Interlaced light and shadow cast on the door carpet.
Li Xuanzhen smiled bleakly: "Qiniang, you will never forgive me in this life?"
Yaoying didn't look at him and said, "You hated my A-Niang, you hurt my A-Niang and A-xiong, and you hurt me, and then you saved my A-xiong and me... There is the hatred of parents and elders between you and me, After so much, I have nothing to say to you."
Li Xuanzhen closed his eyes, "Then why did Li Zhongqian want to kill me, why did you stop him? Do you really only hate me?"
Yaoying said lightly: "Because you are the prince of the Wei Dynasty after all, if you kill you, he will be chased by Li De."
The light in Li Xuanzhen's eyes gradually dimmed, and her expression was lonely.
"I can wait for you to forgive me, even if it takes a lifetime."
Yaoying was expressionless.
"Elder brother..."
she said softly.
Hearing this title, Li Xuanzhen trembled all over.
"I gave the eldest brother a chance, I think the eldest brother was only temporarily blinded by hatred... You pushed my brother to a dead end again and again, I had to learn to fight with Wei Ming, learn to deal with the difficulties of the East Palace. You and I My brother leads the troops together. As a prince, you have enough money and food, and you need reinforcements. My brother wants to ask for reinforcements, which is even more difficult. Anyone with discernment knows that my brother will be embarrassed by you in the future. He leads the troops to attack the strongest. The city, the results of the war have to be divided up by others, and his subordinates are often not promoted, so he can only recruit some three sects and nine-class…”
"Brother had a hard time because he couldn't escape from Li De's palm, so he could only persevere."
Yaoying looked at Li Xuanzhen: "It's okay if you hate us or let go of the hatred, I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore."
There was a wet light in Li Xuanzhen's eyes.
"You gave me a chance... then give me another chance! I can be a long life, I will make up for all my faults and give me a chance!"
Yaoying shook her head: "You don't bother me and my brother's life anymore, that's the biggest compensation for me."
Li Xuanzhen was silent for a while, and there was a haze that could not be dissolved in the bottom of his eyes.
"Qiniang, I can't do it."
Yaoying frowned.
Li Xuanzhen laughed at herself: "Look, I am such a person."
"Before A-Niang died, I just wanted to live with A-Niang in the troubled times. Later, Wei County was attacked by the enemy, and our mother and son suffered a lot..."
Li Xuanzhen closed her eyes in pain.
His mother's experience has always been buried in his heart. For the sake of his mother's reputation, he has never confided this matter to anyone, and he will never reveal it to anyone in the future.
"And then... A-niang died in front of me, just to keep my crown prince, what can I do?"
He was tied to the execution platform, and he had to live for his mother's dying wish for the rest of his life, otherwise, he didn't know what to do.
For the sake of his mother, he secretly accumulated strength, waiting to assassinate Li De and target Li Zhongqian.
For the void in his heart that could never be filled, he protected Zhu Luyun.
For the trust of his subordinates, in order to pacify the chaotic world, and let there be fewer women like his mother in the world, he led the army to fight.
Now, he wants to get back to himself and make up for his past mistakes. He once had the opportunity to be like an ordinary person. She let him see hope, and he chased that ray of light in the dark.
Just like Kuafu chasing the sun, either fulfilling his wish or dying on the way, there is no other choice.
He died long ago on the day his mother died.
"Qiniang, I met you and experienced so much with you. You are still alive, and I am still alive..."
He smiled wryly, his eyes gloomy and crazy.
"I admit it, this is my Li Xuanzhen's life."
He sighed, bitter and sweet.
"When I first met you, I thought I could get along well with you, but I didn't expect you to be my enemy. I was angry and humiliated, I hated you, and even the myself who was soft-hearted towards you. I condone Wei Ming to get rid of you. , and found myself regretting it…”
"Qiniang, I don't want to regret any more, since God wants to play with me like this, then I simply indulge myself! I am shameless, I know you look down on me and hate me, I have no other choice, as long as there is still a breath, I will not will give up."
Li Xuanzhen sighed faintly, the malice in her eyes deepened, she sat up suddenly, grabbed a dagger, and stuffed it into her hand.
"Do you hate me? Is it possible to forgive me only by killing me? Well, you killed me."
He held Yao Ying's hand tightly and put the dagger into his chest.
