Those Years When We Killed the White Lotus

Chapter 35

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When he woke up again, Lin Zicheng found himself locked in a dark room, he was the only one in the room, everything here was well arranged, which made him feel very comfortable, but he was obviously tied up His hands and feet made him feel particularly uncomfortable.

The memory slowly came back, Lin Zichen's face was gloomy and terrifying, he now clearly remembered that the reason why he woke up in this place was entirely the result of being attacked by Wen Renlan.

He was on guard against everyone, but he forgot to guard against this person who was always by his side. What a mistake!

"Afeng, don't struggle anymore, you won't be able to struggle." Just as Lin Zicheng was thinking about how to leave, a man walked in. His eyes were red, obviously from crying, and the expression on his face It was also a little stiff, as if he was suppressing his emotions.

"What? Do you think I know too much now and want to kill people?" Lin Zicheng's voice was filled with endless ridicule, and Wen Renling's gaze lost the gentleness of the past, and it was so sharp that people couldn't help but want to Shrinking, "Or do you mean that the family wants to dominate the family and control the entire Lu family by controlling me?"

Lin Zicheng let out a soft chuckle, full of sarcasm towards Wen Renling's tone, "If you think you can get the Lu family by relying on these things, don't think about it. Although I am indeed very important to the Lu family, I am not I can't do it without me, although the Lu family protects the weak, I don't mind the strong man cutting off his wrists, and revenge later."

"Afeng, how can you miss me so much?" Wen Renling's voice trembled obviously. Shaking, he thought that Afeng would be angry with him, but he never thought that Afeng would hate him so much now!

"Why do you think that way? Am I wrong?" Lin Zicheng spread out the thorns all over his body, and stabbed Wen Renling fiercely with all the thorns left, "You were the one who knocked me out, you took me here The people here are also you, what else do you have to feel wronged?"

Now Lin Zicheng was completely disappointed with Wen Renlan and Wen Renling, being betrayed by someone who was like his younger brother, how could Lin Zicheng accept this!

"No! No! No! It's wrong, it's all wrong!" Wen Renling roared, his eyes full of pain, "It was indeed me who knocked you out, and I was the one who brought you here, but I didn't want to To hurt you is not to threaten the Lu family, but I want you, just because I like you, I love you!"

Now not only Wen Renlan understood his heart, but also Wen Renling.

The moment Lin Zicheng said that he had someone he liked, both Wen Renlan and Wen Renling lost control. He had no way to watch this person leave, no way to accept his lack of love.

He is the best person in this world to himself. He said that he will always be with him. Why did he become so thorough in a blink of an eye? Not only did he want to leave, but he also told himself that he has someone he likes. It's all a lie. human! He doesn't believe it!

"Enough! Is it meaningful to lie now?" In Lin Zicheng's heart, Wen Renlan is the child who cried wolf. No matter what he says, Lin Zicheng will not believe it.

"It's not a lie, Afeng, it's not a lie," Wen Renling hugged him forcefully in his arms, and Wen Renling begged in a low voice, "Afeng, don't be angry with me, please forgive me, no matter what you want me to do, please forgive me." Can."

"It's really okay to do anything?" Lin Zicheng narrowed his eyes, obviously he didn't really believe this.

But Wen Renling nodded firmly, he knew that this was the only chance to soften Lin Zicheng.

"Then let me go, let me go." This was Lin Zisheng's only request, no one was willing to be imprisoned, no matter who that person was, now Wen Renling had broken his taboo.

Hearing Lin Zicheng's words, Wen Renlan shook his head vigorously as if he had been hit, stood up and slowly backed away, "Afeng, change your request, please, change it, the others, whether it is I promise anything, even if it means killing me.”

Hearing Wen Renling's words, Lin Zicheng's face became even more gloomy. He no longer wanted to have any communication with this person, so he closed his eyes and said lightly, "Get out!"

Lin Zicheng's indifferent expulsion made Wen Renling feel sad, he didn't want to leave, he wanted to look at Afeng, "Afeng, please, don't chase me away..."

"Say it again, get out!" When Lin Zicheng opened his eyes, Lin Zicheng's gaze was already indifferent, which made Wen Renling shudder.

