Tonight, it was rare for Xu Qihe to have a social occasion, and when he returned home, it was already full moon.
He was wearing that snow-white crane cloak, his face was like white jade, and when he walked from the snow, he looked even more beautiful and charming, making it hard for people to look away. I welcomed him into the door, took off the heavy cloak for him, and heard him say with a smile: "Could it be that the servant didn't send you a message that you don't have to wait for me tonight."
He seemed to be in a good mood, and his complexion was rosier than usual, and I also pulled the corner of his mouth: "Someone sent me a message, and I will wait for Helang myself."
Xu Qihe smiled softly, his eyes were like water, if he was not careful, he might drown in it. I recalled when I first met him, and felt that there were really fairy-like characters in this world. He stopped, turned to me and asked, "What are you doing watching me tonight?"
I looked into his eyes, those eyes were too sincere, the words that had been struggling in my heart for a day seemed to be stuck in my throat. But, I know, if I don't ask now, I never will.
Seeing that he was about to walk into the compartment, I quickly stopped him: "Helang." I clenched my ten fingers under the sleeves secretly, looked at him, and murmured: "The things in my cabinet...is it, you call him?" Someone took it?"
Xu Qihe stopped walking and turned around.
I thought about the morning when the personal servant named Zitong knelt at my feet and said, shaking like a chaff: "Young one, I don't know anything, the young master just ordered the little one to... fetch, bring things to me." He, I really don't know that those things are the lifeblood of Shaojun!" He slid off his sleeve, revealing his scarred arm.
"You lied! What is the third young master doing with our young master's things? If you refuse to tell the truth, then go and ask the third young master to come and confront him." Biyu stomped her feet angrily when she heard that, and really wanted to send someone to invite him Xu Qihe came back.
"No, no! Young Master, don't give the little one to the third young master—" He hugged my leg with a frightened expression on his face, "You hand me over to the manager, not to the third young master! I, I don't want... him He will beat me to death, he will definitely kill me this time... please spare my life, Shaojun!" After finishing speaking, he kowtowed vigorously to me.
"Young Master," Bi Luo said next to me, "Master has lost something, this is a serious matter, I think it's better to be more cautious."
I saw that the man named Zitong had his head smashed and blood was dripping from his forehead. How afraid of a person was he to do this...
When they were about to drag him down, I said suddenly: "Forget it." I looked at the servants in a room in a daze, "... I remembered, I put it indiscriminately, I forgot where to put it .”
Today, I have been waiting for Xu Qihe to come back. After thinking for a long time, I still couldn't resist asking him this question. I have always felt that he is an excellent person, no matter how he treats others, he always treats me with tenderness, understanding and care. He looked at me, and that gaze really made my heart twitch, I understood—if, if he said, he didn't take it, I would believe him...
What do you think, the next moment, I heard: "That's right."
Those eyes were clear, his face was calm, and he said frankly: "I did it."
I stared at him blankly. At first, I thought I had heard wrong. The winter night was quiet, and the only sound in the room was the sizzle of the incense burner.
"Then..." I was silent for a while, and asked him softly, "Where is the thing?"
"Throw it away." Xu Qihe replied very quickly, as if he had been looking forward to this moment for a long time. I asked again: "Where did you throw it?"
Xu Qihe turned around and sat on the chair. He slowly picked up the cup, took a sip, and said softly: "Throw it into the brazier."
I looked at him blankly for a long time, then turned around to go out, when there was a sudden "clang" sound from behind, and he threw the cup on the ground.
"Where are you going?" The voice was so cold that it made people feel terrified from the bottom of their hearts. I answered him dumbly: "I... I'm going to get the things back."
But before I took half a step, my body was pulled from behind. Xu Qihe's face changed, his jade face was as cold as ice, and his eyes gleamed with anger: "Don't go!"
When we got along with me before, he always said that I was timid and couldn't stand intimidation, so from the first day when I talked to me, he always spoke softly, never like this. I looked confused, the hands holding my shoulders gradually tightened, those eyes narrowed, and I heard a sudden chuckle: "Are you scared?"
His hand suddenly let go, I took a staggering step back, supported the case, and asked him in a daze: "Why did you do this?"
Xu Qihe took two steps: "Why?" He said eloquently, "I have been in poor health since I was young, and everyone in the house is careful with me, even my father is partial to me. Tell me, why?"
"They pretend I don't know, but I know better than anyone else." Xu Qihe put his hands behind his back, his expression indifferent: "All this is because I was destined to die young."
I was shocked. Xu Qihe turned his head and looked at me, although his eyes were full, but there was a hidden coldness: "That's the look. Father looks at me like this, mother looks at me like this, brother and others look at me like this..." He smiled softly, very mean. Perhaps, his gentle and considerate appearance before was all an illusion, but his current appearance is the real him.