The dagger was sharp, and soon a wound was drawn, and blood beads came out.
Yaoying was startled and wanted to get rid of his hand.
Li Xuanzhen clenched her tightly, staring at her with a frantic expression, as if she could not feel any pain, the dagger continued to pierce in, and her chest was bloody.
"Qiniang, this is me!"
He hissed, his eyes blood red.
Yaoying was horrified.
The next moment, Li Xuanzhen let go of her hand, raised his arm to embrace her, and pulled her closer to him, his face full of deep gloom getting closer and closer.
Yaoying was caught off guard and looked at him blankly.
Those long and narrow phoenix eyes were full of gloomy and passionate desire.
Yaoying's eyes widened and she was stunned for a long time.
"You are crazy!"
She suddenly reacted, pushed Li Xuanzhen away, suddenly stood up, an uncomfortable feeling surged in her heart, and goosebumps appeared all over her body, as if the place he touched was on fire.
Li Xuanzhen fell back on the couch, her face twitched with pain, blood poured out from under the gauze, her face was blank, and her phoenix eyes stared straight at her.
"I'm not crazy."
he said.
"Li Yaoying, I want you."
As if Jiao Lei exploded in her ear, Yao Ying felt a wave of disgust in her heart, she lifted her foot and walked out.
He was her elder brother, she thought his guilt came from his repentance and the affection he had met in the past, but she didn't expect that he would have such thoughts towards her, it was unreasonable!
Li Xuanzhen smiled bitterly as she looked at Yaoying's resolutely leaving back.
"Yaoying, you are not Li De and Xie Manyuan's daughter."
Yaoying's mind was buzzing, she heard the words, she calmed down, and her footsteps stopped.
Li Xuanzhen endured the severe pain of the wound and got up: "I sent someone to check and confirmed again and again that Xie Manyuan was not pregnant at that time, because my mother died, she lied about being pregnant, Xie's family helped her hide it, and Li De often left home, No doubt... You are an abandoned baby picked up by Xie Wuliang on the battlefield, and Duke Pei's letter can confirm your identity."
Yaoying turned her back to him and was silent for a long time.
"I didn't lie to you, I'm not your brother."
Neither is Li Zhongqian.
So when Li Xuanzhen just found Yaoying, he didn't dare to tell her the truth, because at that time he had to go back to Liangzhou to preside over the overall situation and couldn't stay for long.
Now he has to tell her the truth, she came to the royal court in secret, it must be for the regent king Sultangu.
"so what?"
A light question broke Cen's silence, Yaoying turned her head and looked at Li Xuanzhen, her expression as usual.
"You are not my brother, everything between us is written off?"
Li Xuanzhen was stunned.
Yaoying's lips twitched, "Even if I am a child picked up by my uncle, my mother takes care of me, my brother raised me, and we depend on each other, whether my brother and I are related by blood will not change this, you and I will not change this. What happened between them will not be wiped out in one stroke, and nothing will change.”
She turned and left.
Li Xuanzhen recovered and stopped her: "What if you still have relatives alive?"
Yaoying's back stopped.
"Yaoying, I know who your biological father is, and know that you still have blood relatives alive... You don't care about your background, what about Li Zhongqian? He knows that you are not his biological sister, what would he think?"
Yaoying smiled and turned around: "You want to threaten me with my background?"
Li Xuanzhen shook his head with a wry smile: "No, I just want to remind you that Li Zhongqian doesn't want to know your background... You believe me, I don't want to hurt you."
He looked into her eyes.
"I just want to start over with you."
Yaoying looked at him: "who is my biological father?"
Li Xuanzhen said a name.
Yaoying clenched her hand in her sleeve and turned to leave.
The personal soldiers stood outside waiting for her. Seeing her ugly face, they hurriedly asked, "Qiniang, what's wrong?"
Yaoying couldn't recover for a long time, her face was pale, and after walking a long way, she suddenly stopped.
"Send the prince to the silk and satin shop, and arrange for someone to send him back to Gaochang. This is hidden from Alang. Don't let Alang and the prince meet."
The soldiers do not know why, so we should do it.
Yaoying looked in a daze. She returned to the house, and withdrew her soldiers. She said, "I'm not feeling well. I need to sleep for a while. If something happens, I'll report back when I wake up."
The soldiers retreated.
