After Yu Ran finished speaking, Chu Mian heard him snicker a few more times, so she stretched out her hand and squeezed his thigh, "Then you draw it and show me."
"It's in the box, you have to imagine."
"Are you pretending to be stupid with me?"
"No." Yu Ran replied with a smile. Seeing the teacher entering the class, he hurriedly sat up straight, as if he wanted to study hard.
Chu Mian thought he was just putting on a show, but most of the evening self-study was over, and Yu Ran was really obedient in listening to lectures and writing questions, and did not play with his mobile phone or talk to other students. Seeing that it was rare for him to be so honest, Chu Mian had no choice but to do as he wished, taking him to a corner of the corridor where no one was there after school, and giving him her complete arms.
Both of their black school uniforms were slightly unzipped by the other. Chu Mian hugged Yu Ran's thin body, feeling like she was hugging a large puppet. His arms fit perfectly with the other's waist. Comparable to clothes.
"Are you ready?" Chu Mian lowered her head and asked, her lips sticking to the other's hair consciously.
"What's the rush, I haven't touched you for almost seventy-two hours." Yu Ran pressed half of his face against Chu Mian's shoulder, "Hey? Why is the number 'seventy-two hours' so familiar... Oh, Yu Ting's advertisement, Seventy-two hours of emergency contraception."
Chu Mian clicked her tongue in dissatisfaction, Yu Ran always thinks out of his mind like this, easily diluting his brewing emotions. So he took the initiative to let go of his arms, deliberately refusing to hug again, and then Yu Ran withdrew his mind and re-invested in this hard-won intimacy.
At this age when he half-understands the "happy love between two people", Chu Mian will keep all the precious love in his heart. Whenever he gets feedback from Yu Ran, it's like melting a big spoonful of honey into lemonade , the sugar sticky spread in the chest.
Moist and sweet.
The night sky in Ronggang did not get dark so quickly in October. They left the campus and walked towards the brightest place. Yu Ran still sent Chu Mian across the road as usual, and then stopped on the side of the street to dawdle and chat, greedily prolonging the time they spent together for a few more seconds.
Even though Chu Mian has recently used drugs to effectively control his condition, he still feels more at ease with Yu Ran on his way home every day.
When Chu Mian returned home, she found that her aunt hadn't prepared dinner yet, and she was concentrating on writing in her room. He cooked two bags of macaroni and brought a plate into the room for Chu Heng to eat.
When I got closer, I found that she was holding a paintbrush in her right hand and two tissues in her left hand to wipe her tears. Chu Mian stared at her for a few more seconds, she smiled lightly and said, "It's okay, I'm a little annoying at work."
As a well-known online painter, Chu Heng’s usual main task is to draw popular comics, which is more in the style of chicken soup for the soul, and also promotes commercial products. “A few days ago I drew a group of advertisements for charging treasures. The quantity is over 10,000. As a result, someone posted a photo of the fire today, saying that the quality of the product is not good, and even scolded me on the hot search.”
Chu Heng pinched the bridge of his nose tightly and controlled his tears, "How can I not draw the advertisements that the company received, I have never sent anything to me, and I have to make amends with my reputation if something goes wrong, and I can't do it this month." If you update anything else, you will be scolded for painting anything.”
She sighed wearily, and she didn't have time to eat dinner, so she still had to pick up a brush and continue painting after wiping her face.
Chu Mian didn't understand the specific process of her work, so she only asked with concern, "Are you leaving this company?"
"Then the name I use now will be left behind, because it was a brand created by the company from the beginning." Chu Heng rubbed his brows lightly, his voice weak, "The company has been training newcomers to imitate the style of us painters. We terminated the contract early and ran away, so we replaced it."
She looked at the stick figure lines on the computer screen, and complained helplessly: "I don't know when I can draw what I like."
Chu Mian patted her shoulder lightly.
"Actually, it's okay now, at least I can get some original game designs in private." Chu Heng comforted himself, "Although whichever game I draw, that one will go out of business... Isn't it the 'fan martial arts' you played last year."
After she finished speaking, she was the first to laugh, her voice was hearty, and her tears were held back smoothly.
Chu Mian saw that her mood was often cloudy and uncertain, so she couldn't help worrying: "Would you like to see a psychiatrist?"
"It's okay, I'm used to it, it's just like this at work." Chu Heng adjusted his breathing, bowed his head to outline the lines, "baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Chu Mian stood silently for a while, then approached Chu Heng, tugged at her sleeve lightly, and said, "I'll tell you something happy."
"Ok?"
Chu Mian lowered her head and said in a low voice, "I'm with a boy."
