"Lao Yao didn't think about it anymore. I understood him, and I helped him. I was going to donate his legacy to a scientific research organization that studies quantum effects. It was a Chinese research laboratory. This research laboratory was accidentally contacted because of work. . Later I thought about it carefully, this thing is not inoperable, although it may not achieve his intention... "
"Why?" Zhou Luoyang suddenly asked.
Du Jing was startled, and Zhou Luoyang said as if no one was beside him: "Why did you leave without saying goodbye three years ago, and after you left, would you join an intelligence company?"
When the food was served in the restaurant, Le Yao silently swiped his phone.
Du Jing was silent for a moment, then said, "Are you sure you want me to tell?"
Zhou Luoyang wanted to say "sure", but he didn't say it.
"You are such a person," Zhou Luoyang smiled sadly and said, "Do whatever you want, and suddenly think of sitting outside in the middle of the night."
Du Jing said: "It doesn't really matter, I have my own logic in doing things, but many times..."
Le Yao gently picked up this sentence: "...Ordinary people can't understand it."
Du Jingjing nodded, raised his palm, and patted Le Yao with each other. Le Yao laughed and said, "Brother doesn't quite understand my thoughts."
Du Jing: "But he always prides himself on being meticulous and understanding."
"Hey!" Zhou Luoyang said, "What does this mean?"
The atmosphere became a little more relaxed, Du Jing glanced at Le Yao and cut him the steak from the sea and land dinner, while Le Yao stared at the watch Zhou Luoyang gave him on Du Jing's wrist.
Du Jing added: "During the time, there was a person in charge in Changyi who met me through that research laboratory. He happened to want to resign, so he recommended me to Li Liangyi and asked me if I was interested in coming back. The person who was looking for me happened to be Also surnamed Zhou."
"It happens to be Zhou?" Zhou Luoyang said.
"It just so happens that the surname is Zhou." Du Jingjing said, handing the plate to Le Yao.
"Is that why you came back?" Le Yao asked with a smile.
Du Jing said, "It's one of them, mainly because I miss him." Saying that, Zhao Le Yao motioned to Zhou Luoyang, who was sitting beside him.
"So I became a returnee star agent in the company." Zhou Luoyang said relievedly, and made a little mockery.
Du Jing didn't say a word, and accepted all of it.
Zhou Luoyang asked again: "What kind of company is Changyi?"
"The informal institutions under Guoan," Du Jing said, "have undergone a major and traumatic rectification in the middle. Now the situation is much better. The best thing about the domestic environment is safety."
Zhou Luoyang understands what he said. Compared with the United States, Mexico and Europe, the domestic security environment is quite good. Although the infiltration and activities have increased after the reform, the counter-espionage work in the mainland has been done very well, partly because domestic The system is relatively complete, and another part is because China is all yellow people, unlike other countries, where there are a large number of immigrants.
"How long are you going to do it?" Zhou Luoyang asked, this is the question he is most concerned about at this stage.
Du Jing said: "It depends on the situation. Money is needed. The salary offered by Changyi is still considerable, and there are not so many interpersonal relationships to deal with. I do things for them, and they pay me."
Le Yao asked, "Is it dangerous?"
"It's not dangerous," Du Jing said lightly. "Risks and benefits coexist."
Le Yao's expression seemed to want to ask "Are you short of money?", but held back.
Zhou Luoyang didn't ask any further questions, and said lightly, "I've found a job, and I'll go for an interview the day after tomorrow."
Du Jing frowned slightly and said, "Are you sure? I still have money, I'll give it to you."
Du Jing was about to touch the phone, but Zhou Luoyang said, "No." Then he smiled again: "You have invited me to dinner."
Du Jing suddenly stopped, staring at Zhou Luoyang with a little strangeness in his eyes. Zhou Luoyang thought for a moment and said, "I'll go to work and see, if I can't do it, let's talk about it."
Du Jing said, "Are you serious?"
Zhou Luoyang nodded.
Le Yao sensed that the atmosphere was wrong and said, "Where do you live in Wanshi? Didn't you say you want to move to our house?"
Du Jing didn't say anything, Zhou Luoyang was a little depressed, thinking that he should start again.
"Are you uncomfortable?" Zhou Luoyang asked.
"No." Du Jing replied, "Eat, I'll send you back after eating."