…
An hour later, several personal soldiers rushed into Li Xuanzhen's house, forcibly helped him up, and took him out.
Li Xuanzhen was about to struggle when the personal soldiers held his arm, bowed his head, and tore off his hijab.
"His Royal Highness, it's me."
His tone was respectful.
Li Xuanzhen was startled, her phoenix eyes widened.
The visitor quickly put on a hijab: "What the Crown Prince wants, we can do it for you."
Half an hour later, a carriage surrounded by curtains drove out of the courtyard. The guard knew that Yaoying was going to send Li Xuanzhen away, checked the carriage, and raised his hand to let him go.
In the afternoon, Li Zhongqian hurried back to the courtyard, went into the house to see his sister, knocked on the door for a long time, but there was no movement inside, he frowned, pushed the door in, and lifted the quilt on the couch.
Under the quilt, there was only a stack of clothes.
Li Zhongqian's face changed suddenly: "Where is the person?"
Everyone was shocked, and they hurriedly called the guards guarding everywhere. Only after this count did they find that some people were missing, and Yaoying could not be found anywhere.
Li Zhongqian was furious: "Mingyue slave has never been out, how can people disappear?"
The personal soldiers searched everywhere, and remembered that only the carriage that Li Xuanzhen was riding in had gone out today, and was drenched in cold sweat.
At this moment, a sharp whistling sound broke through the air, and a feathered arrow rushed into the courtyard, stuck on the earth wall, and the tail of the arrow was clanking.
Li Zhongqian pulled out the feather arrow with a sullen face, took off the letter on the arrow, and after reading it, his body trembled and his eyes were fierce.
"They took Mingyue Slave and warned us not to leak the news, otherwise they would kill people."
The faces of the soldiers changed greatly.
…
King Temple.
Tamara, dressed in a snow-white cassock, sat in front of the desk.
The General of the Imperial Guard and him reported the unrest in the city square, and promised to investigate thoroughly, and the celebrations would continue in the future, and there would never be any more murders in the downtown area.
He listened quietly.
"king!"
Yuanjue rushed into the meditation room, out of breath.
Bi Suo signaled that Zhonglang would withdraw.
When the people left, Yuanjue quickly said, "The princess is gone!"
The Zen room suddenly fell silent.
"The Duke of Wei suddenly became furious and left with the princess and his personal soldiers. No matter how little he could stop him."
Bi Su was stunned.
Tammaraka flicked the beads with his fingers, without saying a word.
…
Outside the Holy City.
When Yaoying woke up, she found herself in a dark carriage, her hands and feet were tied with ropes, a soft cloth was stuffed in her mouth, and the carriage was bumpy, making her dizzy and nauseated.
She remembered taking a nap on the couch in the room, who took her away
A whisper came from the side: "Are you awake?"
Yaoying woke up and met a pair of phoenix eyes crawling with red blood.
She tried to sit up, unable to move, trying to use her teeth to open the rope in her hand, which was made of leather and couldn't bite.
Li Xuanzhen lay beside her, grunted a few times, suppressed the pain, and whispered, "Don't break your teeth, you can't stop biting."
Yaoying gritted her teeth: "What do you want to do?"
Li Xuanzhen smiled bitterly: "I didn't do anything..."
"Who kidnapped me?"
The person who can take her away under the watchful eyes of the guards must be a Han Chinese.
"It's Li De."
Yaoying's mind turned, "Impossible."
Li De has a lot of plans. He wants to regain the Western Regions, attract people's hearts, stabilize the court, and consolidate his position. The restoration of the Western Regions is a great achievement that is enough to shine in the annals of history, and the wealthy families in the Western Regions do not trust the Wei Dynasty. Completely losing people's hearts, he didn't dare to easily break the current balance, and he ordered Yaoying to appease her and show his love to the wealthy family. Right now, Li De could not send someone to arrest her.
Li Xuanzhen coughed a few times and said weakly: "It wasn't Li De's order, it was a dead man sent by Li De. I know their leader, and they were ordered to arrest me and return to Chang'an. I fell into their hands before and escaped several times. They mixed in with the embassy and came to the royal court. Seeing that I sacrificed my life to save you, they guessed that you were the reason why I came to the royal court, so I will take you back and return to life."
"These dead men have been trained since childhood. They only have tasks in their eyes and do not take into account the overall situation."
Yaoying asked anxiously, "Did they do something to my brother?"