Just listening to his tone seemed to make a mistake, Chu Heng looked up at him in surprise, and asked tentatively: "'together' means... are you in love?"
"I didn't talk too much, we still have to learn." Chu Mian immediately explained, her eyes dodging slightly.
Chu Heng looked at him, suddenly laughed, and asked, "What kind of boy?"
Chu Mian thought seriously, "An idiot."
He said right away, "Be nice to me."
Chu Heng curiously wanted to ask a few more questions, but Chu Mian hurriedly left the room without saying "Let's go". She was in a daze in the silence, but after a while she realized that Chu Mian was showing off just now.
Just like when I was a child, when I got 100 points in the test and wanted to hear praise, I would throw the test paper on the ground for the adults to see; when the potted plants I planted by myself bloomed, they would be placed on the coffee table to show their presence abruptly; Deliberately walk on the road with obstacles, bumping your head to attract attention.
All he wants to hear is for everyone to say "baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa role", but those things are insignificant in the eyes of adults, and they even think that it is his duty and not worthy of praise. He didn't get many responses, and he gradually stopped sharing his joy with adults.
But now that he has a boyfriend, he can't help emphasizing the important point to Chu Heng: that boy treats him very well.
So good that he's willing to change "baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa from this guy’s name all over the place"—
[October 2013]
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26. The buttons on his pajamas are always misplaced.
27. He drew me an alpaca, fluffy, in a box.
28. His waist is so thin.
After the frost, the temperature in Ronggang dropped, and more and more people in the school put on thin coats.
These days the wind was very strong, it made people's teeth chatter, relying on his status as a sports committee member, Yu Ran didn't need to be called by name, so he escaped the exercise between classes, and sat in the corridor with Cui He to pass the time.
Since last month, Cui He has been selling clothes and color contact lenses with Lu Ziyao on Qzone and WeChat. They have a lot of contacts, and if they are lucky, they can earn seven or eight hundred a week. Lu Ziyao saves money to buy "Dead Fly", and Cui He, who is from a wealthy family, also wants to earn money, Yu Ran can't understand.
"My dad is strictly monitoring my pocket money now, fuck it." Cui He told him, "I've got all the tickets for the concert, and in two months, I have to scrape together money for air tickets, travel expenses and gifts."
Yu Ran asked, "Who are you buying a gift for?"
Cui He showed him the star on the phone wallpaper, "Of course it's for my love brother. When the time comes, I'll go to the airport to squat and give the things to the support club."
Yu Ran knew that idol boy group, and now no matter which stationery store he goes to, he can see their posters, stickers and water glasses, and there are several girls in the class who are fanatical fans. He asked Cui He again: "You just buy it for him alone? Wouldn't it be sad for other people to see it?"
Cui He snorted coldly: "My teammates are all idiots, especially that dwarf. He wrote a diary on the show and called my brother a green tea whore. I think he is the white lotus."
"Wow, you are so scary, I remember you still liked all of them at the beginning of the year." Yu Ran moved away from her in disbelief, "Girls are so scary, so scary."
"What's the matter," Cui He said, "Idols are like boyfriends, if you don't like them, get rid of them quickly."
"Is it the same?" Yu Ran didn't quite agree, he didn't have a sense of admiration for Chu Mian, but admired him at the same level. And besides "like", Yu Ran also has other unspeakable feelings for Chu Mian, such as wanting to protect him, care for him, and want to have the most direct physical contact.
Sometimes when Chu Mian pinches her a little bit, it's like a switch is activated in Yu Ran's blood, and the possessive desire for Chu Mian at that moment cannot be satisfied by hugging.
Yu Ran was distracted when he heard Cui He ask: "Hey, I'm going to buy a batch of new goods this week, can you be a model?"
"Okay." Yu Ran agreed to help without thinking, "What kind of clothes?"
"Couple outfit, I've found another girl, she's a freshman in high school."
When Yu Ran heard this, he immediately changed his words and refused: "No, no, I'm not free."
"Why? What else do you have on Sunday? You don't make up lessons."
Yu Ran knew that Cui He had no purpose and never gave up. He racked his brains and finally came up with an unshakable reason: "I... will die on Sunday."
"..." Cui He froze for a moment, "Then you die first, see you next Sunday."
"No, I'm on the seventh day of the day."
"Hold!"
"I don't want to compete with others." Yu Ran said sincerely, "If I have to wear the same clothes, then I will only wear them with Chu Mian—"
Before he finished speaking, he remembered that Chu Mian had reminded himself several times before, not to disclose to others the news that they started dating. So he quickly added: "I don't mean that I am now a couple with Chu Mian!"
