Song Yaran was busy preparing for the art exam every day, and Xu Yueyue didn't want to disturb her with this bone-strapped eye.
Facing Wen Lai, Xu Yueyue wanted to talk several times, but finally swallowed the words. She was embarrassed to tell Wen Lai about these sour young girls.
Yuan Yiyang has been in the cold war with Xu Yueyue for a whole year, and it is even more impossible for Xu Yueyue to seek him out.
Without an object to confide in, Xu June's thoughts can only slowly rot in the bottom of her heart.
In the past, on the road of the future, although the road was full of thorns and twists and turns, as long as there was a faint light ahead, Xu Yueyue went forward recklessly.
But now, the light in front of him is getting dim, Xu Yueyue mustered up the courage to move forward in the dark, and there was not even a person to accompany her. Only then did she taste the horror of being swallowed by the darkness.
The negative energy in Xu Yuet's heart is getting more and more. She feeds herself chicken soup every day, but she still can't change her increasingly decadent state.
Ning Jinyu was selected as an outstanding student at the provincial level. At the Monday meeting, the school leaders arranged for him to speak on stage.
Xu Yueyue and all the students stood under the stage, looking up at the dazzling young boy on the stage.
Xu Yueyue's eyes were fixed on the young boy who was smiling like a spring breeze on the stage. The light on the boy's body was the reason Xu Yueyue liked him at the beginning, but now Xu Yueyue feels that the light is particularly dazzling.
"Ning Jinyu is so perfect! Good study, handsome, rich family, good character!"
"That's it, it's simply a collection of all the advantages in one."
"Such an excellent person is not worthy of ordinary people like us."
The female classmates around were excitedly discussing him. Xu Yueyue heard his excellence from them, and she lowered her head and smiled bitterly.
She had also stood on the podium. At that time, she didn't know that one day she would become self-pitying. She raised her eyes to the young man on the stage and listened to his energetic speech. Her thoughts drifted to the scene when she first met on the rooftop.
When I met him at that time, Xu Yueyue was as sweet as a mouthful of honey, but now, Xu Yueyue's mouth is like a bitter Chinese medicine, and the bitterness spreads from his mouth to his heart.
If it weren't for Ning Jinyu, she might choose one of the three colleges with insurance, or follow her parents' arrangements to study abroad.
"What happened to Ning Jinyu?"
"It seems that I'm not feeling well."
The dialogue between the girls next to him made Xu Yuet's mind regained, and she carefully observed Ning Jinyu on the stage.
Ning Jinyu finished reading the speech and stepped aside to listen to the school leader's speech. His forehead was covered with fine beads of sweat, his face was pale, and his thin lips were tightly pressed together.
Xu Yueyue looked at him worriedly, seeing that Ning Jinyu looked like she was holding back something in pain, and her figure was a little shaky.
"Okay, now I'm asking Principal Sun to present awards to Ning Jinyu." Ning Jinyu took two steps forward when he heard the words, but walked staggeringly.
The classmates beside him realized that there was something wrong with him and wanted to step forward to support him, but before he could reach out his hand, Ning Jinyu fell heavily to the ground.
The students standing in the audience were in an uproar when they saw this scene.
The school leaders hurriedly called out a few male classmates and sent Ning Jinyu to the school infirmary.
Xu Yueyue saw Ning Jinyu fall to the ground with his own eyes. When Ning Jinyu walked forward to accept the award, his eyes never left him.
The shards of sunlight passed through the gaps between the dense leaves, illuminating a bright light on the wooden floor and warm white walls.
The girl who had been wandering in the corridor for a long time stopped at the door of the school infirmary, stretched out her hand and knocked gently on the thin door, but she didn't get a response for a long time.
After thinking about it, she plucked up the courage to unscrew the handle and pushed in.
The boy was lying flat on the bed in the school infirmary, his face was slightly pale, and his thin lips were tightly closed.
Xu Yueyue carefully pulled out a chair and sat beside the hospital bed quietly watching Ning Jinyu.
When she saw Ning Jinyu fainted on the award platform and sent to the infirmary, her heart was picked up, but she could only go back to the class according to school regulations and continue the class. She sat on pins and needles throughout the class , Uneasy, worried about Ning Jinyu who was still in the school infirmary, she hurried here after class.
At this time, Ning Jinyu was lying quietly on the hospital bed, but her deep eyes closed tightly at this time.