Li Xuanzhen looked at her.
Even if she knew her own background, she still cared so much about Li Zhongqian.
"No, they didn't dare to make too much noise. Wang Ting definitely didn't realize that you were kidnapped, and Li Zhongqian was fine."
Yaoying breathed a sigh of relief, thinking about how to escape.
She's gone, does Tamara know that? If he found out, would he be in a hurry
He is ill, and he has to worry about her...
While thinking about how to escape, Yaoying was worried about Tan Mo Luojia and Li Zhongqian. She tried to rub her head and found that the hairpin had been pulled out long ago, kicking her legs, and the dagger hidden in her boots was gone.
"Don't move, don't hurt yourself..." Li Xuanzhen comforted her softly, "Li Zhongqian must be catching up, I will try to hold them back, and you can find a chance to escape."
Yaoying is silent.
Li Xuanzhen smiled, "You don't believe me?"
He sighed and looked at the roof of the car.
"Qiniang, I really want to get you, I will do anything I can, but I know that once Li De gets involved, you will be in danger... I can't let him find out that I like you."
Yaoying said nothing.
After an unknown amount of time, the carriage suddenly stopped, and Li Xuanzhen motioned for Yaoying to bite the soft cloth and pretend to sleep.
One person opened the curtain and glanced in, and said, "His Royal Highness, we have arranged for a few other carriages to lead Li Zhongqian away. Don't worry, we won't have to cover up when we leave the royal court."
Li Xuanzhen's heart sank.
If Li Zhongqian was led away, Yaoying would not be able to escape even if he dragged these dead men, and now he is seriously injured and can't even pick up a knife.
"How did you sneak into the holy city? Who is the inner responder?"
The deceased said with a smile: "This is not to worry about His Highness. Money can make a ghost run the mill. A year ago, the Holy Master told us to bring His Highness the Prince back to Chang'an. We have followed His Highness for a year, but His Highness still refuses to go back. Now that we have caught the princess, please stop running, Your Highness, otherwise, we will be rude to the princess."
Li Xuanzhen sneered: "The princess is now the leader of the Western Army. How can you explain to the sage when you move her?"
The dead man grinned: "We don't care who she is! As long as we can bring His Royal Highness back, it's not up to us to worry about the next thing!"
He said, raising the knife to Yaoying.
Li Xuanzhen's face was gloomy: "Don't touch her!"
The dead man curled his lips into a smile, put away the knife, and lowered the curtain: "Then, Your Highness, be calm, don't force us to do it."
…
The yellow sand on the avenue is full of rolling, and the fast horses are like a dark cloud, scraping across the avenue, and the horses' hooves are like thunder.
Li Zhongqian ran for dozens of miles with his personal soldiers, and finally found the trace of the carriage and horse, chased after him, and surrounded the carriage.
The driver shivered and rolled out of the carriage.
"Mingyue slave!"
Li Zhongqian lifted the curtain of the car and glanced at the carriage. A woman with a veil on her face hid in the carriage and looked at him in horror.
He groaned in his heart, and his face was ashen.
"This is also fake."
The group immediately drove their horses and turned their heads, chasing in the other direction.
…
the other direction.
The carriage galloped.
Yaoying struggled for a long time, finally bit off the rope on her hand, quickly untied the rope on her foot, and then put the rope loosely back on her wrist and leg to prevent the dead man from seeing it.
She was furious.
Li Xuanzhen's face became paler and paler, he vomited a few mouthfuls of blood, and his body trembled.
Yaoying rolled her eyes and stopped the dead man: "Prince is so injured, why don't you stop changing his medicine? If there is something wrong with him, how can you return to Chang'an?"
The dead men were suspicious and opened the curtains to look inside.
Li Xuanzhen understood Yaoying's plan and shivered cooperatively.
The dead man followed Li Xuanzhen all the time. He saw with his own eyes that he was holding a knife for Yaoying, who was injured on his body. He hesitated for a while, fearing that something really happened to him, so he stopped the carriage and changed the medicine for him.
After hurriedly dressing up, we continued on our way.
Yaoying looked disappointed, she thought she could delay for a while.
The sky darkened and the wind howled.
In order to avoid the inspection, the deceased chose to walk in inaccessible places. There was a wasteland around, and it was impossible to travel at night. The carriage finally stopped.
