There was a time when youth passed by

Chapter 19: Each is at the end of the world (1)

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In the second semester of high school, Xu Yuelu devoted himself to learning.

She and Ning Jinyu have lost the old acquaintance. There is a problem in her heart. When facing Ning Jinyu, she is always cautious, for fear that Ning Jinyu will be disappointed again.

Ning Jinyu also noticed the changes in Xu Yuet's treatment of himself. He wanted to reach out and save Xu Yuet, but he didn't know where to explain it to her.

Ning Jinyu was embarrassed to tell Xu Yuelue that she was jealous, and she was afraid that Xu Yuelue would feel too naive and unreasonable to make trouble.

If you care too much, you will make mistakes.

Care about each other too much, every step is careful, but it is not necessarily a good thing.

Every Saturday and Sunday, Xu Yuelu still makes up lessons with Ning Jinyu and Song Yaran.

Ning Jinyu treats her as usual, but Xu Yueyue no longer plays with him.

More often, Xu June is immersed in questions, and the exchanges between the two are all about learning.

Ning Jinyu still takes time out every week to organize the knowledge points of various subjects for Xu June, and he insists on this habit no matter how busy he is.

Xu Yuet's unnatural behavior and obvious resistance when facing him made him feel a little hurt. He didn't say anything, pretended to be indifferent, but cared very much in his heart.

The wound on Ning Jinyu's middle finger had long since healed, leaving a pale pink scar.

Every time he explained to her with Xu Yuet's book, Xu Yuet's eyes never left the scar, and his thoughts drifted to that day.

"In June, mom will discuss something with you."

"Mom, you said, I'm listening." Xu Yueyue was packing his schoolbags and preparing to go to the remedial class.

"Don't clean up, you come out and I have very important things to say with your dad."

Hearing her mother's words, Xu Yueyue's hand movement stopped, and she raised her eyes to see her mother's serious expression. Xu Yueyue muttered suspiciously, "What's so mysterious?"

Although Xu Yueyue was puzzled, she still walked behind her mother and sat down on the sofa in the living room.

"June." Xu Yueyue's father said first, "The college entrance examination is about to come, how are you preparing?"

"Very good." Xu Yueyue looked at her parents' decent appearance, a little uncomfortable, and looked at her parents in wonder.

"Parents, if you have something to say, don't sell it." Xu Yue urged, she looked at her watch, for fear that she would be late.

"We want to send you abroad." June's mother rushed in front of her father and finished speaking in one breath.

The impact of this sentence was not small. Xu Yuelue stared at them with wide eyes. After digesting these seven words in his brain, Xu Yuelue asked in disbelief: "I'm only sophomore in high school now, parents, Your back path is too early for me, right?"

Xu June's reaction was within their expectations, and June's mother explained: "If you decide to go abroad, you should start preparing now."

The words of her parents made Xu Yueyue fall into contemplation. When she regressed for the first time in high school, her parents mentioned the future of going abroad to her, and she never took it seriously.

At that time, Xu Yueyue didn’t consider going abroad because he didn’t want to be separated from Dai Ciao, but now...

Xu Yueyue looked up at his watch. It was eight o'clock and Ning Jinyu and Song Yaran had already started classes in the remedial class.

"I don't want to go abroad."

Xu Yueyue bluntly said, looking at her parents, her expression was unprecedentedly serious, "I still have a year to go, I think I can still fight."

"June, listen to your mother telling you..." June's mother was going to persuade her to go and be stopped by June's father behind her.

"She can't listen, you just let her go first." Dad Yueyue stopped her mother Yueyue who was going to chase her bedroom, and persuaded her.

June's mother shook off his hand and complained: "You don't care about the child, I want to take care of it!"

"June, you think about it..." Yueyue's mother tried to use words to change Xu Yueyue's mind, persevering.

June's mother's words were interrupted by Xu June's again, "I'm late, the remedial class has already started, and I'm leaving now."

