If you ask He Yue what it feels like to wear men's clothing, He Yue will answer that he doesn't hate it.
If you ask He Yue what it feels like to wear women's clothing, He Yue will answer the same words.
So what does He Yue hate
The correct answer is—
I hate being ridiculed for being a bad girl when I wear men's clothes, and being laughed at for being depraved when I wear women's clothes.
His identity has always been an unsolved mystery.
But to him, it doesn't matter what his gender is considered to be.
As long as you can get "face up", it will be fine.
As long as the cheeks are covered, the voice is fabricated, and someone can see yourself as a friend, someone can talk to you like a friend.
It's a pity that this small request has not been fulfilled in He Yue's twenty years.
When he was a child, he was sold into Lord Tiancheng's mansion as a woman. He understood his parents, understood their poverty, and understood that they did not change their children for food like other poor people in Tiancheng Territory, turning themselves into a pile of fat roasted meat in a pot. Of course, it might also be because of his good looks. If it were someone else, he would probably be dead.
But after being sold to Lord Tiancheng's mansion, he dressed himself up as a man.
It is impossible to know whether he is a male in the first place, or he is unwilling to become a plaything on the bed of Lord Tiancheng's family.
In short, in the following years, He Yue has been living as a boy.
Although many people questioned his real gender, Heyue could hold his throat and speak in a rough voice, he would show obvious resistance when he was put on a skirt, and he would often go in and out of the men's room—so everyone gradually Accept the fact that "Heyue is a good-looking boy".
He Yue is indeed like a boy.
At that age, most girls like dolls and foreign dresses, all kinds of jewelry and shiny things, He Yue has already been doing her best to plan for the future of Tiancheng Territory.
The rich are rich, and the poor are poor.
This is not a metaphor, not an exaggeration, but a fact.
Guanyin soil, also known as kaolin, can satisfy hunger after eating, but it has no nutrition. Those who eat it will gain the satisfaction of being full, but will also die of bloating. Those who have children will change their children to eat, and those who have no children will kill each other. This is not an exaggeration. Every time a certain family in the village smells like meat, it means that someone else died because of it.
Cannibalism is such a cruel reality.
Lord Tiancheng's mansion is full of extravagance, and all kinds of beauties emerge in endlessly. They eat delicacies from mountains and seas, use glazed wine vessels, and wear brocade silk and satin. life.
He Yue once asked Lord Tian Cheng, is this really possible
Lord Tiancheng said, what suggestion do you have
He Yue whispered, reform.
That day Lord Tiancheng laughed and patted Heyue's thin back, saying that you don't have to go to the mine to dig coal, you are not suitable, you get me this thing, and I will support you.
At that time, He Yue was really happy.
No one will die at the hands of their loved ones.
No one will be sold to brothels.
No one will eat dirt until their belly bursts and they vomit blood.
He Yue never thought about whether he could get happiness, he only hoped that Tian Cheng would get better.
Those desolate scenes, those scenes full of corpses, are gone from now on.
But He Yue checked, and at the end of the investigation, he found that the root of Tian Cheng's illness was in Lord Tian Cheng's own body.
A son who likes to eat human flesh, and a son who likes to play with women.
These two almost divided up two-thirds of Tiancheng.
So after He Yue hesitated again and again, she still said it.
Lord Tiancheng slapped him on the face after listening to it with a smile on that day.
"Is it useful to say this? My son should enjoy the glory and wealth, and our family should enjoy the glory and wealth! We are the lords, and the whole territory belongs to us, understand? Ah? The idea is on my head , who gave you the courage, who gave you the confidence? I asked you to reform, I asked you to study for me, how to get out the money of those old nobles, how to make those bastards less troublesome! Who told you to control us It's a family matter, you weigh how much you weigh yourself, and you open your dog eyes to see if you are worthy!"
He Yue gritted her teeth and stood up, lowered her hands and said:
"If Tian Cheng wants to continue, he can only..."
Lord Tian Cheng didn't finish speaking.
He kicked He Yue in the stomach, kicked him more than ten steps away, and cursed:
"Do you really take yourself seriously? Do you dare to talk back when I say something?"
He Yue remained silent.
The old housekeeper next to Lord Tian Cheng gloated and said:
"Heyue, tell me about you. Our lord treats you so well, you don't want to repay the favor, but want to get money from our lord's wallet. Tsk tsk, you really raised a white-eyed wolf."
He Yue said in a hoarse voice:
"I just want Tian Cheng to continue to exist."
"Scaremongering! Do you really take yourself seriously? Haha, keep it up, thanks to your words!"
Lord Tian Cheng pointed to the tip of his nose:
"I'm telling you, Heyue, no one will ever accept your theories because they're just fucking shit. Your head is full of shit, do you understand me when I say that?"
The butler echoed:
"Heyue, are you singing? Look around, Guotai Minan, how can there be any life or death?"
He Yue opened her mouth.
He ended up saying nothing.
Lord Tiancheng said with a smile:
"Singing. This reminds me. Heyue, you can start singing from today. I'm not interested in men, but someone will be interested. You, go and use your theory whenever you meet. See if anyone is willing to buy you, see if anyone is willing to take you!"
Lord Tiancheng left after speaking.
The talkative butler quickly ran out and told Lord Tiancheng's two sons about the incident.