The temperature dropped sharply at night, the wind was biting, and the car curtains were rustled by the wind.
Li Xuanzhen sat up with difficulty, lifted the curtain of the car, glanced outside, and said: "Wait for a horse and run, don't look back, run to the south, they are very cunning, they are not going east, but going north. ."
He looked back at Yaoying.
She was nervous, watching the movement outside with all her attention.
After finding out that she had been arrested, although she was anxious, she did not panic. She must have gotten used to this kind of life when she lived in the Western Regions.
His heart felt unspeakable.
The two waited patiently until midnight. There were no stars and no moon, and the four fields were dark. Li Xuanzhen struggled to get out of the carriage, saying that she was going to the toilet and didn't want to dirty the carriage. The dead man laughed and helped him away.
In the dark night, Li Xuanzhen's eyes turned black, his hands and feet trembled, and after waiting for half a cup of tea, he bit the tip of his tongue fiercely, turned around abruptly, pulled out the dagger from the waist of the dead man who urged him, and stabbed the dead man. throat.
In the carriage on the other end, Yaoying heard a commotion, and quickly climbed out of the carriage, took a breath, galloped, got on her horse, lifted the reins, and rushed into the darkness.
The dead man will not kill Li Xuanzhen. Li Xuanzhen has no worries about her life. She must escape as soon as possible. Even if she fails and is caught, she can delay for a while or leave some traces.
Yaoying's heart was beating like a drum, she tightened the reins and galloped in the dark night.
Soon, the sound of hoofs and the shouting and cursing of the dead came from behind.
Yaoying gritted her teeth and urged the horse to speed up.
The dead man behind him was getting closer and closer, so close that she could see the long knives shining with cold light in their hands. The shouting sounded in her ears, and a dead man opened his big hand and grabbed her arm.
A sharp screeching sound.
An iron arrow pierced through the dark night and shot out from the dark night. The arrow was filled with internal energy, and it was so powerful that it directly pierced the arm of the dead man.
The dead man screamed and fell off his horse.
The iron arrows shot out in a row, swishing one after another, like a long rainbow piercing the sun, screaming everywhere, and several dead soldiers fell to the ground one after another.
Yaoying panted like pulling a bellows and raised her head.
There was a faint shadow floating in the dark night ahead.
One person and one rider rushed out of the darkness. The man on the horse was dressed in a blue shirt, with a white robe on his shoulders. He was tall and straight. He held a long bow and wore a quiver on his waist. There is a kind of compassion.
Several more dead fell off their horses.
Dark clouds surged, the night was thick, and the cold light of the iron arrow reflected on the man's face, reflecting a pair of cold blue eyes under the face towel.
Yaoying opened her mouth and her eyes were hot.
Between heaven and earth, there was only the sound of his hoofs galloping towards her.
The sound of killing screamed from behind him, and the dark horse galloped in front of him in an instant. The man held a bow in one hand and wrapped his waist in the other. With a light leverage, he carried her into his arms. She stretched out her hand and hugged him tightly. neck, and felt himself safely landed on the horse's back.
Yaoying was trembling all over.
Tanmaraga unfolded her white robe, wrapped her in it, and looked down at her.
Yaoying burst into tears and said in a trembling voice, "You're crazy."
The same three words as the evaluation of Li Xuanzhen are completely different feelings.
The horse galloped wildly, and in the turbulence, Tamara didn't say a word, put his hand on her neck, and pressed her tightly into his arms.
Yaoying heard his heartbeat, still slow and calm.
Monk, you are crazy.
Yaoying smiled, tears flickered, shocked, sour, sweet, joyful, distressed, worried... All kinds of tastes were surging, and her heart slowly calmed down.
…
Not far away, the sound of hoofs was thundering, and more shadows approached them. The man at the head, with a pair of phoenix eyes full of violence, rode his horse forward, raised his sword, and saw Tan Mo Luojia and Yaoying hugging each other on horseback, stunned for a moment.
"Alang! I found Qiniang!"
The soldiers shouted at him.
Li Zhongqian sank his face, glared fiercely at Tan Moraga, and rushed forward to kill.
Forget it, this Sultan is very smart. He knew that he and Yaoying would not leave the holy city for no reason. Something must have happened. He came over and searched for the traces of the dead with him. Thanks to his familiarity with the terrain, he traveled all the way. Only they can catch up, and he has all the hard work and credit... I will find him tomorrow to settle accounts!