Le Yao glanced at his brother in surprise, Zhou Luoyang indicated with his eyes that he didn't need to ask, he still had something to say to Du Jing, but he could only say it in private, and he couldn't be sure, whether it was serious or not, and would it irritate Du Jing? scene.
The banquet was so cold all of a sudden, after the low pressure ended, Du Jing paid the bill and sent the brothers back. After opening the door, Du Jing didn't follow him in. He said to Zhou Luoyang outside the door, "Sorry, I hurt your self-esteem today."
"It's not like that." Zhou Luoyang finally waited for the clarification, and wanted to say a few more words, but Du Jing said: "Accompany him more."
Saying that he didn't give Zhou Luoyang a chance to explain, he turned and went downstairs.
Zhou Luoyang rubbed his brows, feeling a little distressed.
"Is he financially difficult?" Le Yao was able to move freely, relying on his wheelchair to travel around the house.
Zhou Luoyang thought to himself: He is not difficult, the reason why he makes money is that our economy is very difficult.
"Le Yao." Zhou Luoyang sat down on the sofa, motioned his brother to come over, and wanted to have a good talk with him, and massaged his legs to prevent muscle atrophy.
Le Yao stopped, as if he had expected what his brother was going to say.
"Du Jing is my very good friend." Zhou Luoyang said.
Le Yao said, "Brother, do you remember our appointment?"
Zhou Luoyang said: "I remember, but I still care about your thoughts, because you are my brother."
After Le Yao woke up in a car accident that day, the only thing he saw was his brother, and he quickly realized that all his relatives were gone.
Zhou Luoyang stayed with him in the ward until one day, when he pushed his younger brother out in a wheelchair, and when he was walking in the garden of Tokyo University Affiliated Hospital, Le Yao asked him, "Are we going to live together in the future?"
"Well," Zhou Luoyang said, "Brother will take care of you. Mom and Dad didn't leave, they will accompany you."
"Then you have to promise me one thing," Le Yao said with a smile, "I can only promise you."
"What?" Zhou Luoyang asked.
"Whoever you want to be with and what you want to do, don't worry about me." Le Yao said.
Zhou Luoyang didn't think about it, nodded and said, "I promise you, but you won't drag me down, don't think like that, Le Yao."
In the living room, the two brothers were relatively quiet.
Le Yao suddenly asked, "I'm just curious, since you two have such a good relationship, why did you separate three years ago?"
Zhou Luoyang struggled to find words, not wanting to cause misunderstanding by his younger brother, and said: "I had a fight with Du Jing in junior year, maybe he realized that his illness was a little serious, or he didn't want to destroy the beautiful relationship. ? Anyway, he just left."
Le Yao said, "Did he notice that he was afraid that you liked him? That's why he alienated you?"
Zhou Luoyang: "…"
You are really fit to go to the FBI. Zhou Luoyang thought to himself that this was also a heart disease between them, and Le Yao only observed him and Du Jing getting along three times and found out.
Perhaps in the last days, Zhou Luoyang has already exceeded the limit of friendship a bit. He felt it, so he tried to control himself, not to think in that way.
Du Jing also felt that the situation between them began to become a little unnatural.
And Zhou Luoyang himself is not quite sure whether it is love, or is it accustomed to each other, like a family-like company. Ultimately he understood the relationship as some kind of emotional delusion.
Zhou Luoyang: "But I don't. Do you think we look like gay lovers?"
Le Yao said, "I can see that you are in a good relationship."
"That's because he has no one else to rely on," Zhou Luoyang said finally, "emotionally."
"What about you?" Le Yao asked, "We've been talking about him, what do you think?"
Zhou Luoyang didn't answer and was still thinking.
Le Yao smiled and said, "I will accept whoever you accept, brother, you don't have to care about me too much, it's just... I just think... "
Le Yao was also thinking about the words with difficulty, and the expression was exactly the same as Zhou Luoyang.
Zhou Luoyang looked at his younger brother with mixed expressions, they were born differently. Le Yao grew up in Japan and was deeply influenced by Japanese culture, and the most deeply rooted part of Japanese culture since childhood is:
Don't cause trouble.
The idea of "guilty" is stubbornly rooted in everyone's heart. From the derailment of the Shinkansen to the sorting of garbage, everyone tries to avoid causing trouble to others. Le Yao has the blood of the Japanese inside, and the outside also maintains the courtesy and courtesy of the Japanese.
