A dark world.
If a person's life is recorded in the form of a documentary, there must be a scene where she was held in her mother's arms when she was young, looking at the world with wide and curious eyes. Although this scene will not appear in that person's memory, for everyone, this is the most important part of integrating into this world.
It's a pity that this scene never happened in Fang Shisan's life.
This is the most inconspicuous side room in Lord Zhaochen's mansion, and there is no one to clean it on weekdays, and the room is even a little damp and cold. The young Fang Shisan was lying on the hard bed with his eyes closed, as peaceful as a Sleeping Beauty. Outside the house, several children similar to her age were playing and playing, chasing butterflies, catching sparrows, flying kites, stepping barefoot in the yard full of flowers, sitting around under the tree and arguing loudly about the generations of swordsmen in the kingdom In the end who is the strongest, it is a joy to talk about.
Fang Shisan could only lie in the room and listen silently.
Sometimes I really want to insert a few words, but no one listens to her thoughts, so I can only swallow the desire to speak abruptly.
No one wants to play with her. It's not that everyone deliberately discriminates against her, but that she can't walk by herself, and she can't see things, so she really can't play with other people. Someone said "today's flowers are so beautiful", everyone echoed "really, really", only Fang Shisan couldn't make any comments. When playing football together, Fang Shisan could only wait in a wheelchair. Instead, she has to assign a little partner to take care of her.
Over time, everyone is unwilling to take such a tow bottle to play.
Fang Shisan could only stay alone in the room, imagining the color of the flowers outside, imagining how grand the great swordsman would be with his sword flat mountain reclamation, imagining that one day, he would be able to open it too. Eyes, stand up and run with them hand in hand in the sun.
It was when she was most sad that she met Fang Lita.
That one is a bit childish, but he is the only one who is willing to play with her. Fang Lita would often come to Fang Shisan with a book and sit on her bedside to read. He didn't read well, he didn't have cadence and rhythm, and he didn't read vividly. Many times, he stumbled when he read because of unfamiliar characters, and he couldn't even count it as fluent.
But even so, Fang Shisan's gloomy life was embellished with a little light.
At that time, Fang Lita closed the book and said with great pride that he wanted to be Lord Zhaochen, and in the future he would unify the Kingdom of Eternal Heaven and sit on the king's seat. At that time, Fang Shisan and Fang Lita were just children, and Fang Shisan remembered what Fang Lita said without thinking.
Maybe it's gratitude, maybe it's love, maybe it's just to give back to the only tenderness.
Maybe, just want to continue to maintain the warmth from the outside world, just don't want to lose this only brother who doesn't despise him.
Fang Shisan is trying to be "useful".
In the process, she also slowly became a tool.
He Yue also used to be Bai Feng's dog, but he grew up in Lord Tiancheng's mansion since he was a child, and he has seen a lot of life and death, and all the ugliness of human nature. So when Lide offered him an olive branch, Heyue chose to leave without hesitation, instead of staying in the brothel steadfastly, dreaming that one day Yunhai Baifeng would be able to redeem her.
Fang Shisan is not like Felita, who has suffered unfair treatment since she was a child, and lives in scolding and beatings, so when she sees someone treating her well, she will desperately respond. Fang Shisan is really simple. She can mobilize troops to form ever-changing formations on the battlefield, but emotionally, she is just an ordinary little girl. Whoever treats me well, I will treat them well, it's that simple. And this kind of goodness is not the kind of good way that you give me a candy and I will give you a candy, but if you give me a piece of pie when I need it most, I will give me a piece of cake when you need it. Everything I can give you is given to you.
She felt that this was a kind of repayment.
Fang Lita was the first person to show kindness to her, and Fang Shisan also returned everything he had to him.
According to the usual practice, Fang Shisan would have also become a city lord, but she voluntarily gave up the enfeoffment and followed Fang Lita to Tianxing City. When Tianxing City was still an isolated city, she thought hard and made frequent strategies, slowly expanding Fang Lita's power outwards, and slowly planning a perfect formation. Advancing can be attacked, retreating can be defended, and it is almost invincible. As long as you continue to expand outward, you can slowly eat away at your surroundings, continuously accumulate strength, and further seek the world.
It's a pity that her good expectations didn't come true, and something went wrong internally.
Fang Lita, who had tasted the sweetness, was unwilling to hand over power to her sister, and became more and more distrustful of her.
Except for the fact that the military affairs have always been handed over to Fang Shisan, Fang Shisan stayed in the City Lord's Mansion as if he was under house arrest these years. Fang Lita was always on guard, against his sister leading the army to rebel, against someone outside approaching his sister, against this and that, for so many years. Because he is a selfish person, he does not believe that there are truly selfless people in this world.
—So, I, who was by Fang Lita's side, should also usher in a less than perfect ending in the end.
Fang Shisan had already thought about this point.
But she was that ruthless and cold-hearted strategist on the battlefield, but she was that soft little girl off the battlefield.
It may not be a perfect ending, but it is also possible that one day in the future, Fang Lita will wake up, return to his innocence, call himself sister on the bedside, and read a book for himself. Isn't this book? What a happy future that would be.
Knowing that this possibility is very small, she still believed it.
How silly.
The cold rain washed the blood on her body, but it was difficult to erase the scars on her body. What was even more difficult to calm down was the bursts of pain pouring into her brain, which engulfed her mind like a flood. The beauty and innocence of the past, the chapters of memories that people can't bear to read, are all gone now. Now she was lying in front of the city lord's mansion, she could hear the sound of rain, and she could hear her heartbeat slowly fading.
For some reason, that person's words flashed in his mind again.
- "Fang Shisan, you live like a dog."
As the cold rain fell on her body, Fang Shisan burst into tears for the first time.
In the eyes that could never be opened, the lacrimal glands began to work like a flash of light, and tears rushed out along with the rain. Or maybe it's because she's gotten used to being strong over the years, and she's used to maintaining a certain degree of reason no matter what happens. Now that she has unloaded all the burdens and burdens, she can finally cry with confidence.
The crying was covered by the sound of rain, and no one could hear it clearly.