Everyone in the girls' dormitory became close, and the direct expression was the chirping chatter after the lights were turned off.
Girls talk about life, ideals, and feelings, and you talk to each other. However, Jiang Xiaozhen's voice was not among them.
She goes out early and comes back late every day. The time in the dormitory is basically only used for bathing and sleeping.
Not participating in the girls' conversation was not because Jiang Xiaozhen was excluded.
Instead, everyone was more than happy to have her involved. They had a lot of problems with this fat girl who was a loner and often dressed in weird ways.
—Why is she always so busy? Why do you often come back in exotic clothes at night
—Who is that super handsome guy who often comes to look for her downstairs in the dormitory? What is it with her
——Jiang Xiaozhen's birth date on her student ID card is two years older than them. Did she repeat a grade for two years? Or repeat it
After several months of school, some questions have been answered, some have not.
Jiang Xiaozhen can count with two hands what she says to the whole dormitory every day.
The roommates worked together and took the initiative to talk to Jiang Xiaozhen. Show her their friendliness, warmth, and unabashed curiosity.
The reason why Jiang Xiaozhen failed to make friends was her own.
The previous school experience had caused her a certain psychological shadow. Seeing those beautiful and capable little girls hugging each other well, she didn't dare to play with them.
Even though Jiang Xiaozhen was obviously difficult to get along with, her roommates did not remove her from the "Lights Out Night Chat". When they talk about themselves, they won't shy away from Jiang Xiaozhen's presence.
Maybe she listened and listened, and one day she wanted to answer the conversation, and that would be the best thing.
"Let's talk," the girl in the next bed turned off her phone screen and started the topic: "Do you have any dreams?"
"Yes, I want to be a designer, so I chose industrial design."
"Me too, the designer sounds so tall and independent, with the feeling of a beauty in the workplace."
"A beauty in the workplace? That must be a lot of pressure. My life dream is to travel around the world. When I earn enough money for air tickets at work, I will quit my job and set off to see all the beautiful scenery in the world."
Jiang Xiaozhen closed her eyes tightly, kept her breathing even, and urged herself to fall asleep as soon as possible.
She hasn't handed in her homework yet. She has to get up early tomorrow and has tutoring in the afternoon. By the way, it's best to go to the bank after school and send some money to her parents...
"Jiang Xiaozhen, do you have a dream?" Only she didn't say it, and the girls called her name.
Not long after the lights were turned off, she would not fall asleep so quickly, and Jiang Xiaozhen knew it herself.
In the darkness, she opened her eyes.
Dreaming... Jiang Xiaozhen is going to say a few words casually, and get together.
What should I say
Why choose industrial design? Because He Yu is in this school, industrial design is one of the limited majors that non-art students can choose. Ideal life? I hope that the debt owed by my father can be repaid as soon as possible. Is this ideal
Speaking of which, Jiang Xiaozhen didn't think about what she wanted to do, just about herself.
There is no such thing as a sparkling wish that can be obtained, and it is not clear what to do in the future.
Make one up.
"I..." she opened her mouth, her voice drowning in the much higher voices of the other girls.
When Jiang Xiaozhen fell asleep, or didn't want to talk, they tacitly bypassed her and changed the topic.
"Li Cui, are you going to accept the black hat's confession?"
"Ah, I want to know too! The black hat brings you breakfast every day. What do you mean by neither agreeing nor refusing?"
Li Cui chuckled, but still didn't tell them her true feelings.
"I think it makes sense for Li Cui to do this. Why rush to agree or refuse, she is being chased, and she must have the attitude of being chased. That black hat can't wait, and Li Cui doesn't lack a suitor for him. .”
"Indeed," the girl who had previously fought against injustice was immediately persuaded: "Li Cui is beautiful and has a good figure, and there are many people chasing her. It would be a pity if someone better came after agreeing to the black hat."
"You can't say that. It's not a pity. I want to be more cautious."
Li Cui maintained sufficient reason, and said his words calmly: "For the time being, I can't find anything in him that is particularly good and makes me like the shining points, but there is no such thing as bad. I don't have any." I can’t accept it. So I’ll wait and see.”
On the bed in the corner, Jiang Xiaozhen, with her eyes closed, was slowly falling asleep.
Her body was so exhausted that it badly needed rest.
So, instead of listening to their conversation, she focused on her own world.
It's just that occasionally there are some words, they get into her head, into her chaotic consciousness.
Those who are chased are beautiful and have a good figure.
There is nothing particularly outstanding about chasing people.
Let's take a look again.
There must always be something different, which constitutes the reason for being loved, so that two people can fall in love.
It's all like this.
I love you because you are beautiful.
I love you because you are smart.
I love you because you and I are the best match.
I love you because you are the best to me and compare to others.
I love you and you love me. We find the reason from each other and get the balance, so we can love with reason. We need that reason, to fill ourselves, to be a solid existence in the relationship; to explain why we will be the only ones for each other in such a big world.
Jiang Xiaozhen has a crush.
He is as beautiful on the outside as he is on the inside.
There are countless long strings of reasons to be loved all over the body.
Correspondingly, he deserves the best person in the world.
Jiang Xiaozhen will not chase him. He is so good, she will feel pity for anyone who matches him, not to mention, she knows it well, the worst self.
Even if she couldn't find anything particularly outstanding in her body, she was so good that she couldn't accept it, she would choose to muster up her courage.
It just so happens that the ugly soul resides in the ugly body.
"Let's wait and see." Jiang Xiaozhen also thought so.
Dragging the heavy past, looking to a blurry future.
She is determined to move forward, towards the direction of the person she likes, but she can't help but feel that she is despicable for taking chances.