"—even you, look at me like that."
"Because of my body, everyone let me in since I was a child. You know, what does this mean?" Xu Qihe's voice became colder, his pale hands clenched, and he gritted his teeth, "In the eyes of everyone, no matter what I do What, everything is inferior to the eldest brother and the second brother...!"
"Do you know how envious I am of my elder brother and my second brother? My elder brother can conquer the north and south of the world, and my second elder brother followed his father into the court. What about me?" He pointed at the door, "Before I was young, I even had this I can't get out of the door. Every day, every day, I can only be locked in this room, and I can't do anything... "
"Helang..." I called out in a daze.
But Xu Qihe said sharply: "If you ask me why I did that, then I will tell you clearly that I am jealous of them! In this mansion, everyone and everyone thinks that I am inferior to them! I don't care what those people think, only you-"
He strode over, grabbed my arm, and said ferociously, "Sanxi, I've always wanted to ask you, what is it about me that treats you worse than them? Second brother... forget it, big brother? He's just an ordinary person! Why can't I compare to him? He is just showing you a little favor, and you just go to him eagerly. As for me, I have tried my best to make you happy and coax you. In your heart, my kindness to you is not as good as Those rotten things that the eldest brother and the second brother gave you! Let me ask you, are you afraid that I will die early, so you want to please the other two—”
I was forced back by him step by step, and I sat down on the chair suddenly. When Xu Qihe said the last sentence, I also looked confused. I never knew that he thought so in his heart. I don't even know, in his eyes, I am like that...
Xu Qihe's face was flushed, he was too excited, so he was panting slightly. I suddenly thought of something, before I turned my head around, I opened and closed my mouth and asked, "You saw it at that time, didn't you?"
His face changed slightly.
I looked at him without blinking, and said, "You've seen it all, haven't you?"
Xu Qihe was silent, his eyes avoided me, but his fingers were tightly clenched. I stood up and said to him, "You told the second master?"
My breathing was a bit difficult, my chest was heaving, and I murmured hoarsely: "You saw everything, you clearly know that I have nothing with him..."
"—No?" Xu Qihe seemed to have heard some joke, he stared at him suddenly, his eyes were bloodshot, and he gritted his teeth, "Dare you say that you don't have that servant in your heart? You dare to swear to the sky, in your heart, just Didn't let him go—?"
Xu Qihe's eyes were red with anger, he grabbed my wrist, his face was almost distorted: "Even if you are really innocent, so what? An eunuch, huh... Let me ask you, even an eunuch, you can fall in love with, you How many people do you have in your heart? Is it okay for anyone to be nice to you, no matter what kind of man, if he treats you a little better, you can easily fall in love with him? —Huh? "
Xu Qihe pushed me violently, he raised his chin, looked at me condescendingly, and said softly: "I'm tired." He seemed to be talking to himself, "I'm pretending, I'm too tired."
I raised my head blankly, my eyes were slightly red, and I asked in a low voice: "Then you already knew that the second master would treat me like that, so... did you tell him on purpose?"
Xu Qihe didn't answer me, he turned and walked into the inner room.
That night, we still slept on the same couch, but it was just the same bed with different dreams, back to back, and we didn't turn around all night.
Later, for two or three days, Xu Qihe didn't say a word to me. Maybe it's just like what he said, he's already pretending to be tired, and he doesn't want to pretend to be nice to me anymore.
Today, according to Mrs. Jiang's previous instructions, I boiled tonic for Xu Qihe. He has a weak foundation, he has to take medicine and drink soup every two days, and I have been watching the medicine stove for him, not daring to slack off. I took the medicine and walked to his study, but before I went in, I saw the third young master's servants kneeling outside.
"What's the matter with you?" I asked them.
They looked at each other in blank dismay, without the courage to speak. At this time, I heard the sound of begging for mercy coming from inside, and I walked in quickly to have a look.
When I saw the situation inside, I stopped.
The new boy servant was terrified and curled up on the ground, his back was ripped apart, the overturned censer lay on the ground, and his face was bloody and bloody from the burn. Xu Qihe stood under his head, holding a horsewhip in his hand, his clean white clothes were still stained with blood, and looked at the little slave begging for mercy with a numb expression. I was so startled that my legs went limp, and the medicine I was holding in my hand fell to the ground with a crisp broken sound.
Xu Qihe looked over suddenly, a trace of astonishment flashed in his eyes, and then he roared: "Who brought Shaojun here!"
The servants didn't dare to make a sound, Xu Qihe threw his whip, strode over and grabbed me. He dragged me vigorously, I stumbled to follow him, and finally sat down on the floor of the inner hall with limp legs.
The window bars in the inner hall were closed tightly, and only faint light came in. Xu Qihe turned around, his face was light and dark, and he was still panting lightly.
