Gu Yu leaned against the window and stared into the distance.
He unconsciously rubbed his fingers, his thumb and forefinger pressed against each other, and the fingerprints rubbed against each other, with a rough texture like grit.
Less than a few days after he joined the army, the thin cocoon had already climbed onto his fingertips.
The most confused person in this matter is Mo Er, who was just promoted to major and was confused when he received the dispatch order, so he became Gu Yu's third adjutant.
To be honest, Gu Yu didn't want to drag innocent people into this bad debt.
He didn't even want to pull Lu Chen in.
Whenever and wherever he thinks of the major general, he can't help but smile, his eyes are filled with the sweetness of love, and the bitterness should never belong to the one he loves.
But this rainy season is too depressing. The torrential rain has washed away the line of defense in the bottom of my heart. The suffocating feeling buried deep in the soil has been dug out like earthworms, struggling to breathe in the mud. Heart and throat are choking, it is difficult to get up and down.
Gu Yu couldn't figure out that question, why it was so difficult to stay with Lu Chen for the rest of his life.
The female father told him when he was young that he hoped that his future female king would be the worm he liked. He did it, but what if he liked it? Just like it but no results? The female father failed to teach him how to guard him after he liked it, and how much he should guard.
The first half of Gu Yu's life was rambunctious and arrogant, and he did not care about everything, so he prided himself on being fearless and arrogant.
And the arrogance in the face of the male insect protection association gradually became no longer unrestrained, and when there was a weakness, it was carved into the heart, and it was no longer fearless.
The negative emotions that surged up at this moment dissipated the joy of promotion. Gu Yu tried his best to adjust, thinking about some happy things, and trying his best not to bring every bit of negative emotions home.
He wanted to bring his best love to his major general.
Even if he himself is not good or perfect, he will be afraid and weak.
On the communication interface, Lu Chen has not yet replied to the message, Gu Yu guessed that his major general may be busy designing the drawings, and he will forget the outside world and the time when he is absorbed in it.
He rubbed his fingers and wanted to smoke a cigarette for a moment. Opened the drawer, took out the cigarette case, glanced at the communication interface again, and put it back in the end.
He hardly smokes, and now that he has broken the abstinence, he will smell on him when he goes back.
The lesser will notice the difference.
Gu Yu didn't want to tell Lu Chen about Meng Shenzhi's bad debts, and let him pay for it. He didn't want the major general to be bored and worried about it again.
He pulled the drawer back and the communication rang.
He suddenly raised his head, his eyes lit up briefly, and clicked in for a moment, but it was not Lu Chen.
It was his brother Gu Xi.
Gu Yu's mood was not so refreshing, and he lacked the strength to use his hands to support his head. With his forehead against the cold and hard tabletop, he lay down lazily and clicked on the voice communication.
Gu Xi always seemed to have endless energy, no matter when he was screaming, chattering.
"Brother! I heard Meng Liu say that Meng Shenzhi is here to find you!"
Gu Yu didn't even have the strength to huh, he still didn't move, his forehead was lying on the table.
Gu Xi: "Say something! Squeak! What's the matter, you got hit? What did Meng Shenzhi say to you? Oh, don't take anything he says to your heart, he's just such a worm , smiling tiger, two-faced, you will lose if you listen to him!"
Gu Yu was in a bad mood and still didn't want to pay attention to him.
Gu Xi: "Hey, I said, are you listening, Gu Er silly? This is a blow? Who was the one who spoke righteously with me and resolutely refused to marry other females?"
"Heh, you can't stand this, then I think you should struggle less, and marry other females home. Look at how lazy you are, how good it is to marry other females, and you don't have to continue to force yourself to work, and If you can hold a beautiful woman back, why not do it?"
"If I were a male... huh, I still have to look at the faces of other insects and wonder if there are some of these..."
It was rare that Gu Xi was not noisy, and the background seemed to be no longer a bar and nightclub.
In the calm, Gu Xi also opened the chat box. It seemed that in front of his younger brother, he would never understand the futility of adult bugs.
"What is love?" Gu Xi said.
"Have you eaten well, slept well, and can you get any practical benefits? To put it bluntly, it's just a spiritual agent. It can live with it, and it can live without it. It's not the same life without it?"
"Is there a difference between sex and love? - Yes, I admit it, the old rhetoric about the soul and the sex, right?"
"But if the soul is too heavy and becomes a heavy drag, why don't I get rid of it and feel at ease?"
"Gu Ersha, I'm serious, you brother, I don't care, but I think seriously - don't block yourself, love is never a necessity, in any era, not on any bug."
"I say something selfish, the eternal truth of the universe - always is, loving yourself is the most important thing."
