Cheng Lang's five fingers were so hard that his knuckles turned white, he grabbed the collar of the collar, lifted him up, and slammed him hard at the glass wine cabinet beside him.
There was a muffled "bang", and the guests on all sides screamed and dodged one after another.
Seeing that something would happen if this went on like this, Jiang Fang stopped Cheng Lang, gritted his teeth and reminded him in a low voice, "Are you going to kill someone!"
Xu Qiao also recovered from her stupefaction. Although she didn't understand what was going on, she remembered one thing—Cheng Lang couldn't touch women.
She turned her head to observe his state, and found that his arm held by Jiang Fang was trembling slightly, and his face was getting paler.
"What's the matter, you?" Jiang Fang asked Cheng Lang what he was doing after pulling Cheng Lang away panting.
This question made Xu Qiao realize that Jiang Fang didn't seem to know about Cheng Lang's hidden illness. Otherwise, his first reaction should be to pull Cheng Lang away from the scene to prevent his abnormality from being discovered.
The scene was chaotic and disorderly, and the waiters came to rescue the scene. Some onlookers pointed and pointed, and even picked up their mobile phones to shoot videos.
Xu Qiao's mind was in a mess, and many thoughts flashed at the same time, for example, if Cheng Lang's hidden disease was exposed to the public eye, what kind of bad influence it would have on him, if the video news of Cheng Lang's violence in public was spread, What kind of bad consequences will it cause to the Cheng family and even Lanchen.
In any case, the top priority is to take Cheng Lang away.
Seeing that the sweat on his forehead was getting denser, Xu Qiao stepped forward and took his arm: "Come with me!" Then he turned around and told Jiang Fang in a low voice, "Come help me clean up the mess!"
Xu Qiao supported Cheng Lang to the nearest bathroom, stopped in front of the sink, and dismissed the waiter.
Cheng Lang propped his hands on the edge of the washstand to breathe calmly, without saying a word.
Xu Qiao raised her hand, but stopped when she was about to pat his back, thinking that this would not aggravate his condition, so she stood beside her without daring to move him, and took a towel from the disinfection cabinet and handed it to him.
Cheng Lang took the warm towel, his face slowly recovered, and looked at her: "I'm sorry."
"Come on, you'd better take care of yourself first." Xu Qiao was a little annoyed, and looked at him with a tangled face, "That woman didn't do anything to me, you...how did you end up making such a big fuss?"
"Don't worry, someone will take care of the aftermath." Cheng Lang smiled at her, wiped the sweat off his forehead with a towel, and raised his chin, "I'll go out and explain the details to you."
At this juncture, I really need to listen to his explanation.
Xu Qiao nodded sullenly, and walked out with him.
In the restaurant at the same time, Assistant Cheng, who came from the parking lot at the first time, quickly communicated with the person in charge of the restaurant. The waiters comforted the surrounding guests and cleared the place aside, and dealt with the aftermath according to the wishes of the Cheng family.
Zhu Li and Yu Jin looked at the woman curled up on the ground, unable to get up and gasping for breath, neither of them helped.
Jiang Fang actually didn't want to help him either. With Cheng Lang's demeanor and upbringing, if he hadn't really stepped on his minefield, would he be able to do this
Then this must be a wicked woman!
But she is a woman after all, isn't she
Jiang Fang sighed, looked at the ground with a headache, stepped forward to put her arm around her, helped her up, and responded without sincerity: "Are you all right?"
Before the other party answered, an embarrassing sound of fabric tearing suddenly sounded: "嗤—"
Several people were stunned, and looked towards the source of the sound.
"Ah!" Zhu Li and Yu Jin both covered their eyes.
"Damn it!" Jiang Fang shook his hand and threw him back to the ground in fright.
At the same time, Xu Qiao and Cheng Lang walked around the corner.
Just as Xu Qiao saw this scene in astonishment, Cheng Lang pulled her into his arms and blindfolded her.
There was darkness in front of her eyes, and she flicked her eyelashes quickly, recalling the scene she just witnessed.
After the woman fell to the ground, the corner of her skirt seemed to be caught by the gap in the door of the glass wine cabinet. Jiang Fang was impatient when he helped the person up, and he tried to be direct and crisp, causing the whole skirt to be torn off, and then the bottoming socks were exposed.
And the crotch of the bottoming socks is a big bag... something that belongs to men...
Is that a woman with a handle
No, how can a woman carry a handle
So this is a man with a handle
However, men always carry handles.
So he's a man after all
Rao Xu Qiao thinks she has seen the world, but she has never seen such a "big" world.
She leaned passively and sluggishly in Cheng Lang's arms, gasping for breath.
Cheng Lang lowered his head, stroked her back, and kept repeating in a low voice: "It's okay, it's okay..."
On the other side, Jiang Fang hopped his feet in dismay, watching the man pick up the skirt fragments, and fled limping away.
Zhu Li and Yu Jin touched the goose bumps on their arms.