I also raised my head and looked at him blankly.
I grew up in the inner house since I was a child. Even if I haven't seen many things with my own eyes, I have heard of them. It's never a new thing for a master to torture a servant. In the past, the master often took down the servant to vent his anger. When it was severe, he was disabled. I... had doubts before, but when I saw it with my own eyes today, although I was already aware of it in my heart, I was still frightened unexpectedly.
All of a sudden, I suddenly realized that I seemed to have never really understood him.
"Why did you come here?" Xu Qihe said calmly, "Didn't I say, usually, don't come to my study?"
I shook my head in a daze, and said in a trembling voice: "I will... never come again."
I stood up with the help of the side, and was about to step out of this place when my arm was pulled hard. Xu Qihe hugged me tightly from behind, with such strength that it almost crushed all the bones in my body.
"You're not allowed to go...don't be allowed to go!" Xu Qihe grabbed me and kissed me messily and rudely. I struggled instinctively, and I didn't know what I was afraid of, but the more I trembled, the more nervous he became. This inner hall is for meeting guests. I realized what he was going to do, and I couldn't help panicking: "Don't, don't be here..."
Now he can't listen to anything, just presses behind me. We pushed and struggled, and I ended up on the desk next to the chair. In the fuss, he lifted my hem, and he ripped off my skirt, exposing my neck and shoulders. His eyes were red with anxiety, and when he came in, he bit my neck, I yelled "ah" in pain, and my body trembled violently like a spasm.
"Sanxi..." He roughly pulled my hair, seemed to be extremely excited, and kept muttering in his mouth: "You are not allowed to go, you are mine, mine alone...!"
"Oh!" He hit him hard again, I bit my lower lip tightly in pain, and closed my eyes tightly. Xu Qihe hugged my waist, kissed me and pumped me one by one. His hands penetrated into my clothes, he kept touching my hot body, and clamped my nipples viciously with his two fingers. I trembled with pain, and cried softly: "It hurts... He, He Lang... "
But he couldn't control himself, the more I begged, the more he moved, his palms touched my legs, rubbing my jade stem vigorously. I was so painfully pinched by him that Yu Ya was soft, but he couldn't stop kissing me as if he loved me so much, he pressed against my sweaty face, and said pantingly: "During worship, I saw you for the first time." , I just want to do this to you... I want to lock you up, in a place only I can find." He bit my earlobe, and smiled a little maniacally, "I only do this to you, only You alone... Then you only like me, okay? I don't care what the elder brother and the second brother are, in your heart, you can only love me... "
That day, Xu Qihe tormented me for a long time in the inner hall. When I took a bath, my body was covered with bruises, some of which were bloody, and my lower head was hurt a bit.
The next day, Jiang asked someone to take me to see her.
Among the three wives, Mrs. Jiang is the most favored. I quietly looked at the crane screen in front of me. It is not an exaggeration to say that the workmanship is exquisite.
Mrs. Jiang sat on the top seat, and the satin on her body was the snow silk vomited by Huainan silkworm. Only a few dozen bolts of cloth were produced in a year as a tribute. Xu Shangshugui was an important minister of the emperor, and he also got two horses, one of which was awarded to Sanfang.
Jiang looked at the screen, covered it with a cup in a graceful manner, and said: "This is a treasure left over from the previous dynasty. It came to the mansion as my dowry. I have always liked it."
I looked at the crane bird and moved its beak: "Indeed, it is lifelike."
Jiang Shi then smiled: "Then, how about giving it to you?" I woke up immediately and shook my head: "This is mother's dowry, Jingting... dare not accept it."
Jiang put down the cup and walked over. She held my hand, very affectionately: "Why don't you dare? He Lang is my heart and soul, and you are the person on the top of He Lang's heart. You can make He Lang happy, that's all , even if I want to give you all the things in my treasury, I am also happy, mother."
I looked at her, and for a moment... I didn't know what to say.
Mrs. Jiang narrowed her eyes and lowered her voice: "I know that as a mother, He Lang grew up soaking in medicine jars and suffered a lot of grievances since he was a child. My master and I also indulged him, his eyes It's inevitable that there won't be a little sand in it."
"I persuaded and persuaded, but I can't bear to scold me. In the past, I also found a few lovely children for him, but he ran away within two days. But after you came in, Helang controlled his temper , when you are not around, he, the whole yard is disturbed every day, and he is always afraid of being known by you, pretending that nothing happened."
Mrs. Jiang felt sorry for her son, but I vaguely remembered the little slave who curled up on the ground that day, and said with fluttering lips, "But, those servants..."
Jiang Shi smiled, her makeup was very pretty, her smile was sweet, like a fairy. I just heard her say quietly: "It's okay, as long as no one is killed, you can just let him go."