These days, I have been rushing to draft the manuscript all night, and now I have slowed down a little.
People are very tired, and the heart is even more tired; think a few words, say a few words.
The end of the full attendance game will cause dissatisfaction among everyone, I know that.
But I think that not everyone can understand now... For the end of this matter, I am the last one, and the one that is the least reconciled.
I don't like giving up halfway, and I don't like breaking my promise.
I was so struggling and miserable when I realized I had to give up, but I didn't even have time to deal with the emotion because I still had writing assignments that had to be done.
I also thought about forcing the update on the horror side. In fact, I insisted on writing the chapter on the 17th, but the time and energy were really not allowed, and there was no way to continue.
The good news is that most readers still understand me, and I would like to say sorry to these readers once again, for failing to live up to your expectations.
If some of my words from now on hurt your feelings, I also hope that you will not misunderstand that I did not say those words to you.
I was talking to another group of people.
There are indeed many people reading my book now, so there is such a group of people.
These uncles don't care about or understand other people's situation. Maybe only when "emergencies" happen to them, they will take the series of compromises that follow for granted, but when it is put on others, they will ignore.
Even though I've been writing for so many years, I've been doing my best to fulfill every promise I've made, and it doesn't make sense to these people; if I break a promise even once, they will say "you talk like fart, backtrack ".
Then I think that these people have either never broken their promises due to any objective factors in their entire lives, or they simply lack the most basic tolerance, understanding, and respect for others.
This has nothing to do with watching genuine or pirated versions, I am not targeting this point, because some of these uncles also watch genuine ones.
I don't know what kind of environment these people grew up in, what kind of education they received, and what kind of cognition they have, so that they think that the author seems to owe them something, and that as a "consumer", he is superior to others.
Even if I sell calligraphy for a living, if I take other people’s money, and others take my calligraphy, there is no obligation to both. Why should I bow my knees
This world is fair. I naturally greet those friends who really support me and like me with a smile. I will admit my mistakes to them. I don’t ask for forgiveness, and I don’t need you to understand my inhumane behavior. Struggling and giving, but I sincerely say to you, I am sorry.
As for those old men, I don't think I have any need to respect, or kneel and lick a group of people who don't know what respect is like you expect.
You can play in an environment that welcomes you and affords you that pathetic sense of superiority without being uncomfortable with me.
I have never told my readers that I like to read and don't read; I have always used this attitude towards those old men. Seriously, these people, if you want to leave, leave as soon as possible, and don’t always think that if you are missing in a certain place, you will suffer a lot of loss, you will be shocked when you leave, and others will be sad and shocked.
The world would go on as usual without anyone, and it would be the same without me, a writer.
In the end, for not being able to complete the game, I also say sorry to you guys, because I also broke my promise to you. Because after all, I am still a person who knows how to respect others, no matter whether these people are worthy of my respect or not, as far as the facts are concerned, I was wrong.
Okay, it's almost over.
Many people say that I have changed.
Perhaps.
I used to not write single chapters because I didn't like writing.
A few years ago, the first single chapter I wrote was asked by the editor at the time.
I've been advised by more than one person - there's food for birds that sing, I should get more for myself, I should get readers into the habit of voting, etc. etc.
So, I also started writing some single chapters. I try my best to write a single chapter well, even if it is a somewhat utilitarian text, I want to use them to bring happiness to others. I try not to directly ask for tickets as much as possible, because I have a psychological resistance. So I came up with the full attendance game. As a person who updates very slowly, I use some hard indicators and my most important "commitment" to restrain myself.
I didn't expect such an ending after an unexpected situation.
I am still very grateful to those readers who treat me sincerely, and I will not feel cold for those who do not respect me at all.
Perhaps, this is also an opportunity for me to return to the original state.
I want to tell you that, in fact, I have not changed.
I am a person who is difficult to change. What changes is the audience and the world.
I still haven’t been to a starting point writer’s gathering. I try not to attend any activities that have nothing to do with writing itself. I’m still writing the stories I want to write. Whether you just glance at it or read it carefully, every chapter of mine is written with care and a long time.
What kind of mood and effort was used to write my first book and chapter, and I am still writing it now.
Even if I write slowly and work hard, my bottom line will not change. I have to be responsible for the work and pass my own test.
Maybe you have grown up, the world has improved, and I have stayed where I am.
But I think it's fine.
I have nothing to do in the future, and I will not post content other than the main text.
As I quoted the former captain of the 5th Division many years ago: "Worship is the feeling that is the furthest away from understanding."
I think I should step back to a more appropriate distance, and use the simplest words in the story to communicate with you again.
At least for now, I think it's better this way.