I picked a breakfast stall and bought two meat buns with thin skin and big stuffing. The boss wrapped it for me in a paper bag and handed it to me.
Warming my hands, I made a detour behind Shiloh.
She didn't seem to notice it at all, still looking at the street in the distance, watching the people coming and going outside, alone in a daze.
Her shabby clothes can't stop the cold wind at all, and her petite figure really doesn't seem to be able to withstand the wind and waves outside. Although Alaiya was already wandering outside at this age, at least she met me and brought her up at that time. But Shiloh is different. She feels like a very lonely existence, and everything is buried in her heart.
I leaned close to her ear and whispered:
"What are you looking at?"
Shilo stabbed her with a backhand, I dodged to the side, and put a bun in my hand on her knife. Hilo, who failed to succeed in the blow, withdrew the knife, took off the bun on the knife, and held it in his hand, but still looked at the street outside.
I smiled and said:
"Yuxi City is very different from the outside."
Hilo nodded, and began to nibble on the meat bun in his hand. A sip of overflowing soup stained her rosy lips, and Hilo's cheeks bulged. Although the expression on her face was still indifferent, she could clearly feel that she was in a good mood. To use an analogy, even though her face is cold, the background has turned into a sweet pink, and there are circles of flowers blooming behind her.
After eating the buns, Shiloh raised his small hand, stretched out his five fingers, brought them to his lips, and licked them gently with the tip of his tongue. Cleaned up the spilled soup, then lowered his hands, raised his head, and glanced at me.
I was eating a steamed stuffed bun, so I handed her half of the bun when I saw it, but Shiloh shook his head.
I finished eating the buns and licked my fingers like Shiloh did.
Hilo suddenly asked:
"Why didn't you kill me?"
Her voice was emotionless, as if she was saying a matter of course.
I replied:
"Do you wish to die?"
Shiloh shook her head, with a touch of hesitation in her tone, she said softly:
"Now, I'm not sure. In the past, it doesn't matter."
Hilo put his hands in his pockets, lowered his head, stared at an inconspicuous pebble at his feet, and added:
"Assassination, poisoning, intelligence, and when necessary, life for life. My life is worthless, and it is something I need to feel honored to be able to die for the organization... I was taught this way."
I didn't look at her, put my hands in my sleeves to keep warm, and asked:
"But you know the difference between good and evil."
Hilo replied:
"There is no good or evil, only cold and warm."
I was very surprised that she could say such a thing, but after thinking about it, it made sense. It is difficult to define good and evil. Those who trained her to be such a cold and ruthless assassin may not have pure malice. They may also hope that Shiloh can become a powerful assassin, and train her devil for this purpose. It really has nothing to do with good or evil, it's just indifference.
I didn't answer.
Hilo raised his head and asked again:
"Why didn't you kill me?"
I asked back:
"you do not know?"
Shiloh looked away and said:
"I won't say anything."
After thinking about it, he whispered again:
"And I will try my best to kill you. Even if you are nice to me, it's useless."
She seemed very insecure when she said that.
It also becomes a little cute.
How to put it, it's like you have raised a hamster and held it in the palm of your hand. The hamster hugs one of your fingers like "I'm going to bite" but doesn't really use force. This analogy is not appropriate, because Hilo's several assassinations were serious. It's just that I'm not serious every time.
Even today, a scribbled knife is over, slow enough that I even have time to hang a bun on it.
I replied:
"I won't ask you about you. Although I think I will know one day, it will definitely not be from you. As for why you didn't kill you, you should be a hypocrite. Hypocrisy, the Holy Mother, it's probably this An existence that can be described by a class of words... After all, I approached you with a purpose, and I didn't give you kindness for no reason."
Hilo said in a low voice:
"You don't have to say that. It's purely being nice to me, or it's being approached with a purpose. I can see it myself... with these eyes."
Hilo's eyes drifted to the street, and he added in a calm tone:
"Human feelings are cold and warm, right and wrong are black and white, these eyes can see clearly."
I didn't know what to say for a while, I just felt that she was a bit mature and distressed.
After thinking about it, I smiled and said:
"Then you can treat me as a scumbag."
Hilo tilted his head, looked up at me, and asked:
"What is a scumbag?"
I explained:
"Probably... well, how should I put it, like this."
I took off my coat and put it on Hilo, who grabbed my coat and looked at me suspiciously.
I smiled and said:
"I have a bodyguard named Alaiya. How can I put it? She grew up with me. Although her figure is not well-developed and her appearance can only be regarded as an upper-middle-class appearance, I just like her for no reason. The kind who dotes on her. But under the premise of Alaiya, I will still show you a gentle side, and I will not talk about all kinds of courtesies to you. Now I am still hiding it from Alaiya, early in the morning I’m here to eat steamed stuffed buns with you. This kind of situation is promiscuous, and someone like me is a scumbag.”
Hilo nodded, indicating that he remembered the word, and said:
"Then I'll call you a scumbag from now on."
People like me who are thick-skinned over the city wall naturally don't care about it, and said indifferently:
"As you like."
Hilo yelled.
"Scumbag, man."
"Um."
"Scumbag."
"Um?"
"Scum... Forget it. What will the general end of a person like you be like?"
I scratched my head and said casually:
"It's hard to say. There are those who were straightforwardly beheaded with a hatchet, and those who died in strange murder methods. Like me, it is still a first-time offender. It shouldn't be so soon. The ending of death. But in the future, maybe I will be tied to the stake and burned while shouting, "Go to death now."
I wanted to make a joke, to make her laugh. Unexpectedly, as soon as the voice fell, Hilo suddenly said loudly:
"no!"
I was taken aback by her sudden mood swings, and when I looked at her again, I found that she had returned to her usual look, only her fists were still tightly clenched, her petite body was wrapped in my coat, trembling slightly .
After a while, she said softly and somewhat arrogantly:
"...No one is allowed to kill you except me."