On New Year's Eve on the New Year's Eve, Zhou Luoyang decided to go to the second-hand store in Shinsaibashi, Osaka, to see what second-hand goods could be brought back to the store in Wanshi. After the signing of the Plaza Agreement in the 1980s, which triggered the Great Depression, many Japanese had to sell some of their family heirloom collections in order to survive, and bought second-hand shops, called second-hand shops.
The most used shops are in the Shinsaibashi area. Of course, most of the goods in the shop are luxury bags, watches and so on.
"You should learn from others," Du Jing glanced at the splendid medieval store, tourists came in and out, high-end luxury, and Chang'an clocks and antiques seemed to be two planes, "It's so decorated, it makes people very shopping. want."
Le Yao said, "Yes, I just want to buy them all."
"You should learn from others," Zhou Luoyang retorted, "Does the boss know how much the shop rents here?"
"I said decoration." Du Jing said.
"Go buy us a drink," Zhou Luoyang said, "Le Yao is thirsty, he wants to drink matcha milk coffee."
Du Jing said: "He is obviously not thirsty."
"I'm thirsty." Le Yao smiled.
So Du Jing went to line up to buy drinks. Zhou Luoyang pushed a wheelchair and stopped outside a middle-aged shop, looking at the window.
"Do you want to let him go?" Le Yao said, "What do you want to do?"
Zhou Luoyang said, "Why are you so smart? Do you want to buy something?"
"I don't need to." Le Yao replied.
Zhou Luoyang looked at it one by one, and finally saw a piece of ancient jade from a Japanese collector in a shop window. Judging by the style, it was obviously from China.
"I want to buy something for both of you." Zhou Luoyang said.
"I really don't want it," Le Yao said. "You already gave me an Atlas watch. I can't wear any more."
"Do you think this is suitable for Du Jing?" Zhou Luoyang likes that piece of jade very much. He has liked things with a Chinese flavor since he was a child - a gentleman has no reason, and the jade does not go away. Du Jing had already taken off the Eye of Fan Saidi. Although he still carried it with him when he went out, he no longer wore his wrist. Zhou Luoyang felt that it was necessary to give him some other accessories.
He likes that when boys unbutton their shirt collars and expose their chests, the red ropes around their necks are faintly exposed. Looking down along the red ropes, it is a warm and clean jade pendant. In Chinese customs, jade has protection the power of.
"You can do what you think is suitable." Le Yao said.
Zhou Luoyang's habit since childhood decided that even if his finances were a bit tight, he would ask the price when he saw something that appealed to him.
He pushed Le Yao into the store, and when he came out half an hour later, he was faced with Du Jing's anger.
"Where have you been?!" Du Jing said angrily, "In the blink of an eye and turning around, you ran so far?! Why don't you answer the phone!"
"Am I not here?" Zhou Luoyang couldn't help laughing, "Why are you so fierce?"
Le Yao immediately said, "I want to go into the store and have a look..."
Du Jing ignored Le Yao and said to Zhou Luoyang, "Did you know that I walked down this street three times!"
Zhou Luoyang realized that Du Jing might be ill, and immediately apologized: "I was wrong, I forgot the time when I went shopping."
Fortunately, Du Jing was just normally angry, instead of turning into a mania, he just looked around anxiously and said irritably, "Forget it."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," Zhou Luoyang said, "don't be angry, where's the milk tea?"
"Throw it away." Du Jing said indifferently, and wanted to rebuke Zhou Luoyang, but Zhou Luoyang stood a little innocently and looked at him.
Du Jing then went back to the milk tea shop to get the drinks he had deposited.
"It's getting late, get ready to go for New Year's Eve." Du Jing got into the car and said, "What did you buy?"
Zhou Luoyang sorted out the large and small bags and said, "I went back and bought two clothes for you."
Du Jing put his hand in his left trouser pocket, Zhou Luoyang said unexpectedly: "You also bought something? Why didn't I see it?"
"Nothing." Du Jing said unnaturally.
They entered Universal Studios for the second time in the evening to participate in the all-night New Year's Eve event.