Jiang Fang kept pacing in place, swearing "Fuck, Fuck" to calm down the shock in his heart.
"Boss Lang, she, isn't it, him?" Jiang Fang came over and expressed doubts incoherently.
Cheng Lang said "Yes" to Jiang Fang, affirming his meaning, then let go of Xu Qiao, who was still in shock, and took her hand and walked out: "I'll take her out first, you take care of her friends."
"Oh, okay, don't worry." Jiang Fang nodded, watching Cheng Lang and Xu Qiao leave.
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Xu Qiao sat in the back seat of the car with Cheng Lang absent-mindedly all the way, and the shocking scene just now still lingered in her mind. Along with this scene, there were many questions about Cheng Lang and that woman... no, that man.
No wonder Cheng Lang told her at noon today that he hadn't explained the reason clearly, and hoped she would give him some time.
At that time, she thought he was going to make up a story with sweet words, but she didn't expect that there was indeed a whole lot of context hidden in it.
Cheng Lang didn't let the driver start the car, and told people to get down first.
When there were only two people left in the car, he stretched out his hand to touch the back of Xu Qiao's cold hand, and frowned: "Are you scared?"
"A little..." Xu Qiao twitched the corner of her mouth, "What's going on?"
Cheng Lang was silent for a moment, then said slowly: "That's a transvestite patient with some hormonal diseases, the secondary sexual characteristics are not obvious, the Adam's apple, voice and other aspects lack masculine characteristics, probably because of this , Puberty was ridiculed by others for a long time, which led to a certain degree of psychological distortion, and later he deliberately took estrogen drugs to play women."
"So you already knew each other?"
"I know it, but I didn't know about it when I first met. It was after my accident that my family investigated him and found out about his illness."
"An accident..." Xu Qiao's hands were tightly clenched and twisted together.
"Back then he approached me as a woman," Cheng Lang said after a pause, "I had a crush on him, as for the reason..."
He seemed to be having a hard time recalling: "Objectively speaking, his female appearance is indeed in line with the aesthetics of many men, and maybe men understand men better, and he is also good at using speech skills to win men's favor." He sighed Smiled, "I was taught very strictly since I was a child, and my grandfather didn't allow me to fall in love before I went to college. I was afraid that my background would be like wind and rain, and it would be easy to play with these things, so I didn't understand it very well from the beginning. The doorway of the relationship between men and women, I didn’t notice those doubts at first.”
Xu Qiao was listening to his narration almost in fear. Although this is already the distant "past tense", she still feels that her heart is hanging in her throat, and it will not come down for a long time.
"In order to hide his gender, he has always maintained an attitude of distance from me. I was asked to be a gentleman since I was a child, and of course I didn't take the initiative to have physical contact with him. So after a few times, my friends saw that I was too strict with etiquette, and I couldn't see it. At a party booed and pushed him onto me."
Xu Qiao suffocated the air-conditioning.
Her nails scratched the seat, making strange noises. Cheng Lang in turn smiled as if comforting her: "It's nothing serious."
Then he condensed the narrative: "Because of this sudden contact, I discovered his gender. This is the opportunity for my illness. In fact, there are many victims like me, but it seems that I am the only one who has become like this. The psychologist analyzed, It has a lot to do with my personality and experience.”
Putting this matter on ordinary people may not cause such a big shadow, but the formation of mental illness includes many factors.
When Cheng Lang was adolescence, he was strictly restrained by his elders in the relationship between the sexes, and he was too closed in this respect. In addition, he had been smooth sailing since childhood, had never been hit, and had a particularly strong personality and good face, so this matter became a part of his subconscious mind. major setbacks.
At that party, he even went to the end as if nothing had happened.
In fact, even if he told anyone about it at that time, it would not become a crux of the disease.
But he never mentioned it, and after the incident happened, because he was in the same school, he still kept his head down with the other party and looked up. The existence of the other party reminded him of this experience all the time, and the crux of the matter was naturally inextricable.
"I'm sorry, because I really can't say it, I haven't told you about it." Cheng Lang said solemnly to Xu Qiao.
Xu Qiao lowered her head and looked at the tip of the shoe silently, her nose was a little sore, she calmed down for a while before she nodded slowly, and asked as if remembering something: "Then did he still harass you later?"
"No." Cheng Lang explained, "After my parents learned of my illness, they transferred him out of school through some means and asked him to go to other countries as an exchange student. He never returned to London until I graduated. Before I ran into him at school a few days ago, and it was the first time he appeared in front of me after I was diagnosed."
"That was in the restaurant just now, what did he want to do? Did he follow me?"
"No, I'm the one who can follow you." Cheng Lang smiled.
"..." You still have the face to say. Xu Qiao glanced at him.
"I wanted to see if you had a good dinner. I followed him and found him. He probably passed by and saw you, so he came in impromptu. There should be no special purpose, just to scare us. My parents forcibly put He sent him abroad, he felt somewhat resentful in his heart. But don't worry, this is the only time he disturbs you, and I will send someone to look after him in the future."
