Whether it's the person carrying the back or the person being carried, I feel... very awkward.
During the lunch break and after school, Jiang Xiaozhen followed He Yu for a long time, but during those times, there was no communication between them.
However, at this moment, there were only them, walking in the dark campus without saying anything, it seemed a bit strange.
The night wind was chilly.
Jiang Xiaozhen was cold, but He Yu was hot.
He carried her on his back all the way down the stairs and walked out of the teaching building of the first year of high school, his whole back was sweating from the effort.
Jiang Xiaozhen, who was clasped tightly on his back, felt very embarrassed: "Am I heavier than you?"
"I'm taller than you," He Yu said, paused for a while, and asked, "How much do you weigh?"
Jiang Xiaozhen was silent.
The two walked a short distance in silence.
The atmosphere is embarrassing, it would be better to talk about something to relax.
Jiang Xiaozhen licked her lips.
"How did you come to find me?"
"Why do you follow me every day?"
There was no tacit understanding, and they spoke at the same time.
With a dry cough, she said, "I'll hurry you up a bit, you answer first."
"Because you follow me every day, so I didn't see you today, so I came to look for you." He Yu replied lightly, sounding crisp and clear.
"Okay," Jiang Xiaozhen also answered his question: "Last time you said, you can't look at me like this... Then, I don't have any friends at school, so I'll just try and follow you."
He Yu nodded: "Oh."
"..."
"..."
"Last time" in Jiang Xiaozhen's mouth, their conversation was not pleasant.
He Yu was aggressive, and Jiang Xiaozhen burst into tears.
Now they all jumped out of the emotions at that time, and it was awkward to mention it.
For things that are taboo, the two surprisingly have a tacit understanding.
For example, Jiang Xiaozhen didn't mock He Yu: "Seeing that I didn't follow you, shouldn't you breathe a sigh of relief and leave happily? Why did you come to the teaching building to look for me at such a late hour?"
For another example, He Yu didn't mock Jiang Xiaozhen: "What's that phrase 'I can't look at you like this'? Could it be possible that even the slightest hint of kindness can turn you into a follower, pestering me every day? Have you ever asked for my permission? ?"
In short, the topic is dead again.
In the campus like a real ghost story, He Yu moved slowly with Jiang Xiaozhen on his back.
Jiang Xiaozhen kept thinking in her mind, what can she say.
-Did you have dinner
Well, he must have not eaten when he appeared here.
— Tired of walking
He said that she was tired, but she couldn't walk by herself, and asked what she was doing.
ah! Jiang Xiaozhen thought of it.
"One day you came to me and wanted to ask me something?"
He Yu was confused: "Which day?"
She described it to him: "The desk was written by them, and I took it to the Academic Affairs Office. You met me at the door, and you said you had something to ask me, and asked if I could go with you."
"Oh, yes," he remembered, "and then you angrily said 'I have nothing to say to you', carried the table and left."
It was indeed what Jiang Xiaozhen did.
Now that her whole body is on him, she suddenly feels that she really can't open any pot.
He remembered the ugly things she said, would he throw her out in a fit of anger
Looking at the back of He Yu's head, Jiang Xiaozhen thought: Actually, that was just an excuse he came up with immediately to distract her, in order to come up to help her out. He didn't really have anything to ask.
Unexpectedly, when she mentioned it so casually, He Yu actually remembered that he had a question for her.
"I want to ask you, Jiang Xiaozhen..."
His tone was unusual, and she pricked up her ears to listen.
"Why don't you call me 'Living Taro'?"
Obviously, the subconscious would call it "live taro", but it was called correctly on purpose.
"That," Jiang Xiaozhen's answer was perfectly normal: "Don't you dislike me calling it that?"
Everyone thought she had no eyesight, but Jiang Xiaozhen noticed it.
At that time, Jiang Xiaozhen did not recognize He Yu in the furniture store where her mother worked, and had not seen her for many years.