"If you feel sorry for Lieutenant General Lu, then you better not have such thoughts. If love becomes heavy, then you have to think about how to be worthy of yourself."
Gu Xi's voice became hoarse and indistinct in the second half, and could not be heard clearly in the rainstorm outside the window.
After saying this, both sides fell silent.
"What you said might make sense." It was rare for Gu Xi to be so serious, and Gu Yu also thought about it seriously and returned to him.
"If you only seek pleasure in your life and hope to live a carefree life, then you really shouldn't care about other things, you should be worthy of yourself."
"I can't say what love is. You should ask a philosopher about this, but I still understand the basic truth. Without love, it will only bring you happiness, and it will never make you hesitant, bitter, and sad."
He lowered his voice, even in a thunderstorm, he was afraid of waking up from a dream.
"From the moment I decided to love him, I've made up my mind to accept everything that love brings, positive or negative."
Gu Xi was still silent, as if listening quietly.
"Thank you... bro."
Gu Yu got up from the table, stretched slowly, and when the "brother" shouted, both sides were a little surprised.
"Thanks to your call," Gu Yu paused briefly, "otherwise, I'd have to go to the top of my head just like my major general."
He went on.
"I always believe that the happiness he brought me is far greater than all the misfortunes in front of me."
Gu Xi on the other end was silent for a long time.
"Yu Yu," Gu Xi finally said before hanging up, "I can't change your mind, but if you think it's right, then do it, at least, there will be no regrets in the future."
"But—be careful, Meng Shen knows."
"Be careful with your heat period."
Gu Xi no longer remembered whether he told his brother about his unrequited love when he was drunk.
He drank too much and often broke, and often couldn't remember what bastards he said or didn't say.
He and Meng Liu have been classmates since elementary school.
In elementary school, he was in class 2, his brother was in class 3, and Meng Liu was in class 2 just like him.
Junior high school, unfortunately, is not a class. When we got to high school, we got back together again.
Meng Liu has been a good student since he was a child, a child of Bie Chong's family. Gu Xi and Meng Liu are very different. The only place where Meng Liu's name and Meng Liu's name can appear at the same time is at every parent-teacher meeting. The teacher praises Meng Liu by name and then criticizes Gu Xi by name.
Meng Liu's female father held his head high and raised his chin proudly. His female father, Xinie, was careful and humbly accepted the teacher's admonition.
But after returning home, Shine would never say no to him, and could always find his good from the teacher's criticism.
For example, Xine will say that the teacher at the parent-teacher conference criticized you for passing notes in class, and did not criticize you for not handing in your homework on time, which proves that our little Xi is a good boy with progress.
But Meng Liu was different. No matter how well he did, he would always be criticized and admonished when he returned home. His female father always seemed to be able to pick out the bad problems of the little male from the teacher's praise, and sternly told him to correct it.
The day after the parent-teacher meeting, Gu Xi came to school happily, but Meng Liu, his deskmate, was always listless and occasionally had red eyes.
Gu Xi felt pity for him. He got full marks in the exam, and his parents were not satisfied. So how can he be satisfied? By the way, aren't all males being specially taken care of, why is his family so unusual
Friendships between children are always established very quickly. Later, when you come and go, you become friends all the way home from school.
Meng Liu was always envious of their family, and occasionally came to his house as a guest. Facing the gentle Xinie, he would be so nervous that his face flushed and he was speechless.
Only later did Gu Xi know that Meng Liu had a lifelong enemy—the female son of the Chelixus family, who was seven years older than Meng Liu, but was always compared by parents.
Xine said that the grievances between the Chelixus family and the Meng family have been passed down from the ancestors. Comparisons began between them.
If Meng Liu is Gu Xi's child of Bie Chong's family, then the elder brother of the Chelix family is Meng Liu's nightmare since childhood, and the children of Bie Chong's family will always be a benchmark for comparison.
Gu Xi admired this male very much. It is really not easy to maintain mental health in such a high-pressure environment. In contrast, as a male worm, his younger brother Gu Yu also lived too uncompetitive, too comfortable, right? With his younger brother as a strong comparison, Gu Xi respected this aggressive male.
How did their relationship change from being friends to what it is now
Gu Xi casually thought about it, since the day he gave birth to a love he shouldn't have.
But he couldn't remember exactly when that day was. That love seems to grow over time, and no one cares about it. When it is noticed, it is already deeply ingrained, and it is difficult to remove it.
It's a pity that he hasn't even said the word he likes. Less than half a year after graduating from high school, Meng Liuyue told him that he was about to get married when he came out to meet him, who was not a college student.