Just like that, Wen Renling was kicked out, and in an instant, Lin Zicheng's demeanor became somewhat depressed. In fact, when Wen Renling said those words, he believed them, but he couldn't respond to his feelings, because he He has already pretended to be a person in his heart, and he has no way to respond to his feelings when there is another person in his heart. This is unfair to Wen Renling, and it is also an unforgivable thing for himself!

"A Ling, sooner or later you will forget me. There will still be people who treat you well in this world." It's like Bai Qing in the original world. Individuals can really live happily.

It's just that at night, Lin Zicheng realized that it was too early for him to feel relieved. Now that Wen Renling had expressed his intentions, he obviously didn't want to bear it any longer. How could he be left alone at this time.

"Afeng, you haven't showered all day, are you feeling unwell?" Looking at Lin Zicheng who was still lying on the bed, Wen Renling asked cautiously.

"Let go of me, I'm going to take a shower." Now Lin Zicheng has figured it out, as long as Wen Renling doesn't want him to leave, there is absolutely no way for him to leave now, the only way is to leave this world, but if he leaves In this world, it means that Lu Feng will die, and Wen Renlan, a silly child, might commit suicide in love.

Although what he did now made Lin Zisheng a little angry, but more of it was helplessness, he had no way to disregard the other party's life and death when he knew that the other party was very likely to die.

"No, Afeng, if you let go of you now, you will definitely leave, so now I can only wrong you and let me wipe your body for you." Seeing Lin Zicheng's weird expression, Wen Renling hurriedly continued, "I just wipe your body for you. If you don't agree, I promise I won't do anything."

It was only when he was actually helping Lin Zicheng wipe his body that he realized that he had overestimated his own sanity. Looking at his half-covered clothes, he felt that Lin Zicheng's appearance was even more alluring than wearing nothing at all. confused.

"Afeng..." Wen Renling looked at Lin Zicheng obsessively. When the other party was about to refuse, he quickly bent down and kissed his lips forcefully.

soft. The soft lips are slightly cool, slippery, and delicate, just like the jelly that was my favorite when I was young. People can't help but want to swallow it in one gulp. The strong tongue takes advantage of Lin Zicheng's thoughts. The time to speak got into his mouth, and licked his gums soothingly.

Lin Zicheng's complexion had completely darkened, he had never done such an intimate thing with Zhang Daoling in the last world.

People and ghosts have different paths, this sentence is not a joke, although Zhang Daoling can touch him after paying the price, but all of this is limited to hugs, and even more intimate things are not allowed, even if it is just a kiss on the lips . A kiss will suck away Zhang Daoling's yang energy and shorten his lifespan.

In order to be able to accompany Lin Zicheng for a long time, Zhang Daoling's eyes were full of longing but he was still willing to endure.

But now, another person actually kissed him like this regardless of his wishes. Kissing him, this really angered Lin Zicheng thoroughly.

He bit his teeth down hard, and a bloody smell spread from the kiss, but Wen Renling didn't let go, instead, he became more ferocious because of the smell of blood. In an instant, Lin Zicheng knew that he had made a mistake. , he released a ferocious hungry. thirsty beast...

When he opened his eyes again, Lin Zisheng found that all the things that bound his hands and feet disappeared, and even his wrists and ankles didn't feel sore. It was obvious that he had been massaged by someone, and needless to say, the massager was 100% This is the person in front of me.

Looking at Wen Renlan, Lin Zicheng's heart was a little complicated. The moment he tore off his clothes, Lin Zicheng hated him, but when he was lying on his body, the sweat didn't fall much, and there was no sweat in his ears. His panting could be heard continuously, but when those words fell into his ears, Lin Zicheng was completely dumbfounded.

Because he heard the person who was not sober because of his madness say, "Ah Xuan, don't hate me."

In an instant, Lin Zisheng felt like he was going to be Sparta!

There is only one person who can call him Axuan, and it is self-evident who that person is, but now that "Axuan, don't hate me" comes out of Wen Renlan's mouth, how can he not be shocked.