"Just what?" Zhou Luoyang pressed his brother's calf with his palm and asked, "You can say whatever you want. My brother won't mind, we are family."
"It's just..." Le Yao finally said, "Brother, have you been wronging yourself and living for others all these years?"
Zhou Luoyang looked at Le Yao in surprise, wondering why he said that.
Le Yao looked at his brother uneasily, and said, "When you were studying, you had to take care of Du Jing; now you have to take care of me, it must be very hard? I mean, have you ever thought that without these ties and Tired, what kind of person do you really want to be?"
"No, no!" Zhou Luoyang explained immediately, and then he was a little dumbfounded, and said, "Why do you think so? I never thought about it! Whether it's you or Du Jing, you are all very important to me. Important people, I don't think you are at all..."
Le Yao interrupted Zhou Luoyang's words: "Yes, you are just used to it, including grandpa's shop, you always feel that you are responsible for 'what kind of person you should be', but not 'what kind of person you want to be'... "
"No!" Zhou Luoyang said sternly, "Le Yao, I know exactly what I want."
Le Yao looked at his brother quietly, Zhou Luoyang patted his head vigorously and said, "Everything I do is chosen by myself, there is no situation where I am forced to do so, I am willing to do it."
Le Yao said, "Well, I just think that if there are two patients at home to take care of, I'm afraid you will have more trouble."
"He doesn't always do this," Zhou Luoyang said a little apologetically, "sometimes I can't help but think... forget it."
Le Yao said: "Are you afraid that you will bring him more emotional fluctuations? But I think he knows this very well, but he still can't live without you. You are really important to him."
Zhou Luoyang has always felt guilt over the years. He sometimes recalled whether it was because their relationship was too deep. Later, Du Jing paid more and more attention to his words and deeds, which eventually led to his aggravation of illness.
"Let him move in," Le Yao said. "I'll get along with him well. Besides, I'm not at home very often. If you think he won't affect you, then of course it's best."
"Well." Zhou Luoyang nodded. Le Yao was obviously a little tired, so Zhou Luoyang pushed him back to the room.
"When will you meet again?" Le Yao asked before turning off the lights, "Did he contact you when he returns to China?"
"What?" Zhou Luoyang was in a trance, and immediately understood and explained, "On the day we went out to talk about partnership, September 7th."
"Good night." Le Yao smiled.
"Good night."
Zhou Luoyang turned off the lights. For some reason, he felt that Le Yao was a little overhearted in the last sentence. Could it be that he suspected that he and Du Jing had already met before sending his younger brother to the school dormitory? But he quickly dismissed the idea, convincing himself not to speculate, without explaining.
He went to bed a little tired.
Yes, you have your own set of logic in your actions and speech, but this logic is often not understood by ordinary people.
Zhou Luoyang thought he already knew Du Jing very well, but hearing Du Jing say this today still made him a little sad.
"What kind of person should I be?" and "What kind of person do I want to be?" Du Jing also asked him about this.
It was the winter when he learned about Du Jing's illness. Hangzhou was very cold that year, and the final exam came and ended soon. Zhou Luoyang has never had any suspense in his studies, and easily achieved a high score, while Du Jing won the first place in the department.
Zhou Luoyang rarely sees Du Jing brushing questions—this roommate's IQ makes him jealous. He only needs to read the book from beginning to end, then use a pencil to do the exercises after class, and occasionally look up at the blackboard in class. Write the calculations in the book, and you will understand it all. Zhou Luoyang's professional classes often take one or two classes in the morning. He can't get up, so Du Jing occasionally attends classes for him. As a result, he is an automation major, and his mechanics are better than Zhou Luoyang.
Du Jing didn't even buy the materials for the sixth-level exam, he just passed it once. Zhou Luoyang was studying with him, and he was simply complaining.
Du Jing is a talented type, but Zhou Luoyang is a diligent type. He feels that he is always chasing behind Du Jing, running exhausted, so Du Jing has to stop and wait for him from time to time.
"Don't you want the scholarship?" It was the first time that Zhou Luoyang heard that someone gave up the first-place scholarship.
"Leave it to those in need." Du Jing said.