In Xu Yueyue’s memory, Ning Jinyu rarely gets sick, but this time she suddenly fainted at the awards ceremony. Hearing from the classmates who participated in the competition, Ning Jinyu was the most desperate among everyone. He only took four to five breaks a day. Hours, the rest of the time is working hard for the game.
Xu Yueyue's heart was full of uncontrollable distress. She didn't know what she could share for Ning Jinyu. It was only at this moment that she realized that Ning Jinyu had never mentioned her affairs or worries to her.
Ning Jinyu's hard work brought out her weakness even more.
Xu Yueyue sighed, but the frustration in his heart couldn't go away. Ning Jinyu's ambition to win the college entrance examination was in stark contrast to his successive frustrations.
The better Ning Jinyu is, the more shining the halo above his head, the more powerful Xu Yuelue's denial of herself will be.
Xu Yueyue stood up, walked quietly to the bed and sat down, gently stroking Ning Jinyu's face with her hand, her clear eyes were filled with the youth's face, "Ning Jinyu?"
The person on the hospital bed did not respond, and Xu Yueyue called again, but the boy on the hospital bed seemed to be immersed in his sleep, unable to hear outside sounds.
Xu Yueyue leaned down and stared carefully at the face that made her fall for it. She whispered: "If I didn't meet you in the first place, what would I look like now?"
Seeing that the teenager on the hospital bed hadn't responded for a long time, she slowly lowered her eyelids, lowered her head, reached out to hold Ning Jinyu's right hand, and slowly poured out all the words in her heart.
"I'm so tired, I find that no matter how hard I try, I can't catch up with you."
Hearing Xu Yueyue's mumbling, the young man lying behind her clutched the bed sheet tightly with his left hand.
"You are already so good, but you are still on the way to become better, and I worked hard and still stayed where I was."
Xu Yueyue raised his head and looked at Ning Jinyu on the hospital bed. He was still lying so quietly. Suddenly Xu Yueyue felt that all this was like a dream, or it was his own imagination.
Will she be awakened suddenly later, she recovered, she was still in the freshman class, and she had never met the person in front of her. Everything over the past year is just a long dream of her in class.
But when she looked at Ning Jinyu, the throbbing in Xu Yuelu's heart was indeed a real feeling.
If everything was really a dream, how good it would be, that after waking up, he had never met this perfect boy, and he would not fall in love with him, nor would he be as tired as he is now.
A faint sadness filled the air, little by little, gathered in Xu Yue's heart. A faint melancholy in his eye sockets gradually came up, and finally blurred his vision.
When he spoke again, Xu Yueyue was already crying and choked up: "The harder you work, the bigger the gap between us."
The boy on the hospital bed gradually relaxed his hands holding the sheets, but still closed his eyes tightly.
"I don't blame you, I just realized that I don't seem to be like myself anymore." The pain in my heart occupied all the feelings, and my lips trembled uncontrollably when I spoke, "For you, I desperately want to become I am better, but I don’t look like myself anymore."
Always understand that you can never ask for too much, otherwise everything you already have will disappear. But desire is like a butterfly, flying in front of you wheezing, so close that you can't catch it.
The words that made Xu Yueyue feel like a knife twisted out of her mouth unhurriedly: "However, you are farther and farther away from me."
"I'm going to have a model soon. If I still fail the exam, will you be completely disappointed in me?"
After talking about Xu Yuet, she was stunned for the first time, and she gave a bitter smile at what she blurted out without thinking.
The warm sunlight fell through the dense leaves, casting a thin layer of brilliant and holy brilliance on the two of them, making people feel as if they were blinded in an instant.
The girl sitting next to the bed is using her sincerity and hard work in exchange for the qualification to stand next to the teenager, while the teenager lying on the bed pretending to be soundly asleep uses the girl's sincerity towards herself to satisfy her own vision of the future.
The two people in the room missed each other.
One person wanted to tie the hearts of the two together and then pull them closer, while the other tried to cut the red rope that tied the heart.
The class bell rang, Xu Yueyue let go of Ning Jinyu's hand, stood up and prepared to go back to class.
She walked to the door, opened the door, and suddenly stopped. She slowly turned her head back, and whispered to Ning Jinyu who was on the hospital bed: "If the model fails the exam, you can give up on me."