Especially when he recalled that Zhang Daoling had said before he died, let him wait for him, no matter where he was, he would follow his soul to find him. Could it be that this person is really Zhang Daoling

"001, come out!" Now Lin Zisheng understood that if he wanted to know the real answer, the only person who could give him the answer was 001. "Tell me, are you hiding something from me?"

After hearing Lin Zicheng's words, the cats all over 001 exploded, and then he said slowly, [Master Host, I shouldn't have told you about this, because this matter is forbidden by the main system to anyone People are open, but now that you have found some clues, even if I don’t say you will find out sooner or later, so I can tell you what’s going on now,] For the first time, 001 didn’t act coquettishly or hide it , but narrated the incident with a serious attitude, [This Wen Renlan’s data and Zhang Daoling’s data do overlap by more than 90%, that is to say, this person is indeed the same as Zhang Daoling from the previous world One person,] However, before Lin Zicheng could express his surprise, a heavy bomb exploded on Lin Zicheng's head, [and there was another person and the data of these two people was 90% The coincidence of the above is the hero we met in the first world, Su Mo.]Su, Su Mo

001 means that Wen Renlan is actually Zhang Daoling, and Zhang Daoling is the former Su Mo

This... this is impossible!

[Master host, do you want to know the final ending of the first world? ] 001 will have feedback on what each world will look like in the end, so it knows exactly what happened in that world after Lin Zisheng left.

"..." Lin Zicheng didn't say whether he wanted to listen, but remained silent.

And 001 spontaneously took this behavior as a default, [Two years after you left, Su Mo, who was originally considered brain-dead, suddenly woke up. He was regarded as a miracle in the history of medicine, but after that everyone regarded him Be a lunatic, because he can't accept the fact that you are dead, no matter in daily life or when facing others, the "Lin Zisheng" he said is still alive, and...] "Enough, I don't want to know. "What will happen to Su Mo? Now Lin Zicheng can guess eight out of ten even if he doesn't listen. Nine.

[Master host, the person in front of you is the person in your heart, so you have to decide what to do, but...] 001 suddenly flicked his tail, with a mean smile on his face, [He can If you find the host in various worlds, then you probably won’t be able to run even if you want to run, and maybe you will come to play in the small black room. The host wishes you good luck. ] Lin Zicheng: ... Hehe, I really want to kill it!

Finally, after communicating with 001, Lin Zisheng opened his eyes and saw a pair of sparkling eyes, but those eyes were obviously bloodshot, the eye sockets were slightly red and swollen, and the fundus of his eyes was full of accusations and grievances.

For a moment, Lin Zicheng really wanted to wipe his face. Who was the person who was crushed yesterday? If it wasn't for the pain in his back and legs, the pain in his body, now Lin Zicheng had no doubt that the person who did the violence would be him.

"Feng, don't be angry, okay?" Seeing Lin Zisheng's expressionless face, Wen Renlan felt even more uneasy, even though the two of them got divorced yesterday. Ye, but he knew that Feng didn't do it out of his own will, but was forced by them, so if Feng wanted to leave now, they had no choice but no face to stop him, but they really couldn't lose this person.

And seeing the other party's Ai Ai appearance this time, if Lin Zicheng hadn't been exhausted now, he would definitely round his arms and give him a big mouth.

Now who is the face of a young daughter-in-law for? He was eaten up like a wild beast last night, and now he knows how to pretend to be pitiful!

"Maple..."

Hearing this address, Lin Zicheng became even more annoyed, hehe, he tossed himself a lot yesterday. The person at night was Wen Renling, and Wen Renlan was replaced early in the morning. This is because he wants to play a game and hurt his family, right

But Lin Zisheng would tell the two of them that they wanted to! many! up!

They have dual personalities, not a family, but a person!

"Is there anything you want to tell me?" Finally, Lin Zicheng opened his mouth and said something that Wen Renlan hadn't thought of.

He thought that Lin Zisheng would be hysterical, yell and want to leave, but he never thought that he would talk to himself so calmly.

"Yes!" Seeing Lin Zicheng's slightly relaxed expression, Wen Renlan, who had always been very good at pushing his nose up, became even more pitiful, but the words that came out of his mouth were love words that would tire people, "Feng, I love you , I fell in love with you from a long time ago, so, can you give me a chance, I will cherish and love you for the rest of my life."