Xu Yueyue returned to the house, packed all the books and sundries on the table into his schoolbag, ignored the call of his mother behind him, and went out with the schoolbag on his back.

When he arrived at the remedial class, Xu Yueyue catted her waist and quietly walked around from behind to sit down next to Song Yaran.

Song Yaran, who was doing the question, was taken aback by her. She turned her face to see that she was coming. Song Yaran raised her hand and patted her, and said, "Why did you come? The lesson is over."

"I didn't go to bed until three o'clock last night, and something happened at home in the morning." Xu Yueyue explained as he took out a book from his bag, and was about to start studying.

Hearing Xu Yue's words, Song Yaran looked at her worriedly, "You have been staying up late to study lately, and the dark circles under your eyes are getting worse."

Xu Yueyue smiled indifferently, "As long as you don't die, you will learn from the dead."

Ning Jinyu was aside, slightly raised her head and looked towards Xu Yuet. Seeing that she was indeed not very energetic, she couldn't help feeling a little distressed.

After the cram school ended, most of the other students in the class left. The three of them did not leave as usual and continued to study hard.

Ning Jinyu patiently gave Xu Yueyue a topic, Song Yaran sat aside bored and picked up Xu Yueyue's mobile phone to play games.

Song Yaran was playing with Xu June’s cell phone, Yuan Yiyang’s phone number came in, she stared at Yuan Yiyang’s name for two seconds, and when she reacted, she hurriedly handed it to Xu June: “June June , Yuan Yiyang will call you!"

Xu Yueyue thought Song Yaran was playing tricks on her, so he took the phone suspiciously and looked intently to see that it was indeed Yuan Yiyang's call.

She looked up in a panic, wanting to ask Song Yaran if she should answer the call, and as soon as she looked up, she ran into Ning Jinyu's line of sight.

Xu Yueyue felt the chill in Ning Jinyu's eyes, and she couldn't help but tremble, and then moved her gaze to Ning Jinyu's injured finger. She swallowed and became even more at a loss.

She weakly stretched out her finger and slid the call button on the screen of the phone, and then put the phone to her ear. She watched Ning Jinyu from the corner of the eye again and again, while tentatively speaking at the other end of the phone: "Hello?"

Xu Yueyue listened carefully to the movement on the other end of the phone, and the moment she was connected, she filled up all the possibilities.

The person on the other end of the phone heard Xu June's voice and was silent for a long time.

Seeing no one was speaking, Xu Yuelu felt even more disturbed, and she "heed" again, and the phone was still silent as death.

Xu Yueyue pointed to the phone, waved his hand to Song Yaran, and said silently with his lips: "He doesn't speak."

Song Yaran pressed her hand to signal her to be safe, and she also leaned forward to Xu Yue, with her ear close to the phone, listening attentively.

After a long period of time, Xu Yueyue was restless, and the other party said coldly: "You made a wrong number."

Immediately, the phone was hung up.

Xu Yuelu froze there, looked at the screen of the phone, and after confirming that the other party had hung up, she looked up at Song Yaran and said helplessly: "He said he called the wrong number."

Song Yaran looked back at Ning Jinyu for a while. After confirming that everything was normal in his emotions, she turned her face to cover Xu Yue's ears, and quickly said to her: "It's definitely not as simple as making the wrong call!"

After speaking, Song Yaran immediately pretended that nothing had happened before turning around and continuing to work on the question if nothing had happened.

Xu Yueyue didn't understand Song Yaran's words, and stared down at the phone thoughtfully.

Seeing that Xu Yueyue was still immersed in the phone, Song Yaran was afraid that Ning Jinyu would care, so she quietly stabbed Xu Yueyue with a pen. Seeing Xu Yueyue's recovery, she quickly winked at Xu Yueyue and pointed. Pointing to Ning Jinyu's direction, whispered: "Hurry up and learn."

Xu Yuelu instantly understood Song Yaran's meaning, and hurriedly stuffed the phone into his pocket, picked up the pen and started to study.

She pretended to study for a long time, turned her head slightly, and peered at Ning Jinyu.