"Hey," said Zhou Luoyang, "are you still angry? I just got lost for a while."
"No." Du Jing said with a strange expression, "I don't want to talk."
Zhou Luoyang asked: "Are you going to change the stage?"
Du Jing didn't fall ill for almost the entire December, but according to Zhou Luoyang's understanding of him, after Du Jing's depression ended, he would stay in a normal state for a long time, until he had a sudden manic attack after a period of time, and then quickly turned into depression. , and then mania, and then depression, two rounds have passed, and then enter a stable period.
"I don't know," Du Jing said, "maybe. If I behave abnormally later, don't pay attention to me, don't let me ruin your New Year."
Zhou Luoyang hesitated, the queue was long and tiring, it seemed that it was not a good idea to go out for New Year's Eve.
Le Yao glanced at Du Jing and said, "Did you not take medicine today?"
"Eat," Du Jingchao Leyao said, "I ate it when I went out."
"It might snow at night," said Zhou Luoyang, "I remember you hardly ever get sick in winter."
Du Jing said: "I like winter, but I'm afraid of spring. When spring comes, I will become abnormal, like a lunatic. You can do whatever you want, just treat me as non-existent."
When they entered Universal Studios, Du Jing said, "I'm not playing anymore. I'll go to the last place. You play with Leyao. Come over later and pay attention to your phone."
Zhou Luoyang did not force Du Jing, but pushed Le Yao to line up the team. After a long day of shopping today, Le Yao was also tired and said, "I don't think we should leave him behind."
"I think so too." Zhou Luoyang suggested, "Let's go find him."
The sky is getting dark, and the bright lights in Universal Studios are lit up. Du Jing sat down at the New Year's Eve event, wearing a black trench coat, staring into the distance in a silent daze. When the two brothers came back, Du Jing glanced and said nothing.
It was getting darker and darker, the three of them watched the stage of the light show together, and tourists came in one after another.
"Is it cold?" Du Jing suddenly asked, "Where's the Huai Furnace?"
"It's for Le Yao." Zhou Luoyang asked Le Yao, "Are you cold?"
"Not at all." Le Yao said.
It's still warm today, and the snow has not yet fallen.
Le Yao bowed his head, turned on the live broadcast of tonight's Red and White concert on his mobile phone, and put on his headphones.
Zhou Luoyang and Du Jing each leaned a small angle.
"Du Jing," Zhou Luoyang said suddenly, "what are you thinking about?"
Du Jing said, "Think about the past."
It was completely dark, and Du Jing was playing with something he didn't know in his hand.
Zhou Luoyang asked, "What are you holding?"
"For you," Du Jing said. "When buying milk tea, I paid extra for it."
Du Jing handed it to Zhou Luoyang and said, "New Year's gift."
It was a small, heart-shaped keychain with liquid and glittering shreds of paper in it, and a little snowman standing on the snow and rocking it.
"I bought this for you at Shinsaibashi." Zhou Luoyang took out the ancient jade and handed it to Du Jing.
Du Jing took it over, and Zhou Luoyang said, "I forgot the time in the bargaining, I'm sorry."
Du Jing didn't speak, holding the ancient jade, he hesitated.
"No," Du Jing suddenly became a little restrained and said, "I was too anxious."
"Du Jing." Zhou Luoyang's heart was beating wildly at this moment.
Le Yao raised his head from the front of the phone, glanced at the two of them, and lowered his head again in the silence.
Du Jing: "What?"
Zhou Luoyang was struggling to find the words. Before going out this time, he thought a lot about their relationship and their future. He wanted to find a suitable time to chat with Du Jing, but every time the words came to his lips. , but always unable to speak.
"You... have you thought about our future?" Zhou Luoyang said nervously.
"How long will it take?" Du Jing said, "a year or ten years? Or further?"
Le Yao suddenly raised his head and said, "I'll go over there and sit for a while."
"No," Zhou Luoyang said, "you sit, don't move your seat."
Le Yao was a little embarrassed, then nodded and lowered his head to look at his phone.