The male hopes that his friends who have grown up with him since childhood can give him heartfelt blessings.
The marriage partner, no one could have imagined, was the female worm in the Chericks family who was seven years older than him - Randall Chericks.
When Meng Liu talked about his mistress, he couldn't help revealing that kind of smile called happiness that made Gu Xi suddenly and painfully.
This marriage was obstructed by the two families, but because of Randall's bright future, it became an opportunity to link the interests of the two feuding families. No matter what happened behind the scenes, at least the two grooms were sincerely happy for this union.
It's just that happiness didn't last long.
Less than two years after the marriage, an accident on the battlefield caused Meng Liu's female monarch to lose the possibility of giving birth forever. Meng Shen, the president of the Male Insect Protection Association, who is also Meng Liu's uncle, forced Meng Liu to admit other females.
That period was perhaps the most painful moment for Meng Liu.
But Gu Xi only implied a little hope, maybe, Meng Liu didn't love his female so much, maybe he would have a little chance.
The day that followed, Gu Xi will always remember and unforgettable for the rest of his life.
Randall went to perform missions outside several galaxies. Meng Liu was brought into the Male Protection Association under the pretext of his grandfather. After that, Gu Xi received a message from Meng Liu for help.
His estrus was catalyzed by drugs, he gritted his teeth, and before his consciousness collapsed, he sent a distress message to his friends who were also in the capital star.
Gu Xi didn't expect Meng Shenzhi, as Meng Liu's uncle, to be able to make such a sinister trick. He rushed in in a hurry, and under the obstruction of the officers, he rushed in tyrannically.
Finally, in the room, he saw the black-haired male worm, full of cold sweat, with exposed veins on his hands clutching the sheets, like a beast in a desperate situation, curled up, red eyes, vigilantly watching anyone who tried to approach him. of females.
Gu Xi glanced at it, and his reason left his head.
He insulted Meng Shenzhi like a madman, and insulted these female worms for getting out. Meng Liu, who was on the verge of collapse and lost his senses, was wary of all insects, but he did not refuse his approach.
Perhaps because he truly trusts the female worm with this breath.
The male worm, who was on the verge of collapse, grabbed the corner of his clothes and struggled with the **, painful and desperate, pitiful and pathetic.
Gu Xi should have broken away. He knew that the male had lost his mind, and he didn't even know who he was, he just trusted his breath.
But the uncontrolled estrus period made the male worm look too painful. As a real uncle, Meng knew that he was cruel enough. If the dose was not completely resolved, it might even completely destroy the male worm's body.
The male wants him to come and take him out of this hopeless place. But Gu Xi knew that he had betrayed his trust.
He will never be trusted again for the rest of his life.
There is a saying that if you know your mistakes, you can correct them. But mistakes are like snowballs that will only get bigger and bigger.
Gu Xi later found out that he was just a pawn in Meng Shenzhi's hand - using Meng Liu's trust in him, he pried open the male's unyielding hard shell.
Randall Chericks, the only born S-rank female in the Empire, once gained the attention of the black-haired male with his mild pride. But on the contrary, he ended up with his irresistible pride, causing both of them to be bruised and bruised.
From the day Gu Xi entered the home that originally belonged to Mengliu and Randall, this home has gradually moved towards its destined desolation and strange ending.
The endless cold war, accompanied by occasional quarrels, lingered in this increasingly unfamiliar home.
Later, as if to prove that Gu Xi was not the only special one, two other female servants entered the family. The relationship between the male insect and the female gentleman seems to have eased a lot, and the female gentleman also seems to have accepted the reality, accepted the incompleteness of love, became gentle, returned to kindness, and always had a decent smile on his face.
But the gentle Randall became busy, and the number of home visits gradually became limited. At the busiest time, he did not go home for almost a whole year.
Gu Xi couldn't see through too much.
He knew that he was a sinner, but even the troubled love in Randall's eyes was a luxury that Gu Xi couldn't get.
He couldn't understand the relationship between the two insects, and he didn't want to get involved.
He no longer expects any love, nor does he deserve any love.
He might as well be a self-serving worm, a respectable and titular maid, hanging out with Meng Liu's tacit approval, and living in this world without heart and soul.
However, Gu Xi never imagined that after he had been heartless for so long, he could go on like this for the rest of his life, and the same thing could happen to his brother again.
Gu Xi didn't want to see that his younger brother would turn into Meng Liu's ghost in the future.
Gu Xi was trapped indoors in the rainy season. He looked out the window and sighed softly for a while, as if comforting himself.
"Gu Ersha... Is it different from Meng Liu?"
"Lieutenant General Lu is also... different from Randall."