The appearance of Ning Jinyu's serious study made Xu Yue feel inferior. She has worked so hard, but still can't catch up with Ning Jinyu's footsteps.

Xu Yueyue ran thousands of miles for the most dazzling star in the sky, but still just looking up.

She worked several times harder than before, but the feeling of powerlessness never left her.

Even though Ning Jinyu has repeatedly stated that she can do it, Xu Yue's doubts about herself have not completely disappeared. She even panicked in her heart. She was afraid that she would never catch up with Ning Jinyu.

I am even more afraid that this person who has always been so good to himself will be disappointed in himself and will leave her one day and belong to others.

After school, there are no more people in the school, and most of the teachers have left. The campus is extremely quiet. Ning Jinyu took the key given to him by the English teacher and walked towards the English teacher's office. He was going to deliver some rolls of paper.

Ning Jinyu met Wen Lai in the corridor of the office building, looked at Wen Lai's calm face, and remembered his prejudice against him if nothing happened. Ning Jinyu had a scrupulous heart.

He pretended to always collide with Wen Lai, and the two of them couldn't walk the narrow aisle.

Wen Lai narrowed his eyes and looked at Ning Jinyu with a provocative smirk: "What's the matter, Ning, what's the matter?"

"Teacher Wen, I didn't mean it. I still have an urgent matter. Can't you let me?" Ning Jinyu felt a kind of joy of prank success, pretending to be polite and preemptive.

"Oh, classmate Ning, don't bother! It's just that classmate Ning and I are so tacitly in touch, always bumping into each other!" Wen Lai smiled generously, mocking his lips, but stepped aside.

Seeing Ruoruowu's ridicule in Wen Lai's eyes, and remembering the photo at home, Ning Jinyu decided to speak out.

"Really? It's probably because the teacher and I are a family!"

Wen Laigang's eyes sank with a smile, looking at Ning Jinyu, the hatred in his eyes could hardly be hidden.

Ning Jinyu couldn't help but froze, opened his mouth, but didn't know what to say. Is he really related to himself

Seeing Ning Jinyu's frightened appearance, Wen Lai sneered: "So, does Ning already know the fact that we are brothers? Who told you that your ruthless grandfather? Or your hypocritical father?"

"Don't slander my family!" Although he was shocked by the fact that Wen said, he still couldn't believe that his father and grandfather, whom he respected, were the kind of people in his mouth!

"Oh, family! I have family too, but I don't have the surname Ning!" Wen Lai pushed away Ning Jinyu, who was still shocked, and left without looking back.

Ning Jinyu stood there for a long time, and finally gave a light sigh, and continued to move forward to the English teacher's office.

Xu Yuelu, who was hiding at the corner of the stairs, was still unable to digest the content of the conversation he had just heard. She quietly walked downstairs, left the school, went to the school gate and called Song Yaran.

The two made an appointment at the milk tea shop.

"That's it." Xu Yueyue told Song Yaran what he had heard today.

Song Yaran was obviously shocked, she thought Ning Jinyu didn't know anything. She also had doubts about the identity of a Chinese teacher, but she was so young when she was so old, and her memory was prone to flaws, so she was not sure that Wen Lai was the person she had seen back then.

Later, she talked to her parents. Their parents looked at each other and talked about him. However, under Song Yaran's entanglement, her parents finally told her what happened that year.

Song Yaran glanced at Xu Yuet and slowly said, "Oh, the Chinese teacher is actually Ning Jinyu's half-brother."

Xu Yueyue's eyes widened. It turns out that she always feels that it is not an illusion that the two of them look alike...

"At that time, Jinyu's father married Jinyu's mother a year after graduating from university. After the marriage, the two had never given birth during their careers. They did not give birth to Ning Jinyu until the eighth year. His parents loved Jinyu very much. Life is also very happy. But on Ning Jinyu’s first birthday, a woman came to Ning’s house with a nine-year-old child and said it was Ning’s father’s child."