After Xu Yueyue left, Ning Jinyu slowly opened his closed eyes. He sat up and took out a piece of paper from his pocket.
What was written on the paper was his plan over the past few months. The worst score he ever had in the exam, plus the extra points he got in the competition and campaign, were written on the paper. Based on these numbers, he was admitted to the University of Political Science and Law There is no problem at all.
The paper also wrote Xu June's best and worst scores in each subject, as well as total scores, as well as admission scores for all majors of University A.
The above is a detailed description of the highest score Xu Yueyue can achieve in each subject, and Ning Jinyu will focus on the content of tutoring for her.
Ning Jinyu looked at the piece of paper in her hand, feeling confused.
"If a model fails the exam, you can give up on me."
Xu Yueyue's words still echoed clearly in his ears, he angrily crumpled the piece of paper into a ball, and slammed it against the wall.
The most sad thing is not that you are too far away from what you imagined in the future, but that you unilaterally want to let go.
After entering the third year of high school, Xu Yuelu insisted on reading at night every night, with two big dark circles on his face all day long.
Dad and Mother June saw in their eyes, and were anxious in their hearts. They were afraid that her body would be damaged, and even more afraid that she would pay so much that she would not be able to bear it when the time comes. It is not the expected result.
Whenever I talked to her about going abroad, Xu Yuelu just changed the topic blindly, and never mentioned the word going abroad.
After a long time, June's parents will also go with her.
Xu Yueyue's life focuses entirely on learning, and she promised Ning Jinyu that she must do it.
On weekdays, she felt like a betrayal of Ning Jinyu even when she was in a daze during class.
But her efforts did not bring the good results she expected.
When he got a copy of the transcript, Xu Yueyue couldn't even cry.
"Obviously I have worked so hard..."
Xu Yueyue muttered to herself in frustration. She stared at the report card, not believing that not only did she fail to make progress, but instead she regressed.
She comforted herself that she might have made a mistake. She carefully started from the column of her name and pointed to the next grid, for fear of misreading.
When her hand moved to the ranking column, the two numbers 25 were dazzling and heartbreaking.
Lin Luoluo saw Xu Yueyue stunned there, glanced at the place where she was pointing through her probe, and immediately understood why Xu Yueyue was so lost.
"Xu Yueyue, you are going to be in it, you are actually back three?" Lin Luoluo pretended to be surprised, and then exclaimed: "It seems that it is really a brain problem."
Xu Yueyue was sad at first and began to question herself, and Lin Luoluo's words were undoubtedly even worse.
"Lin Luoluo, am I really stupid?" Xu Yueyue turned her face, facing Lin Luoluo with a serious expression, with unprecedented seriousness in her eyes.
Hearing Xu Yue's question to herself, and seeing her expression very nervous, Lin Luoluo was taken aback, and she thought amused in her heart: stupid, of course stupid, stupid enough to ask me such a question.
But seeing Xu Yue’s pitiful appearance, she was inexplicably soft-hearted. She turned her face away, and said unnaturally, “It’s so stupid, you will have no problem taking three books. Try hard to pass the exam. Two books are not impossible."
"Who would be as stupid as you, knowing that he can't pass the test, he still has to report a book of A."
Yeah, who thinks that he is so stupid. Xu Yueyue turned her head and stared at the 25 for a long time, but did not even notice the class bell ringing.
Ning Jinyu threw a ball of paper toward the back. Xu Yueyue opened it and looked at it. It said: How did you do in the exam
Xu Yueyue looked at the two numbers, then looked at Ning Jinyu's note, somehow she spoke.
In the past, after facing the unknown, Xu June was full of confidence. And now, she was a bit resigned.
She wanted to escape from this place quickly, escape from Ning Jinyu, and escape any topics about study, ranking, and college entrance examination.
Ning Jinyu, who couldn't get Xu Yue's reply for a long time, wrote another note, crumpled it up and threw it behind.
Xu Yueyue held the paper ball in her hand and squeezed it for half a class. The sweat in her palms wet the paper ball, and she didn't have the courage to open it.
After school, Xu Yuelu quickly sorted out his homework, picked up his schoolbag and was about to leave.
"Wait a minute." Ning Jinyu stopped her from behind.
Xu Yueyue turned her head and saw Ning Jinyu quickly packed her things, carried her schoolbag and walked to her, "I will go with you."
"Oh." Xu Yueyue replied, lowering his head and daring not to look at Ning Jinyu, walking in front of him.