Cui He drooped his eyes speechlessly.
"By the way, Chu Mian's birthday is coming soon, have you decided what gift to give?" Cui He opened the phone calendar, "Don't surprise him like last year, I have never seen a gift worse than that one." Bad idea."
"I haven't thought about it. Let me ask Fang Zhao and the others."
This kind of thing has to be done quietly without telling Chu Mian. Yu Ran sent text messages to several people. Whenever he typed the pinyin of "chumian", the first word that popped up automatically by the Jiugongge input method was "lip balm".
Yu Ran stared at the word and suddenly had a flash of inspiration, "I'll give you some lipstick, it's just getting colder now, so you have to pay attention."
"Lipstick..."
Cui He pondered for a few seconds, smiled meaningfully, and jokingly said, "Are you implying that Chu Mian is here to kiss you?"
Yu Ran categorically denied it: "I didn't!"
"Then have you ever kissed him?"
Yu Ran pretended to be calm: "Dear, kissed..."
"You can brag! You must have never kissed, Chu Mian is sorry, you are a coward."
"Fuck, I'm not cowardly." Yu Ran hastily explained, "I haven't asked Chu Mian for permission yet, so how can I take advantage of him?"
After the bell rang for the end of class exercises, Cui He patted his pants and stood up, sneered and said: "Look at your talent, skipping class is not afraid of demerits, and your loved one is afraid of being beaten? Hurry up while he is asleep, otherwise you Do you think Chu Mian will take the initiative? He's more cowardly, okay. Huh."
She shook her head, secretly laughing at the stupidity of these two fledgling people.
Yu Ran was so excited by her, his heart was pounding, and he was really eager to try. He returned to the classroom, sat unsteadily beside Chu Mian, hesitated to speak several times.
Chu Mian's table was unsteadily touched by him, so he said, "Sit down and don't move around."
"En." Yu Ran leaned back on the chair, looked up and saw Cui He and Ye Xi winking at him. No matter how unresponsive he was, he should have understood their hints.
After thinking about it carefully, Yu Ran was actually quite looking forward to it. After hesitating, he finally spoke to Chu Mian sincerely: "When you are asleep, can I secretly kiss you?"
The two girls in the front seat rolled their full eyes at the same time.
This request caught Chu Mian off guard. His thoughts were a little confused, but he still didn't stop writing the question, pretending he didn't hear it.
Yu Ran leaned closer and asked again: "Can I molest you while you're asleep?"
Feeling his warm breath passing by her ears, Chu Mian quickly tore off a post-it note and wrote, "Then you can't be discovered by me."
This note was quickly stuffed into Yu Ran's hand.
Yu Ran was overjoyed and nodded vigorously.
After class, Chu Mian naturally lay down and pretended to be asleep, with her face facing Yu Ran's direction, her breathing slowed down.
The teacher is speaking on the stage, and the students are listening carefully. While everyone was not paying attention, Yu Ran moved over quietly and touched Chu Mian's cheek with his lips.
The touch is like a superficial touch, very weak.
Seeing that Chu Mian was still awake, Yu Ran stretched out a finger to poke a small depression on his face, and found that his skin was delicate, soft and elastic. Yu Ran regretted that he kissed too lightly just now, but then he thought, Chu Mian didn't limit the number of times he could steal kisses.
So Yu Ran looked around, and raced against the clock to peck Chu Mian's face twice.
Chu Mian didn't wake up.
Yu Ran was elated, he was simply too cautious, so he turned his pen contentedly and listened to the lecture leisurely.
However, after half a minute, most of the students in the class heard Yu Ran gasp heavily, and everyone subconsciously looked at him.
Yu Ran stared at Chu Mian's blushing cheeks and neck, and asked Cui He and the others for help in a panic: "It's over, Chu Mian is allergic to my lips!"
Chu Mian lay on the table with her eyes closed and clenched her fists.
"What should I do? But..." Yu Ran was burning with anxiety, and raised his hand decisively, "Teacher, I want to buy some popsicles!"
The teacher thought he was making trouble on purpose, "I'll go after class if I'm hungry."
The students around him didn't know why, so they asked him, "Why is Chu Mian allergic?"
Yu Ran replied: "I'm allergic to my mouth! I just kissed—"
His words stopped abruptly, and Chu Mian, who suddenly "woke up" and got up, tightly covered his mouth.
The hazy feeling between them was completely destroyed, Chu Mian was dizzy, stared at Yu Ran, gritted his teeth and said, "Shut up."
Yu Ran's mouth was pressed down and he dared not speak.
From Chu Mian's eyes, Yu Ran seems to be able to feel... that he is angry.