"It turns out that the woman was the first girlfriend of Jinyu's father when she was in college. At the time of the reform and opening up, young people were keen to love freely, and the two stayed together without telling the family. Later, she faced separation after graduation because the woman came from a small city and family. She is a single woman again, and she doesn't want her to marry a foreign country. The arrogant Father Ning is also unwilling to abandon a good opportunity in the big city for a woman to go back to her hometown with her. The two broke up peacefully!"

"Unexpectedly, after a month of breaking up, the woman found out she was pregnant with Dad Ning’s child, but because they were all highly educated intellectuals back then, the woman was angry that Dad Ning would not give up the prosperity of the big city for her, so she kept secretly. She raised her own children. Later, because of her children, she failed to marry a good man. After marriage, she was very unhappy. After giving birth to a daughter, she discovered that her husband was abusing her son, so she resolutely and her husband Divorced and brought his son and daughter to Ning's city alone."

"Originally, she had heard that Dad Ning had never had children, so she wanted to send Wen Lai to the Ning family to raise her, and then asked for money to raise her eldest daughter by herself, but she didn’t expect Dad Ning Jinyu to be born in that year. And because Grandpa Jinyu was working in an agency and his career was still on the rise, he suddenly came out of an illegitimate son of this size. There would be style problems, so he refused to take Wen Lai back to raise, and only promised to pay her a monthly alimony. , I left Wen to take a picture of Zhang's family portrait, even if I recognize my ancestor and return to the clan."

"Wen Lai’s mother was angry that the Ning family was so humiliating, and she would no longer accept the monthly money given by the Ning family. She lived with her two children alone. It was very hard. Later, she heard that she was drunk and fell over the bridge on a heavy rain. died."

After finishing speaking, Song Yaran sighed for a long time, "The Chinese teacher hates the people of the Ning family absolutely, but what happened back then has nothing to do with Jinyu, it should be just a deliberate knot that can't be solved!"

Xu Yueyue nodded, convinced, "We should help the two of them open their own knots."

"Go to Ning Jinyu and say, I'll persuade the Chinese teacher!" Xu Yuelu made a fist, cheering herself and Song Yaran.

She always believed that Wen Lai would not harm anyone.

night.

Xu Yueyue went out carrying the fermented rice balls his mother had just made, and went upstairs, knocking on the door of Wen Lai's house.

The two of them were sitting on the carpet in the living room. Xu Yueyue watched Wen Lai slowly eating the fermented rice balls with a bite, and all the steps he had just planned disappeared in an instant.

"Teacher, why are you so good to me?" Xu Yueyue tried to round the corners.

Wen Lai had a meal with the spoon in his hand, "Want to know?"

Xu Yueyue nodded honestly, she leaned forward and sat next to Wen Lai, "Teacher, we have known each other not long ago, should there be any special reasons?"

Wen Lai lowered his head, looked at the small balls at the bottom of the bowl, smiled bitterly, "Well, you look a bit like my dead sister."

Unexpectedly, Xu June, who had this reason, was stunned. He wanted to find a lighter opening topic, but he did not expect that it would lead to a greater sadness.

"Then, you must be very sad about her leaving!" I didn't know what to say about June, so I had to give a voice of comfort in a daze.

"It's not uncomfortable now, after all, so many years have passed." Wen Lai said lightly.

"Then do you still hate them?" Xu Yueyue said with great courage what he thought in his heart: "I mean Ning Jinyu's family. After all, it has been so long. What happened back then, I believe them. There is also an unspeakable concealment in the family. Besides, Jinyu is innocent. Can't you... make peace?"

Speaking of emotions, Xu Yueyue grasped Wen Lai's hand, trying to know him with affection and move with reason.

The bowl of fermented rice balls has bottomed out, and family ethics dramas are still playing on TV. When Wen Lai put the spoon in his hand, the clanging sound made Xu Yuet shake. I am afraid that Wen Lai is sad, after all, he was so pitiful back then, and now she wants him to forgive lightly with a few words, which is too strong.

