I lay in bed for a full month before I could get out of bed. Later, I rested for a long time.
It is heard that the eldest lady Yu woke up one night, took a sword that she found out from nowhere, and went straight to the mansion of the master of the Xu family, and stabbed the master in the shoulder with the sword.
Yu's hair was disheveled, but her face was covered with heavy makeup. She watched the blood gushing out, and said with a hateful smile: "Sanlang, do you still remember what you promised Xiulan on the East Gate Bridge in Huaiyang?"
After that, the servants broke in and suppressed Mrs. Yu. However, Mrs. Yu burst into tears and laughed a lot. After seeing the doctor, she said that the lady had suffered from dementia, and the medicine was useless.
As for Xu Shangshu, he made it clear to Jinshang that he wanted to become an official, and he tried to persuade him to stay again and again, but in the end he was allowed to play. Xu Shangshu took Yu Shi to Puzhou to cultivate and all kinds of things happened after I left Xu's house.
That year, September.
My complexion is getting better, and both my body and my vitality have recovered to 70% to 80%. On this day, Xu Yanqing came to see me with her baby in her arms.
Just look at him sitting on the chair, holding the baby in one hand, holding a bell in the other hand, making a crisp sound when shaking: "Baby, come, give your daddy a smile—"
I sat on the edge and watched quietly, I didn't walk over, and I didn't take the child over to have a look. Or, it should be said, I have never hugged him since he was born. However, this child is still the long-awaited descendant of the Xu family, and there is no lack of love from birth, especially Xu Yanqing. Except for going to the Yamen, he spends most of the rest of his time with the child, which makes the servants secretly laugh at him. , This is wishing to tie the young master to the waist of his trousers. And since having this child, the gloom in Xu Yanqing's eyes seemed to dissipate in an instant, and the hostility between her brows also decreased a bit.
"Laughed, laughed!" Xu Yanqing managed to get the child to giggle, and hurriedly hugged him, and said to me like offering a treasure, "Look, he smiled—"
I glanced at the swaddling baby indifferently, then looked away.
Xu Yanqing paused, but said nothing. Later, for some unknown reason, the little baby suddenly burst into tears, and the nanny came over and said, "Second young master, let the villain come."
After they withdrew, it was just me and him.
Xu Yanqing's hand loosened, then loosened again. Just like that, after being silent for a long time, he still said: "It's going to be cold, remember to add two more clothes." He was quiet, and then said, "Your body is not as good as before, don't catch a cold. "
Hearing the sound, I just nodded my head lightly and remained silent.
From the time I ran away from home and was arrested, locked up in the backyard of the Xu Mansion, guarded by more than a dozen people, until I gave birth, I never stepped out of this courtyard again. Also since then, I have never said a word to any of them.
Xu Yanqing only sat there for a while, he is no longer the dandy he used to be, and there are a lot of things in the Ministry of Punishment, which are still waiting for him to deal with. He only asked me a few words, then stood up, opened the door curtain, and took a step, I said suddenly: "Second young master."
He froze, and after a few breaths, he turned around abruptly.
"You..." The expression on his face, I don't know whether it is joy or sadness: "But you are calling me?"
I stood in the mottled light and shadow, my eyes were as quiet as ancient pools.
"Can you invite the two young masters over here," I said, "Jing Ting has something to say to the three young masters."
Later, when Xu Changfeng returned to Xu Mansion, everyone was there.
The small window was slightly open, the breeze was blowing, and the autumn light was shining. I slowly turned my eyes back, and the faces of the three people in front of me seemed to become unreal. "You want..." I don't know who said it first.
"And leave?"
The sound of "Harmony" seemed to be stuck in the throat for a long time before it came out. Very light, very slow.
I saw that the three of them sat on one side of each other, their faces were numb, dazed, and there were some expressions that I couldn't understand. Then, a cough sounded, echoing for a long time in the dark room.
"Why?" Xu Changfeng asked. His face was as deep as water, and his eyes were hidden under the long eyelashes, so he couldn't see clearly.