The dead man did not expect to be caught up so quickly, so he turned his horse's head decisively, returned to the fire, and let others lead Li Zhongqian away, grabbed Li Xuanzhen himself, and fled.
Puff.
The dagger pierced straight into the flesh.
When the pain came, the dead man lowered his head and looked at Li Xuanzhen, unable to believe it.
"Prince, Li Zhongqian is here. If you kill me, you are not afraid that Li Zhongqian will kill you? We are grasshoppers on a rope now!"
Li Xuanzhen's eyes were gloomy, she raised her dagger, and mercilessly stabbed it into the dead man's chest.
The dead man screamed, and the two fell from their horses together.
Li Xuanzhen rolled a few times on the ground, and saw the dead man stand up clutching his wounds, flew forward, hugged the dead man's legs, the dead man stumbled and fell, he climbed up, and the dagger slashed the dead man's throat.
The dead man glared at him, unable to rest his eyes.
Li Xuanzhen threw away the dagger.
"Those who want to hurt her... can't stay..."
These people have a method of secret communication, they can pass the message without knowing it, and none of them can be kept.
Li De must never be allowed to know his thoughts.
Li Xuanzhen collapsed to the ground and closed his eyes.
…
Li Zhongqian took his personal soldiers to deal with the remaining dead soldiers, and turned around on horseback.
"Mingyue slave!"
He shouted from a distance.
"Are you all right?"
Yaoying came back to her senses and leaned out of Tanmaraga's arms, "Brother, I'm fine. What about you? Are you not hurt?"
"I'm fine."
Li Zhongqian shook his head and said, looking at Tan Mo Luojia's arms holding Yao Ying, he felt uncomfortable.
The personal soldiers brought Li Xuanzhen, who had fainted, over, "Alang, what should I do with him?"
Li Zhongqian raised his long sword.
Yaoying thought for a while and said, "Brother, he is not in the same group as those people."
Li Zhongqian snorted coldly and put away the long knife, "Take it back and watch it for yourself. There are their inner responders in the Gaochang mission. Remember, you don't want anyone who is born with eyes."
The people are ordered.
Li Zhongqian asked his personal soldiers to bring a horse to Yaoying.
Yaoying got out of Tamaroka's arms, he said nothing, took off his white robe to cover her, and watched her dismount.
She climbed onto another horse, clenched the reins, and whispered to Li Zhongqian: "Brother, General Su is injured, I don't trust him, follow him first, and I'll tell you about today's affairs when I go back. ."
Boss Li Zhongqian was not happy, but seeing Yaoying's anxious face and her eyes turning red, she couldn't bear to make her embarrassed, and snorted softly, saying, "Alright."
He felt a little guilty. His subordinates drove away Wang Ting's personal guards, so that these dead men could enter.
Yaoying separated from him and drove his horse to follow Tanmaraka, who was walking alone.
The wind whistled, and she wrapped her white robe tightly, approached him, and wanted to speak, but before she opened her mouth, her eyes turned red.
With a loud bang, Tan Moraga suddenly fell off the horse's back. The steed took a few steps forward, noticed the movement, turned its head, and circled around him.
"Roja!"
Yaoying pulled the reins, got off the horse, threw herself beside him, and turned him over.
The towel on his face fell, and Bi Mu looked up at her.
"you are leaving?"
he asked softly, confused.
Yao Ying felt like she had been gouged out by someone, and she felt a lot of grief.
Aren't you angry, ignoring people for a few days and forcing me to leave
Didn't you say that I can go if I want
You are thoughtful about everything, you are afraid of hurting me, you don't want to despise me, you know that all love is dew and illusory, you can think through everything, why are you still clinging to me
Yaoying burst into tears, but the corners of her mouth were slightly raised, she held Tanmaraga's cheeks with both hands, bowed her head, and pressed her forehead against his forehead.
"I'm here, monk."
Tamara looked at her face that was so close at hand, and the breath blended.
He said in a daze: "I am the Buddha's son of Wang Ting... My illness will not heal."
Yaoying smiled with tears: "It doesn't matter, we will take it slow. I said, it doesn't matter if you are a monk, you don't have to break the precepts."
No matter how long it takes, no matter what the outcome is.
Give it a try, there is always hope.