Ning Jinyu's eyes never left the thin and short back in front of him. When he was in school, he guessed that Xu Yuet might not pass the exam again this time.
He couldn't bear to mention the exam, and walked slowly behind Xu Yuet, asking in the bottom of his heart whether the pressure on her had been too much recently.
The two were speechless all the way. When they walked to Beiqinghe, Xu Yueyue suddenly remembered that Ning Jinyu stretched out her hand to her at that place.
And it was in this place that she promised Ning Jinyu's hard work to test a city.
Xu Yueyue turned around, still not daring to look up at Ning Jinyu. She lowered her head and stared at her white canvas shoes.
Ning Jinyu saw that her face was not so good and couldn't bear to ask about the exam. He waited patiently for Xu Yue to speak. After a while, he heard Xu Yue call his name in a whisper: "Ning Jinyu."
"Huh?" He replied, seeing her lost appearance, his heart softened, and he stretched out his hand to rub her hair, then comforted her and gave her the courage to continue working hard.
"Forget it, I want to give up."
Xu June's voice was not loud, but it was enough to make Ning Jinyu's head go blank. The hand he had just stretched out froze there, unable to believe what he had heard.
Ning Jinyu repeated the words of Xu Yuet in her mind, but still couldn't digest it. He stared at Xu Yuet and asked uncertainly: "What did you say?"
"It's too difficult for me. Instead of waiting until the college entrance examination to let you down, I should tell you in advance that I can't do it." Xu Yueyue said everything in her heart in one breath, and she sucked her sour nose. , But the tone was still trembling unconvincingly, "I broke our promise. You are so angry that I hate me or even hate me. I have no complaints."
Ning Jinyu couldn't hear a lot of Xu June's words. His eyes were red and he couldn't control the emotions in his heart. He grabbed Xu June's shoulder and asked her: "I asked you what you said just now! "
Xu Yueyue's eyes were also red. She raised her head to look at Ning Jinyu and shouted: "I said I want to give up!"
"Giving up what?" Ning Jinyu's hands grasping Xu Yueyue's shoulders unknowingly followed the fluctuations in emotions and increased their intensity. He excitedly asked Xu Yueyue loudly: "Abandon me or give up A big?"
"Abandon myself."
Xu Yueyue replied with a crying voice, she struggled to break free of Ning Jinyu's confinement, pushed Ning Jinyu away, turned her face away, and did not want to see him.
Ning Jinyu stared at Xu Yuet in front of him, as if he didn't recognize her. He clenched his fists, concealing the huge emotional ups and downs in his heart, still pretending to be calm.
"Xu Yueyue, I am so disappointed in you."
Xu Yuet finally heard Ning Jinyu say the words "disappointment" himself.
She lowered her head and sobbed softly. In the face of Ning Jinyu's disappointment, she was even more conceited, "Perhaps from the beginning, you shouldn't have hope for me."
Ning Jinyu loosened her clenched fist when she heard Xu Yuelue's self-defeating remarks. Xu Yuexue underestimated herself, not only hurting herself, but also hurting him.
"Then you should just assume that I have never confessed to you!" He sighed and turned and left in the opposite direction when he came.
Ning Jinyu's voice choked, tears flowed down the moment he turned, he didn't dare to reach out and wipe the tears off his face, for fear that Xu June would see his fragility.
He strode forward decisively, telling himself that he could never look back.
Ning Jinyu desperately tried to hold back the instinctive reaction of tears, but she was still powerless and could only give up on herself and let her tears flow freely.
What Xu Yueyue didn't know was that Ning Jinyu had never disappointed her because of her grades and rankings.
What Ning Jinyu cares more about is her attitude, her attitude towards the future of the two people, her retreat, and her avoidance, which makes Ning Jinyu even more concerned.
Ning Jinyu was disappointed that while he was still working hard, Xu Yuelu gave up when he said that he would give up.
Xu Yueyue turned around and looked at Ning Jinyu's unrelenting back. She mustered up the courage and shouted at the distant back: "Then do you still like me now?"
Ning Jinyu laughed bitterly when she heard Xu Yue's question, whether she likes it or not, does it matter now
He didn't look back, standing still and replied: "Do you think you are the way you are now, do you deserve it?"
Xu Yuelu was stunned when she heard the words, her tears rolled down, and her body trembled.