"Can't we send him to a mental hospital? This kind of person is already endangering society!" Xu Qiao's chest heaved with anger.
"It didn't meet this standard, and most of the victims were as reluctant to speak up as I was, and the major incidents were turned into minor incidents. After all, if this kind of incident becomes a big one, it will kill one thousand enemies and lose eight hundred."
Xu Qiao was depressed for a while, then let out a deep sigh. If the relationship with Cheng Lang wasn't a bit awkward now, she would have to grit her teeth in front of him and scream, "I'm so angry."
"But..." Cheng Lang changed the subject and looked at her, "Actually, I'm a little grateful to him now."
Xu Qiao was taken aback.
"If it wasn't for him, I might not have met you at such a time. I don't think it's a loss." Cheng Lang nodded with a smile to himself, and repeated, "Thinking about it, it's really not a loss."
Xu Qiao didn't know what kind of calculations allowed him to come to a conclusion of "really not losing money" between so many years of pain and suffering and her.
The atmosphere in the car changed from a business-like explanation to a bit ambiguous.
Xu Qiao gradually felt as if she was sitting on pins and needles: "I... so what, Zhu Li and Yu Jin are still waiting for me, I will go to meet them."
Cheng Lang grabbed her wrist: "Wait until I finish talking?"
She looked at him stiffly: "You have explained everything..."
Cheng Lang shook his head: "You asked me yesterday why you still didn't confess to you after you made up your mind. These explanations only answered this question. But I haven't answered your other question yet."
Xu Qiao paused, frowning slightly.
"You ask me, I can't tell when I started to think that you are more important than curing the disease." Cheng Lang withdrew his hand, "I haven't thought about this problem before. I thought about it for a long time after I went back yesterday. I think there should be an answer."
Xu Qiao took a deep breath without interrupting him.
Cheng Lang continued: "The answer is, I really don't know when it is."
"..." So are you counting words now
Xu Qiao raised her hand and was about to pull the car door.
Cheng Lang stopped him with a smile: "Listen to me."
Xu Qiao sat back patiently, with a look of farting on her face.
"I can't tell the difference, but I recall some details." Cheng Lang recalled, "For example, the first time I saw you dozing off at the toll booth, I thought you were cute."
Xu Qiao rubbed her nose and glanced at him, the impatience on her face became less.
"Although I considered that you were not suitable for me because of my illness, I never felt that your character itself was not good. Especially when I saw you slap Ms. Zhao at the National Exhibition Center. Looking back now, my attitude towards this matter is Instead, it should be appreciated.”
"You appreciate me being a shrew?" Xu Qiao stared blankly.
"That's not what it means," Cheng Lang laughed. "It's about appreciating a girl's decisive style. It's probably like appreciating those subordinates who are strong in execution in career. Of course, I was avoiding you at the time, so the subconscious Avoided that appreciation, and after that, there was a lot of stuff like that. I realized that only yesterday."
Xu Qiao blinked, barely satisfied with the answer.
"Also, I never mentioned it to you. Before your menstrual period, you left blood on the back seat of my car. After I found out, I knew that I had wronged you. It turned out that you didn't hug me on purpose that day in Xijiang Mansion."
"Then you don't come to apologize to me!" Xu Qiao raised her voice angrily.
"I'm sorry, at that time I thought I could make up for you in other ways, such as clearing the counters of Fantui."
Xu Qiao was taken aback: "So this thing was really done for me?"
At that time, she thought she was being affectionate and rewarded him with a glass of salt water.
"The cause is you, and by the way, you also played some role in the group, but I didn't want to admit it at the time, and I didn't want to admit it to myself."
"Wow," Xu Qiao looked at him and sighed, "Your face is more expensive than gold!"
"It used to be," Cheng Lang nodded, "so I don't want anything today."
Xu Qiao was slightly taken aback, and clasped the seat tightly with both hands.
"I did not do well in the past. Many times I refused to admit it, so I often used the excuse of 'curing a disease' to convince myself that I was good to you. Because of this, I couldn't sort out the node you want to know. But I have to say When did I start to have a good impression of you? All the details I recall seem to prove that if there must be an answer to this question, it should be—the first moment, the first moment.”
When he said this, his eyes were as bright and moving as falling stars.
Xu Qiao's heartbeat faintly missed a beat.
"After that, although I rejected you rationally and alienated you, I must admit that my affection for you has actually never diminished but increased." Cheng Lang was silent, turned sideways, and looked at her carefully.
"The words and things I told you tonight are already completely honest with me."
He took off the mask, removed the armor, gave up all the pretensions, and admitted all the heartbeats.
"I don't know if you will forgive me like this, and I don't know if you will accept me like this again. I don't demand to get your answer right away. I think you may need time to sort it out carefully." Cheng Lang smiled Looking at her, I suppressed the urge to hug her, and retreated to where my ex-boyfriend should be. "You can think about it slowly. When you want to come back, just come back, okay?"