Hehe, does the man's love talk skills light up after the sauce is brewed? Why hasn't he noticed that Wen Renlan's mouth is so sweet before

And Wen Renlan saw that Lin Zicheng did not refuse, his eyes were filled with excitement, he looked at Lin Zicheng cautiously, slowly pressed his lips to his forehead, and then kissed him lightly on the face bit by bit Come on, dear. A kiss will gently say I love you.

Although Wen Renlan looks very normal now, in fact, only he himself knows that his heart is sore now, obviously he fell in love with Feng first, why did Ling take advantage of it first, but it doesn't matter, he had a morning today The time can be well made up.

And when Lin Zicheng was dazed by the kiss, a thought suddenly flashed through his somewhat chaotic brain, he was born with a cold temper, and having such a passionate lover shouldn't be a bad thing... right

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Su Mo's perspective extra episode (not sweet, enter with caution)

My name is Su Mo. I don’t know exactly how this name came from. I just remember my father reminding me again and again since I was a child that Mo stands for indifference and indifference. People in high positions don’t need feelings. My feelings will only become a bondage, if one day I do something wrong and endanger the interests of the family, he will definitely drive me out of the house.

Similarly, if one day he does something wrong, I will mercilessly drive him out of the house. In his eyes, the Su family is everything, and he and I are just tools to make the Su family prosperous. That's all.

Whenever this time, my mother would stand behind my father and look at my father with sad eyes. When I was young, I didn't understand why, but when I grew up, I gradually understood that my mother has feelings for my father. .

As I grew up, perhaps because I was mostly educated by my father, I became more and more incomprehensible. However, at this time, my mother would always call me into the room and hug me over and over again. I cry but don't say anything.

Later I realized that the reason why my mother is like this is because she really loves my father, even if I am far inferior to my father in her heart, but she doesn't want me to become a machine without feelings, so That's how she hugged me and cried.

And the turning point of everything was when her father was drunk. That father was obviously plotted against by others, but in the end it was settled in private. However, the woman was not reconciled to the fact that her son-in-law ran away like this. Nao, while my father turned a blind eye because he cared about the face of the Su family.

It's just that that woman is still too naive, she is just an illegitimate daughter, and is of no benefit to her father's business, how could her father divorce her mother, and then marry a useless woman.

In the end, although the matter was settled, a scar was left on the bottom of my mother's heart. Everyone who saw the two people would think that they were respectful and treated each other as guests. In fact, only I know that the two people are completely incompatible.

It was also after that time that my mother began to participate in my father's education.

My mother’s request is very simple. If I really want to marry someone in the future, even if it’s a commercial marriage because of the family relationship, I must try to love the other person and don’t hurt an innocent person. There is one more thing, that is I can't have intimate contact with anyone until I get married.

My mother said that if you really love someone, you will want to defend her like a jade, and want to make her the only one, no matter which aspect it is.

Seeing my mother's slightly sad expression, I nodded my head in a strange way, until many years later, I was even a little thankful that I promised my mother back then, otherwise it would be a regret in my life.

My mother's request seemed very simple, but then I knew that it was really difficult to do it, because my father would not allow me to do that. On my eighteenth birthday, my father sent a girl to me. bed.

That girl looks very pure and cute. Similarly, even if I don’t need to ask, I know that she must be very clean, so clean that she may not even have a relationship, but she shyly took it off in front of me. clothing.

Looking at her, I knew that my father must have promised something, but I guess there should be a big gap between that promise and her imagination.

In the end, I shook my head. Facing her pale face, I didn't move at all. I just sat on the head of the bed and looked at her indifferently, hoping that she would retreat in spite of difficulties. After so many years of teaching from my father, my heart has already It's too cold to jump.

However, what I didn't expect was that she would do that in the end, even though she was trembling. Shaking but rushed towards me, the look of pity for me made me feel sick, goosebumps formed where she touched, and finally I slammed the door and left.

That night, I didn't go home again, but went to the bar that I opened with my best friend. When I came home the next day, seeing my wrinkled clothes, my father nodded in satisfaction, and then told me that it was okay to play. , don't take people home, what the Su family needs is absolute help.