Du Jing looked at Zhou Luoyang from the beginning to the end, his eyes did not leave for half a second.
Zhou Luoyang suddenly laughed and said, "Maybe... I think too much, I thought you understood."
"I understand." Du Jing suddenly said, shifted his position sideways, sat face to face with Zhou Luoyang, stretched out his hand, his fingers tried to touch Zhou Luoyang's face, but shrank back.
The moment Du Jing said "I understand", Zhou Luoyang's heart beat faster and he was almost unable to breathe.
"Yes... Is that so?" Zhou Luoyang thought he heard it wrong, "Is it what I thought? Is it?"
"Yes," Du Jing finally admitted and said, "I felt it a long time ago."
Zhou Luoyang's eyes instantly turned red, and he couldn't believe it.
"You've asked me more than once," Du Jing said, "what do I want most in life, but I dare not tell you, because... because... "
Zhou Luoyang said, "Why? I don't understand."
Du Jing said, "Because I am sick, my disease cannot be cured."
"It doesn't matter," Zhou Luoyang said seriously, "it really doesn't matter."
"It doesn't matter?" Du Jing said.
Zhou Luoyang looked at him intently, and then he leaned over to kiss Du Jing's face.
"No." Du Jing avoided Zhou Luoyang's actions and turned his head away.
"I want to face my emotions seriously," Zhou Luoyang whispered, "I don't want to lie to myself anymore, I don't know when I had this idea, maybe after you came back, maybe after you left Before, anyway…”
"You feel the same way, don't you?" Zhou Luoyang said, "Du Jing, it's like this, I know you've been... It's okay to say that you can't tell the difference, or you don't want to cross the line... "
"No," Du Jing avoided Zhou Luoyang's gaze and said to himself, "No."
Zhou Luoyang was a little sad and said with a smile: "Oh, it's nothing, just be me..."
"No," Du Jing turned his head, looked at Zhou Luoyang, and said, "I love you, Zhou Luoyang."
In an instant, all the tourists cheered together, and the first wave of fireworks took off and bloomed in the night sky.
Before twelve o'clock, Universal's fireworks were set off in batches in advance. In the cheers, neither of them turned their heads. The bright night sky illuminated the scars on Du Jing's face.
And Le Yao didn't look up, he still brushed his phone with his head down.
"You..." Zhou Luoyang's voice trembled, "Can you say it again?"
"I love you, Luoyang." Du Jing said seriously.
Zhou Luoyang's mood at the moment is like that grand fireworks, until everything returns to silence.
"But we can't do this." Du Jing said, "I can't control it. As I said, I can't fall in love, it will make my condition worse. I thought about... alienating you and no longer seeing you, but I can't help it, I'm in more pain. The reason why I came back is to stay by your side, even if I can't live, it's better than being alone."
"I know," Zhou Luoyang replied softly, "it's good, you don't have to blame yourself. At first I was also very entangled, I didn't know what to do... I can only say that no matter what happens, I will be by your side. around."
Speaking, Zhou Luoyang smiled at Du Jing, just like when they met on the first day, he didn't ask for more, that's enough.
Du Jing said, "But do you know what I was thinking about that day?"
"Which day?" Zhou Luoyang asked.
"When you realize that your feelings for you are no longer friends," Du Jing said, "you can treat it as any day."
"What are you thinking?" Zhou Luoyang said, "is that why you left me?"
"Not quite." Du Jing said, "I think, I don't know why, I have the urge. I want to go back to the day of my eighteenth birthday..."
Zhou Luoyang did not speak, but stared at Du Jing blankly.
"... Drive that car, you sit in the passenger seat," Du Jing murmured, "I turned on the music, and it was Eminem's "Stan"."
"We flew off the cliff together, you were by my side, we rushed into death together."
"You ask me, what kind of future do I want. I just want to be with you, back to that day, you'll be with me, and we'll die together."
Du Jing finally said: "So, I love you, but I can't control it, I will destroy myself and I will also destroy you."
Zhou Luoyang didn't speak for a while.