I already knew that he would ask such a question, so I sat upright and said in a calm voice: "There are four commandments on the buttocks, one is infertility, the other is not going well, the third is fornication, and the fourth is evil disease. Only these four, respect Ting committed two crimes. First, I escaped from the mansion privately and refused to admit my mistake after being captured by my husband. The branches and leaves are scattered, honoring the clan." I lowered my eyes and said slowly, "Now, the Jingting Pavilion has passed away, and I can no longer have children in this life. This is the great sin of infertility."
In this world, there are thousands of rules. Some mistakes can be forgiven no matter how many times they are committed. There are also some, which are not wrong at all, but they are deeply implanted. You don’t recognize it, people around you don’t recognize it, but the world doesn’t necessarily deny it.
After a moment of silence, there was a sudden noise. Seeing that Xu Yanqing was about to stand up, I called out to him: "Second Young Master, please stay."
The cold eyes were cast, as if he was holding back, and said: "Whoever dares to speak unscrupulously after the young master, I will go down and replace everyone... Look who dares to say a word."
I just said: "Second young master can seal the mouths of the subordinates, but can you seal the mouths of the elders of the Xu clan?" I then said, "Even the second young master, you have great ability, and you may be able to seal the mouths of the world Mouth?"
Xu Yanqing was stunned, her eyes fixed on me.
The coughing gradually stopped, and the other pair of eyes looked over. Xu Qihe's face was pale, he put down his sleeves, looked at me, and quietly turned his eyes away, and said in a hoarse voice: "After all, it's the people in this world who forced you..."
"—or, is it you who want to leave?"
I naturally know that the three of them, no matter which one is extremely intelligent. The other two are not impenetrable, but only Xu Qihe speaks the most clearly. Don't make people feel better, and don't make yourself feel better.
After the silence, I should say, "That's right, I'm the one going."
When the words came out, there was a dead silence.
I raised my eyes, looked at them, and said: "In the past, even though Jingting was a concubine, even though he was humble, he was still free."
I looked at Xu Changfeng and said, "Eldest Young Master, you said that a man's ambition is everywhere. Although Jing Ting has no ambitions, he had aspirations." I looked at Xu Yanqing again, "Second Young Master, you have read a lot of poetry and books. , You should know that there is a saying in ancient poems, don’t forget the spring wishes at the end of the year. If a person has no hope, he is just a walking corpse." I looked at Xu Qihe again, "Third young master, you still remember that you said that you are not willing. Because of your body, I am unwilling, but I can look forward to the future after all. I am also because of my body, but I don't have this future to look forward to."
"The three young masters and I have never met before. In this life, there should be no fate." I said to them with twitching eyes, "If it wasn't for Jing Ting's greed for life and Shen's greed for glory, there wouldn't be such a fate."
Everything has a cause and effect, and people should not be greedy after all.
Back then, if my aunt hadn't been greedy and insisted on begging my father to take me to Beijing, I wouldn't have been exposed like this. Back then, if the Shen family hadn't been greedy for vanity, I wouldn't have married into Xu's mansion on behalf of Fifth Sister. At the beginning, if I hadn't been greedy for life and afraid of death, I wouldn't have suffered all kinds of suffering. After all, it is a wrong step, a wrong step, everyone has his own destiny, so we should not cling to delusions.
Finally, I stood up: "Shen's Jingting is immoral and blunt. He has committed the crime of infertility and has a different intention. He thinks he has no face and will take on the title of Xu's young master. Now I ask for peace and separation, and I implore my husband." I agree." Then he bowed down and saluted the three husbands.
I only gave birth to a scorpion for Mrs. Xu, even if I have merit, if Mrs. Xu is broken, I will not be able to make up for it. And I don't want to have a fate like Xiao Chen's in the future, and I can't help myself for the rest of my life.
Today, they won't let me go. Given time, I still have to go.
After waiting for half a stick of incense, Xu Changfeng stood up. He didn't say yes or no, I only heard the footsteps gradually going away. After that, Xu Qihe also got up, his face was as pale as paper, and he said with a fishy breath: "You decide for yourself." He said hoarsely, "I can't control it anymore."
People walked out one by one, and I stood up slowly, the light and shadows were sparse, and only Xu Yanqing and I were left.