He reminded her of his own name.
"He Yu." He said.
Facing the mist of doubt in her eyes that had not dissipated, He Yu added: "Live."
He Yu probably didn't know it himself, but when he said "live taro", his jaw twitched a little, and his tone was slightly low.
Afterwards, Jiang Xiaozhen called "He Yu" right once.
He Yu curled the corner of his mouth.
"Well," he admitted, "I absolutely hate being called a live potato."
"Why?"
"It reminds me of when I was a child, my country accent would be imitated and made fun of by my preschool classmates. You spoke clearly and clearly, but you insisted on calling me Huoyu, deliberately mocking my substandard speech."
Jiang Xiaozhen's crimes, the vengeful He Yu will never let go of any of them: "This name, I remember that you took the lead."
"Stop barking now!"
She hugged his neck obediently, and whispered in his ear like a mosquito, with a very, very low voice.
He Yu praised her: "Then you are great."
Being praised by him... Jiang Xiaozhen felt a little awkward, but she didn't say anything.
"You went back to the country before, when did you go to the city to study? Now you speak without an accent at all."
"I started going to the city to study in high school."
"Huh?" She didn't expect his answer. "Isn't that less than three years? Your language adaptability is so strong?"
He Yu shook his head: "I practiced Mandarin myself, and I practiced it for a long time."
Jiang Xiaozhen was thoughtful.
He couldn't see her expression, he just felt that she was quiet all of a sudden.
"What are you thinking about?" He Yu asked softly, turning his face to the side.
"You were born there, it's normal to have an accent. It's our fault to make fun of you, but you have to keep practicing because of that..."
How should I put it, Jiang Xiaozhen thought of herself.
She clenched her fists and became emotional: "Why compromise for other people's aesthetics? It's unfair to you, isn't it?"
"It's not fair. But if I mind, I'll change it."
He Yu's mental journey is not as tortuous as Jiang Xiaozhen's.
He is simple and extremely transparent.
Society has established standards, stereotypes, it has its preferences. As independent individuals, we are in society, and we also have our own special preferences, even if a large part of it will be affected by social factors.
There is no shame in having an accent, but neither is there a desire to speak standard Mandarin.
There is no shame in being ugly, but there is no shame in admitting that you want to be beautiful and making changes to become beautiful.
We have a choice. Choosing to stick to our own aesthetics is a choice; choosing to conform to the eyes of the society, gain public approval, and realize ourselves is also a choice.
Any choice should not be imposed or despised.
Listen to your inner voice: If you mind, then go get rid of it.
He Yu led Jiang Xiaozhen forward quickly.
At last they saw the light from the guard's room.
The warm yellow incandescent lamp is like a dazzling little sun in the quiet night.
The section leading to the guard's room is downhill.
He Yu's steps were much lighter.
He walked faster and lied leisurely.
"Jiang Xiaozhen, you're actually not very heavy."
It is better not to speak.
Jiang Xiaozhen knew that he was going to lose it.
He Yu's legs were trembling constantly, even though he tried his best to pretend that it was the shock caused by the downhill, but Jiang Xiaozhen knew it was not, she was so close to him.
She could hear his heavy panting, back, neck, arms, cheeks, everywhere she looked, was dripping with sweat.
Jiang Xiaozhen held her breath and listened carefully.
She heard his heartbeat beating like a drum.
He must have died again.
It was so bright at the moment, Jiang Xiaozhen could see her thigh lifted by his arm even when she lowered her head.
One of her thighs is thicker than two He Yu's arms!
"Why is there no one in the guard room? Have you gone to eat?"
Jiang Xiaozhen was still distracted, but the sharp-eyed He Yu saw the situation ahead first.
"Then I'll carry you for a while, and we'll call for a car on the main road."
"Don't! Don't!" She patted him on the shoulder and motioned him to put himself down: "Take a break, let's wait. If the doorman comes back, ask him to help call a car. If no one comes back, I will Waiting for you here, you call a car."