After the final exam, Zhou Luoyang thought of being separated from Du Jing for the whole winter vacation, and suddenly felt very reluctant.
"Where did you go during the winter vacation?" Zhou Luoyang began to buy tickets.
"I didn't think about it, what about you?" Du Jing's condition has improved recently. After talking to Zhou Luoyang, it made them feel a lot more relaxed, and the two of them got along much more calmly.
Zhou Luoyang thought about it and said, "I didn't think about it either, or..."
Du Jing said, "Aren't you going to Japan?"
They both grew up in remarried families, and they had a certain tacit understanding with each other. This tacit understanding is needless to say. Zhou Luoyang felt it the first day he met him.
"Maybe go to Nara for a hot spring? Or go back to Wanshi to see Grandpa."
Zhou Luoyang's father remarried and lived in Tokyo, while his mother had almost no contact. His grandfather and aunt lived in Wanshi. In fact, Zhou Luoyang didn't really want to go to either place.
"Japan's winter is very good," Du Jing added, "I haven't been there yet, maybe go back to Southern California, or go to Barcelona."
Zhou Luoyang remembered that Du Jing had no place to live in China and no family.
"Would you like to come to my house for the New Year?" Zhou Luoyang still sent an invitation to Du Jing, saying, "I'm the only one at home."
Zhou Luoyang's family has a suite in Huizhou, leaving him to live alone. At least he has a place to go during winter and summer vacations. He can invite his classmates to eat, eat and play at home, even if he doesn't want to stay at home for too long.
Du Jing said, "No, you still want to make an appointment with your classmates when you go back. Occasionally you want to go out temporarily, so it's inconvenient to travel together."
A few days ago, Zhou Luoyang's high school classmate Fang Zhou called him, and Du Jing heard it.
"Then... I just bought my own ticket," Zhou Luoyang said, "I'll be back sooner."
Du Jing: "I'll take you back?"
Zhou Luoyang said: "No no, look, I have bought the ticket."
Du Jing was silent, and after a full minute, he said, "Then I'll take you to the station."
Du Jing took Zhou Luoyang to the off-campus parking lot, put his hand in his trouser pocket, and pressed the key to get off the car. The headlights of a Mercedes-Benz GLK came on and the door opened.
Zhou Luoyang was shocked and said, "When did you buy the car?"
Du Jingyun said lightly, "The day before yesterday, you said this car was handsome, so I bought it."
Zhou Luoyang said, "We don't usually use cars very often."
"I originally wanted to drive you back to Huizhou," Du Jing said, "I would like to play around on the road, but you have already bought your ticket."
Zhou Luoyang: "..."
"I refunded the ticket," Zhou Luoyang said. "Come to my house for the New Year."
"No," Du Jing said, "you already bought the tickets."
Zhou Luoyang: "You can retire..."
"I said, no!" Du Jing repeated.
Zhou Luoyang felt Du Jing's irritability and stopped talking.
"I may have changed my stage recently," Du Jing said after a while, "the tone just now was purely unconscious, and I didn't control myself. I'm sorry, Luoyang."
Zhou Luoyang looked at Du Jing worriedly and said, "It doesn't matter, you are angry with me. You didn't force it, but I feel better. Is it manic now?"
Du Jingjing nodded and said, "When things don't meet my expectations, it's easy to feel uncomfortable. Don't pay attention to me. I'll take it slow."
Zhou Luoyang said: "You should say it first."
Du Jing had his own insistence and said, "You have already booked your ticket, but I am very happy that you invited me to your house for the Chinese New Year."
Du Jing has lived abroad for many years. His stepfather's family does not have the habit of celebrating the Chinese New Year. When he was a child, whenever the Chinese New Year was celebrated, his mother would stand at the table with him, make dumplings and eat them by himself. After returning to China, he was not too obsessed with the Chinese New Year. As long as he found something to do, the winter vacation was over.
"If you don't go to Spain or the United States, you must come to my house." Zhou Luoyang said goodbye to Du Jing outside the station.
Du Jing nodded perfunctorily, and Zhou Luoyang said again, "You promised me."
"Okay." Du Jing said, "Go back and pay attention to safety."
Zhou Luoyang entered the station. After checking the tickets, he walked aside in the huge waiting room and looked out through the three-story wall of French windows, only to see Du Jing still in a daze outside the station.