I nodded, then quickly went back to my room, took off my clothes, washed my body with hot water, and finally took away the nausea caused by the girl's touch, and then I found that my cleanliness became more and more serious , Even just normal contact with people will wash the touched place over and over again.

As time went by, I couldn't agree with my father's thoughts more and more, and I also understood that in his heart, I was not a son, but the heir of the Su family, a tool to help him expand the Su family.

In order to satisfy my father, I tried my best to become "flirtatious". The woman around me has never been more than a week. Although my father is not satisfied with this, it is better than infatuation in his heart. He is very afraid of him. His heir is a coward who loves beauty but not country.

Turn off the lights, one. The physical entanglement at night, the stack of banknotes on the table the next morning, and a breakup after that, those people who keep saying they love me will never know that the person in bed is not me.

Just when I thought my life would be boring forever, a person appeared and broke all my calmness.

Just a quick glance in the campus, I felt my heart beating for the first time, I didn’t even care that he was a man, I once said, I don’t play with men, this is my bottom line, but now I find that in Everything becomes meaningless when facing him.

No, maybe it's not correct to say that, for him, I don't just want to play for fun, but I really want his whole life.

I once heard people say that if you really fall in love with someone, everything about him is no longer important, because as long as the soul of the person you fall in love with is still him, no matter whether it is a man or a woman, you can feel the feeling of heartbeat.

At that time I used to snort, fall in love with a person's soul? Who can be so infatuated.

But when I met that person, I found that I also wanted literature and art once. I knew that person had really touched my heart at that moment. Even if his face was ruined one day, I would still be able to look at him , tell him I love his soul and nothing else matters.

But slowly, I discovered a problem, I can not care about his gender, I can love him so recklessly, but will he really accept this feeling

This feeling reached Phoenix during my birthday party. When I saw him walking slowly with a woman, I realized that I would also be jealous, jealous that there is such a person who can stand uprightly in front of him. side.

Afterwards, I investigated his identity and found out that he was the second young master of the Lin family, and even confronted his eldest brother in order to get along with him.

Faced with that black for the first time. When I was the emperor, I didn't feel any fear, and even felt a sense of excitement. Even if he warned me, there was no way to stop my footsteps, and even counter-threatening him, so that he had to compromise.

After his brother left, I thought I was crazy, I was poisoned by a kind of poison called Lin Zisheng, if I didn't get the antidote, I thought it might destroy everything.

Afterwards, with the acquiescence of his elder brother, I took him to the Christmas ball. After watching the woman named Bai Wei confess to him, I finally couldn't bear to do something that I regretted unceasingly.

Impulsively, I confessed to him. Looking at his angry eyes after hearing my words, I felt regret for the first time, and even had a kind of fear. After expressing his thoughts, he would never talk to me again.

But the result was better than I expected. Although I was beaten up by him, I was still very happy. At least it meant that he would not avoid me in the future.

Then the relationship between me and him finally became closer and closer. Just when I thought I could finally achieve a positive result, my father called me home. He knew about me and Zisheng, and he told me to stay away To the point, I know that he actually wanted Zisheng to disappear completely, but Zisheng's identity prevented him from doing so, so he was able to break through from me.

And my answer must have been beyond his expectation, because I saw his stunned moment when he heard my rejection.

After more than twenty years of obedience, he thought he had me in his hands, and now my resistance made him feel extremely uncomfortable, and even wanted to drive me out of the house, but he didn't know that such a threat would affect me. It's useless to say that I started owning my own property a long time ago, and he gave me the matter of the Three Caves of the Rabbit, but he forgot about it.

What happened after that made me even worse. That woman named Bai Wei dared to drug Zicheng, she really didn't know what to do!

It's just that it wasn't my turn to take action in the end, but with Zicheng's big brother to solve the matter, it should be more satisfactory. Just when I thought I could finally achieve a positive result, that Bai Wei appeared again.

Looking at the car that was about to hit Zisheng, I didn't know how I rushed over, but when I was hit by the car, I didn't feel any pain, and I was even grateful, because I was finally able to protect him, and it was also in the Only then did I know that there was really someone in this world who could make me give up everything, even my own life.