"I know you don't want to do this, and I know you can't understand it." Du Jing said, "I'm a lunatic. Once we pierce this layer of window paper, the pain in the future will only outweigh the pain..."
"Yes," Zhou Luoyang interrupted Du Jing and said, "Yes, Du Jing."
Du Jing: "..."
Du Jing stared blankly at Zhou Luoyang.
"I am willing," said Zhou Luoyang, "I am totally willing. Do you think I will refuse, or use some good reason for life to enlighten you?"
At this moment, the tourists in Universal Studios cheered again. At half past ten, the second wave of fireworks bloomed, overwhelming the sky, forming a heart-shaped pattern on the height of the castle in the light show.
"You..." Du Jing's lips trembled.
"I do." Zhou Luoyang answered Du Jing repeatedly and earnestly, "Listen clearly, Du Jing, I am willing to accompany you to do this. So when do you decide? Let's go together."
After saying that, he looked up at the fleeting fireworks.
"Life is like a white horse passing through a gap, just suddenly." Zhou Luoyang said with a smile, "We are just travelers on white horses, what is the difference between one step faster and one slower? I just want to tell you that I am willing to accept yours. Everything, and willing to stay by your side forever, that's all."
This was the first time in Zhou Luoyang's life that he saw Du Jing cry.
Du Jing couldn't stop trembling, his eyes were flushed, his lips trembled, and tears flowed down his handsome cheeks, over his scars, and down the corners of his mouth.
"Luoyang." Du Jing choked up, pressed his fist in front of him, and turned his head away.
Le Yao took out a tissue and handed it to Zhou Luoyang, Zhou Luoyang took it, but did not give it to Du Jing.
He took Du Jing's hand, but this time Du Jing didn't avoid it. He turned his palm over and held Zhou Luoyang tightly, and then the two of them tacitly separated their fingers and interlocked with each other.
"Which day?" Zhou Luoyang asked in a low voice in the dark.
"The day you said 'I like you' in the cafeteria." Du Jing replied in the dark.
Wave after wave of fireworks roared into the sky.
To catch all his emotions - Zhou Luoyang finally understood this sentence, just to do this, they must face it bravely, not only the joys and sorrows, but also the vast river of time, getting involved in The life and death of countless people.
And they are just two small gravels washed by the tide.
In the grand and long silence, Du Jing finally calmed down, and the crowd poured in, filling the New Year's Eve fireworks area one after another. Zhou Luoyang said: "It's the countdown."
Du Jing was speechless for a while, Zhou Luoyang felt that he should be quiet for a while, he turned his head and looked at Le Yao. Le Yao watched the whole process, but it seemed like nothing happened. Zhou Luoyang wanted to free up his hand to take out his mobile phone to take a picture, but Du Jing's hand was holding him and he didn't let it go.
Zhou Luoyang had to change his hand to take out his mobile phone and said, "Will you take a picture?"
"Shall I help you shoot?" Le Yao said.
"Together." Zhou Luoyang said.
Le Yao said, "Is he alright?"
Du Jing didn't move or speak, Zhou Luoyang replied, "It's fine, he'll be fine in a while."
Zhou Luoyang sat in the middle and tried his best to raise his master. At the last moment, Du Jing raised his head and glanced at the camera.
The four weeks began to count down in Japanese. At the same time, the music of Teresa Teng's "I Only Care About You" sounded throughout Universal Studios.
"...Yong! San! Reverse! Level 1!"
The countdown was overwhelming, and large-scale fireworks took off at the same time. Zhou Luoyang smiled and pressed the shutter. The fireworks illuminated their faces. The people around them waved light sticks and sang loudly in Japanese "As time flies by, I only care. you".
"Happy New Year! Le Yao!"
"Happy New Year, brother."
"Happy New Year, Du Jing." Zhou Luoyang smiled at Du Jing, "I'll give you everything I have, no conditions, we don't need to trade."
Du Jing let go of Zhou Luoyang's hand, and instead hugged him strongly with one hand. Amid the roar of fireworks in the sky and the cheers of the mountains, he whispered, "Luoyang, I will give you everything I have."