Zhou Luoyang called Du Jing and said, "Look back."
Du Jing turned his head and searched for a long time. When he saw Zhou Luoyang, the irritable expression disappeared immediately. He tried his best to return to normal, and raised his eyebrows at Zhou Luoyang.
"Why don't you go back?" Zhou Luoyang knew that Du Jing must be very uncomfortable now, he just pretended to be relaxed.
"There's nothing to do when you go back to the dormitory."
Du Jing answered on the phone, walked towards the floor-to-ceiling glass wall, and looked at Zhou Luoyang from outside the wall,
Zhou Luoyang said: "I'm still a little worried, why not..."
"I can take care of myself," Du Jing replied, "don't worry."
Zhou Luoyang raised his hand and pressed it lightly on the glass wall. Du Jing also raised his hand outside the station and pressed him across the glass wall.
"Love you." Zhou Luoyang said seriously, "see you later."
Zhou Luoyang was always very straightforward, but Du Jing was still a shy person, so he replied in English: "Me too."
Zhou Luoyang hung up the phone and returned to his home in Huizhou with concern. While Du Jing was still in the dormitory, Zhou Luoyang would send him a message every morning and noon. Du Jing responded to every question in time. Zhou Luoyang knew that he had not left the school yet, he lived alone, and went to the library to read every day.
In the evening, Zhou Luoyang will make a video call to him to confirm that he is all right. Zhou Luoyang played games at home, while Du Jing bathed, read, fed turtles, and slept according to his dormitory routine.
On the evening of New Year's Eve, Zhou Luoyang and Fang Zhou were drinking and playing dice in a bar. Du Jing didn't wait for Zhou Luoyang's video, so he took the initiative to call. After Zhou Luoyang hung up, he replied: I will go home later today.
"Yo, are you in love?" Fang Zhou asked when he saw Zhou Luoyang's video.
Zhou Luoyang explained: "Roommate."
"Who are you lying to? There's a video at this point," Fang Zhou said. "How could it not be a girl? Let me see it."
"Really not!" Zhou Luoyang said, "I can check your phone for you?"
Fang Zhou glanced at the chat records of Du Jing and Zhou Luoyang, the boy's tone couldn't deceive anyone, and the corners of his mouth twitched when he saw that he was not in a relationship.
"The relationship is still so good." Fang Zhou said with a bit of taste.
Zhou Luoyang asked Fang Zhou to come out. In fact, he had something to do. He asked, "By the way, I remember that your uncle is a psychiatrist. I want to ask him for some advice. Can you help me?"
Fang Zhou said, "Why are you looking for him? He's almost mentally ill."
Zhou Luoyang said: "Consult me about...depression."
Fang Zhou was startled and said, "Do you feel wrong?"
Zhou Luoyang thought for a while and said, "It's a friend from our class... a friend who has depression. I want to ask him how to get along with this kind of patient." He noticed Fang Zhou's expression, so he changed his words: "A female child."
He didn't want Fang Zhou to know that Du Jing had this disease. Maybe they would know each other in the future. In this way, Fang Zhou would not doubt it.
Sure enough, Fang Zhou said: "The girl you want to chase? Have you been diagnosed?"
"I don't like it," Zhou Luoyang said a little guilty, avoiding Fang Zhou's gaze, "I just hope she will be happier."
Fang Zhou said: "Hey, Luoyang, it's not me who said that you'd better not fall in love with a depressed patient. It's very tiring. Once you make a decision, it's a lifetime thing and you can't give up."
Zhou Luoyang repeated: "I don't like it, it's just a friend at the moment. It doesn't matter, I know it."
Fang Zhou had to say, "Okay, I'll contact you for you."
Zhou Luoyang immediately guessed Fang Zhou's thoughts: "You can't convince me, so let your uncle persuade me, right? I really didn't plan to fall in love with her, just to understand."
Fang Zhou didn't believe Zhou Luoyang's excuse at all: "If it's an ordinary friend who has nothing to do with him, how could you take the time to get to know her? To be honest, do you like her?"
Zhou Luoyang had no choice but to remain silent, lest Fang Zhou would make more words.
"What kind of girl?" Fang Zhou approached again and asked.
Zhou Luoyang drank some wine and looked up at Fang Zhou with a threatening look in his eyes - don't blame me for being rude later.