"Teacher, I'm not here to serve as a lobbyist for Ning Jinyu. I don't want the teacher to give up the resentment for so many years because I like Ning Jinyu. This is too selfish. I'm just, just..."

Seeing Xu Yuelu anxiously unable to speak, her clear eyes were full of guilt and worry. Wen Lai couldn't help but smile, and habitually stretched out her hand and rubbed her hair: "You just can't bear to watch us resent each other. After all, the things back then weren't clear about who was right and who was wrong."

Xu Yueyue looked at Wen Lai's desolate but forceful smile with a sad expression. She took the initiative to hug Wen Lai, "Teacher, if I could meet you sooner, it would be great, I can accompany you."

For the first time, Wen Lai relaxed and leaned on June’s shoulders, and a low voice sounded in Xu Yue’s ears: "For so many years, I only used Ning’s resentment to cover up my anger towards myself. Back then. If I could enlighten my mother, instead of letting her drink alcohol, if I was strong enough to protect my sister, what would happen without the Ning family? Before I knew there was a biological father, we had a good life. Why didn't I stop my mother from sending me to Ning's house, otherwise, otherwise... She is as old as you, gentle, my sister, she is only 16 years old, but there is no tomorrow..."

June felt the faint dampness on his shoulders, caressing Wen Lai's back, realizing that Wen Lai's heart has been unreported for so many years, and the guilt and unwillingness that have been suppressed in his heart finally broke out together this time.

The knots that can be spoken will be half solved.

On the other side, Ning Jinyu, who learned the whole story from Song Yaran, did not speak for a long time. He suddenly understood that Wen Lai’s prejudice against him is not unreasonable. After all, he is also his father’s son. When he enjoys a complete family and father’s love, what Wen Lai faces is the indifference of his mother and the indifference of his own family. In the end, Wen Lai had nothing, but he had so many.

Time passed quickly like a white horse.

In a blink of an eye, Xu Yueyue has already started her senior year in high school.

The senior year life is busy and stressful, everyone is speeding up and moving forward.

Originally, the three of them always went to make up classes together, but recently Xu Yue and Song Yaran were the only ones left.

Ning Jinyu participated in the election of outstanding students at the provincial level, and was busy preparing the application materials every day.

Ning Jinyu, who had learned the truth of the matter before, thought about making Wen Lai reconcile with her father and become a real brother with herself, but Wen Lai only smiled slightly and told him that it was unnecessary.

Ning Jinyu was initially a little lost, but he heard this sentence from Wen Laina:

"I'm satisfied to know that you are a good brother, but I hope you won't fail to enter my university in the future, let me laugh at you, this brother is not as good as me!"

Ning Jinyu is angry! Well, he shouldn’t be passionate and worry about Wen Lai’s injury, trying to make up for the warmth of his family. He actually likes to beat himself just because of his hobby, right? It's not a high-sounding resentment!

Ning Jinyu, who turned the blow into motivation, once again devoted himself to the intense preparation for the college entrance examination.

The results of the election for outstanding students have not yet come out. Ning Jinyu has participated in a national math competition again. Xu Yueyue, a scumbag, doesn't understand, but I heard others say that if you get a good place in the competition, you will get extra points in the college entrance examination.

Ning Jinyu and Xu Yueyue spend less and less time together, but the tutoring tasks assigned to Xu Yueyue are getting heavier and heavier.

After entering the senior year of high school, the learning atmosphere in the class is getting stronger and stronger, and everyone is working hard for the future.

With the failure of several exams, Xu June has become more and more unable to study.

In the past, Ning Jinyu would give her make-up lessons regularly, but now Ning Jinyu herself is too busy to take care of herself, let alone take care of Xu Yue.

Xu Yule also participated in the math competition. She and Ning Jinyu entered and exited together every day. The two of them stayed together longer and longer, and Xu June's heart became less and less uneasy.

Although Xu Yueyue repeatedly told herself not to think too much in her heart, when she saw the two discussing the competition and smiled at each other tacitly, her heart still couldn't help but aching.