remember this night and the beautiful yearning for this young man.
Xu Yueyue folded his suicide note into a paper airplane, and the paper airplane drifted away in the evening breeze. Xu Yueyue stared at the paper airplane going away. Ning Jinyu packed up her schoolbags and stood still and said to Xu Yueyue: "There are many unfairness in this world. Not everyone can take care of everything, but the world It’s still young, give it time to grow."
"People are growing, and the world is the same. I firmly believe that every ups and downs in the process of growing up will be fed back into goodness and come to people, so don't easily give up the vitality that the world gave you when you were born."
Young and young laughed, "Don't always be so pessimistic. Today I met a person in the office of the Political and Religious Affairs Office. The old man in the Political and Religious Affairs Office scolded him for two hours without repeating a sentence. He did not choose to commit suicide..."
Before the words were over, a person rushed to the top floor, and when he saw Xu Yue and the two people, he was stunned. Obviously he didn't expect someone to be on the top floor at this late hour.
The man scanned the two of them, his face suddenly changed when he saw Ning Jinyu, and rushed to the roof to grab the railing and prepare to turn outwards. Ning Jinyu rushed up and hugged the man’s waist when he saw Ning Jinyu, the man struggled hard. With great energy, Ning Jinyu almost knocked to the ground.
Xu Yueyue hurried forward, slashed with a hand knife, and slashed on the man's arm holding the railing. The man loosened his hands in pain, Ning Jinyu took the opportunity to pull the man off, holding him down to prevent him from getting up again.
Two red marks appeared on the man's arm, and he raised his head and stared at Xu Yuelu, "What did you grow up with? What a great energy!"
"Mixed grains!" Xu Yueyue curled his lips, looked down at the boy who was grinning with pain, and said: "If you really jump down, it hurts more than this."
"Don't worry about me, I'm fed up with this shit school shit teacher! They are just..." The boy lost his strength and sat on the ground in dissatisfaction and said, and he shed tears as he spoke.
Ning Jinyu loosened the hand that was holding the boy, and attached it to Xu Yuet's ear and whispered softly, "This is the person I met in the office just now."
Xu Yueyue suddenly realized that, squatting down next to him, rubbing his arm for the boy to enlighten him.
The boy was stunned by Xu Yue’s three-inch tongue. Xu Yue said it to him and to himself, but the more he said it, the more sour his heart became. In the end, both of them stayed behind. Tears.
When the two of them were about to leave, Xu Yueyue discovered that the previous boy had already left quietly for a long time. Xu Yueyue was obviously smiling but a little helpless. She accepted the previous boy's proposal to send herself home.
Looking up at the stars in the sky, every night is the same, but today's stars are extraordinarily dazzling.
Xu Yueyue never met the boy again until the summer vacation a month later.
Xu Yueyue sometimes stays in a daze for a long time, and his head is full of mystery and various fantasies about the boy.
She didn't know whether he let herself meet this world, or the world let him meet herself.
City A is so big, where can I find that short-lived boy
Xu Yueyue always remembered the meeting on the rooftop that day in the long dark night, and then the boy stretched out his hand to her, the touch of being held by the boy’s cool hand Xu Yueyue can laugh just by feeling it in a dream After waking up with a smile, he began to fall into another strange fantasy about the boy.
It’s as simple as a girl’s liking, maybe a look, maybe an action, maybe the other party doesn’t have to do anything, just stand there, if you like it then you really like it.
No one is going to give a definition to this kind of love that is loved by an inconspicuous detail, but if this kind of love is not said, it is obviously a crush.
Yes, Xu Yuelu has a crush on that boy, the boy who doesn't even know his name.
Xu Yueyue didn't want this relationship to be just a secret crush. She wanted to tell the boy, and then selfishly wanted the boy's response.
It's just that she doesn't know anything about the teenager. Maybe the teenager was the senior of the last high school and has been scattered to which city in the world following the flood of admissions after the college entrance examination.
after…
Can you still see it
Can you still see it? Even if the destined people are in the South Pole and the other in the North Pole, they will meet at the equator after all.
On Saturday, the supermarket was full of voices. Xu June put down the Nestle ice cream in his hand and looked straight into the distance. In front of the freezer not far away, the teenager and a girl were talking cheerfully and laughing.
The girl raised her head and said something to him. After speaking, both of them laughed. The young man rubbed the girl's head in an affectionate manner. The girl pretended to be angry and put down the milk and left.
Xu Yueyue quickly turned around and met her sister's probing eyes, "What's wrong with you, sister?"
Saying nothing, Xu Yuet picked up a cup of ice cream and put it in the shopping basket, pulling his sister away quickly. Xu Jiuyue looked at the strawberry-flavored ice cream in the shopping basket helplessly.
Still saying nothing? Xu Yueluo, who never eats strawberry-flavored food, took strawberry-flavored ice cream. Forget it, when she comes home, she doesn't eat it just because I eat it!
Of course Xu Yuelu didn't know what little abacus was in her sister's head, she just wanted to leave here quickly, but she didn't know how embarrassed she was to escape.
Less than a while after Xu Yueyue left, Ning Jinyu walked to the freezer, raised her head and looked around. Why did she disappear in the blink of an eye when she saw the one here
"Jinyu?" The girl walked to Ning Jinyu and looked down at the freezer. "Do you want ice cream?"
When sad, people think of all the sad things in the past, and the more they think about it, the sadder. Just like when you did one thing wrong, your parents are very angry, and then you will remember many wrong things you have done in the past, and the more you think about it, the more angry you become.
Xu Yueyue's sadness is not that the boy has a reputation as a master, but that the girl next to the boy is too good.
Xu Yueyue hid in the bed and sobbed softly, she thought of Dai Curly. That good friend who played with him for six years also left him because of a girl who was better than him.
It is easy for a sad person to associate two unrelated things. Xu Yuelu was crying asleep, and the next day his eyes were swollen to the point where his mother was startled.
"June, you watched a Korean drama with your sister again last night!"
There was no reply in June. After washing up, she went straight to the barbershop, "cut short."
The two short words cut off the memory of these six years.
At the moment when the scissors were cut, Xu Yueyue almost cried.
The long hair, which had been left for six years, turned into blue silk on the ground with a few "clicks". Xu Yueyue's hair quality is very good, so Xu Yueyue sold a good price for the past six years.
Walking out of the door of the barber shop, Xu Yueyue made a call to the house, and the person who answered it was Xu Jiuyue. Xu Yueyue suppressed her crying, sniffed, and said to the other end of the phone: "Come out, I invite you to dinner!"
Xu June spent the next half of summer vacation in sorrow. Every day I think of some sad things. Xu Jiuyue complains to her friends: "My sister is a wet towel now, and a lot of water can come out with a single twist!"
This summer is sultry and it has never rained.
Xu June is looking forward to the start of school for the first time during the holidays. She hopes that the busy and busy life of the sophomore year after school will drive away all the sad thoughts in her mind.