What Jiang Xiaozhen said made sense, He Yu put her on the chair in front of the guard room.
Under the shroud of light, he had a sense of unreality of returning to the world after a catastrophe.
Staring at the extraordinarily bright street lamp, He Yu wiped his sweat and blinked his eyes to relieve the dizziness from excessive exercise.
"Thank you."
The low voice of thanks came suddenly like a hallucination.
He Yu turned to look at her, suspecting that he heard it wrong: "Did you speak just now?"
Jiang Xiaozhen stared at the floor and nodded vigorously twice.
"puff."
He Yu smiled unkindly, and it was an outrageous grin.
"For the first time in my life, I heard you say this to me."
Annoyed by his smile, she rubbed her arms unnaturally, and said in a slightly annoyed tone, "I knew it earlier and I wouldn't say it."
"Keep your head up, okay?"
He knelt down and looked left and right at Jiang Xiaozhen's face: "I want to see your expression when you thank me."
She covered her face with her hands and held it tightly, not letting him see.
"Will Jiang Xiaozhen cover her face? Will Jiang Xiaozhen be shy? It's too scary. Are you Jiang Xiaozhen?"
He Yu really deserves a beating.
Unbearable, Jiang Xiaozhen yelled at that approaching face.
"Snapped."
The applause was quite clear, and it hit right away.
…
The next day, He Yu came to school with the fingerprints still on his face.
His face was so pretty that even the slightest blemishes would stand out. One morning passed, and half of the classmates came to him and asked him: What's wrong with you? all right
"It's okay." He Yu opened his eyes and said nonsense, "I accidentally fell down."
Detective Zhang Shiyu came out of the arena again, and asked him with piercing eyes.
"Fall? My friend, which crush did you fall into last night?"
"What nonsense?" He Yu ignored him.
"No," he held his chin, and combined with the actual situation to analyze: "It was so late when I got home yesterday, where else would you have the energy to go to do bad things?"
He Yu is called an injustice.
"What I did yesterday was a good thing, a very good good thing."
"ah!"
Zhang Shiyu snapped his fingers.
"You went home yesterday and went to look for Sadako in the first grade teaching building."
He looked disbelieving.
"It's so dark, she can't really be here, can she?"
"Yes." Speaking of this, He Yu was very happy: "Going back is the right choice."
"Then you were beaten by her?" The truth gradually surfaced.
He Yu did not deny it.
Zhang Shiyu imagined that scene, and looked into He Yu's eyes, with the word "admiration" written on it.
"My friend, it seems that last night was indeed dark, so dark that you can't tell the difference between humans and ghosts."
He Yu persuaded him: "Put away your dirty thoughts before I beat you up."
"The more I think about it, the more something is wrong. He Yu, after you met her, everything behaved differently from the usual you. I objectively expressed that she is a disgusting ugly girl. You changed your face and asked me to pay attention to what I said; You go to help without saying a word; the whole school knows about her harsh words to you, she has an accident, you rush to care for her; she follows you, you acquiesce in her behavior, she doesn't follow, You searched for her all over the world..."
Holding his good brother's arm, Zhang Shiyu said sadly.
"It's over, your life is over. According to my analysis, you will get married 100%, and you will be dependent on that ugly girl for the rest of your life."
"Me and...Jiang Xiaozhen, married?"
This is the most absurd thing He Yu has heard in his life, so absurd that he doesn't know where to refute it.
However, he also didn't know how to justify what Zhang Shiyu said before.
He clearly treated Jiang Xiaozhen badly! The kind that is worse than everyone else!
"Let's put it this way."
Rubbing the swollen and painful temples, He Yu said word by word.
"The earth is destroyed, dinosaurs are resurrected, time goes back, the sun never sets, the moon shatters into three petals, and there is only one Jiang Xiaozhen and me left in the world... Even if all this happens, I will not marry her."