When I proposed to you, I was the most nervous... even more nervous than the first time I was on the operating table. I don't know why, but I always feel that being rejected by you will make me feel ashamed.
So, there is no chance for you to refuse.
Now that I think about it, thank you very much for agreeing to stay with me.
Grandpa loved me very much since I was a child, but he let me marry you, which is one of the things I am most grateful to him for.
The world is so big, I am really lucky to meet you.
It's just, if something happens to me unfortunately... I hope you can live a good life. Maybe the world has not been kind to you in the past twenty years or so.
However, fate will not make your life shrouded in haze forever, even if I am not by your side, you have to be fine.
I don't know why, but just thinking that you will have someone better than me by your side in the future makes me jealous to the point of madness.
I just want to be by your side right now and hold you in my arms...
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Although Jiang Chi always jokes with her, he rarely calls her wife.
Looking at the letter, Gu Xiang didn't know why, but tears fell.
Saying it was a letter, he was completely writing a suicide note at the time.
Gu Xiang had already returned to the bedroom. She sat on the bed and opened Jiang Chi's suicide note one by one.
He was in Shencheng for two and a half months and wrote sixty-eight letters.
I've never seen him so long-winded and said almost everything.
Sometimes I didn't think of it the day before, but I remembered it later and wrote it down again.
Some of the things I said before, I forgot and said it again.
When Gu Xiang read these suicide notes, she found that it was dawn, and she didn't sleep all night.
Because his memories were too specific, those things also appeared in her mind.
She remembered that she was in Shencheng, Meng Yuanzhou, and he appeared in front of her for the first time.
"Sir, are you okay?"
"My wife is lost, I'm here to find her."
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She didn't know anything before, and she didn't feel anything.
Looking back now, he made a special trip from Jiangzhou to Shencheng to find her...
The days when she lost contact, how did he come here
She remembered where she saw him, he looked particularly haggard, and hadn't slept well for several days.
Where is it like now, every day is full of energy
Gu Xiang sat on the bed, feeling that he had cried all night, and his tears had dried up.
It rained for a few days, but today there is a long-lost sunshine.
I don't know what's going on in Pengcheng
She picked up the phone and wanted to call Jiang Chi. She checked the time and found it was a little early, so she held back.
After a while, Jiang Chi took the initiative to call.
Hearing his voice across the phone, Gu Xiang's voice was a little hoarse, "Hello."
Because of his suicide notes, she remembered her past memories.
What happened over the past month is like a dream.
Jiang Chi said, "I'll be back today, maybe tonight. Wait for me at home. Will you?"
When calling, Jiang Chi's hands were shaking a little, and he didn't know what he was afraid of. He was afraid that he would come back too late and she would disappear.
I'm afraid that she won't remember her good, Jing thinks of their bad, and will abandon him...
Obviously, there are billions of people in this world, but just thinking about losing one of her makes his life seem meaningless.
Gu Xiang said, "Okay."
She listened to his voice, tears streaming down her face, and she couldn't say anything on the phone.