"There's a servant conspiring against you, my lord"—the news spread to my ears, and the two lords of Tian Cheng were not vegetarians. After the salt water whips tore the skin and flesh of He Yue, they threw them into the theater, and the price was 9,000. Nine hundred and ninety-nine gold coins. Not only that, He Yue's identity as a man was also deliberately publicized, so that the guys who wanted to buy him because of his beauty also stopped.
How long has it been
Singing a sad and sad song like a woman, looking at the teasing eyes of the audience below.
Live like a monkey in a zoo and be fed like a viewing object.
When Bai Feng appeared, He Yue was extremely happy.
If it was that Yunhai Baifeng, he would definitely be able to take him away.
But all he saw in Baifeng's eyes was hesitation.
At that moment, he understood that they were two people after all. One is the well-known young master Pianpian, and the other is a self-willed and depraved women's tycoon. With such a huge gap, how could Baifeng take herself away? Unless Bai Feng intends to tear himself apart from Tian Cheng's territory, it is absolutely impossible. Because the price is too heavy.
Damage to reputation, alienation from companions, Tiancheng hatred... These factors are very realistic.
The same goes for Lieder.
When hearing Bai Feng talk about Li De just now, He Yue also imagined that he would take her away.
Because Bai Feng smiled and said to He Yue:
"That Lide is also very strange. In fact, it is no secret that there is a half-demon magician in Yuxi City, but no one dares to use it. Demons are a group of savage monsters, everyone thinks so. Recruit a A magician of the half-demon clan, let alone how much damage to her reputation it will cause, she must always be on guard against stabbing her in the back. I don’t know if the city lord of Yuxi City is too reckless or really tolerant , it’s not easy to deal with.”
When Bai Feng said that, He Yue had thought about it.
If he can also take himself away... Yuxi City, what is most lacking now should be talents. Otherwise, Li De would not have taken the risk to visit the sea of clouds.
But he is different from Baifeng.
Bai Feng can buy whatever he wants, but he has too many worries.
Lide has few worries, but no money.
What's more, even if you can get it out, is Li De willing to buy someone with 10,000 gold coins? Now is the time when money is most needed in Yuxi City
Impossible...
That day, before meeting Lide, He Yue and Bai Feng talked for the last time.
Bai Feng said:
"Speaking of which, my sister met Li De yesterday. You know my sister's character. She liked to fight against injustices since she was a child. She disguised herself as an ordinary girl to lure lawbreakers. When she was about to kill those guys who endangered public order, Li De De ran out to be a hero to save the beauty, and even tricked my sister into participating in the oiran election... If he wins, he can choose one of the auction items. I guess he will want you in the end."
He Yue's heart skipped a beat.
Bai Feng raised his head, the smile disappeared for the first time.
"And I, really don't want to see that happen. You understand?"
He Yue fought back the tears in her eyes.
He smiled at Bai Feng and said:
"I see."
Bai Feng wanted to say something else, but it happened that Li De came, he said hello and left.
From then on, He Yue knew that it was impossible for Lide to win.
His partner Xiao Huang—to be precise, it should be called Bai Huang.
It is the "Huang" of Yunhai Phoenix, and Bai Feng's biological sister.
It is impossible for her to participate in the oiran election for outsiders and give the prizes she wins to outsiders.
So from the beginning, He Yue didn't expect anything.
He has already accepted his fate.
10,000 gold coins can't be earned until death.
All his life he had been an entertainer.
He's been a lunatic all his life.
But Heyue still came to the oiran election, and sat in the audience, sitting far away.
He could see Bai Feng and his group sitting in the front seats, and sitting next to Bai Feng was Li De's partner who was supposed to appear on the stage... Bai Huang.
This is Lide's last hope, and He Yue's deepest despair.
In the end it was a bad move, in the end it was... a miss.
What's the use of having such a stunning face? What's the use of being so full of talent
He Yue recalled that summer a long time ago. The day he was sent to the lord's mansion in shabby clothes.
That day, I held my head high, clenched my teeth, and clenched my fists tightly, vowing to change the world.
Change this cannibalistic world, change this unfair world!
And now
He Yue's hands clenched her face tightly, using the pain to relieve her desire to cry.
Bai Huang was also a little unhappy.
Bai Feng looked at his younger sister and asked:
"Reluctant?"
Bai Huang complained:
"No. Lide and I have only known each other for a few days? Less than three days, okay. I have been with you for more than ten years, and it is normal to help relatives or not. I just feel that this is a bit sorry for him, and it does not suit my personality. .”
Bai Feng didn't smile, but said melancholy:
"I know that too... But compared to this kind of mild 'meanness', I can't accept Li De to take Heyue away."
Bai Huang didn't speak.
At this moment, the host's hearty voice sounded from the stage.
"Thanks to the wonderful performance of the last girl! The next contestant for the oiran is..."
Her voice suddenly became suspicious.
She followed the list, looked it over and over again for a long time, and finally tentatively reported a name:
"Young Master Yun, Yunyang?... Lide?"
She glanced at the list in her hand, as if to make sure, she continued:
"The repertoire of the performance is... 'pole dancing'. Haha, it's a dance I've never heard of before. Anyway, let us welcome!!"
He Yue let go of the hand clutching her cheek, her eyes suddenly widened in disbelief.
In the darkness, a voice as sweet as a demon crooned from the center of the stage:
"Hey, so many people are watching, I'm a little embarrassed~"
The lights came back on, and the stage was illuminated by a magical blaze of light.
That day, Bai Feng swears for the first time in his life.
The silver fork in his hand fell to the ground, and he cursed:
"I rely on."