The shadow gradually came over, and at some point, he was already standing by my side. I turned my head and looked at him calmly. Xu Yanqing looked dazed and lost her soul. Without blinking, he stared at me intently. Slowly, he bent his knees and knelt in front of my eyes. He opened his arms and hugged my waist, like a child, buried his head in my arms with infinite nostalgia.
I stretched out my hand, and gently stroked the ends of his hair with trembling palms. His shoulders were trembling, I closed my eyes and hugged him quietly.
The day I left Xu's mansion, the autumn wind was cold and the leaves were falling like rain, which was a good time.
A cloth shoe stepped on the wooden sill, and no one came to see me off in the back house of the Xu Mansion, only Zhang Yuan took care of me and escorted me out of Beijing.
After Zhang Yuan and Zhang Luo finished, they came over and said, "Young Master, the sedan chair is ready."
I said to him, "Director Zhang, you don't need to call me Young Master anymore."
But Zhang Yuan respectfully replied: "The young master has not reconciled with the young masters for a day, and he is still the young master of the Xu family, and he is still the master of the villain."
I closed my eyes, didn't say anything, just followed him - after all, I still can't make peace without them. On that day, Xu Yanqing stood with her hands behind her back and did not look back at me.
"I will never agree." His voice was calm, "You are the wife I, Xu Yanqing Mingmei, is marrying. No matter where you go, you are still mine."
I looked at the majestic red-lacquered gate, the plaque hanging above it, and the golden word "Xu Fu". Until I retracted my gaze and was about to turn my head, out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of the figure standing behind the door.
Xu Qihe was dressed in plain white, standing in the bleak autumn light, like a peaceful painting.
He raised the corner of his mouth when he saw me looking at him, his eyebrows and eyes were indeed picturesque, as elegant as a lotus. He came over, looked at me for a while, and said, "It's fine if you look like this."
Seeing that I was dressed in Tsing Yi, my waist-length black hair had been cut short, and I was wearing a scarf. I looked like an ordinary scholar with a more delicate appearance.
I couldn't help but smile, and said in a gentle tone: "The weather is cold, young master, let's go in."
When I turned around, he said, "Wait."
I stop. Xu Qihe's eyes sparkled, as if covered by a layer of autumn water, and his smile was like a flower. He said to me, "I'll wait for you to come back."
"But, I can't wait for you for too long." He said softly, "I can only wait for you until the moment I die."
My trip this time is by water. From the capital to Bianzhou, it takes a month to travel by water, but I remember someone once said that traveling in Shenzhou by boat has boundless scenery along the way. I thought, if I was two or three months late, my aunt would not blame me.
I walked down the stone steps and was about to step on the sedan chair. At this moment, there was a long hiss of a horse.
Xu Changfeng arrived on horseback. Looking up, he saw circles of halos, and he was sitting astride his horse, his dark red cloak fluttering lightly, looking majestic.
"Come up." He lowered his head and stretched out his arms towards me: "I'll see you off."
After that, he led me on the horse, and with both hands came back from behind, he took the rein. He yelled: "Drive!"
We drove out of Beijing on horseback. It was a long journey, the capital was getting farther and farther away, and the arm around me behind my back was getting tighter and tighter.
Suddenly, a voice came from behind: "As long as you say a word, I will take you away."
"All over the world, wherever you want to go, I will go with you."
"As long as you say a word."
I held the rein tightly and didn't look back from the beginning to the end. The cool wind was dazzling and dried the last bit of moisture in my eyes. The horseshoe gradually slowed down, and we all saw the ferry. There were all kinds of people at the ferry, and there was a lot of noise. After waiting for a while, Zhang Yuan arrived with people.
When I dismounted, Xu Changfeng was about to catch me, but I shook my head: "I can do it myself." I jumped off, and I was a little unstable when I landed, but luckily I didn't fall.
"The boatman is already waiting, and you can set off at any time." Zhang Yuan walked over and said.
I turned my head, raised my head and said goodbye to Xu Changfeng: "Take care of yourself."
Then, I followed Zhang Yuan and others to the ferry, opened the curtain, and sat in the boat tent. Then, the ship swayed, and I poked my head out and looked into the distance. The surrounding scenery gradually changed, from crowded to sparsely populated, from plains to mountains.
I finally left the capital.