When the distance between me and him was only a few feet away, I suddenly stretched out my hand and pushed him away.
Lu Qingsu took a step back, and in an instant, it was like waking up from a big dream. He was originally sitting on the side of my bed, and he was in charge, so this is already a big arrogance. I panted lightly as if I couldn't catch my breath, only to see Lu Qingsu's face turned pale for a while, then he stood up and knelt down straight in front of me.
"Young Master..." He said without raising his head, "You are a villain who broke the rules."
I panted slightly and stared at him, suddenly feeling sad. Today is different from the past, the huge Xu Mansion is crumbling, but no one has his own selfishness. Now even Lu Qingsu has a different heart, let alone others, I am afraid that the situation of this mansion is worse than it appears on the surface.
"Go out." I said tremblingly, "... from now on, don't come here again."
Lu Qingsu knelt in silence for a long time. After a long time, he stood up, said goodbye, and walked out without any flaws on his face. I looked at his back, obviously he was still the familiar one in my memory.
It's just that the world is easy to change, and the person who changes is not him, but me.
Nearly half a month later, Lu Qingsu really never came again. However, I know that he also told his servants to take good care of me, so that I never felt slighted.
Yinping combed my hair, she stroked my hair and said, "Young Master's hair is so smooth."
When I heard this sentence, I thought of Biyu again. She has already returned to her hometown, but I heard that there was a severe drought in central Sichuan, and this year the farmland had no harvest. Last year and the year before last, it was either flooded or plagued by locusts, and it was like this for three consecutive years. In mid-July, when the heat was in full swing, a fire broke out in the Xinglong Temple in the middle of the capital. Not only were several Buddhist temples burned down, but the thick smoke killed hundreds of monks. This incident made people extremely terrified. There were gradually rumors among the people that today's emperor ignored the theory of filial piety and forced Queen Mother Xie to death.
The emperor was furious and arrested many people. He was so angry that he went to the court for several days, and none of the ministers in the court dared to speak out.
My body gradually recovered and my appetite improved a lot. One day, I was copying books in my room when I heard footsteps approaching. I couldn't help raising my head, and I saw a man in a brown and yellow shirt, walking towards me from a distance.
"Young Master." He stood still five steps away from me and called me softly.
Every time Lu Qingsu came over, he picked the right time. Now, only me and him, there is no third person. Since that day, he has not appeared in front of me. When I came here today, I knew that he must have something to say to me.
Now, no one in the mansion can control anyone. Lu Qingsu looked at me, as if trying to restrain himself. I put down my pen and said indifferently to him: "Guan Lu has something to say, but it's okay to say it."
Lu Qingsu seemed to have gone through all kinds of struggles, he finally closed his eyes, and slowly bent his knees in front of me. "Get up quickly..." My complexion changed slightly, I hurriedly stood up, and was about to help him. However, Lu Qingsu took a deep breath and said in a deep voice, "I have already made it clear to Mr. Zhang that I will quit."
Hearing this, I was startled, and immediately asked, "Why?"
Lu Qingsu lowered his eyes and said: "Young Master, I'm afraid you don't know, villain... I was originally a slave that Director Zhang bought from Liuxiang in Huajie. Actually, I have been asking people to look for my relatives all these years, and it was not until last year that I got any news. Before returning to Beijing, I went to Jian'an, and finally found my mother. She is old and lonely, so I decided to take good care of her for the rest of my life. Therefore, this time I returned to Beijing , I have already made up my mind, and I will explain my intention to the manager.”
It turned out that Lu Qingsu came back this time to bid farewell to the Xu Mansion.
"My lord has also fulfilled my filial piety. Today, I ordered the manager to return my contract of sale to me." His eyes were slightly red, and he said, "... Now, I am finally free."
Hearing this, my eyes couldn't help but turn red. I was shocked in my heart, but now I feel sincerely happy for him. With mixed feelings, I looked at him and said, "Isn't this a happy event, why are you kneeling?"
Lu Qingsu stared, and grabbed my wrist suddenly.
I was startled suddenly.
Lu Qingsu stared at me with his face up, he finally stopped hiding, those deep pool-like eyes showed affection, as if he wanted to drown people. At that moment, I forgot to push him away because I seemed to see my former self from him. Once, I also used this kind of gaze to look deeply at a person.
"Young Master, I know, if you say this, you may be struck by lightning in the future, and you will die." Lu Qingsu said hoarsely, "Xu's mansion is now riddled with holes, and it is not an exaggeration to say that it is in danger. May be angry at any time... "
I looked at him and asked, "...what exactly are you trying to say?"
Lu Qingsu raised his eyes and looked at me fixedly. I heard him say: "—If you don't leave now, you won't have another chance."
To me, this sentence is like thunder on the ground. For a moment, I was stunned.
After being speechless for a while, suddenly, I withdrew my hand vigorously, as if standing in front of some scourge, I took a few steps back and bumped into the case. Lu Qingsu stood up quickly and was about to come over to support me, but I asked: "Do you know what you are talking about...!"
Lu Qingsu clenched his hands gradually, and he also said as if he was going all out: "Once the eldest young master goes out to fight, if something bad happens, the whole Xu family may not be able to protect themselves. Now, no matter who it is, no one can take care of others. Your body—" He stopped suddenly, I looked at him with red eyes, I couldn't guess what he was going to say.
If a wife with a scorpion can't bear children, her status will be inferior to that of a lowly concubine. Even if the Xu family does not fall, I will not be able to protect myself sooner or later. Why don't I understand this truth.
Lu Qingsu stared at me, and finally couldn't bear to say: "I already understand that you... don't have that kind of affection for me." He sighed, and said sincerely: "I can swear to God, as long as you are willing, I will be your brother in this life. Proportionate, never presumptuous."
The words have come to this point, no matter how much they say, it will be in vain.
At the end, Lu Qingsu said: "Three days later, Maoshi. I have arranged everything. As long as you step out of the back door, someone will come to meet you." He closed his eyes in pain, and said lightly: "I will wait for you at the ferry."
I don't know when Lu Qingsu left. I sat down on the chair, looking dazed. I sat alone until the lights came on, and the maid came in and cut the candles.
I stood up suddenly, grabbed someone and asked: "Officer... the young master is back?"
The maid was startled by me, and said in a low voice: "Hui, Hui Shaojun... I don't know, I don't know..."
I looked at her with a panicked look, and instantly woke up. I just remembered that Xu Changfeng was in the camp and only returned to his residence once a month. Xu Yanqing went to Xianyang and didn't tell me when she would come back. Xu Qihe had a fever the day before yesterday. He didn't recognize me when I was by his side. Come.
Three days later, the weather was perfect.
I was writing in the room, and as soon as Yinping walked in, I asked her: "Now, what time is it?"
Yinping responded: "Return to Shaojun, it's already Chen's time."
The fragrance of ink was lingering, I closed my eyes and said: "Go out, you don't have to wait by my side."
"yes."
I think of that day, when the apricot blossoms fell and the white silk fluttered gently. He helped me up, walked a few steps away, and looked back at me quietly. I remembered again that he was standing not far away, watching from afar. I remembered again that he looked at me and gently lowered the bead curtain in front of the phoenix crown for me. At that time, I had never experienced love, nor had I ever tasted bone-piercing feelings. My nostalgia for him sprouted at the beginning, but after all, I still haven't waited for the day to blossom and bear fruit.
From then on, I never saw Lu Qingsu again in my whole life.