Looking at the dilapidated wooden door in front of me, I gently opened the door, and as expected, I saw the smiling faces of two old people.

"Xiao Mo, I'm bothering you again. That kid Xiao Sheng is really good at letting you run around for so many years. It's really hard for you." The joy of the old people.

These two old people are Zisheng's grandparents, and Zisheng grew up here. Of course, Lin Zifeng told me about this. After I know about it, I always come here during the holidays. Let's take a look at the old man here, and take a look at the place where Zisheng once lived.

After putting down the gift for the second elder, I followed my memory to the room where Zisheng lived. His room was the same as his own, with a deep indifference, but inadvertently there was a kind of indifference. Heart-warming temperature.

"Xiao Mo, I knew you came to Xiao Sheng's room again, let's go down and eat." Grandpa looked at me standing in the room blankly and patted me on the shoulder.

"Grandpa, I won't eat. Zicheng is still waiting for me to go back." I shook my head. If it wasn't necessary, I didn't want to leave City A at all, because leaving City A meant leaving Zicheng. .

Hearing my words, Grandpa was silent, and after a while, he looked at me with tears in his eyes, "Xiao Mo, it's been ten years, and Xiao Sheng has been dead for ten years. Actually, I have always known about this, but look I really don’t know how to say it when I see you happy, but my child, it’s been ten years, you’ve done enough, don’t trap yourself in memories forever.”

"Grandpa, I'm leaving first, and I'll come to see you later." Hearing what Grandpa said, I almost ran away.

It’s been ten years, and no one dared to tell me that Zisheng was gone in these ten years. I tried my best to live like before, preparing double portions of food when I ate, and leaving half a bed when I slept , everything seems to be Zisheng is still there, and sometimes I can even feel that Zisheng is still by my side.

However, today, my grandfather told me again in front of my face that the person I loved deeply is no longer there, and the person I was willing to sacrifice my life for is no longer there, so is that... The meaning of my existence is no longer there up

When I returned to City A, it was already afternoon, and the sky was lightly raining.

The first time I went to the cemetery, I wanted to see Zisheng. I had been lying to myself for ten years, and I didn’t even look at him, wondering if he would be angry with me

"You're here?" Seeing me in the cemetery, Lin Zifeng seemed a little surprised, "Now you can finally face the reality?"

I didn't answer his question, just took a look and told him to leave, because now I want to be alone with Zisheng.

For my thoughts, Lin Zifeng seemed to understand very well, and he took Lin Zihui who didn't want to leave with him.

Now I am the only one in the cemetery. Standing in front of Zisheng's grave, I suddenly feel a little cold and a little lonely, and Zisheng has been here alone for ten years, so the feeling of loneliness is even stronger.

In a car accident ten years ago, everyone thought I couldn't wake up, and I lay unconscious on the bed for two years, but when I woke up, I found that the whole world had changed , The people I saved with all my might have left this world.

Lin Zifeng told me that Zisheng died for me, but I never thought about letting Zicheng die for me. Back then, I tried my best to save him not because of his gratitude, not because he died with me, but I hope she can live on and live well, even if I will never have the chance to be with him again in the future.

When I first got the news, I couldn't accept it at all, and even spent the next eight years deceiving myself, deceiving myself that Zisheng was still alive.

"Zicheng, I came to see you. I haven't seen you for so long, are you angry with me?" Looking at the photo on the tombstone, with those still bright eyes, I suddenly felt that Zicheng was right next to me. Beside, never left.

"I'm sorry, it's just that I've always forgotten that you're not here. I always feel that you're by my side. I can't even feel the passage of time. When I wake up, it will be ten years later."

"Now that I'm old and ugly, I wonder if you can still recognize me?"

I tried to smile, but the tears still flowed down, "I was older than you, and now I am so much older than you, will you despise me? But even if you despise me, you are not allowed to abandon me, because this I have nothing left in the world except you."

"Zicheng, I'm here to accompany you now, so don't be angry anymore, even if you get angry and beat me up, don't be like this, hiding for ten years, so I can't find you."

The muzzle of the gun was on the temple. Lin Zifeng said that Zisheng shot through the temple and died in this way. Now that he can use the gun he used to choose the same way of death as he did, to me, It's been a great bliss...